"Zhuo Yexi, did you promise me?"
Now I don't want to tell him what I think, I will tell him everything after the operation.
At that time, I believe he will understand everything.
"I promised you, it's just..." Zhuo Yexi didn't seem to want to implement the things discussed before.
I know it is normal for him to behave like this, but now I really can't make my relationship with him public under such circumstances.
Not being public does not mean that I don't love him or care about him.
It's all just because of that damn self-esteem, worried that he will be laughed at by others because he is with me.
Maybe he will never understand my thoughts.
But that's how I think, and I've always thought that way.
If he says that he doesn't care what others think of him, it is actually impossible. It's just that he feels that he is living his own life for others to talk about, and he is still a little uncomfortable.
Although I didn't say it, it was still more or less uncomfortable, I just hid it in my heart with a smile.
Sometimes, I feel like I am thinking too much. But everyone's thinking is different, so it's normal for me to have this kind of thinking.
"Since you have promised me, can you stop doing this? When I am willing to make it public, I will naturally make it public. If you don't want to make it public, then you can't help it." I saw it in Zhuo Yexi's eyes just now. Lost, in order to make him happy, I spoke to him in a slightly joking tone.
"Hey..." Zhuo Yexi sighed, "Well, what you say is what you say."
Finally, he agreed to me.
He shook his head helplessly and walked side by side with me.
At the beginning, I was a little embarrassed, but slowly I got used to it.
In fact, I really want to know, how would others talk about me when a disabled person like me walks with Zhuo Yexi
But there are some things I will never know.
Not knowing is the best. Sometimes I know it accidentally, but I feel hurt.
Why bother yourself.
So the four of us left the school side by side. Originally, Zhuo Yexi wanted to take me to delicious food, but as a result, I was reluctant again and again, and finally he had to give up.
In the end, we just went to the small shop for porridge, steamed buns and so on...
After eating, Yuxin walked up to me immediately with a smile on her face and said: "Xiaodie, we have discussed it and rent a house outside."
"Huh?" As soon as she said what she said, I was very surprised and looked at her puzzledly, "Why? It costs money to rent a house?"
Besides, I can now say that I am penniless, where the money is for renting a house.
"Don't worry, we have arranged these. It is really inconvenient to live in the dormitory. Besides, don't you want a more comfortable learning environment?" Yuxin hadn't answered my question before being Zhuo. Ye Xi robbed the answer.
So, I looked at him and said softly, "Zhuo Yexi, it looks good now. I really want to have a more comfortable learning environment, but I rely on my own efforts to learn, right? It’s the same everywhere, I don’t want you to waste money for me."
I'm telling the truth, it's the same wherever I live.
Besides, I already owe Zhuo Yexi a lot, and I don't want to owe any more.
Really scared can not afford it.
ps: What should I do? The writing is getting more and more rubbish. Ooh...