Song Yu did not respond to his words, as usual.
Lezhishi didn't need to respond most of the time. He has always been like this since he was a child. He releases his love for his elder brother anytime, anywhere and without obstacles, and does not think that expressing emotions is inappropriate.
But now he has changed a little, and occasionally I hope my brother can respond a little. Even if you refuse him decisively as you did when you were a child, tell him, "I don't like you saying that. Don't do that in the future."
He doesn't say anything, he just wants to guess when he is happy to know. But he doesn't like to guess.
The symptoms of allergies did not come out, but he took a pill for a rainy day. That night, Lezhishi was tossing and turning, and only fell asleep at about two o'clock in the morning.
He had a very strange dream. At first he was lying on a beautiful meadow, the sky was low, and the clouds were floating. He stretched out his hand, and a dark cloud fell, pressing on him without leaving a gap. For a moment, Lezhishi could hardly breathe. He tried to break free, but the cloud gathered in a human form, a tall man with no face, but it felt familiar to him.
The impenetrable, fornication-like embrace made him suffocate, and the dying feeling of sickness oppressed all the nerves. But the strange thing is that he was forced to have a strange feeling from this suffocation.
The cloud in the dream turned into a pool of hot rain without warning at the end, drenching him. At five o'clock in the morning, Lezhishi woke up from his dream.
For many days afterwards, Lezhishi tried to find out more through online searches. He didn't want to be shrouded in ignorant curiosity and fear, read many articles, did many tests, and watched many movies alone. Most of them are literary and artistic films with beautiful and touching pictures. But the more you look at it, the more puzzled you are when you know it.
He saw so-called very attractive pictures of men on the Internet, and he didn't feel much. After a series of tests are done, the results are also very vague, not consistent every time.
All these make Lezhishi confused.
His confusion is always obvious. He often frowns and wanders. When he is watching TV series with Lin Rong, he will be in a daze at the protagonist's opponent, or put on a serious expression of inquiry, as if he really needs one. Someone will answer for him. So one day later, when the family was out for a trip, Song Yu said to Lezhi, who was staring at a whole lot of lotus in a daze, "Do you remember the lottery you drew?"
Le Zhishi turned his head, holding the quiet cotton candy in his arms, looking at him blankly.
"Let's go with the flow." Song Yu said.
He vaguely felt that Song Yu knew him, and felt confused when he knew why, and he had always relied on Song Yu and had no reservations about him.
"I don't want to be different from others." Le Zhishi told Song Yu frankly his thoughts, and stroked the cotton candy's furry head with his palm, "This is very strange."
"why?"
The instant Song Yu asked, the marshmallow slipped away under Lin Rong's call.
Lezhishi sat on the grass by the lake, picked up a complete lotus, and peeled a few tender lotus seeds from it. "When I was young, I looked different from others, and then I was always paid special attention. I didn't want to grow up. Too extraordinary." He peeled off the tender green skin, revealing the white and tender lotus rice, and handed it to Song Yu.
Song Yu took it and did not eat. He felt that when Lezhishi was about to go to high school, it was normal for him to worry about new and different social circles. The two sat side by side. At the end of June, when the lotus blossomed, the wind turned the lotus leaf upside down to cover the newly emerging and very shaken buds. Song Yu whispered, "Do you know what is the most contradictory thing about people?"
Le Zhishi shook his head and stared at his profile.
"In order to avoid certain harms, we will imitate the way of life of most people, become like others, become gregarious. This is the social survival instinct of human beings, just like mimicry in nature, in order to protect ourselves, animals It also learns to integrate with the environment during evolution, so that it is safer."
"Um."
"But humans are much more complicated than animals." Song Yu looked at the lake in the distance, "Sometimes we have a kind of expectation. We feel that I am different from others, and occasionally want to be more special and don't want to be ordinary. Most of them. So everyone is struggling and falling into contradictions. To eliminate contradictions, we need to give up."
He said, looking at Lezhi, "If you are more willing to obscure everyone, you have to give up the part of yourself that is not reconciled to mediocrity."
Le Zhishi also raised his eyes to look at him. The light-colored pupils were very clear, and even the dark brown eyelashes were translucent by the shaking sunlight.
His eyes were hesitation of thinking.
After Song Yu finished what he should say, he turned his face away. Song Jin called him from behind and asked him to help him get new bait. Song Yu responded and stood up.
Only two steps away, Lezhi Shi couldn't help turning his head to stop him.
"Then how do you think I should choose?"
Behind him, a lone flower bud shook restlessly in the warm wind.
Song Yu stopped and turned halfway around, "You have to decide for yourself, and I can't give you much useful advice. Because in my opinion, you have nothing to choose from."
Le Zhishi frowned suspiciously.
"You were born special." Song Yu raised his eyebrows, "Isn't it?"
The wind by the lake blows away the wild flowers and grass, and also blows away the lingering mist of the wetland park. The round leaves covering the entire lake are shaking, separated and overlapping, and this pool of lotus has also changed from scattered buds to full Flowers blooming in the lake. In the midsummer at the end of August, everything became clear.
The news about the scores of the college entrance examination are all on hot search. This kind of big thing is very nervous even for those who do not participate. Only Song Yu is calm and calm. When checking the scores, it seems that he has been ordered by others, as if it has nothing to do with himself. . On the contrary, when Lezhi, please remind him and be anxious for him.
The scores found were as calm as he himself. Even the head teacher called to congratulate him, saying that there was no problem with T, and gave Song Yu a lot of advice on applying for the exam. After answering the phone call from the head teacher, it was again from the school leader. Song Yu was too lazy to deal with it later, saying that all the illnesses were handed over to Lin Rong.
Le Zhishi was a hundred times happier than Song Yu. He was more excited than he knew that his score could be stabilized in the Rocket Class at Peiya High School. He immediately sent a message to Jiang Yufan to show off and added that his brother only deducted two points in mathematics, emphasizing Twice.
Knowing that his son did a good job in the exam, Song Jin also rushed back from the company and said he wanted to celebrate, but he also knew that Song Yu didn’t like publicity, so he didn’t invite guests to dinner with much fanfare for the time being. After discussing with Lin Rong, he decided to make a decision before submitting his application. Celebrate once with the door closed.
"These dishes are your favorite. Eat fast." Lin Rong took out a bottle of red wine and put it in the ice cubes and awoke. "Today is happy. We can also have a drink. Lele can't drink."
Le Zhishi was very open-minded, "It doesn't matter, I prefer Sprite."
Standing at the table, Song Jin asked Song Yu while he was cutting grilled lamb chops, "Are you optimistic about school for a long time? It's time to tell us if I haven't been silent for so long."
Le Zhishi cared about Song Yu's answer more than anyone else. He thought about what Xia Zhixu had said before. They went to Beijing to study, and he wondered if Song Yu would go so far.
Even his head teacher and senior high school leaders persuaded him that Song Yu should go.
Lin Rong took out three wine glasses and joked, "If I really go to T University and P University, I still have to invite everyone to dinner. Although I don’t really want to see my sister-in-law, I can’t. Compliance..."
"I'm not going to Beijing." Song Yu sat in a chair, very calm, "I want to report to W University."
"Your points..."
"There is no such thing as having to go to a certain university. There are only majors and universities that you really want to study."
Song Jin obviously didn't expect it. His face changed slightly because of the accident, but he still showed an understanding attitude, "Yes, if you have already decided."
"W is great." Lin Rong's mentality changed quickly. A school like T and P is the first choice for parents, but she is also very happy to learn that her son is willing to stay in this city. Shang Lin Rong knew Song Yu's character, and she had made enough preparations before announcing that she didn't want to be too opposed, so she rounded up and said, "W is so close to home, I can come back if I want to come back, I think it's good."
Le Zhishi was very happy in his heart, but he also knew that he was observant and didn't cut in too much.
"Then have you figured out what major you want to choose?" Song Jin asked.
"Surveying and mapping." Song Yu replied, "I have learned a lot by myself this summer, and I have basically gotten started. I also mastered some relevant computer knowledge in advance to facilitate the quicker use after enrollment." He looked at Song Jin and further said, " This major W is the strongest, not only ranked first, but also the academic resources and depth of research, and I have also inspected the future academic direction."
Song Yu matured earlier than his peers. They had expected this as a parent, but Song Jin was still somewhat surprised. He didn't expect Song Yulian to plan for the future.
What was even more unexpected was that Song Yu wanted to study this major.
Song Jin hadn't been able to control his expression for a while, and he was watching it when Lezhi.
"These are all things later, it doesn't matter, my son just thinks about it." Lin Rong huddled Song Jin to sit down, "Let's celebrate first."
Le Zhishi asked Song Yu a lot of questions during dinner, such as what surveying and mapping is, what he studied, and what to do in the future. Song Yu gave him relatively concise answers one by one, which gave him a general idea.
"No wonder." Le Zhishi suddenly held Song Yu's wrist, "The painting you gave me last time."
Song Yu pulled away his hand, "Hurry up and eat."
"What painting?" Lin Rong intervened and teased, "You two now have more and more little secrets."
"No, I told you everything."
"I don't believe it, then tell me if you have a little girl you like."
Le Zhishi laughed twice, "Really not."
Song Jin also laughed, "How can there be a mother like you? Every day gossip whether the child has a premature love."
"This is normal. Tell me I can guide and come up with ideas or something."
Song Yu gave Lin Rong chopsticks beef, "Let's eat."
"Xiao Yu hates me again!"
"..."
After dinner, Le Zhishi and Song Yu bathed marshmallows together. The dry Pomeranian was fluffy, like a fluffy cloud, that shrank when it touched water, and its body size was half smaller. Marshmallows don't like bathing, they always try to escape, they can only wash one by one holding the other.
Halfway through the wash, most of his body was wet when Lezhi, Song Jin appeared at the door of the bathroom downstairs and said warmly, "Song Yu, come with me."
Song Yu was called out, and Le Zhishi and Marshmallow were the only ones left in the bathroom. They were both wet and nervous.
It was Song Yu who was not nervous. He had anticipated that his father would call for a conversation, and he was not surprised. Song Jin took a basketball and went downstairs with his son to the basketball court in the community.
The two played very casually, one defending and the other attacking, and then exchanged each other after scoring. Song Yu will always remember that when he was a child, Song Jin taught him the rules of playing basketball, telling him that this sport is not only explosive, but also calm.
"It's been a long time since I played together." Song Jin stood in the middle of the court and shot one. The basketball fell to the basket along the parabola, swayed and fell into it, hitting the floor. He shook his head and akimbo his hands, "It won't work, Dad is too old, and his physical strength can't keep up with you."
Song Yu picked up the ball, went to the vending machine on the sidelines, bought two bottles of sports drinks, and handed one to his father. The two sat down to rest. Facing the empty court, Song Jin sighed, "I still remember that we played here before. We were also face to face. You defended, and you wanted to win and want to take my ball away. But in a hurry, I slapped the ball out. , Just hit your brother on the head."
Thinking of the scene at that time, Song Jin laughed, "I smashed Lele all over, sat on the ground without getting up for a long time, and didn't cry, so he stared at the ball that fell to the ground."
After speaking, he looked at Song Yu, "You were also very scared then."
Song Yu was silent, tacitly acquiescing. The picture at that time was blurred, but he could still recall his nervousness at that time, because he was too nervous to remember the reaction of Lezhi at that time.
"But he doesn't mind very much. You ran to find him. He murmured something, as if he still asked you to hold it. If you don't hold it, you won't get up." Song Jin smiled, "Lele's personality is too much like his dad. He is so long. After he grows up, he will definitely look like your Uncle Le. Don’t look at him as if he doesn’t understand anything, like a child. He knows many things in his mind, but he doesn’t want to think too much."
Song Yu knew that what his father said was right, but he always unconsciously regarded Lezhishi as a child, knowing that he has grown up, and from time to time he regarded him as an object to be protected, as if he could get it from it. Nothing like fun, in reality, all he can get is the increasing burden.
"Tell me what you think." Song Jin touched Song Yu with the drink bottle in his hand. "Why do you want to learn this major? It has something to do with your Uncle Le."
Song Yu stared at his father and found that he actually knew everything.
"I think Lezhishi is also like you." Song Yu said suddenly.
Song Jin knew that he was not changing the subject, and laughed, "He is also very similar to your mother, after all, he is also the child we raised. On the contrary, it is you, who seems to have grown up by himself, and doesn't need us much."
Song Yu shook his head and denied his father's statement, "I need you very much. Everyone." He is rare to be honest, but he can only stop.
There was a gust of wind, the shadows of the trees around the stadium were shaking, and the cicadas screamed. Song Jin asked: "I actually know that you have liked astronomy and geography since childhood. It may also be related to your Uncle Le. When I was a kid, I was busy starting a business, and Le Yi took you. I went to many places, climbing mountains and watching the sea."
He said, holding Song Yu's shoulders, "I think my son is really amazing, so I followed him to run all over the country when he was young, and I saw a lot of scenery that many adults have never seen before."
In fact, Song Yu is a family member who is reluctant to mention Le Yi. To him, Le Yi is like another father's role, taking him to see different worlds during his childhood enlightenment stage.
He will always remember Le Yi standing on the top of the mountain, shouting at the lingering clouds and mist, hoping everyone around him is happy.
I hope his future children will also be happy.
Song Jin smiled and said: "I sometimes wonder what would it be like if he was still alive? He can talk so well, so a good person, if Lele is raised by them, will it be better than now." He paused, and then said, "So your mother and I, we are really serious about raising Lele and growing up, and I always feel that Leyi is watching from the sky."
He looked at Song Yu, "Think about how nice he was to you when you were young. If he were there, it would hurt Lele."
There was sourness in Song Yu's nose. He was a little bit resistant to continue to delve into this topic, as if caught in a dilemma. On the one hand, he knew that if this hypothesis was true, Lezhi would be happier, but on the other hand, he was happier. There is no way to imagine that when there is a Lezhi in this world, he did not grow up with him, completely independent of his own life.
Terrible. Song Yu thought.
"I heard you say that you want to learn surveying and mapping today, and I will do research in this area in the future, and I feel a little bit resistant." Song Jin opened up and said to him, "You might have guessed it too."
"You are afraid of insecurity." Song Yu knew he would think so. After all, no matter how advanced modern technology is, for surveying and mapping workers, it is inevitable to go out to work, and they may face very dangerous terrain tests.
Song Jin nodded, "You know, your Uncle Le's affairs still leave a shadow on me."
What he said was too implicit, and Song Yu knew that it was not "a little bit" at all.
"It's still different." Song Yu explained, "Anyway, there is still a long time before you can go out to work. It's too early to talk about this, not to mention different jobs and hobbies, and different levels of safety measures."
Song Jin didn't know this. It's different nowadays, and it's not common to go out for homework.
After all, he just couldn't make it through.
He patted Song Yu on the knee and sighed, "Go, dad will support you even if he is not at ease." After he said, he smiled, "If you can rely on us more in the future, it will be even better. NS."
Song Yu lowered his eyes and nodded.
Song Jin's cell phone rang, it was news that his wife urged him to go home. He stood up and stretched, "Let's go and bring your mother back some ice cream."
"good."
"By the way, you probably don't know yet. Your uncle Le and I did the match back then."
Song Yu really didn't know, no one had mentioned it before, "Is it?"
"Your mother is in good condition and beautiful. Don't have too many people chasing her." Song Jin joked, "Although your dad and me are both pretty and smooth, the family background is still a bit worse, much worse than your Uncle Le. Read When he was in college, he knew that I liked your mother, and your mother was kind of funny to me. I am embarrassed to chase after him. It was all made up of leaps and bounds. I was busy between the two of us. It was finally made."
"Uncle Le without you, maybe there is no you." Under the street lamp, Song Jin's smile was a bit of nostalgia, and gradually faded, and he said something like a sigh.
"The big lucky star is gone, leaving a small lucky star for our family, it's good too, right?"
Song Yu looked at the shadow on the ground, passing the tree shadow long and short, and he nodded.
"Um."
Before going upstairs after buying ice cream, Song Jin suddenly received a call from a foreign businessman. He handed Song Yu the convenience store bag and told him to go upstairs first and then go up after the phone call.
So Song Yu opened the door alone and handed over the ice cream his father bought for his mother. He refused to accept the mother’s dog food attack and went upstairs alone. Who knew that when he passed Lezhishi’s room, the bedroom door suddenly opened and was frightened. He jumped.
Le Zhishi stood at the door of his own room, "Big Brother Song Yu, are you okay."
Song Yu was inexplicably, "Are you okay?" After saying that, he was about to go to his room. Who knew Lezhi dragged him in and closed the door.
"What are you doing?" Before he could figure out the situation, he was pressed directly on the bedroom door panel by Le Zhishi. Le Zhishi pressed one hand on Song Yu's rib, and the other hand grasped the door handle.
"Did Uncle Song just take you out to preach?" Le Zhishi looked into his eyes, his eyes were still very determined, "He doesn't seem to support you to go to W University."
"No."
"You said there is no certainty." Le Zhishi thought he had already figured out all the routines. "What did Uncle Song say, does he want you to study at T University?"
When he was blowing marshmallows with a hair dryer, he heard Lin Rong and his best friend call. It was a pity that Song Yu didn't want to go to T University.
Everyone can talk about it, and go anywhere, but in fact, I still want to persuade Song Yu to think about it.
The more I thought about it, the more I felt so, Le Zhishi let go of Song Yu's hand, opened the bedroom door and prepared to go out, "I'll help you tell Uncle Song, I can convince him."
As soon as one foot stepped out, he was grabbed by Song Yu and pulled back, "You come back to me."
Le Zhishi faced him face to face, and seeing the expression on Song Yu's face a little helpless, he couldn't help asking: "Why do you want to laugh but can't laugh."
At this time, he was very keen. Song Yu let go of his hand, "What are you thinking about in your head?"
"I miss you."
Song Yu was taken aback for a moment.
Le Zhishi’s tone was too sincere, “You said at the dinner table that you want to apply for surveying and mapping. I feel that Uncle Song and Aunt Rong are not very supportive. If it were me, seeing everyone’s feedback is like this, I would definitely feel frustrated. , Who doesn’t want the way he wants to be recognized."
"So." Song Yu looked at him.
He raised his head and his eyes were firm, "I support you, and I support you at all times. Just now, when you were away, I checked. The best school for surveying and mapping is W University. Some people say it is No. 1 in Asia. And I also know that. Many people don’t know what they should study after the college entrance examination. You are different. You think clearly, and you can go to the best and most suitable place to study. I am very happy. I don’t want to see you because of anyone’s Change your decision because you are mature and you know what you want, right?"
With that, Le Zhishi grabbed Song Yu's hand. Although he didn't even know that he had actually predicted the error, Song Yu could almost feel the heartbeat of the heart that was eager to convey the support.
"Brother, I will always be on your side."
In a daze, Song Yu recalled what happened in the stadium as a child. He finally remembered what he said when he hit Lezhi sitting on the ground at that time.
Little, he held back his tears and did not cry. He stretched out his arms and said to him, "Brother Xiaoyu, you can play, so amazing."
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The author has something to say: Dafa early warning of the passage of time
(It's not about being together directly as adults, don’t worry, this is only 150,000 words hhhh)
Song Yu chose to go to W University not for anyone to stay, he just has his own pursuit, and even considers academic aspects. W University’s surveying and mapping is the strongest in China (it was even said to be the best in Asia at one time. You can Baidu the academicians to teach undergraduates, not in all cases unconditionally choose T or P, depending on the major), he does Everything is considered. I didn’t go abroad because I had already figured out the direction for future research.
My elder brother is a very sensible and mature person, and he takes things into consideration. Moreover, not every protagonist of a novel has to be in t or p. Just as a sister in the comment section said, surveying and mapping is to w and dentistry to Sichuan University (West China). There was a news before that a certain candidate from Yunnan was admitted to Peking University. Clinical and dentistry. After studying for a period of time, I was not very satisfied and repeated. I went to Sichuan University to study dentistry after 712 points. The same reason.
I also wish that all prospective candidates and students who will face the college entrance examination in the future can go to their favorite school and study their favorite major~support you~