For a moment, I retracted my thoughts and pulled out a faint smile to look at her: "Yuxin, thank you for being kind to me, thank you for treating me as a friend, and thank you for always comforting me from time to time."
The thanks to her are from the heart, but I can only answer her in this way, after all, what she said is not unreasonable.
She is not me, so she never understands what I think in my heart at all.
Sometimes fears and fears flooded my heart, and I almost couldn't breathe.
Even I am afraid to go out, because every time I see those people look at me with strange eyes, I always feel so uncomfortable in my heart, I can't wait to find a hole in the hole.
Sometimes I really think, if only there were gods in this world, it would be great.
Sometimes I think, if there really is a crossing, it would be great.
But I know that all of this is impossible, just thinking about it in my heart.
When I finished speaking, Hua Yuxin frowned, with a slight displeasure: "Since we are friends, I'll just say something!"
As soon as she said this, my heart jumped suddenly, for fear that she would say something and I didn't want to be obedient, but she said so, I can't help her to say it
So, I nodded and said, "Okay then!"
"So reluctant?"
I just answered, Yu Zexuan's gentle voice came: "Mengdie, can't you be more confident? Have you let the word inferiority entangle you for the rest of your life?"
When he said these words, his brows almost wrinkled into a Chuan shape. As for me, I just smiled faintly, "Thank you for your enlightenment, I think if there is nothing else, it's late and I should go back."
I turned and left as if I had fled. Without giving him a chance to speak, I ran away.
At the moment of turning around, a surge of acid water surged in my heart. In the next moment, tears welled up in his eyes, very desperately wanting to cry.
When the trot returned to the playground, Hua Yuxin did not catch up. Only then did I slowly stop. In order to prevent the tears from falling down, I raised my head and looked up at the sky.
The stars in the sky blinked and blinked, seeming to greet me and encouraging me. Blinking and blinking is so cheerful.
But for me, it is never possible to be happy, even if it is a laugh, it must be a hypocritical laugh.
I am a person with no future, no qualifications to love, and no qualifications to be loved.
Since my parents knew of my illness, they have been hot and cold to me. They didn't regard me as their daughter at all, and sometimes even attacked me with my shortcomings.
I have done this, and what I need most is the love of my parents. But none of them gave me anything. Instead, they let me down again and again and heartache.
This is why I have never had friends since I was a child. Even if I have friends, I am worried about whether they are sincere.
The more I thought about it, the more uncomfortable I felt. I finally held back the tears. I slowed down and walked towards the lawn. Although it is a bit late now, I don't want to go back. Even if I go back, I have nothing to say to the roommates in the dormitory.
When I chatted with them a few times, they always talked to me in a weird tone. They knew that I didn’t want to listen, and knew that I would get hurt after listening, but they always wanted to tell me. Uncomfortable.