When I went to university, it was a new environment and I got to know different classmates again.
The fact that Xie Zhe likes Xiao Yuxin is actually not too secret, friends who play very close to him know it, such as Jiang Yang, Qin Xu, Huang Shao.
When Huang Shao found out that his good brothers around him were bent, his reaction was very funny. He stared around and looked around again. I doubt whether I am in such a circle, whether I am still straight! He asked, "Which one of you likes me?"
They all have black lines: "..."
Several people shook their heads tacitly.
Huang Shao expressed disbelief, "Since you like boys, why doesn't anyone like me?! Am I not good enough?!"
The question was sonorous and forceful, full of grievances and accusations, so they waved their hands quickly and said very distractedly: "No, no, no, you are too good, we think we are not worthy of you."
Only then did Huang Shao raise his eyebrows with reluctant satisfaction.
A rather nervous coming out in front of friends ended in a relaxed chat. Huang Shao felt that it didn't matter that his friends were gay. What he cared more about was going out to play in the future and showing affection in front of him one by one. His single dog was too miserable.
As for Xie Zhe's matter, Huang Shao also laughed at him, saying that he looked at the playboy, who was romantic and unrestrained, and lived among thousands of flowers. The daylilies are getting cold!
Xie Zhe thought a lot about the matter of secretly falling in love with Xiao Yuxin, and also worried for a long time. In the beginning, I just thought he was very interesting, I liked to tease him and watch his reaction, but for some reason, this kind of feeling gradually changed, and I wanted more and more intimacy, hoping that Jin Woo's new eyes Fall on yourself.
But after his feelings for Xiao Yuxin deepened, he became cautious and timid. At first, he was easy to flirt with flirting without any pressure, but later he would be very concerned about his image in Xiao Yuxin's heart, whether he would be regarded as If you are frivolous, will you be annoyed
Of course, it’s not that he didn’t think about expressing his heart. At the high school shouting event, when he heard someone call out the name of the person he liked, he also called out on impulse. The moment he finished calling out, he was both panicked and happy, and hurried to see Xiao Yuxin response, but he looked over with a dazed look. Then, the other students thought that Xie Zhe was just joking, and imitated him, telling his bad friends around him that he liked them, and hugging and laughing together.
The fear of being rejected by confessing his confession quickly disappeared, and slowly turned into bitterness in his heart. He didn't dare to confess his love to Xiao Yuxin because he was afraid of being rejected, and also because Xiao Yuxin looked too innocent, he valued study so much, and tried hard to get into the ideal university, Xie Zhe didn't want to delay him, so he thought about waiting until after high school graduation.
Unexpectedly, if they procrastinate, all kinds of accidents will happen, until half of their freshman year has passed.
Xie Zhe performed well in the college entrance examination, but compared with Xiao Yuxin's score, there is still a certain gap. They did not get into the same university, but the universities they chose are all in the capital city of the province, not far away, so they can visit when they have time.
Xie Zhe often asked him out when he was not in class, courting him openly and secretly, testing his acceptance of dating with the same sex, and then telling the truth in one fell swoop, so as not to feel so uncomfortable like a cat scratching his heart.
Come more often, Xie Zhe's outstanding appearance slowly spread some fame in Xiao Yuxin's university, knowing that he is a computer department student in B University. When he passed by, many girls would see the whispered discussion, and some road photos were uploaded on the school post bar. But basically, they are all standing with Xiao Yuxin.
Xiao Yuxin is also well-known in the school. He is the kind of student who loves to study, who often hangs out in the library, actively researches certificates, participates in competitions, sits in the first row of class and listens carefully, and will actively communicate with the teacher. Therefore, when Xie Zhe came to his school to play with him, most of them just accompanied him to the library and went to class together. Thinking about it, it was very beautiful and pure, swimming in the ocean of knowledge... Shit! Xie Zhe is about to cry, okay? ! The biggest obstacle in pursuing someone you like is learning. Who will believe it? !
Moreover, Xie Zhe found that he was impatient at first, but after being with Xiao Yuxin for a long time, he was actually influenced to feel that he had time to go out and play, why not study in the library and enrich himself
Over time, they actually got used to this way of getting along. Xie Zhe was soaked in the sacred brilliance of knowledge, and almost forgot his original purpose of coming here! And Xiao Yuxin, who plunged headfirst into the book to absorb knowledge happily, is very slow to feelings and so on. The other party didn't explain clearly, but he only thinks that Xie Zhe is a very good friend.
If Xie Zhe knew that he had been cautious for so long, and he thought so in his heart, Xie Zhe would definitely want to scold him - fuck your friend!
Later, Xiao Yuxin saw a book that Xie Zhe liked in a bookstore, happily bought it, and immediately went to Xie Zhe School to give it to him. But this excitement did not last long. Because when he found Xie Zhe, he happened to find that he was discussing himself with his classmates.
The classmate said: "You know the top student in University A, right? The foreign language girls in our school have heard of him, and they asked me if I have his contact information? Our polytechnic school has too many monks, and there are boys from other schools robbing him." Resources, alas."
Xie Zhe's voice was neither salty nor weak, with no emotion, "Oh, so what?"
The classmate said: "Our club wants to engage in a fellowship between the two schools. Would you like to participate together? By the way, call your friend who is a top student. I heard that he doesn't participate in these activities."
Xie Zhe frowned, "He's not my friend."
These words fell into Xiao Yuxin's ears, causing his hand holding the book to drop slowly, the corners of his mouth were slightly pursed, and there was no expression on his face.
It turned out that he didn't regard me as a friend at all.
Xiao Yuxin felt embarrassed about being affectionate. He always thought that he and Xie Zhe had a good relationship. Even after entering university, there were still high school classmates who could see each other from time to time. When first adapting to the new environment, Xie Zhe was there. He felt relieved. But all in all, after hearing this sentence, Xiao Yuxin suspected that he was just thinking too much.
Therefore, he didn't make any sound, and didn't send out the book he specially bought to give to Xie Zhe, and turned and left silently. After that, his attitude towards Xie Zhe, who came to him, became much lighter.
Xie Zhe is not careless, of course it is easy to notice any changes in the people he cares about, but when he asks something, Xiao Yuxin will find excuses to cover it up.
Xie Zhe became more and more irritable. Originally, he was upset because his former classmates asked him to find Xiao Yuxin to come out for friendship, and he also talked about friends, who wants to be friends with Xiao Yuxin, his heart is not so pure! If possible, what he wants to do is to hug, kiss, and touch at close range... Who the hell wants to be friends! What's so good about friends!
But when he was in a worse mood, something worse happened.
Xiao Yuxin has been rumored to be having an affair with the department flower of the Chinese department, and there are photos of them walking side by side, talking and laughing on the post bar. The rumors almost all confirmed the fact that they were in love, as if everyone had seen them with their own eyes and heard them admit it themselves.
When Xie Zhe heard the news, he was so angry that the top of his head was smoking. Xie Zhe, Xie Zhe, you have been cowardly and useless for not speaking out. Now that everyone is out of the order, regret it to death!
Although he scolded himself so viciously in his heart, his body still rushed to Xiao Yu's new school honestly, wanting to prove that rumors are rumors.
But in reality, the rumors are still half true. Although they didn't really fall in love, it is a fact that Xihua likes Xiao Yuxin and is secretly chasing him.
Xiao Yuxin's appearance is fair and clean, although his body and height are not as outstanding as Xie Zhe's, and he is astonishingly handsome at first glance, but he is very attractive, with clear eyes and a clean demeanor, the kind of gentle school girl in a white shirt that girls like , making people feel very comfortable.
The Chinese department girl likes this type of boys, and Xiao Yuxin has hit her cute spot. So even if she was embarrassed, she tried very hard to get to know and get close to this boy.
When Xie Zhe found Xiao Yuxin, Xiao Yuxin and Xihua happened to be talking. They were wearing sweaters of the same color, and they looked like couples. It made Xie Zhe feel irritable and angry.
He squeezed his fists and tried hard to maintain a calm smile, but he still had a dark face due to his bad mood, and walked in front of them.
Xihua was a little surprised, "...you are?"
Xie Zhe forced a smile, "Hi, I'm Xiao Yuxin's friend Xie Zhe, I have something to ask him."
Xiao Yuxin didn't expect to see him suddenly, he was stunned for a moment, but more thoughts were on the words of his friend. friend? Didn't he say he was not a friend? Why all of a sudden
It's hard for Xiao Yuxin to understand the two-faced nature of a person like him. Could it be that Xie Zhe doesn't like it very much, and even hates himself a little bit, but if he hates a person, why do he often hang around in front of that person, wouldn't it be better to just keep out of sight
He really couldn't figure it out.
However, when he was still wondering and thinking, Xie Zhe had already grabbed his wrist angrily, pulled him to the secluded grove behind the teaching building, pressed him against the wall, and put his hand on his face He stared at him with scorching eyes, as if he had done something unforgivably bad to him.
Finally, it was Xiao Yuxin who couldn't help the doubt in his heart. Before Xie Zhe couldn't hold back what he wanted to say, he asked, "Didn't you say that we are not friends?"
Anger had rushed to his throat, and Xie Zhe, who was about to sue, was taken aback, "When did I say that?"
"Last Friday afternoon last week, I overheard what you told your classmates." Xiao Yuxin raised his eyes and looked at him calmly, but Xie Zhe seemed to see a faint grievance in it.
"I didn't!" Xie Zhe subconsciously denied it first, but after thinking about it seriously, he understood why he said that at the time, and then frowned a little annoyedly, and roared unwillingly, "I said it! Yes, I didn't I didn’t regard you as a friend. But that’s because I like you! I don’t want to be a friend, I just want to be your boyfriend and be with you! I’ve liked you since the second year of high school, but you never found out , I don't want to delay your college entrance examination, but you didn't feel that I was chasing you during the whole semester of freshman year?! I don't like you, why do I come to you every day, eat with you, go to the library together, and Attend class?"
Xiao Yuxin was a little confused by his series of roars, and it took him a while to realize that he was confessing, and he couldn't believe it, "... Isn't that because you want to study? Our school's library is relatively large..."
Xie Zhe laughed angrily, "Do you think I came to you every day because I fell in love with your school library?"
Yes... But under his terrifying gaze, Xiao Yuxin was too scared to nod, as if he would be bitten severely if he dared to admit it.
Xie Zhe said again: "You didn't react when I chased you, but you felt it when Xihua chased you?"
In terms of his own conditions, Xie Zhe didn't feel that he was inferior to others at all, but Xihua was a woman, so his biggest disadvantage was his gender. If Jin Woo Shin can't accept the same sex. This time, he was going all out and explained everything clearly at once.
Xiao Yuxin was even more confused this time, "Is Hua chasing me?"
Xie Zhe frowned, "You don't know?"
"… do not know."
Xie Zhe was annoyed and regretted what he said.
Xie Zhe asked the most concerned question: "Do you want to be with her?"
Xiao Yuxin froze and shook his head.
"What about me? I just confessed my love to you. Don't pretend that you didn't hear me."
Xie Zhe endured it for too long, and when he finally said it, he was relieved, but immediately became very nervous about the answer. He leaned forward, his face was very close to Xiao Yuxin, his breath was almost audible, his breath was intertwined, and the distance was extremely ambiguous, completely covering Xiao Yuxin under his shadow.
Xiao Yuxin's head was blank, his face flushed red at a speed visible to the naked eye, he was so embarrassed that he could bleed, his eyelashes trembled uneasily, trying to avoid his seemingly substantial gaze. He didn't understand why the situation changed so much. Before, he thought Xie Zhe hated him, not even a friend, but now he suddenly said... like him
It's so unreal.
Moreover, it was too close to breathe.
Xiao Yuxin raised his hand, trying to push him away.
But Xie Zhe grabbed his hand immediately and directly cut off his suspected evasion.
"You really never found out that I like you, it's so obvious. Didn't you discover Qin Xu and Jiang Yang very quickly before?"
Xiao Yuxin stuttered a little frightened by the situation, "That's different..."
"What's the difference? You hate me?" Xie Zhe asked closely.
Xiao Yuxin shook his head, "No."
Xie Zhe quietly breathed a sigh of relief, his voice tensed, but he tried his best to hide his uneasiness, "Then are you willing to try it with me?"
Xiao Yuxin lowered his eyes and didn't speak.
Xie Zhe's heart sank little by little, and his eyes lost their luster. His hand resting on the wall was also powerless to hang down.
But at this moment, Xiao Yuxin's small voice rang in his ears, "...well, try, but I have never been in a relationship, if it was you..."
Xie Zhe's eyes suddenly lit up with a dazzling light, and he was extremely surprised, "Are you serious?!"
Xiao Yuxin nodded vigorously, scratching his face a little helplessly, "I just don't know what to do when I'm in love..."
Xie Zhe raised a big smile, "It's okay, we can do whatever we want."
He was in a good mood, paused, and said—
"However, there is one thing I have long wanted to do."
"what?"
Xiao Yuxin raised his head in doubt, and was caught off guard by Xie Zhe's deep kiss, almost out of breath.
Two slender figures hugged each other at the corner of the wall, and under the sunlight, a long shadow fell, blending gently together, as if they couldn't be separated no matter what.