The stars twinkled, and the night was as dark as abyss.
The memories were numerous and vague, but the girl's smile gradually faded, faded, and finally disappeared.
On that day, from autumn to winter, with the fluttering snowflakes, the famine in Nanming Village, which had no harvest, became more and more severe.
The only people in the village who have surplus food are the Zhu family at the entrance of the village, but the Zhu family are domineering and not philanthropists.
Xia Ge still remembered that at that time the two of them were secretly squatting in the firewood shed behind a family's house, their eyes darkened from hunger, but they couldn't find even a single leaf that could be eaten.
It was the first time she felt so close to death, so close.
Doudou can starve more than she, a beggar who has become a monk, and when she is too hungry to move, Doudou can still move.
"Doudou... Am I going to die?" Xia Ge's voice was hoarse, and Doudou held her hand. In the cold winter and twelfth lunar month, the girl's palm was cold, but gentle.
she thinks.
People are always going to die. Lord Sima said that people are inherently dead, or they are heavier than Mount Tai, or lighter than a feather. She is just a lonely little beggar in this world, except for begging, it seems that there is nothing else to live. worth it.
Xia Ge's eyes darkened. He knew that he was about to die, but he didn't feel hopeless, just a little regretful.
There is no chance to come up to open a store, restructure, make some currency circulation, and make a big event like other awesome passers-by, and come up as a six-year-old beggar who is dying of starvation and knows nothing. It's really, um, kind of regrettable.
But even if there is a chance, whether she has the ability or not is another matter.
After all, she weighed how much she weighed. Being able to bring Doudou to dig out the water chestnuts from the swamp is already a blessing from the God of Wealth, and there is really no more thinking.
So when I think about it, I really have no regrets.
Maybe it's because he doesn't have a sense of belonging here, Xia Ge doesn't feel lonely in a foreign land, but he sees it quite openly.
Maybe he died... and went back.
Maybe she didn't pass through, and all this is just an absurd dream she had in reality. She died here and will live there again.
Sounds... good.
It's just a pity for the girl Doudou.
Shuangshuang... This body must be Doudou's very important friend.
I'm sorry... Shuangshuang, borrowed her body, and couldn't take good care of her friends. She was so useless. In the end, she counted the good things she did for this child, and the only thing she could recall was that water chestnut.
After she said "Am I going to die?", Doudou didn't say anything, just held her hand tightly. It was cold and frosty, and Doudou's hand was also cold. She looked at her and pursed her lips. not talking.
"Doudou." Xia Ge heard her hoarse voice, and she even laughed, "If I die accidentally, and you will become prosperous in the future, remember to burn me two water chestnuts."
Doudou's lips pursed even tighter, and she squeezed her hand hard, as if thinking that this would give her more warmth.
However, it is cold.
No matter how tight it is, it is cold.
Xia Ge thought about the vicissitudes of life, suffering from hunger and cold, and using the words that he had only read in the book on himself, what a fucking shit. It is no wonder that the old Shaolingye squatted in front of the small thatched hut and sighed the ancient famous saying that there are thousands of rooms in Ande Guangxia, and the world's cold people are all happy.
It's a pity that she doesn't have this level, and now I can only sigh, ah, I seem to be starving to death.
When he was about to faint from hunger, Xia Ge finally heard the low voice of the girl who had been silent for a long time, determined and desperate.
"You won't die."
She slowly loosened her grip and said in a low voice, "Shuangshuang, you have to be obedient and wait for me to come back."
- What do you want to do
Xia Ge subconsciously grabbed the corner of her clothes, but her body was so weak that she was quickly pulled off by Doudou.
-Where are you going
- Don't go... come back!
When it was dark, Xia Ge still fainted. The last scene she saw was the girl named Doudou, wearing a thin linen, with her bare feet red, pushing the back of Chaimen open.
- It's windy and cold.
I don't know about the next second.
But maybe she was too hungry, maybe she didn't deserve to die, she was dizzy for a while, Xia Ge woke up again because of the violent stomach twitch caused by hunger, she slowed down for a while, the first thing was to go to Doudou .
- Doudou, where will Doudou go
- Could it be... Zhu Family!
Xia Ge was flustered in her heart. She dragged her weak body and staggered out of the small firewood house, passed through the wind and frost, and rushed towards the richest family in Nanming Village without any hesitation.
- Doudou, don't be stupid!
"Kill you little bitch!"
"Kill her!"
"To come to our Zhu family to steal food! I want to die!
The sound of the whip falling on the flesh came from the closed vermilion door, Xia Ge heard the familiar humming, and for a moment, her entire brain was blank, she slammed the door desperately, her voice hoarse, " Open the door! Open the door!"
The falling snow on the door was icy cold, but Xia Ge felt that nothing was colder than the current heart.
Her voice was hoarse and weak, and no one paid her any attention. Xia Ge clenched the copper button on the red door, feeling the bleak cold wind, listening to the howling of wild dogs in the distance, and suddenly felt a sense of dazedness.
Who is she... why is she here
Who was the one who was whipped for her inside...
"Snapped-"
"Snapped… "
"… "
One whip, two whips, many, many whips…
"Tsk tsk, it's not good to be killed, it's really bad luck, throw it out!"
The door opened, Xia Ge accidentally fell in, but was kicked out again, "Where's the beggar! What's it called, just come and steal it, just squatting at the door to the hell! It's annoying to watch! !"
Being kicked into the stomach, the stomach that was empty was even more painful, but Xia Ge couldn't take it anymore after returning to his senses.
In her eyes, there was only the little girl who was thrown out as the door opened, covered in blood on the thick snow.
Bai Xue was icy cold, Xia Ge clutched his stomach and staggered to Doudou's side, "Doudou, Doudou... Doudou—"
The girl covered in blood was confused and reacted for a while. Suddenly, she jolted and pushed Xia Ge away, then got up and walked in the direction of the small broken woodshed, but she fell to the ground again after walking a few steps. The bleeding wound was torn and the blood flowed nonstop. Xia Ge ran to her and just wanted to help her up, but she heard her hiss, "Who are you, go away, don't touch me, I'm going back..."
It seems that she didn't see her, Doudou's always gentle and sweet voice became hoarse, as if her vocal cords were hurt, and she also brought a fierceness that Xia Ge had never seen before, like a little beast in despair, desperately defending With his last bit of light.
Xia Ge was afraid of touching her wound, and also afraid that she would struggle even more, enduring stomach pain, her voice was hoarse and deformed, "—You can't move anymore, don't move! I'm going, I'm going—"
Xia Ge didn't dare to touch her, so she could only step back. She took a few steps back. Maybe she felt the other party's withdrawal. Doudou pursed her lips and the blood slowly slid down from her forehead, but she didn't care, she slowly got up. , with red feet stepping on the snow, staggering forward, "I... going back... "
The snow was slippery, and Doudou stumbled to the ground after walking a few steps. Xia Ge's heart slammed and wanted to help, but Doudou slapped her hand away, "Don't, don't touch me... "
Her voice was hoarse, with a faint cry, "Shuangshuang is going to die... Shuangshuang can't die."
"Shuangshuang..."
She walked forward on her knees, one step at a time.
She is saying her name.
Painful and tender.
Like a bucket of cold water, poured from beginning to end, Xia Ge froze in place.
—Xia Ge actually always felt that death was no big deal. She walked past the gate of hell, and when she woke up from the fatal car accident, she also wanted to live a good life with her younger brother. But she came here inexplicably and turned into a little beggar, hungry and cold, with no hope of returning home and no relatives.
She thought, it is better to die than to live, if you can live, you can live, if you can't live, you can die. Anyway, she has no relatives here, she can't see any hope of returning home, and she can't find where to go - in No one here really cares if a little beggar lives or dies, and no one cares if she lives or dies - and if she dies, she might be lucky enough to go home.
She thought, instead of living hopelessly, it is better to die gracefully.
But now, Xia Ge looked at this person kneeling on the icy snow, covered in blood, and called out her name here, saying, "I can't die."
- Shuangshuang can't die.
"Why?" Xia Ge looked at the back that was crawling forward, and finally couldn't help it. She dragged her weak body, and finally knelt in front of Doudou, held her shoulders, and burst into tears— An inexplicable anger surged into his heart, and Xia Ge roared hoarsely, "She's not worth it!"
She's so bad, she lives casually when she's Xia Ge, and she's rubbish when she's Shuang Shuang - how is such a person worth your hard work? !
"It's worth..." Doudou looked like an irritated little beast. She widened her dark eyes angrily, slapped her fiercely, and said, "Who are you?! Why do you ask? I, I'm telling you, as long as it's a double - it's worth it!"
- If it's both, it's worth it.
This slap doesn't hurt because the other party has no strength.
For Xia Ge, it was like waking up from a dream. Suddenly she remembered something very important.
She is now, not Xia Ge, she is Shuangshuang.
She can decide the life and death of "Xia Ge" at will, but she has no right to end the life of "Shuang Shuang".
Either hopeless or promising. When she used her body, she was obliged to live on her shoulders.
She has no right to end anyone's life, since she used Shuangshuang's body, she is not Xia Ge.
She is not Xia Ge, not trash, not ants, but Doudou's only friend, Shuangshuang.
- So, she wants to live.
"I'm Shuangshuang... Doudou, I'm Shuangshuang."
Doudou reacted for a while before she realized that her dark eyes were clearly reflecting her face, but there was only a blankness inside, "Shuangshuang? Shuangshuang is here? Are you Shuangshuang? Why is it dark... Why can't I see... I Did you just… hit you?"
"Does it hurt? Does it hurt? I'm sorry Shuangshuang, I didn't mean to!"
Doudou cried, "I didn't do it on purpose, I couldn't see it, I thought it was a ghost, I thought it was a ghost coming to catch me, I heard a lot of strange sounds, I'm sorry, I'm sorry... woo woo... "
"It's okay, it's okay, it doesn't hurt, it doesn't hurt at all, Doudou's hand is very soft..."
As Xia Ge spoke, her hands trembled, and she slowly touched the back of Doudou's head, which was indeed warm.
Withdrew his hand, the palm of his hand was red and dazzling.
It was the whip that hit the back of the head... Doudou, it seems... blind.
Doudou wiped away her tears, stretched out her hand, wanted to touch her face, wanted to make sure she was a pair, blood smeared Xia Ge's face, the smell of rust was pungent, her dark eyes widened, but Can't see anything, "Shuangshuang, are you crying?"
Xia Ge held her wrist, trying hard not to let the tears flow on her hand, her voice hoarse, "I didn't cry, I didn't cry, I'm very good, that's the snow on my face."
Doudou felt the outline of Xia Ge with her hands little by little, she was sad, but her voice was soft, "Shuangshuang lied... It's cold when snowflakes melt, but your tears are hot."
"Maybe it's because I'm... born to shine... by the way, get hot?"
Xia Ge wanted to smile, but the corners of his mouth were pulled for a long time, but he couldn't pull out the curvature. His abdomen was suffering from severe hunger caused by hunger. In front of him were the wide black pupils of the blind girl, and warm tears rolled down her face.
No, how can this be.
You can't stop smiling in front of her because Doudou can't see it.
"Shuangshuang doesn't cry, both of you look good when you smile." After Doudou finished speaking, she smiled stupidly, "Shuangshuang eat, and you don't cry when you eat."
Xia Ge saw that she carefully took out half a bun from her arms, and her smiling face was as bright as a cloud in the sky, "Shuangshuang, I'm so smart, I hid it, they didn't find it, Shuangshuang, it's time to eat."
Xia Ge froze in place, motionless, Doudou wondered why she didn't speak, stretched out her hand and groped for a long time, slowly descending from Xia Ge's face, and finally touched Xia Ge's icy hand, holding the half of the icy cold The bun was placed in her palm.
Because of the wounds all over his body, the buns were also stained with blood.
Holding the blood-stained bun, Xia Ge froze in place for a long time.
For the first time, she felt that when people are starving to death, there are still things they don't want to eat.
The wild dogs howled fiercely, and the wind and frost were extremely cold.
"Shuangshuang, eat quickly. After you're full, you have to do me a favor."
Xia Ge slowly clenched the girl's hand, her voice hoarse, "Doudou, what do you want me to do?"
"Shuangshuang, let's go to a village in the east. There is a girl I like there. She likes to stay at the entrance of the village in the middle of the night and watch the stars. At that time, all her eyes were stars, but they were beautiful. Go tell her to me. ... Let's just say, Doudou has secretly liked her for a long time, a long time."
Doudou's voice was gentle, and she opened her eyes blankly, "Her eyes are black, very dark, very dark, but they look good. Doudou likes her... Shuangshuang, eat Doudou's buns, you help Do Doudou go see her, okay?"
Is there a village in the east? Xia Ge was in a trance, she thought that there was only a small village of Nanming in a radius of hundreds of miles.
"...Okay." Xia Ge heard his difficult voice, "I'm carrying you, let's go together."
"But I just want to go both." Doudou's voice was soft, "I'm too ugly now, I'll scare her, and I can't see her, I'll be sad if I go."
"… "
"Please, Shuangshuang."
In the end, Xia Ge settled Doudou in the firewood room, holding the half bun, and was about to leave the small firewood room.
When opening the door, Xia Ge looked back and looked at the girl leaning against the wall. Although her eyes were blind, they were still open, pitch-dark and bright, as if she could see her back.
Xia Ge felt a warm liquid sliding down his face, but when he touched it, there was blood and tears on his hand.
Xia Ge heard his choked voice, "Doudou, is that girl beautiful?"
Doudou paused, then smiled, "It's beautiful."
Xia Ge made himself laugh, "If you have a good-looking girl, don't want me, you are such a little liar."
Doudou pursed her lips and smiled, "That's different, you are my belief."
She said, "Shuangshuang has to live well all the time to give me strength and keep me safe."
Xia Ge clutched the cold bun in his hand, "... um."
"Swear to both." Doudou smiled, "Swear to live well, so that I can feel at ease."
Tears slid down her chin and landed on the thin placket. Xia Ge heard her hoarse voice, "Well, I swear, no matter what, Shuang Shuang will live."
"That's wrong, just live a good life." Doudou corrected softly.
Xia Ge finally couldn't bear it anymore, and his voice brought out a cry, "Well, live well!"
"Let's go, it's late, and I won't be able to see the girl I like." Doudou's lips curled into a gentle smile, as if March peach blossoms were blooming in her eyes, she said, "I'll be sad then. "
After Xia Ge left, she thought, Doudou is so beautiful.
I hadn't discovered it before, but now she feels that she may be the most beautiful girl she has ever seen.
The wild dog howled loudly, Xia Ge wore the stars and the moon, and walked all night, listening to the howling of the wild dog from shrill to inaudible, Xia Ge went to the village to the east and went from house to house to find the most beautiful girl. .
Of course she didn't find the prettiest girl.
Because she thinks that no girl is more beautiful than Doudou.
But that doesn't work.
So, she stopped every girl she met in the eastern village, and told her very seriously that there was a girl named Doudou who might like her—she looked good, and after washing her face in the stream, she deliberately let her When she laughed, she was so sweet, and the girl in the village was simple and honest. Every time she stopped a person, after saying this, she would have the cheek to eat it.
The village to the east was also suffering from famine, so few people were really willing to give her food, but Xia Ge still came to beg some with a smile, and she was going back in a hurry with the food in her arms.
Xia Ge didn't believe that there would be a beautiful girl who would go out to watch the stars in the middle of the night regardless of the curfew. The original purpose of coming to this village was just to ask for more food, and then hurry back to change the medicine with food and treat Doudou's injury.
"Yeah, that little girl with a face." A little beggar in sackcloth saw her in the wrong direction and grabbed her, "Where are you going?"
"I want to go back to Nanming Village." Xia Ge was anxious, the whole night had passed, and the food had been found, and she would use the food to ask the doctor in Nanming Village to help Doudou's injury—
"What are you doing in Nanming Village?" The little beggar widened his eyes. "This morning, the porter who went there came back and said that Nanming Village was hit by a wave of evil spirits last night—ah, did you come from Nanming Village?"
"Then you're really lucky." The little beggar sympathized with him, "Is there someone important to you in that village?"
The stars twinkled, and the food in Xia Ge, who was standing at the entrance of the village, fell to the ground.
"… What did you say?"
Devil tide.
Legend has it that evil spirits will come in the middle of the night and eat everyone silently, leaving no bones.
-Only a dying person who can see ghosts can foresee the arrival of the tide of evil ghosts.
— "I didn't mean to, I couldn't see it, I thought it was a ghost, I thought it was a ghost, I thought it was coming to catch me, I heard a lot of strange noises, I'm sorry, I'm sorry... woo woo..."
When Xia Ge rushed back to Nanming Village, the morning light was faint, and there was no one alive in Nanming Village.
Nanming Village has become a dead village occupied by evil spirits.
Beans are gone.
All are gone.
Going to the Zhu family at the entrance of the village, there is only a pool of blood.
The air was filled with a thick ghostly aura that even the sun couldn't dissolve, and the blood in the sky.
Those who are eaten by evil spirits will not even leave their corpses behind.
Xia Ge knelt in the firewood room, looking at the pool of blood, lost for a long time.
It turns out... in this world, there really are evil spirits that eat people.
So... that's long overdue.
Think of the howls of wild dogs before leaving.
Thinking that Doudou has never even been out of Nanming Village, where did he come from, the village in the east, the girl he likes
It hurts, it hurts.
Xia Ge shook her hands, took out the half of the blood-stained bun she had never eaten from her arms, staggered to the crooked-neck tree where they had seen the stars together, buried the bun, Girl, set up a wordless monument.
Only then did she realize that she had never known Doudou's name.
I didn't ask Doudou what girl he liked before, who was in the family, and why he became a beggar.
She doesn't know anything, she doesn't understand anything, and when she came to this world, she has been living by it all the time.
Her reason was simple, she felt like she was dreaming.
But why
She is so indifferent, who treats everything as Nanke's dream, how can she let the girl named Doudou say such a thing
In front of the monument, she looked at the blood-stained bun and knelt for a long time.
That was the saddest time when Xia Ge came to this world and cried.
For the first time, she felt in a trance that this was actually a real world.
In this world, there is a girl named Doudou. In order to keep her alive, she steals steamed buns to feed her, lies and deceives her to leave, and then sits alone in the corner, facing the surging evil spirits and the pain of her wounds. .
Except for her, no one in this world knows that on this lonely and confused road, there was once a child named Shuangshuang, who is Doudou's belief.
Xia Ge no longer remembered how she left Nanming Village, she only knew that she had put on Xia Wuyin's name in embarrassment - like this, she could ignore that she was the girl Doudou admired and ignored her. It's the summer song that killed Doudou.
Just double.
And Shuangshuang, with Doudou's death, has long slept in his heart.
But she, Xia Ge, still has to live instead of Shuangshuang.
She swore.
It's just that every night from now on, Xia Ge's dreams are full of evil spirits eating people. She dreamed that Doudou was covered in blood and looked at her. She was about to die, but her eyes were still gentle.
But that gentle girl was eaten by the evil spirit bit by bit, and there was no bones left.
And she watched helplessly in the dream, helpless.
Doudou's soft voice still rang in his ears.
- Shuangshuang, you have to live well.
At this point, Xia Ge began to hate his own weakness, and began to fear the responsibilities that the strong had to shoulder.
She was powerless to become someone else's belief.
No matter how powerful it is, it is the same.
She can't save anyone.
There was nothing she could do.
- That's not the same, you are my belief.
In order to save her, Doudou was covered in blood, and Xia Ge didn't want to see it in others again in his life.
From now on, she doesn't want to be so powerful that she can be the belief of others, and she doesn't want to be so weak that others die because of her.
Bullshit beliefs.
She is the incompetent Xia Wuyin.
That's all.