Unconsciously, this feeling will appear when I need it most. However, this feeling has never been called by prayer or request. However, as long as one direction is ignored, it will always cause me. Notice.
It was at this point that I observed something clearer than ever.
When we were driving in a seamless environment, when we were sitting in the back seat, we did not notice any special features of the city around us. The ideas and concepts of this place work, but they don’t want to interrupt their process. They have never completely risked and stopped some miracles, otherwise they will just fade out of the abstract white dreams and more often they are completely relics of fantasy that they have explored.
Since the youth, this factory has witnessed war and the meaning of war, not just observing that war broke all our memories of existence, the young model we desperately insisted on. Because once we experience the conflict between Europe and the world, we will get old. tired. Not only our values have changed, but more importantly, our understanding of things outside of life is imposed on us. This understanding has been rooted in our thoughts when we were born. , But it is hidden in our cherished beliefs and reasoning, and comes with the slaughter.
Looking out the window, thinking about why life needs order, the requirements of justice, the fragrance of swaying palm trees and the cool air filled the carriages, exacerbating the difference between the two just a year ago, standing in Stalingrad and Berlin, Examining the ruined world we actually brought, wondering if it's worth it. Memories down and glanced down at my dirty and tattered boots. There was a doll who had lost her body. The strands of her hair, which might have been golden, were left on the half-broken head. Staring at the gray and smoky sky, knowing that he might never see the sun again. I became a simple toy, just like so many toys waiting for the master to appear.
It's because of weight. Other people say the same, their voice is very low, and they don't want other people to hear or wake up something deeper. Some animals they don't want anymore, at least a temporary probation, however, let them survive the war. Worst of all, they know they will rise again.
Once discharged from the army, all I seek is peace, and I quite hope to find a person’s life. There is a family that forgets all the past lives. Four years have brought the end, and a new one will arrive, because we all say what we want most. What are we seeing and doing more.
Most people have done this.
However, when boarding the flight back to the world, Europe and Asia were not affected by bombs and deaths due to the injuries of Rì himself, and were escorted to another building at the air force base by three military policemen. Their number was any normal human being. It feels twice that the army did not complete the mission, even though my order indicated that the discharge took less than eight hours to let me celebrate ZìYóu when the plane landed in New York, with a long bathroom and a well-arranged hotel room. And look forward to it critically.
Fifteen minutes later, my escort----one of the two people in front stopped in front of a door without any special marks----he paused for a while, the door opened immediately, and the lead Jǐng guard I took a step forward and let me enter the room. At first glance, my eyes couldn't adjust because it was dark. The Jǐng newspaper rang immediately, like when danger comes or is already shaking and telling me that this is not what I believe. Suddenly, they were interrupted by a heavy grunt from somewhere in the darkness of the room. This sound directly notified Guardian Jǐng, who immediately evacuated and disappeared into the hall. These three people, just like one person representing everyone, have the same behavior of absolute obedience, absolute obedience without a doubt, and without hesitation into the inner world they have, because they definitely don't have their own inner world.
Wait, let the eyes have time to adjust and become the perfect silhouette. When you realize this, the door opens and you may tremble to hear. After years of extreme caution, even the simplest elements can grow without being indifferent, but stand now. In the obvious is the main evil and the motto of the counterintelligence; never be seen.
"Come in before you get shot, Ruth, you stupid idiot." said a stern voice. He didn't hide the fact that he knew my real name like a handful of people, claiming that he wanted to know that he was. Not really stupid, because the real ID is one of the best kept secrets in this industry. Even those who work in this field, those who are killed, loved, drunk, and have no life, have never realized my true identity. Now, the idiot blew it out like a trumpet.
Only three people know my name now, and this bastard is not one of them. The initial fear suddenly swept away, and was replaced by a disgusting indifference to this person. When the lights in the room flickered, the big mouth was sitting on the other side of a small table, smiling and looking at me with quick eyes. Tell me that the connection between us was limited to intellectual work, although he did not. much better.
Even the best agents have difficulty controlling eye movements. You can see that their eyes are moving too fast to gather information. Most agents, and even more experience, have betrayed them and caused a fatal mistake, their own death and those who participated in or at least a lost mission. Of course, being caught in a place where interrogation often leads to leaking information is another aspect, and being caught is clear enough.
However, all of this is instinctive, because for the first time we realize that the world around us is human. We are visual animals. Sight is better than everything. Without the intervention of higher wisdom, we would have died a few centuries ago; during training, we would say to each other "the dying monkeys on the plane". In front of me is a baboon.
Russell Talber, as I once thought. Come in, fuck in, close the door, he half smiles, and the other doesn’t know what tightens the air between us, neither of these two, but I walked through the door and immediately guessed what other surprises might be waiting for .
This is a simple room with only a simple table, a folder on it, and a chair. And he was still a stupid innocent man. But he holds the power. Its breath is in the air. Suffocating.
"I want to ask you to sit down, but..." He tried to express humor with his hands in the air, while bending over and twisting his head, indicating that it was a joke, when one animal succumbed to another animal When he bowed his knees, he didn't have any supremacy, because he was just inside.
Close the door less than three feet from the table, because the room is like a large walk-in closet with hands on your sides. calm. wait. Ready. I think there are only two possibilities here: the guard will come back and beat me up, or I have to do what this man wants.
What is this man? His almost bald head either gleamed from some kind of sweat that didn’t shed sweat, or just stayed there somehow, the gleaming light bulb swayed slowly from a foot above, and his eyes were almost black. , Observing my every movement sharply, thinking about every idea of mine, and always countering my actions, just like people in this industry have always done. Even queuing to receive food rations. Waiting for the bus. To the restroom. When you are awake, your mind never relaxes. will never.
Always see the option, the "if" aspect is imminent. Ghosts have no shape to attack from any direction at any time and must be prepared, so you play this endless escape or counterattack practice game, so many, you find it difficult to understand what It is true. The other side of the destined officer; the two cannot be distinguished. Or didn't see it when the danger appeared. Usually, the latter is caused by too much "practice".
In our training, we were all told by Jǐng about this; thought is the most powerful weapon you have. Useful, destructive, support you, and oppose you. Training how to process and manage to control the changes in the body and mind that affect adrenaline, and take appropriate steps when this happens. We have also taken medicines that make us more awake and do not need sleep. Can focus clearly. Perform cāo operations more consistently, reducing the possibility of errors. Our immunity to pain is reduced. The most profound thing is that we believe in ourselves. Our confidence has expanded a hundredfold. Fear is eliminated and replaced by a correct understanding and connection with our surrounding environment.
Some people say that this medicine is called "DonaX" because it makes you feel that you can do anything before and after the ** because you are relaxed and have a better understanding of the world, but there is no direct contact with it . The superfluous situation simply passes you; you become more focused on the task at hand, because for a moment you desire a strong power; after a high chao a calm. But I feel this.
The doctor instructed it to last for an hour. For the next day or two, you will feel exhausted. But the more you take it, the shorter its duration and the longer the side effects will appear. The doctor simply told us to take more medicine. Because of our mission and ourselves, it quickly got out of control. We want to escape from what we are doing. This is a way to avoid getting drunk, and not to deal with a hangover or living life, because you don't have this kind of hope when you take medicine. Xìng feeling, longing, but completely out of the way. (To be continued) (End of this chapter)