Su Cheng looked up and looked at him for a long while, "If I can foresee the future, it won't be so painful now."
Xiaoding looked at her and said sharply: "But what I can foresee is that without this child, you will lose the person you love most in your life. Is it really worth the bet?"
Seeing Su Cheng fell silent, Molly said again: "Sister Cheng, what Mr Qin treats you, we are all in our eyes. Especially when Xingbao is sick this time, I heard that he gave a lot of important work Push it, it’s really hard to find such a good man again. Sister Cheng, you really have to think about it."
Su Cheng leaned on the back of the cold chair, looked ahead, his eyes lost focus, and Qin Lizheng's words repeatedly appeared in his ears.
The two left, and Su Cheng returned to the ward. Xingbao was already awake, staring at her with a pair of dark eyes and smiling.
Su Cheng immediately smiled and walked over, "My little handsome guy woke up, is there anything that feels uncomfortable?"
Xingbao's moon eyes were slightly curved with a smile, and he shook his head, "Xingbao is a healthy baby, so he is not uncomfortable."
Su Cheng heard this, knowing that her son was deliberately making herself happy, and her heart suddenly softened. She stretched out her slender fingers and touched his forehead, "Xing Bao is really good, and I have to take medicine later, okay?"
"Yeah! Xingbao is the best! I'm not afraid of taking medicine and injections! Grandma said that my mother is very tired recently, so I will be obedient." Xingbao bulged her small mouth, glanced at her secretly, and asked cautiously. , "Mom, is it for Xingbao, you are so hard?"
"Why?" Su Cheng raised his mouth, "Xingbao is the best-behaved kid in the world. It's too late to be happy because my mother has you."
Xingbao grinned and giggled. The white to almost transparent face was illuminated by the sun, making it more crystal clear, like a little angel.
"Then Xingbao and mother will always be together, OK?"
He stretched out his little finger and hooked Su Cheng's little finger.
"Yeah." Su Cheng nodded vigorously and hooked the soft little finger, "Let's pull the hook."
Seeing her son's sensibility and optimism beyond ordinary people, Su Cheng secretly swears in her heart that she will save Xingbao no matter how much it costs.
At this time, the nurse came in and reminded her that the operation was about to come and asked her to prepare.
Fu Hui looked at her, but stopped talking.
Su Cheng smiled and wanted her to relax, and at the same time cheered herself up, "Xingbao, can you let grandma play with you for a while? Mom has something to do, and I won't be back in the afternoon."
"Yeah! Mom, go ahead!" Xingbao was very sensible.
Fu Hui quietly wiped away her tears, "Chengcheng... Take care of yourself."
"Well, I know Mom."
At the end of the signing, the doctor asked her again: "Have you really thought about it?"
Perhaps the air conditioner in the doctor's office was too full, and Su Cheng's palms oozeed a little cold sweat. She regained her concentration and nodded firmly, "Well, I'm done."
At this moment, the door was slammed open, followed by the obstructing nurse, "Sir, you can't go in!"
In the next second, a figure swept in.
Before he could react, Su Cheng was dragged out.
Su Cheng only felt that the sky was spinning around for a while, and then, the familiar smell surrounded her, lingering in her breath.
Qin Lizheng took her to the front, only his tight figure could be seen, he walked quickly across the corridor, and Qin Lizheng didn't stop until he got out of the building.
Su Cheng stood in front of him, a pale little face filled with anger, and stubbornness flashed in his black and white eyes, "What I have decided will not change."
Standing ten centimeters away from her, Qin Lizheng had blue eyes, apparently staying up all night.
"Su Cheng, do you have to do this to me?" He gritted his teeth and asked.
His tone was strong, his red eyes and haggard expression were all accusations against her. But gradually, he lowered his eyes and his voice was low: "Don't be so cruel..."
Su Cheng raised his eyes, Qin Lizheng seemed to be arrogant, never asking anyone, but now he made repeated exceptions in front of her.
In her mind, two extreme moods were intertwined at the same time.
After a while, she lowered her head to avoid his gaze, "I can't bet on the smallest chance."
"I promised you, I will do my best, and I will definitely find a way to save Xingbao..." At this moment, in his soft voice, there was helplessness, and even more low and unspeakable pleading.
She suspected that she had misheard, and she had made up her mind, but at this moment she was shaken again.
Su Chengbei bit her lower lip fiercely, trying to keep herself awake, so as not to lose her heart all of a sudden.
She raised her head and looked at him, saying every word, "Xingbao got leukemia, which is the kind of disease that will die! My only chance is my uterus! Here I can give birth to another baby to help him. Overcome this difficulty! So, what do you want me to do? Take up this only opportunity?"
She choked with red eyes, "Azheng, it's not that I am cruel, but that I can't stand by and watch this last chance be ruined! Yes, I know that doing this may not save him 100%, and I am very likely. I didn’t even find the child’s father... But I have to try. If I don’t even try, I will never forgive myself in my life! Can you understand?"
Qin Lizheng did not speak for a long time after hearing the words.
Time seems to stand still.
Finally, he raised his head, his eyes gradually turned indifferent, sneered self-deprecatingly, his eyes were mocking, "What can I say?"
Su Cheng squeezed his fists, telling himself not to see him, not to feel distressed, and not to shrink...
Qin Lizheng took a deep breath, and his pure black pupils tightened instantly, "Su Cheng, I don't think I can forgive him."
Su Cheng turned his face away, enduring tears that were about to win her eyes. At this moment, the pain in the bottom of her heart, I am afraid that only she can understand.
But this is the road she chose, no matter how rugged it is, she has no other choice.
Qin Lizheng left.
She walked into the operating room, with incandescent lamps of extremely high wattage turned on, and the room illuminated by it was pale.
Su Cheng was wearing a blue-green surgical gown, and above her head was a huge surgical lamp, with a strong light shining on her face, even if she closed her eyes, it was blood-red.
She suddenly felt scared and opened her eyes, only to see the doctor's expressionless face hidden under the huge mask.
Su Cheng became more tense, her cold fingers entangled tightly, and her shoulders couldn't help but tremble slightly.
The nurse comforted: "It doesn't matter, you won't feel any pain after the anesthetic takes effect."
She just tugged at the corner of her mouth gratefully, but she couldn't say a word.
She is not afraid of pain, but she is afraid that she will regret it.
Until he really lay here, the child's sense of existence became extremely strong! She seemed to have heard his accusation, accusing her of abandoning him...
The doctor took a needle of anesthetic, and the colorless needle shining brightly under the light, and the sharp needle tip flashed.
Su Cheng felt a sudden pain in his heart, and his soft, boneless hand moved quietly to cover his still flat belly.
The little life inside doesn't know if there is a heartbeat? Do you feel scared
The light was so strong that it made her temples throbbing painfully, Su Cheng closed her eyes weakly, feeling tears running across her hot cheeks coldly.
The doctor sterilized her and was injecting her with anesthetics—
After all, she lay back to the surgery, the blazing light was still dazzling, but her eyes were terribly dry, and she couldn't squeeze a single tear out.
She closed her eyes and felt the pointed needle stick into her blood vessel. The dark world seemed to be a huge boundless cliff. She was helpless, only letting her body fall continuously.
In the ear, there seemed to be a voice, and kept asking her: Do you regret it? Regret it? !
She just wants to cry and laugh, how can she not regret it? Since she made this decision, she has never relaxed for a moment! She knew that she couldn't escape self-blame at the moment.
She slept dazedly all day, and when she opened her eyes, it was dark. Only Fu Hui was sitting by the bed watching her, wiping tears from time to time.
"Mom..."
Her voice was terribly low, as if coming out of hell.
Seeing her waking up, Fu Hui quickly wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes and leaned forward, "Does it still hurt?"
Su Cheng shook her head and asked her: "How is Xingbao?"
"Don't worry, your father is taking care of Xingbao."
Su Cheng listened and closed his eyes again: "That's good... Mom, I'll sleep for a while, I feel so tired."
"Um... go to sleep, mom is here to guard you."
"... Mom, thank you."
"Stupid boy, why did the family say thank you..." Fu Hui didn't open her face and wiped her tears.
The next day, her spirits improved a lot, and despite Fu Hui's prevention, she got out of bed and went to Xingbao's ward.
Before entering the room, only a burst of laughter was heard. She walked in gently and saw Xingbao, Molly and Xiaoding sitting together playing with toys.
"Mom is here!"
Xingbao was very happy to see her, and raised the toy in her hand: "Mom, look, this is what Uncle Xiaoding and Aunt Molly bought for me!"
His little face was flushed with excitement at the moment, and a few strands of his jet black hair stuck to his forehead, which looked no different from an ordinary child.
Su Cheng looked at Xingbao's cute appearance with wanton laughter, and his heart suddenly softened, "Oh, it's so beautiful, do you thank me?"
"Of course I have thanked you!"
"Haha, so good."
Seeing that Su Cheng's expression was extremely bad, Xiaoding pulled her over and sat on the opposite sofa while Molly was still playing with Xingbao. He straightened his face and lowered his voice to slander her, "I see you, it's really terrible!"
Su Cheng obediently listened to her scolding herself, and after a while, he said: "The reason why I decided to have the operation right away is because I am worried that as long as one day later, I will change my mind and will not bear my child.
Xiaoding was silent for a long time and suddenly said, "If Xingbao knew what his mother had done for him one day, he would be very touched."