too close.
Le Zhishi didn't have time to answer Song Yu's question, and his guilty conscience and panic pulled his body back. The whole person tripped directly on the higher steps behind and leaned back.
But Song Yu grabbed his arm faster and pulled forward. Lezhishi was like a tumbler who had lost his free will, tilting up and down, and finally fell into Song Yu's arms.
"What's the matter with you?" Song Yu asked him with a frown, but when Cole knew it, he broke free very uncomfortably. He stepped back a few steps and stood on a higher step. His speech was a little unstable, "I'm fine."
Song Yu stood in place and stared at him, seeming to be investigating the truth of what he said.
Le Zhishi’s state was very wrong. He couldn’t explain to his brother what he was doing now. He simply squatted down arrogantly, buried his head in his knees, and covered the past with other things. “I just accidentally drank someone else’s beer, and now it’s a bit uncomfortable. ."
After listening, Song Yu dispelled some of the doubts in his heart, and squatted down, holding his wrist and turning to check the inside of his arm. There was no rash for the time being. He said he was not careful, Song Yu would not doubt it.
"How much did you drink?"
Le Zhishi shook his head, but his head was still buried, "Not much, a sip."
The arm held by Song Yu was very hot, and the temperature climbed up like a snake until it reached his heart. There was a thin layer of sweat behind him, a little bit wanted to break free, and a little bit wanted to stay the way he was, wanted to be held like this, even held like just now.
This kind of ambivalence is too strange. Reminiscent of what I saw in ktv just now, Lezhishi even had a subconscious panic.
He saw with his own eyes a possibility that he had never thought of extending from himself, and this possibility was different from others. Untimely, he thought of the reactions of the other boys just now after seeing the animations of the two men. They all ridiculed and ridiculed in unison without concealing it.
Only he is different.
Why can't he laugh
"Go home." Song Yu loosened his wrist and patted his hand again, "Go back and take a loratadine tablet."
Le Zhishi raised his head, his face turned redder because of his depression, "Are you going back too?"
Song Yu nodded at him, "It's boring."
"Then why are you here?"
Song Yu's expression changed. Facing Lezhi's unscrupulous and direct questioning method, he had long learned to change the subject and stood up, "Are you going?"
"Go." Le Zhishi stood up with Song Yu without hesitation, but the next second he remembered that his surroundings were still on the KTV table, so he told Song Yu that he was going back to get it.
Although Song Yu didn't speak, he still followed him silently. The large private box reserved for junior high school students is on the innermost floor, and the second floor for their senior high school graduating class. Song Yu didn’t want to go in at first. When he thought that he had just accidentally drank beer, he guessed that there should be people who are not very law-abiding. , So I followed up.
Sure enough, Le Zhishi took his brother in again, which attracted more attention. The atmosphere of ktv is obviously different from that of school, and everyone is more booing.
"Yo Lele, my brother will take you home."
"Your house is very strict."
Song Yu had a cold face and said nothing. Le Zhishi discovered that the classmates who had been pulling him to watch the movie had returned to this private room. They were singing, and they were a little afraid of being entangled. Le Zhishi quickly ran to the corner where he was sitting before.
Jiang Yufan was still sitting there playing games with others, and when he looked up, he just saw him, "Hey, are you back? They said you went to the bathroom."
"I'm going home, my brother is here." Lezhishi picked up the surroundings on the table, "You also go home early."
Jiang Yufan nodded again and again, "I have to leave after this set. I will come out to play tomorrow."
"Okay!" Le Zhishi ran away as soon as he slipped away, for fear that Song Yu would be uncomfortable in it, and for fear that the boys would stop him and do some strange things.
Song Yu came out a few steps earlier, and the phone shook.
[Qin Yan: Handsome guy, are you still coming back? ]
Song Yu lowered his head to type.
[Huo Hitachi: I'm home. ]
[Qin Yan:? ? You are too funny. I told you not to come before, and suddenly changed my mind to come. After a while, I ran away. I didn't sing a song. People are the king of karaoke and you are the king of pigeons. ]
This joke is really not funny, Song Yu didn't laugh, and didn't know how to reply for a while.
He also felt that his desire for protection was too strong.
Le Zhishi took his beloved surroundings and walked to the bus stop with Song Yu. He found that many things were like lying in bed and counting sheep after insomnia. The more he reads, the more he can't sleep. The more he now warns himself not to think about that picture, but the ad animated picture keeps shaking in front of his eyes, making him very embarrassed.
The interval between bus departures in the evening became very long. They stood side by side without talking, and they drove and drove on the road without dinner. They screamed while Lezhi, and the atmosphere became even more embarrassing.
But Song Yu didn't feel much. He asked Le Zhishi to sit here and wait. After a short while, he took out the red bean matcha Daifuku and a box of ice cream and handed it to Le Zhishi.
The car also came. They got in the bus, and there was only one young man sleeping on the bus with headphones sitting at the front. The two swipe their cards to enter and sit in the last row of double seats. Lezhishi took apart the daifuku and swallowed it in two mouthfuls, tearing open the lid of the ice cream and enjoying it slowly.
When eating, his attention will shift unconsciously.
Song Yu helped him hold the figure and stared at it for a while, "You went to the party just for this."
"Yes." Lezhishi made no secret of it, saying that this was the peripheral he wanted most, "In fact, there is the one from Hokage, but it's already sold out. I'm going to squat at Xianyu and try my luck."
Song Yu sighed silently. He felt that someday Lezhishi would run away with someone because of an animation.
The ice cream is also of matcha flavor. Lezhishi thought Song Yu would like to eat it. He took a spoonful and handed it to his mouth, but Song Yu still refused. Lezhishi had to finish the meal by herself and put the box in the plastic bag of the convenience store, satisfied. The ice cream that he ate made Le Zhishi's body heat down, but he still had some strange emotions in his heart.
He found that he didn't dare to think and delve into it, as if he was afraid of knowing something.
The sprouting of adolescence is like wisdom teeth about to move, hidden in the deepest part. That sense of existence can only be considered faintly visible at best, but it makes you unable to ignore it. You always want to lick and touch with the tip of your tongue, but you can't get any clear feedback.
Worry, curiosity, panic, fear, these emotions are all in ambush in the ambiguous soft flesh, you can not make the correct expectations.
I hope it will emerge, but I am afraid of the faint pain that may come at any time.
Song Yu sat beside him, not knowing when he put on the headphones. The car swayed forward, and the reflective glass mirrored his handsome profile face. Together with the flashing neon, there was a kind of illusory beauty.
Le Zhishi looked at the glass window, and a kind of curiosity of young people towards the elderly emerged in his heart.
"Big Brother Song Yu." He turned his head.
Song Yu took off a headset and stared at him.
"Have you watched that kind of video?" Le Zhishi's expression and tone showed obvious embarrassment, but he seemed to be afraid that Song Yu would not understand it, so he added specifically, "The kind that is not suitable for children. "
Song Yu frowned, "Ask what this is for?"
Le Zhishi was not led away by his rhetorical question this time, and insisted on asking: "Have you seen it?"
Song Yu was silent for a second or two, before raising his hand to put on the headphones, it seemed that he was not ready to answer his questions. Le Zhishi hurriedly pressed his earphone hand, "I'm just curious."
"Why are you curious?" Song Yu stared at him with sharp eyes.
Le Zhishi didn't avoid Song Yu's eyes, but he paused for two seconds before speaking, "A few boys showed me just now."
At first he was a little scared, but Song Yu's reaction was much calmer than he thought, "What then?"
He raised his eyebrows, still without much expression on his face, "Does it look good?"
Le Zhishi lowered his eyes and murmured, "That's it." He didn't dare to say what he saw later, only the first half, "I actually didn't see clearly, they were all crowded together, and the phone screen was so small. , And laughed loudly. They said that the girl is in good shape, I can't tell if it is good, anyway, she is very white, she is a foreigner, that man..."
"Not good-looking, unshaven." Le Zhishi raised his eyelids and glanced at Song Yu, like a puppy shrank in the corner of a mistake, but what he said made people laugh directly, "Not as good as you."
Song Yu showed a confused expression on his face, "Why compare me? Do you think I would be very happy when you say I look better than a porn actor?"
Le Zhishi was also puzzled, but he quickly found the reason, "Because you are here. And you look good."
Song Yu was left speechless by him. The radio on the bus reported the station. Lezhishi pushed his shoulder like he was waking up from a dream, and the two got off the bus.
"Don't mix with those people in the future, you will only learn badly." Song Yu warned him with a harsh tone.
But even if he didn't say it, Lezhishi knew it in his heart. Although the tutor he received from his childhood is not an iron fist, it has always been guiding him in a good direction. Even Lezhishi himself doesn't like the feeling of the group of people just now.
And he always subconsciously feels that if he fails to learn, he might be disliked by Song Yu.
Walking on the street, the summer wind rushed towards you. There are many barbecue shops on the side of the road, where the business is booming. Song Yu's voice seemed a little vague in the noisy environment, and was not so severe. "It is normal for sexual consciousness to sprout. You have grown up."
Le Zhishi didn't know how to answer the conversation, so she didn't say anything. They walked through the area of the food stall, and the surrounding area suddenly became quiet, only the cicadas cried at night, and the dim street lights stretched their shadows and stuck together.
Le Zhishi, with his head down, heard Song Yu ask again, "You only have these thoughts after reading it?"
He didn't know why Song Yu's speech changed again, and he said stiffly, "Yeah."
Song Yu didn't press the question any more, the two of them walked silently to the elevator downstairs of their own house, and he raised his hand and pressed the upward direction. While waiting, Song Yu said in a low voice again, "Actually, you don't need to be ashamed of this kind of thing. Even if you really feel or react when you see it, it is normal. Humans have the instinct to reproduce. You can be curious, you can take the initiative to understand, but don’t do things you shouldn’t do out of curiosity.”
In fact, Song Yu didn't want to act as a guide in this regard. He forced to deal with such a situation in a calm manner, but didn't want Le Zhishi to be embarrassed by this incident.
But in fact, he was reluctant to imagine what he saw when Lezhi.
"Sex is not a shameful thing. Only by facing it squarely can you treat it properly."
On the one hand, Song Yu hopes that his brother can deal with the emergence of sexual consciousness correctly, and on the other hand, he feels that he has no right to teach him. After all, his thoughts are "incorrect" in the popular sense. Such a sense of contradiction against common sense made Song Yu embarrassed and stuck in it, but he still had to learn to fulfill his responsibilities as a brother.
"It's all normal, don't be nervous."
Thinking of Lezhi being able to tell him about these things without any burden, Song Yu felt more and more that he should be a good brother with peace of mind.
Le Zhishi repeatedly chewed Song Yu's words, and the burden in his heart seemed to be less. But what he couldn't tell, and what Song Yu said were like two things, with different degrees and directions.
But maybe this is the same reason, he convinced himself.
But if Song Yu really knew, he would react even more when he saw the boys and the pictures of the boys, could he say this to him calmly
Unsure when Lezhi.
The elevator door opened. I don't know if it had been transported before. When the door was opened, a little dust fell off. Lezhishi who was standing in front inhaled it and couldn't help coughing.
"Are you okay." Song Yu pressed the floor. He was sensitive to the smell when he didn't know how to smell it. He didn't feel anything strange in the elevator, so he lowered his head to check if he still smelled smoke. Seeing this movement, Le Zhishi shook his head, calmed his breathing, and said to Song Yu: "It's not on you, it just fell off dust."
When Lezhi discovered his motivation, Song Yu's tone became unnatural, "I just don't want to smell of smoke, it's unpleasant."
"It's a little bit. But I don't know why," Le Zhishi leaned back against the elevator wall and gasped. After coughing, his pale face turned red, his eyes were misty, and his tone was as sincere as his eyes.
"It smells good on you."
The author has something to say: Lele, my mother is so big, you can't fuck up anymore...