On the second night in the hotel, Le Zhishi and Song Yu took a long bath in the bathtub with beautiful floor-to-ceiling windows.
Outside the window was squally rainy, but with very shiny neon lights, Le Zhishi leaned back in Song Yu's arms and stared out of the window, feeling staring at a delicate Christmas glass ball. The scene inside was very unreal.
Later, Song Yu held his chin from behind, gently asked him to raise his head, and then lowered his head to kiss Le Zhishi's forehead. He felt that it was himself that was not true.
They are the ones trapped in the glass ball.
Before going to bed at night, Song Yu sat on the bed and said that he wanted to read Lezhishi's diary. He was just talking about it. Lezhishi actually took out more than one diary.
"Why do you still bring these when you run so far?" Song Yu took a random book from several unfolded books and opened it to read it.
Le Zhishi had a natural expression, "I thought you were still working outside. In case you can't sleep again, if you call me, I can read it to you."
Song Yu asked casually, "What if I don't call?"
"Then..." Lezhishi pursed her lips, and pretended to turn the page easily, "Then go back, it's not too heavy."
Within two seconds, Le Zhishi said to himself, "But you should call me, I think." He emphasized in a tone that didn't know whether to convince himself or Song Yu, "Song Yu, Your sleep quality is really poor."
He did not expect that this irrefutable fact would also be refuted by Song Yu.
"It's not that my sleep quality is poor."
"Then you let me read the diary every day."
Song Yu lowered his head, pinching Lezhishi's clean and slender fingertips, "That's because I miss you so much."
Le Zhishi didn't expect him to be so straightforward all of a sudden, and he stuttered a bit, "Then, before that, you were still eating that melatonin."
"The same reason." Song Yu said softly.
Maybe there are still people who don't know how to face the confusion and suffering in the future. After all, for someone like Song Yu who can't wait to complete the plan on time and step by step, sure is the most important thing.
Impossible unrequited love is not so painful, at least [impossible] is already certain. But what he is facing is a feeling that is possible but will pull each other into the abyss.
Le Zhishi kissed Song Yu's profile softly, "I miss you too."
He whispered again, "I'm used to thinking of you."
I picked a diary that looked silly and read it to Song Yu when Lezhishi.
"I ran into brother Xiaoyu’s classmate at the commissary today. Actually, I don’t have money. I’m so poor. The classmate asked me to accompany him to buy spicy strips. Then, brother Xiaoyu’s classmates said I was cute and gave me one. My classmate also gave me half a packet of spicy noodles."
While listening to Song Yu, he flipped through the other diary in his hand. It was different from what Le Zhishi read. This diary seemed to be written by him in the first year of junior high school. The characters have become better and read a lot, no longer crooked, look. Get the traces of growth.
[School started today, the classmates are all very nice, they even asked me to drink milk tea after school, but I was not very happy. ]
Le Zhishi continued to read, "Although I have no money, but luckily I have a brother, so I can get a pack of milk candy for free."
Song Yu looked down.
[Why don’t you let me call my brother? I don’t understand. If I don’t let others know about our relationship, don’t I want to be my brother so much
After school, Jiang Yufan and I were at the entrance of the milk tea shop and saw my brother buying teaching assistants in the bookstore. He had seen me too, but he left straight away. I felt a hole in my heart. Obviously I drank a lot of sweet milk tea, but I couldn't feel it. Maybe it all came out of the hole.
Not sweet at all, I feel painful and bitter.
I want to go back to elementary school. ]
"It's so funny, why have I liked white prostitution since I was young." Lezhishi turned to another page, and his thoughts were still on this page. I can’t even eat, I’m so pitiful, God gave me a cheating face, but took away the skills that I can eat at will.”
Feeling that Song Yu has been unresponsive, Le Zhishi turned his face and looked up at him, "Are you listening?"
Song Yu gave a hum and closed the diary in his hand.
"Do you still want to read it? Or just go to sleep."
Song Yu touched his face, "Go to sleep. Your voice is still a little dumb, so you don't read it anymore."
Le Zhishi said yes, then lay down and urged Song Yu to turn off the light. The wind outside was loud and exaggerated, as if this gorgeous high-rise building might be swept away by the wind or collapsed instantly, everything is precarious.
The lights in the room dimmed, and Song Yu did not completely turn off. He left a warm yellow bedside lamp and lay down face to face with Lezhishi, staring silently at Lezhishi's face. He always subconsciously thinks about how to avoid risks, but in the end he willfully pulls everything into a situation different from what he imagined.
He wanted to know how to portray Lezhishi as a victim in front of his parents, without being punished by them, but he believed that they were truly in love with each other, not a unilateral coax, and could be forgiven.
Song Yu can accept any consequences, but he doesn't want to suffer when he knows it.
Write it down in your diary when you don’t want to see Lezhi, [I want to go back to before we were together].
For this reason, Song Yu even began to think if.
"Lele."
Hearing Song Yu calling him, Lezhi opened his eyes and moved to Song Yu's side, with a soft nasal sound in his voice, "Huh?"
"If I'm not with you."
He didn't even finish asking the question.
Lezhishi didn't know what he was going to say later, whether it was other assumptions he had already thought of, or just asked "what do you want to do", but these made no difference to Lezhishi.
Do not speak when you are happy.
He rarely fails to answer Song Yu's questions.
When he saw Lezhi, his eyes were red, his eyes avoided him, looking in other directions, and seeing his chest rising and falling due to deep breathing, Song Yu could not continue. When he quickly leaned in and hugged Lezhi, he was somewhat forcefully trapped in his arms, saying that he was just asking casually and had no other meaning.
But Le Zhishi still didn't speak, because of his silence, Song Yu gave up many thoughts in his mind for a moment.
"I won't ask such boring questions in the future." Song Yu kissed Lezhishi's earlobe, and promised him very low and lightly, "It's impossible for us not to be together."
Le Zhishi hugged Song Yu's waist and buried his face in his collarbone.
He can no longer tell the lies of [I will leave you to live alone].
Song Yu had a very repetitive dream all night, dreaming of the endless black sea. He and Le Zhishi were huddled in a dilapidated boat and cuddling with each other. He likes the future that can be seen at a glance, but he is stuck in a directionless sea.
For a while later, when Lezhi, who was in his arms, suddenly stood up, walked to the side of the ship, looking forward to the world outside the ship, Song Yu in the dream was a little panicked, but he found that he could not move. Watching Le Zhishi stand beside the boat.
Fortunately, he didn't jump off when he finally Lezhi, he returned to Song Yu, touched his arm, and then hugged him.
The ship did not sail to any island, and Song Yu woke up as the day broke. He found that Lezhi was right when he said that his sleep quality is indeed not very good.
Le Zhishi was still sticking to him, fingers lightly placed on Song Yu's arm, his breathing was even and long, and his curled up posture was very similar to his dream.
As soon as he woke up, he was a little confused. Song Yu wanted to get up and drink a glass of water, but as soon as he sat up, he felt that his hands were caught by something. He looked back, and raised the grabbed hand again, and found a slender black ribbon, which was tied to his wrist sometime.
Following the clues, he found the other end.
He tied Lezhishi's right hand.
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Typhoon left Guangzhou with them, and then parted ways.
The past few days in Guangzhou are like dreams, good but unreal. Back to a familiar school, Le Zhishi thought again, it seems that it is not just Guangzhou.
Every day after being with Song Yu is like a dream.
He fell asleep again when Lezhi was on the high-speed rail, and when he woke up, he found that he was holding something in his hand. Song Yu pretended not to know anything, and let Lezhishi hold his arm to ask a lot of questions, such as "Is this a gift you gave me for going out", "When did it get into my hand" and so on. Until Song Yu felt that he was a bit noisy to others, turned his head and kissed him on the lips, and then admitted.
"This is not actually picked up, but the ore I bought from a local." Song Yu was very honest.
"That's okay, I don't think you can pick up so many precious stones." Lezhishi touched the ore in his hand, and the cut surface showed a very shiny dark green. "What kind of stone is this?"
"Hidden jade."
"Tibet?" Le Zhishi raised his eyes to look at him, "Tibet in Tibet?"
"Um."
Lezhi thought of the other pronunciations of the first word, and then suddenly became happy.
"I like this name." Lezhishi held it with her cherished hands and pressed it to her chest.
"I want to hide him."
When he was in Guangzhou, he bought many special products and wanted to take them back to Lin Rong, but when he went back, he found that he didn't have time to go home to see her. Lezhishi was busy catching up with the coursework and the moot court that followed, and left almost all of his spare time to the art festival.
They got the fabric, and Tuo Xiaoqi's blessing also found a garment processing factory willing to cooperate with their group of students, and then held meetings over and over again, revising the design, making patterns, and revising again. Nan Jia spends all his time training models. Lezhishi occasionally revises the manuscript to be exhausted, so she ran to watch them walk and relax.
"I think it's suitable for you to play on your own. It's much more suitable than the stupid guys on these basketball teams." Nan Jia teased him, "You don't need to have a small face."
Le Zhishi stretched out, sat cross-legged in front of a large mirror, and looked at her long legs very comfortably, "That won't work, I have to rely on talent to eat. And I want to make a lot of money."
"Why do you suddenly want to make a lot of money?" Nan Jia thought he was cute.
"Ah..." Le Zhishi felt that the reason could not be explained, and scratched his hair, "I just suddenly felt the importance of money."
Nan Jia gave a long cry and saw that someone had a problem with his steps, and quickly got up to give guidance.
Le Zhishi looked over, his eyes rolled over several other people who were practicing the steps, and finally saw a figure that gave him a familiar feeling, and he almost missed it.
But it is not.
"Sister Nan Jia, this boy," he pointed to Nan Jia, "Can you give me his contact information?"
"I want him to try my closed show clothes."
Lezhishi came out of the dancing classroom for practice and plunged into his homework again. He stayed up late in a self-study classroom. When he came out, the corridor was very cold. Suddenly he missed Song Yu. In the week they came back, they were so busy that they could only eat together or meet on the basketball court. This sudden social distancing made Lezhishi often in a daze, and often thought of the days when she was intimate in Guangzhou.
Stopping in front of a coffee vending machine, Lezhi clicked the screen hesitantly, wondering whether he wanted a latte or a macchiato. Finally, he finally made up his mind and chose one. When he bowed his head and was about to take out his mobile phone, there were many around him. Make a figure.
Raising his head, Le Zhishi saw Song Yu stretch out his hand and canceled the options that had been selected on the screen.
He put a glass bottle of hot milk in Lezhishi's hand, "Now drinking coffee, don't you plan to go to bed?"
Very real heat was transferred to the skin, and Lezhishi was dull for several seconds before asking him, "Why are you here?"
Song Yu did not directly answer his question, but took off the scarf from his neck, and then circled Lezhi Time and Space around his neck, "Listen to Nan Jia that you are still in the self-study classroom and come out of the laboratory. Come here by the way."
It takes nearly twenty minutes to walk between his laboratory and this self-study classroom.
A gradual sweetness rose in Le Zhishi's heart. A pair of girls walked next to them. One of them looked at them and waited for them to pass. Le Zhishi got closer and said to Song Yu with a smile, " You came by a coincidence, I was thinking of you just now."
Song Yu felt that he would not get used to it for the rest of his life when he showed his love for Le Zhishi straightforwardly. He said that again and again, Song Yu's heartbeat would speed up slightly, and then lose a little measure, like a cat with its tail touched. Although he hates to lose the superficial calmness, if it is in this matter, he thinks it is good.
He hoped that Lezhishi would show his love to him for the rest of his life.
In the middle of the night, along the dark road with no one on campus, Lezhi boldly held Song Yu's finger from time to time. His hands were warmed by the milk, and he held them very comfortably. Once there was a sound, he would let go in a panic, and finally found that it was just a stray cat.
Before Song Yu sent him back to the dormitory, he walked him through a small forest, not far from Lezhishi’s dormitory. When he was not in a hurry, he occasionally looked at it a few more times because of the unknown plants grown here. The tree will become very beautiful in autumn, a golden leaf, and the dead leaves like butterflies will slowly fall down.
At night, it was pitch black and there was not such a beautiful scenery. Even the fallen leaves were like dark clouds on the wrong path.
The dead leaves all over the ground made a rustling sound. Lezhishi took Song Yu's hand to a big tree with retaliation, and walked around the tree, because in this way, once someone passing by hears it, They would guess that there is a couple here.
But they can't see, and they won't find him and Song Yu. Darkness is his umbrella.
"Is it fun?" Song Yu asked him in a low voice.
Before he had time to answer, before he had time to raise his foot and step on one more step, Lezhi Shi suddenly heard the sound of broken leaves coming from the other direction.
"Someone is coming." Le Zhishi dragged Song Yu to the back of the tree. He wanted to hide in Song Yu's coat, but Song Yu's coat was buttoned up, so Le Zhishi was anxious to unbutton his, pull off his clothes, and then get in. This picture is a bit strange. .
The woods are not small, and the two people whose footsteps are scattered are different from what Lezhishi expected. They seem to have stopped not far away.
He pressed against Song Yu's chest, Song Yu pressed against the tree, and both of them kept quiet.
But another unsuspecting couple did not hold Lezhishi's pure purpose of "stepping on fallen leaves". They said a few words, the girl’s voice was very playful, they played cute jokes, and the boys were pretending to be angry. In his tone, he said that if he said anything, he would kiss her.
"I have to say... Um!"
After that, Lezhishi could only hear the sound of water and gasping for kissing.
This situation was a bit embarrassing. He hid in Song Yu's arms, his cheeks burned badly, as if he was drunk, even though he had never been drunk even once. The sound became clearer, and Le Zhishi subconsciously wanted to get away from Song Yu's embrace, but as soon as his body moved, Song Yu's arm was wrapped around his waist.
Lifting his head, he looked at Song Yu's handsome face in the dark, and met him.
Song Yu warned him with an aura that only two people could hear, "Retreat and you will be found."
The smashed dead leaves can't hide the secret.
Le Zhishi's heart beat so fast, he couldn't move, and he tried hard not to listen to the secret affection of others, and lowered his head shyly, secretly regretting his decision to bring Song Yu in.
But he was hugged by Song Yu, and the metal buckle on Song Yu's belt was worn like the situation at this time. When Lezhi, his chest was intimately pressed against his chest, even Song Yu said that the cold and good smell of his body changed. Ambiguous and hot.
When Song Yu lowered his head and pressed his lips to the tips of Le Zhishi's ears, the fragrance enveloped his unspeakable thoughts like a mist.
He opened his mouth and kidnapped Lezhishi's reservedness with a gentle voice.
"Do you really want to kiss me?"