Song Yu's sanity disappeared for a few seconds, and then recovered again after a short while.
Le Zhishi's eyes were very bright, the tip of his nose and cheeks were flushed by the cold wind, and he looked very simple when looking up at him. Seeing Song Yu did not answer, he stretched out his hand to hold Song Yu's sleeve.
"Yeah." Song Yu nodded.
The heroes and heroines in the movie kissed, and there were one after another whistles and cheers on the open-air playground. Everyone who was in their youth was shy or excited about it.
Le Zhishi heard the sound, looked back, and turned around again, his ears a little red.
Song Yu used to hate crowded places, and hate others to follow the trend, but now unexpectedly find this scene is very beautiful, the only regret is that he can't kiss him here.
"Then you promised me to do it, you can't just talk about it." Lezhishi was very close to him, and he staggered in the noisy crowd and said to Song Yu, "Do you need me to help you do something," I will do it."
Song Yu nodded. He knew that Lezhishi was a person who couldn't tell lies, so he couldn't help but tease him, "Anything?"
Le Zhishi nodded quickly, hardly thinking, but still checked a condition in his extremely low limit for Song Yu, "As long as it is not illegal."
Song Yu was amused by him, "Very worthy of your professionalism."
"Do you remember the sticker I gave you when I was a kid? You only used one." Le Zhishi held his arm.
Song Yu asked, "Have I used it?"
"Used! That summer vacation in your sixth grade, I asked you to play the game console with me in your room." Lezhishi replied quickly, but his expression was not happy when he said the next sentence, "You used a A sticker kept me quiet for half an hour."
But at that time, Song Yu didn't even take out the sticker and write it off to Lezhishi. After he said it, Lezhishi left his room in grief, assuming that he had already used it.
He can indeed do such a thing. Song Yu recalled it for a moment, and some fragments came to mind.
He looked at Le Zhishi's face again and saw him lowering his head in frustration, so he raised his hand and rubbed the top of his hair, "I remember these."
"Then you can't just remember your good." Le Zhishi lowered his head and muttered to himself in a volume that only he could hear, "Otherwise I will be even more helpless."
Song Yu stood for a while and said that the back of the movie was not good, and took Lezhishi's arm to leave the Wuyangyang crowd.
They move forward by feeling. The dark campus is full of all kinds of quiet and secret places, black boxes like easter eggs. They randomly open one, hide in, and receive a long kiss that belongs only to lovers. , And then see the sun again as a brother.
A kiss is not enough, but Lezhishi cannot ask for more.
Restraining desire to take will make Lezhishi fall into a slight sense of loss, but he convinced himself that this is the only way to grow.
On the way, he asked the mentor if he did something that made Song Yu unhappy, but Song Yu didn't answer positively, so Lezhishi didn't ask.
"The cheesecake is delicious, next time we buy another piece and eat it together."
Song Yu said yes.
At 8:30 in the evening, he was sent back to the dormitory by Song Yu. Although very reluctant, Lezhishi thought that he didn't even have time to eat lunch, so he couldn't bear to ask him to spend time on himself.
With a smile on his face, he stood downstairs and waved Song Yu, entered the dormitory building, and stood in the window of the stairs looking for Song Yu's back.
Back at the dormitory, Jiang Yufan was flipping through the review app, discussing which restaurant to go to tomorrow with Lezhishi. He also received a lot of news from Lin Rong, Shen Mi, and senior sister. He replied one by one, but what he thought was Song Yu standing on the playground, saying "tomorrow there will be a lot of people" expression.
He didn't know if what happened before Song Yu came to him, although he was able to pretend, Le Zhishi was very sensitive to Song Yu's emotional perception.
But Song Yu can come to him when he is not happy, talk to him, and then ask for an early birthday of the two. Lezhishi felt that he had improved.
Despite this, Le Zhishi still felt that he needed Song Yu to a degree that far exceeded Song Yu's needs for him. It was a possessiveness and intimacy that even he himself felt unbearable.
Qin Yan’s message was very long. He explained that he would bring his girlfriend to celebrate his birthday tomorrow, and that he had booked a KTV room. Lezhishi said not to spend the money, but did not get an immediate response.
While waiting, Le Zhishi clicked on his profile picture and saw his new circle of friends, which was Mei Cao's outdoor theater and a hand-held photo of him and his girlfriend.
It really was him.
Le Zhishi stared at the photo for a long time, feeling a little envious. He sometimes wanted to show off his lover to everyone, but he had to be patient.
Patience is the last thing he would never do. When I was young, I couldn't bear the pain of allergies and sickness. I couldn't stop crying, and I couldn't bear the happiness and joy. I wanted to express it in my head. Especially for Song Yu's liking, he couldn't hide it for a moment, and wanted to tell him all.
But after being with Song Yu, Le Zhishi also began to learn patience, so that this illegal relationship could last a little longer.
Because I really liked it very much, I started to become timid when I was always happy.
At eleven o'clock, he came out of the shower and put on a fluffy beige fur coat.
The roommate and girlfriend in the opposite shop called. Jiang Yufan took his girlfriend to play games. One roommate was left. He said he was a little hungry and wanted to go to the vending machine downstairs to buy a box of cup noodles.
Le Zhishi went down with him.
"The two of them show their affection in the dormitory every day." When the roommate took a crutch, "Why don't you talk about it, so many girls chase you."
"I have someone I like." Lezhishi said honestly.
"Huh?" The roommate seemed a little flattered by his sudden confession, "It turns out that you will have unrequited love too, I didn't expect it."
Although it was misunderstood, Lezhishi did not explain.
The roommate stood in front of the vending machine, choosing while saying: "The one you like must be very good-looking, and the person should be pretty good."
Lezhishi nodded, "People are very gentle."
This description is placed on Song Yu, and probably no one except him would agree. Only Le Zhishi knows that Song Yu, who always looks cold, has the best and softest heart in the world.
"Gentle people are very persuasive." The roommate seems to be encouraging him, "You can try, maybe she thinks you are very nice and handsome, and then there is no way to refuse you and stay with you. . Isn’t this happy for everyone?"
He chose the noodles, paid the money, and further encouraged: "I heard that the chances of success in confession will be doubled on birthday."
After a sound, the roommate took away the bottom surface of the vending machine.
But Le Zhishi fell into confusion because of his words.
"Do people really agree to dating because they can't refuse?" Le Zhishi asked.
"Yes." My roommate said, "The girl I like in high school has been confessed several times by me, and she has been with me. But I can still feel that she doesn't really like me so much, so after graduating from high school, we separated. She has a very gentle personality and doesn't like to reject others, so she thinks she can give it a try."
"Is that so?" Lezhishi said depressed, "it makes sense, especially if you cry when you confess, it will be even more troublesome."
The roommate was amused by him, "This trick can only be used by girls, right?"
He tossed the cup noodles in his hand, leaning against the vending machine and asked Lezhi, "Lele, do you want to have something to eat? This pudding is delicious, I will treat you to it."
Le Zhishi said no, he didn't want to eat it, thinking about the evidence that Song Yu liked him very much. He felt that there was too much, so he shouldn't be so concerned about gains and losses.
Standing tangledly for two seconds, Le Zhishi finally asked his roommate to buy him one, but he would give him the money. The roommate waved his hand again and again, and what he said was a little bit romantic, "Then you treat it as my last gift for you at the age of eighteen."
"Thank you." After taking the pudding, Le Zhishi slowly followed his roommate, walked a few steps, and turned back.
"What are you doing?" When the roommate looked at Lezhi who was heading towards the door of the dormitory, he shouted again, "Access control!"
"I know, I won't be back tonight." Le Zhishi took the pudding and ran out without looking back.
He didn't have a cell phone or navigation. He ran for a long time in the dark campus. In the end, he came to Song Yu's college almost based on the instinct he had left over so many days with Song Yu.
Standing panting downstairs in Song Yu's dormitory, Le Zhishi tried his best to calm his breath, and mustered up the courage to go to the window of Auntie Suguan. Seeing that he was wearing a pajama with a completely unfamiliar face, the aunt asked him what he was doing here and which building he was from.
Le Zhishi answered all of them one by one, still panting. It looked abnormal, which made the aunt very suspicious.
"I'm looking for Song Yu, he lives in 418."
"Why are you looking for him? It's so late. You are not allowed to go to the building casually from different colleges."
"I..." Le Zhishi immediately wanted to say that it was his younger brother, but he didn't want to say it, so he stuck in front of the small window.
A man walked behind him and approached him a little bit. He was a handsome boy wearing a pair of black-rimmed glasses. He glanced at Le Zhishi several times, then came forward and patted his shoulder. , "Are you Lezhishi?"
"right."
This is an unfamiliar face, Le Zhishi was a little surprised, "Do you know me?"
"Yes." He smiled, "Are you looking for Song Yu in a hurry?"
Le Zhishi thought that giving a cheap pudding shouldn't be an urgent matter. He was even embarrassed to show it to others as an excuse, so he was silent.
"It's okay, didn't you take your phone?" When the boy looked at Lezhi, he passed him directly and greeted the aunt in the glass window, "Auntie, this is Song Yu's brother. I can take him up to find him. Brother?"
The aunt looked suspicious, but the boy and the aunt seemed to have a very good relationship, and the auntie was very happy with a few words, so she let go of Le Zhishi.
"You said it was his brother earlier, why didn't you say it when I asked you?"
Lezhishi was still reluctant to speak.
"I'm going out soon, I can't stay overnight."
"I know auntie, good night." The boy took Le Zhishi to the top of the stairs before introducing himself, "I am Song Yu's roommate, and my name is Chen Fangyuan."
"Hello, senior." Le Zhishi greeted quickly, but was a little curious, "How do you know about me, senior? Have you seen me?"
"I have seen it, Song Yu and you eat in the cafeteria. I have seen it several times. Song Yu almost had a fight with the law school for you. This matter has been passed on in our class for several rounds."
Chen Fangyuan laughed again, "It's also miraculous. I didn't expect that the cold guy like Song Yu is actually a dead brother." After that, he explained, "I'm just joking, don't mind."
Le Zhishi shook his head, followed Chen Fangyuan to the door of their dormitory, and hesitated again, "Can I go in?"
"Yes." Chen Fangyuan opened the door and found that there was no one inside, "Huh? Your brother hasn't returned yet, maybe he's in the laboratory. Why don't you wait in his seat for a while."
This is still the dormitory that Lezhishi is familiar with. It seems that it was yesterday to come here to hide from the rain. He glanced at the bed that Song Yu had slept with, and it was still the same as before.
Chen Fangyuan walked to the table opposite Song Yu's bed, took off his coat and took out his phone, "I'll call your brother, sit down, the cleanest seat is his."
Le Zhishi passed obediently. Song Yu's table was not much different from before. The furnishings were almost the same, except that there was an object in the corner, which was covered by a black velvet cover, and I couldn't see what it was.
When the phone didn't answer, Chen Fangyuan turned around, and when he saw Lezhi's hand touched the black cloth cover on Song Yu's desk, he immediately stopped him, "Hey brother, don't touch him, be careful when he comes back and scolds you."
Le Zhishi turned his face suspiciously, but did not close his hand. He looked at the nervous look on Chen Fangyuan's face, but the first sentence of his words was, "He won't scold me."
Chen Fangyuan looked like his little ancestor had never seen the world before. He bowed his head and quickly edited a WeChat message and posted it, then walked to Lezhishi's side, "That's not necessarily true. Your brother, thief, baby, don't let anyone touch it. At first, I was afraid of falling ash and water, so I covered it with a glass cover. Later, when the glass cover accumulated dust, he found a flannel to cover it. 80% of it was given to him by my future sister-in-law."
He added, "If it can be done."
Listening to Chen Fangyuan talking about this ornament with great affection, Le Zhishi felt a little bit stunned. He had never seen anything as precious as Song Yu.
He stretched out his hand again, "I want to see."
Chen Fangyuan thought to herself, what this kid didn't listen to, "Okay, then you be careful, or I'm afraid your brother will come back and talk to you."
"He won't." Le Zhishi said this with a little breath, and took off the cloth cover.
The next second, he froze in place.
The globe in the glass cover was the globe made by Song Yu during the summer vacation after he graduated from junior high school for many nights.
Le Zhishi almost forgot the existence of this thing. He thought that Song Yu would not like it at all. He thought it would have been thrown in a certain corner long ago.
He knew that there was always some kind of information gap between himself and Song Yu. Song Yu's feelings are like clues that are well buried one by one, deep jigsaw pieces.
It is rare to get a small piece for Le Zhishi, and Song Yu's liking for him can be restored in his heart.
But that is always incomplete, so he will doubt it.
Twenty minutes before the age of nineteen, Lezhishi obtained a very important clue.
However, he became extremely greedy because of this. The jigsaw puzzles thrown out made him impatient, and he only wanted a complete Song Yu. This idea was extremely urgent.
Chen Fangyuan's phone vibrated, and he immediately connected.
"Hey, yes, I let him come up when it's cold. I thought you were in the dormitory... Your brother didn't bring a cell phone..." As Chen Fangyuan looked at Lezhi again, "... It looks like nothing happened." , It should be okay, ah, okay..."
Just after speaking, the door of the dormitory opened. Le Zhishi and Chen Fangyuan looked over together. It was Song Yu who was rarely flustered.
"What kind of calls are you making when you are up, wasting the phone bill." Chen Fangyuan hung up.
Song Yu breathed steadily, and walked forward without even noticing the globe on the table, only Le Zhi Shi in his eyes.
"Is it all right?" He whispered, "Why come here without saying a word."
"I..." Le Zhishi didn't know what to say to him, saying that he missed him very much and wanted to change his mind to stay by his side, taking the last few minutes to spend the zero point of his birthday with him, or should it be temporary The crappy reason that he made up was that he just heard that a certain pudding was not bad, and sent him to eat most of the campus in the middle of the night.
I still admit that I am suffering from gains and losses for no reason and need to be comforted.
Song Yu seemed to understand something, and took Le Zhishi's wrist and walked out.
"Hey." Chen Fangyuan called him from behind, "What are you going to do?" He ran to the door, "Don't lose your temper with your brother."
Song Yu only left one sentence, "I won't be back at night, so I don't have to leave the door for me."
Song Yu took Le Zhishi downstairs. Auntie was no longer on duty at the door. They left the dormitory and had nowhere else to go.
Looking at the cotton slippers on Le Zhishi's feet, Song Yu had to drag him around to the woods a few hundred meters behind the dormitory. There was an empty open-air parking lot with few people. Song Yu was used to park his car here.
After getting in the car, Song Yu adjusted the temperature of the air conditioner before asking what happened to Lezhishi.
Le Zhishi still didn't speak. He looked at Song Yu with a sore nose, but he couldn't tell whether it was guilt caused by misunderstanding him or the touch after seeing the globe.
"What's wrong, Lele." Song Yu called his nickname, and touched his face that was blown cold by the wind. Suddenly, Le Zhishi couldn't help it. He sat on the co-pilot and hugged Song Yu sideways, burying his face on his side of the neck.
"I want to celebrate my birthday with you."
Hearing this sentence, Song Yu's body was visibly relaxed, and when he hugged Lezhi back, "You can tell me."
"I won't worry about running directly." He touched Lezhishi's back.
"It's very temporary this time, I didn't want to come out." Le Zhishi explained to himself, and then thought of the roommate's words, without thinking about it, and let Song Yu listen to it.
"He said that his ex-girlfriend is also a very good person, because he can't refuse his confession and stay with him. Then I think of you. When I think of my confession, I was particularly embarrassed and sick. You definitely can't refuse. but… "
He rubbed Song Yu’s shoulder, his nose was a bit blocked, "But I really like you, I don’t want to be separated after kissing you. You said you want to celebrate my birthday alone in advance, but in fact, I only have my entire birthday. I want to give it to you."
He was agitated, his speech was very unorganized, and his logic was illogical. Song Yu tried to straighten it out and found a point that was no longer important to Lezhishi.
"Do you think I don't like you that much?"
Le Zhishi got up from him and shook his head, "No, I just... Sometimes I don’t know how much you like it, but I just think it’s definitely not like me. I want you to rely more on me... I don’t know myself. Why do you think so. But I just saw that globe."
Song Yu's eyes changed. After a few seconds, he asked: "Does that make you believe that I actually like you?"
Le Zhishi looked at him and nodded, "Yes, I know now."
Song Yu chuckled lightly, but there was not much smile in his eyes.
"you do not know."
Fake birthday cakes and candles bring the joy of advancement, and there is one last minute to the true nineteen years old.
"I use words like this to accommodate you," Song Yu said.
"Because liking sounds harmless, not so profound, and doesn't have a lot of possessiveness, but in fact I am very paranoid. Do you know why I don't remember using the stickers you sent?"
Le Zhishi looked at him, "Why?"
In the darkness, the seconds of the watch were beating little by little, like the sound of a countdown.
"Because I keep all of them, every one is there, I clearly remember there are ten, and I will count them every year when I clean them." Song Yuming smiled, but his face was very pale.
"Do you think these things are something an ordinary brother would do?"
"The watch you gave me, the four-leaf clover that you gave me that has withered and shattered, the old used calendar... everything is there, hidden by me. The same goes for the globe."
"You didn't ask when I fell in love with you before. To be honest, I really couldn't find a specific time. Maybe it was thirteen or six. I can't tell."
three-
"The only thing I know is that I have insomnia for you countless times."
two-
"If I can fall asleep, I will have many dreams about you that I shouldn't have."
one.
Song Yu looked into his eyes with a dumb voice, "I don't like you. I love you when Lezhi."
The 19-year-old Le Zhishi finally got the birthday gift he needed, a Song Yu who was completely exposed to him.