Lezhishi didn't know how he made such actions.
The thought seemed to come out of his mind naturally, together with the image of Song Yu embracing himself. But after he really got into his arms and heard Song Yu's heartbeat, Le Zhishi woke up in shock, feeling crazy.
The thunder broke down again, and Le Zhishi, who had originally wanted to leave, subconsciously grabbed Song Yu's clothes.
He heard Song Yu's voice with confusion.
"What did you say?"
Sure enough, I don't remember.
Lezhishi usually felt unwilling to feel unwilling. In fact, for them, hugging is not a big deal. Song Yu often hugged him when he was a child, and it rained heavily when he was in elementary school. Song Yu, who was also a child, would pick him up so that he could hug him like a koala without stepping in the rain.
Although he was not allowed to hug him to sleep when thundering, Song Yu would take the initiative to hug him when he was sad. The hug is a silent comfort.
These are all accustomed to Le Zhishi, but he is just worried about Song Yu's embrace in his sleep.
Obviously he was the one being hugged, but the one who took the initiative did not remember anything.
If someone is next to him, will he turn over and hug it in his arms
"I didn't lie, that's it." Le Zhishi repeated it stubbornly. The head buried in his chest lifted up and looked into Song Yu's eyes.
The distance is so close, even in the dark, he can faintly see Song Yu's face and feel him frowning.
"I didn't think you were lying." Song Yu's heartbeat was faster than Le Zhishi thought, and the vibration was amplified in the dark night. "I just don't remember such a thing."
After speaking, he paused, then said: "Sorry, I didn't have much consciousness when I fell asleep."
Le Zhishi gradually let go of his hand, and took the initiative to withdraw from Song Yu's arms when the next white light flashed. He suddenly figured it out, guessing that Song Yu just regarded him as a pillow or quilt on the bed at that time, which in itself was not a great thing.
"Don't apologize, I'm just an example."
A hug is a perfect example of nothing.
With a gap of a few centimeters, Le Zhishi confessed his thoughts to Song Yu, "I actually like the feeling you hold me and feel safe." As if afraid of being blamed, Le Zhishi was very quick. I admit it again, "But it's weird, I know."
Song Yu was very quiet, but when he heard him say this, he touched his shoulder through the quilt.
This action made Le Zhishi feel encouraged. He faced each other and looked into Song Yu's eyes again, "Just tonight, can you hold me?"
He began to rationalize his requirements constantly, just like when he wanted to eat something, he would logically and clearly present various motives, "The thunder outside has never stopped, I always can’t fall asleep, and it’s safer to hold it. Feeling. I’ll fall asleep quickly. You can also don’t worry about me and leave me alone. This is a special situation. I won’t sleep in the same bed with you every day, nor will it be a thunderstorm every night.”
I felt that Song Yu didn't refuse at the first time, and Lezhishi moved closer, "You don't need to move, I just stick to you, I don't sleep with your arm."
Song Yu suddenly felt a little funny, but he couldn't laugh a bit. He was almost confused whether it was his wishful thinking that Lezhi was naive, or he really didn't grow up.
He couldn't help reaching out his hand, stroking Lezhishi's hair, and then staying on his side face, lightly covering his ears.
But in any case, Song Yu didn't want to make Le Zhishi more confused and confused, so he repeated it again.
"No matter what example you give, I am not in love. It is a fact."
Lezhishi's eyes were closed, and she looked obedient and obedient, "Then if you are in love, will you let me know?"
"Do you want to know?" Song Yu blurted out a bit, and regretted it again after asking.
Le Zhishi didn't know whether he wanted it or not. He didn't want to be kept in the dark, but he might not feel good when he knew it. He didn't want his brother to share it with others.
Sharing the distance of the same pillow, the breath of two people blends in the air. Song Yu waited for Lezhishi's answer in this quiet and tormenting atmosphere, but Lezhishi's words changed.
"My deskmate is a girl, and she also has an older brother." Lezhishi added specifically, "I'm a real brother."
"She complained to me before. Since her brother fell in love, she has not been at home often. He used to take her to Happy Valley during holidays or eat a lot of delicious food, but now he will deliberately keep a distance from her, afraid of his girlfriend. unhappy."
Le Zhishi said, as if she was not out of breath, closed her eyes and took a long breath, her voice dull, "This year her brother got married and moved out to have his own family. After that, she would hardly see him. I told her, you can go find him." With the words, his eyelashes quivered slightly, "but she said she had looked for it. She was in her brother's new home, very much like an outsider as a guest. In fact, this is normal. From another point of view, no one wants his lover to share his feelings with others. So I also said at the same table that I just need to get used to it."
Song Yu listened to him silently, thinking of Le Zhishi when he was a child. At that time, innocent and childlike, cute and serious, nothing taboo. But now that a similar topic reappears, he can't use the tone of the time to describe it.
"We will do the same in the future." Lightning flashed, making Lezhishi pale. When the thunder fell, he seemed to wake up, denying himself: "Brothers and sisters are like this, we will only be more alienated in the future, I am not your brother."
I don't know if it is an illusion, Song Yu always feels that he is about to cry when he is happy to know, and his heart is twitched. His resistance to his own sin and selfishness was ultimately lost to the empathy for Lezhishi, and he pulled Lezhishi into his arms as if he gave up, "No."
Le Zhishi didn’t believe it very much, “It’s what you said, it’s easy for people to get separated. I believe this more and more now.” He closed his eyes, his chin resting on Song Yu's shoulder, as if talking to himself. Ask the same, "Why are we not brothers."
Song Yu put his hand on his back and hugged him tightly after the lightning. He was a little helpless, and when he asked Lezhi, "Why do you want to be a brother with me?"
"Because the social relationship is very fragile." Le Zhishi's hand was wrapped around Song Yu's waist. "But if it is a brother, even if the other relationship is severed, the blood relationship will continue to be cut."
Hearing these words, Song Yu felt that Le Zhishi was both naive and cruel.
He understood his selfishness a long time ago, so he never expected He Lezhishi to be brothers for a moment. He hoped that they had better not be related, and they were strangers who met by chance.
It is best not to have any other emotions in this relationship. He will reduce the burden, will not think of his parents when hugging him, and will not bear the eyes of others when holding hands.
Nor will it be unclear what kind of feelings Lezhi is towards him, and will not have too much fluke.
Seeing Song Yu stopped talking, Le Zhishi touched his back, and his tone became lighter, "Isn't it weird for me."
The strange thing is not when Lezhi, it should be their state.
Song Yu didn't answer, and Le Zhishi said: "Do you think I'm abnormal?"
This sentence almost amused Song Yu who was in a sad mood. He whispered "No." And honestly only touched Lezhishi's hair, "That's how you were when you were a kid."
Le Zhishi asked why, confused and tired. Song Yu said, "It may be because you established a close dependency on me when you were young. Generally speaking, it is an emotional relationship that children and parents have. There are also brothers and sisters. In special circumstances, your attachment object becomes me, so separation will occur. Anxiety. In fact, it is also normal. Some people are very old and still feel sad to leave their parents."
Listening to him, I feel at ease when Lezhi, my thinking ability is significantly reduced under the interference of drowsiness, and I only grasp the keyword of separation anxiety. He thinks it makes sense. Being separated from Song Yu really makes him anxious, so he hugs Song Yu and rubs it in his arms, like acting like a baby, "Then you can stay too far away from me? Home?"
Song Yu's body stiffened for a few seconds, and he felt completely not his own.
But he felt that giving Lezhishi a promise would make it easier for him to fall asleep.
"Um."
"Really? From now on?"
Obviously he was happy when he heard Lezhi, Song Yu couldn't help but nodded again.
Le Zhishi buried his head again and was about to fall asleep. He found that it was actually very easy for him to get what he wanted from Song Yu. Song Yu looks hard to get close, but he is actually a person who is easy to compromise.
Saying a good night softly, Lezhishi calmly closed his eyes.
The rain has been unscrupulous and noisy. Song Yu's palm did not leave Lezhishi's ears until the thunder completely disappeared and Lezhishi's breathing became steady. Song Yu just put down his hand and gently put it on Le Zhishi's waist.
In the middle of the night, when human will is weakest, it is easy to make impulsive choices. So Song Yu also indulged for a second. He lowered his head and lightly kissed the top of Lezhishi's hair.
Except for the rain outside the window, no one knew about the kiss.
Lezhishi woke up in a daze when it was about to dawn, and was very happy to find that Song Yu did not leave after he fell asleep. The single bed was too cramped, and his waist was a little sore. He lay in his arms with his eyes closed for a while, feeling a little hot, and turned around again, leaning his forehead against the wall.
In his sleep, Song Yu felt the movement of turning over and moved. When he subconsciously hugged Lezhi from behind, his entire back was safely wrapped and fitted together comfortably and safely.
The second time Le Zhishi woke up, it was 7:30. It was very bright outside. He covered his head with a quilt, and he pulled it off a little when he remembered Song Yu's instructions.
In hindsight, I felt that there was no one on the bed. Le Zhishi squinted and rolled over, lying on his stomach, and shook his arm outside the railing, calling Song Yu's name vaguely and weakly.
He didn't know that after repeating it several times, he finally heard some movement, raised his head very laboriously, opened his eyes, and saw Song Yu coming out of the bathroom and closing the door. Le Zhishi rubbed his eyes, lay on Song Yu’s pillow, and said lazily: "Why do you have to take a shower in the morning..."
Song Yu seemed to have not expected Lezhishi to wake up so early. He was a little surprised the moment he saw him, but he quickly recovered, "It's easier to wake up this way."
He also wanted to ask Lezhishi to squint for a while and buy breakfast by himself. Unexpectedly, Lezhishi took the initiative to get up. He was very unskilled when he got off the ladder. Song Yu stood aside, anytime. Ready to help.
However, he failed to get started and Lezhishi landed safely and stepped barefoot on the tiles. Song Yule ordered him to wear slippers, and when he was Lezhi, he quickly stepped on the slippers, stretched his waist, and said like a qualified scholar, "I also want to take a bath." After that, he went to the bathroom.
Song Yu glanced at his back helplessly, then lowered his head to pick up the watch on the table and put it on his wrist. Then he looked back at the bathroom as if suddenly thinking of something, and then regretted in advance.
Sure enough, Lezhi yelled inside when she opened the shower.
"The water is so cold!"
Even if it was adjusted back to the right temperature, Lezhishi still complained when she came out, "You can't take a bath in cold water, it's so cold, you can catch a cold."
Song Yu did not explain, to explain "why a 21-year-old young man gets up in the morning to take a cold shower" question, it is very likely that he will go around.
He didn't want the embarrassing situation where there was no silver three hundred taels, so he changed the subject in time and urged Lezhishi to go to breakfast with him.
The water downstairs did not pass the first floor as Song Yu expected, but instead retreated a lot. Le Zhishi was wearing Song Yu's clothes all over, afraid of stepping on wet trouser legs, so he chose a pair of shorts that only reached his knees. Bai Shengsheng's calves were exposed, thin and long.
Le Zhishi drank a bowl of warm eggnog, which was made by pouring eggs in boiling glutinous rice wine. It was sweet and full of flavor. He ate another noodle nest with a large palm, which was considered a deep-fried breakfast. There are a few foods that he is not allergic to. He likes to break it apart to eat the crispy and delicious inner ring, and then take a bite of the tender outer ring, which is salty and crispy, and can also taste the taste of rice milk and soybeans.
"Are you going to study at night at night?" Song Yu handed him a tissue.
When Lezhi mentioned this, Lezhi became frustrated, "Yes."
"I'll go home after lunch, I'll see you." Song Yu also took a sip of eggnog, "After this period of time, you can rest."
Although Le Zhishi didn't want to leave, he nodded, "And Marshmallow must be very unaccustomed to being at home alone."
Song Yu didn't feel too sad when observing Le Zhishi's expression. He felt that he had actually grown up.
After eating, Lezhi said that the fried food was a bit tired and wanted to buy a drink, so Song Yu had to take him to the campus supermarket he went to yesterday. Lezhishi is a typical Libra and has serious choice difficulties, so he stood in front of the row of freezers with drinks for a long time.
Song Yu stood with him, and there were a lot of people around, and many of the girls looked in the direction of Lezhishi. His appearance is outstanding, and he has a mixed face that is different from others. It is very common to attract attention. But Song Yu felt uncomfortable.
This is worse than his own feeling of being watched by others.
"This is the one you drank wildly yesterday." Le Zhishi picked up the cherry-flavored Coke and looked back at Song Yu.
Song Yu corrected it and said, "It's not crazy enough, I only drink it when I'm thirsty."
The drink reminded him of the same unpleasant memory.
Le Zhishi looked at the package with a disgusting expression, "Don't you think this is very similar to the anti-fever syrup I drank when I was a child? It's exactly the same." After saying that he put it down and took a bottle of lemon-flavored soda." That's it."
At the checkout place, Lezhishi drew another lemon-flavored lollipop and asked Song Yu to check out together.
After he came out, Song Yu began to tell him, "You can't just eat what others give at school."
"I didn't." Lezhishi retorted, "I won't be so stupid."
Obviously they agreed to eat the meal someone else brought from home.
"It doesn't matter if it's fish or desserts, it's not unavailable at home. There is no need to eat what an outsider gives you."
Le Zhishi felt that his tone of this sentence was a bit weird, but he accepted it, "I know."
Song Yu stopped now. The two took a walk on the campus. In places with a lot of water, Lezhishi's feet were soaked in the water, and they stepped on something accidentally and called out.
Song Yu looked down, it turned out to be a red koi, but his tone was calm.
"Maybe it ran out of the lake next to it after it was flooded."
But Le Zhishi didn't find it unusual. He felt that he was super lucky. He folded his hands and bowed to the koi that he had stepped on, "Bless me successfully entering your hometown."
Song Yu said he was superstitious, but he began to scold Song Yu, "When you took the college entrance examination, I worked so hard to pray for God and worship Buddha for you."
Song Yu's always straight mouth couldn't help but bend a little, and naturally asked him: "Then what do you want for the college entrance examination?"
Hearing what he said, Lezhi was stunned for a moment. He hadn't considered this issue at all, "I have to think about it." He quickly said, "First of all..."
Song Yu raised an eyebrow, "How many do you want?"
Le Zhishi grabbed his arm to stop him from interrupting himself, and then raised his face and said to Song Yu, "First of all, I hope you can encourage me to enter W. I haven't thought about the rest. The deadline It is automatically extended to one week after the college entrance examination."
Song Yu lowered his eyes, not smiling, as if to indulge and acquiesce in his behavior of modifying the rules.
The lollipop I bought was left to eat when I left. The holiday was about to end. There were a lot of people at the subway station. Song Yu swiped his card and said that he would take him home, but Le Zhishi didn't want Song Yu to sit back alone, so he matured and refused.
The last subway roared away when they got off the elevator. Lezhishi felt very grateful.
He and Song Yu stood side by side in front of the subway security gate, and the two people's shadows were reflected in the glass. He was wearing Song Yu's clothes all over, and he did not look more like Song Yu. But now at Lezhishi, he has begun to learn not to be anxious about a non-existent blood relationship.
Thinking of myself at the last parent's meeting, Le Zhishi held a lollipop and even laughed.
While waiting for the bus, Le Zhishi repeatedly repeated his request last night, and Song Yu patiently agreed, saying that he would go home to see him next weekend.
"You have nothing to tell me?" Le Zhishi raised his face and looked into Song Yu's eyes, pursing his mouth, smiling very well.
The sound of the new subway was approaching gradually, and the voice of the announcer came from overhead.
[Hello, dear passengers, the train bound for Tianhe Airport will arrive at the station soon...]
Attracted by the new car, Le Zhishi leaned forward, turned his head to the side, and looked towards the bright spot of the track. The next second, his wrist was held.
[... Please get off first and then get on, paying attention to the gap between the platform and the train. ]
The gap shortened, and Song Yu's voice appeared in his ears.
"Lele."
Le Zhishi turned around and looked at him ignorantly.
Song Yu's expression was very soft, not the same as usual, "If you encourage, I actually wrote it on your math assistant at the last parent meeting." His eyes were sly, but his expression was calm. "I know you don't like mathematics, you don't want to turn back, as expected, you didn't notice."
The subway door safety door opened, and the long confined space opened suddenly, and many people in a hurry came out from inside, going in different directions. Le Zhishi felt his wrist loosened, and he was pushed into the small moving space by the crowd.
He found that Song Yu was very cunning and able to hide, and could hide a riddle for a long, long time, and then reveal a clue when Lezhishi could not continue to ask.
Song Yu can torture people very much, and Le Zhishi can't wait to go back now.
The door is closed, and the announcement is transferred from the outside to the compartment.
[... Please stand firm, next stop...]
Lezhishi's phone vibrated, he clicked in, and the message jumped out.
[Brother: Actually, I really hope you can be admitted to W University. ]
[Brother: I am waiting for you here. ]