I don't know when the rain will stop.
When Jing Xun had time to look out again, the whole sky cleared up.
A brightly colored rainbow hung in front of the baptized azure blue sky. Sunlight pierced through the clouds and mist hit the floor and wool carpet through the windows. The indoor temperature rose and began to become warm again.
Jing Xun was lying on Shen Yijin, unable to move at all.
A small part of the reason was that Mr. Bite bit him and was tired.
Most of the reason is because... Later they did a lot of strange things...
For example, like this or that, ahhhhhhhh.
Last night, I had just been like this, but my husband used to make more energy.
This time I changed to Jingxun... Just...
"Mr. Can't move." On the bed, Jing Xun's voice hoarse: "I want to take a bath, but I'm still thirsty."
"good."
Chen Yijin's movements were much cleaner than before. He first put on a pair of pants, and then went to pick up a glass of water for Jingxun and feed him a drink.
Finally, the young man wrapped in the quilt was picked up and taken to the bathroom.
In the shower room, the two simply took a bath together.
The hot water sprayed down, and in the entrapped water vapor, Jing Xun surrounded Chen Yijin's neck like no bones. His legs were still shaking, and he couldn't stand at all.
However, Mr.'s condition seems to be much better.
When the sir is fine, Jing Xun is relieved.
He grabbed Chen Yijin's neck and let the other party clean it up for him.
In the process, Shen Yijin suddenly kissed the corner of his lips and said, "Thank you, Xiaoxun."
"...Don't thank me either." Jing Xun said uncomfortably.
Your husband has always treated him wholeheartedly as a lover, so he should treat each other wholeheartedly.
He expressed his thoughts a little bit, and then heard Shen Yijin say again: "Did I scare you just now?"
"No." Jing Xun shook his head decisively.
He will not discriminate against patients.
Nor will he dislike his partner.
In the damp and mild water vapor, the youth's delicate jade cheeks were smoked with a touch of pink, the eyebrows were slightly raised, warm and smiling, and the tears in the corners of his eyes were stale, with a somewhat firm scent.
Looking at each other at close range, Jing Xun said very seriously: "Mr. is just sick and will get better."
"Ok."
Shen Yijin, who watched this scene carefully, responded. The movements on his hands were quicker. He quickly washed Jing Xun, put on clothes for him, and quickly took care of himself. The last two people stood there. The hair was blow-dried together in front of the mirror.
The moment the hair dryer turned off, Shen Yizhin suddenly said, "The reason why the previous house was demolished and rebuilt is because of me."
"gentlemen… "
Jing Xun opened his eyes slightly. He looked through the mirror to see Chen Yijian beside him. Chen Yijian was also looking at the mirror, and did not look at him. The husband was just looking at the mirror, as if he was looking at himself. Inside, or something deeper.
There was no expression on Chen Yijin's face.
The freshly dried hair was scattered and drooped to cover the eyebrows. This hairstyle made the gentleman's appearance look younger.
But his expression was deep and obscure, and his eyes were as deep as a dark bottomless hole, with endless hesitation and storms surging in it, and absolutely nothing to do with youth or youth.
And Shen Yijin was like this, calm and struggling, telling him some things that year.
Those are things that even the subsequent psychologists don’t know...
Shen Yijin chose a very straightforward narrative style.
He said: "It's actually not complicated, but one day, my mother committed suicide by jumping off the building."
"..."
"In front of me."
……
This is the nightmare that has plagued Chen Yijin for twenty years.
He said some more details, but what he said was really simple and his tone was flat.
Even when the narration was over, the husband had already returned to his usual appearance.
Jing Xun looked at the light in his eyes when he was facing him, and listened to him explain: "It's not that I can't mention it, but I don't want to mention it."
When the long psychological and psychiatric treatments were ineffective, he no longer wanted to mention it.
Shen Yijin said: "But I think I should tell you this personally, there is no secret between us. Isn't it Xiaoxun?"
"… Ok."
Jing Xun, who returned to his senses quickly, rushed forward and hugged Shen Yijin.
He didn't know how to comfort him. In fact, he could not comfort him by saying a few words.
Just listening to the things that Shen Yijin briefly described in those years, I know that no matter who happened to Mr.'s illness, it is estimated that it will be difficult to adjust.
Fortunately, remembering what happened back then is really not a hurdle for Shen Yijin.
Everything settled down. They hugged them quietly for a while before being called downstairs to have breakfast with Grandpa Shen.
-After the rain, the day will clear, and a new day will begin.
Breakfast was placed outside, and a super-style breakfast was eaten by the green grass and the musical fountain. After that, Chen Yijin and Jing Xun were both called to Grandpa Shen’s study, and Chen Yijin was talking to his grandpa. After reporting the work, he had to go to a video conference, while Jing Xun was left by Grandpa Shen to play chess together.
"Mr. then go to work first, and I'll go back later." Jing Xun smiled and said to Shen Yijin.
"Okay." Shen Yijin didn't have any objections, but Grandpa Shen smiled and said: "Xiaoxun is so reluctant to bear Ajin, Grandpa is embarrassed to let you play chess."
"How can you say that, grandpa!" Jing Xun said frankly, "I didn't want to bear it. My husband is so boring when he works, so it's more interesting to play chess with grandpa."
Grandpa Shen laughed with Shen Yizhin, who was so boring to complain, Jing Xun smiled and put on the chessboard, and then sent Chen Yizhin to the door so that he could go to work quickly.
But almost at the moment when the door was closed and Shen Yijin's face disappeared in front of him, Jing Xun's eyes suddenly turned red.
The next second, tears came from his eyes uncontrollably.
Even if the husband described his past very succinctly, even when he said those things, he was particularly calm and calm. But after a long time, Jing Xun's mind is still thinking about the rainy night briefly described by her husband—
It was raining, and the five-year-old little Shen Yizhin leaned in front of the window to watch the rain.
Like all children who are curious about everything, he simply looks at the wet and humid world outside and knows nothing about what will happen in the future.
Until a flash of lightning passed.
Through the window, he saw his mother...
In the bright light, he saw her extremely distorted face.
She also saw her body, passing in an instant.
Thunder followed the lightning.
But the rumble of thunder did not overshadow the sound from downstairs, and there was a "bang".
…
Jing Xun's mind was full of the gentleman standing on the second floor, as well as the blood mist that exploded when he desperately grabbed the closed window and looked down.
……
"Xiaoxun? What's wrong?"
Suddenly, Jing Xun's shoulders trembled so badly that he could hardly stand still, but he frightened Grandpa Shen who had discovered the abnormality.
He hurriedly walked out from behind the table and came to check the young man's condition. He saw that Jing Xun was still covering his mouth tightly, tears falling freely, crashing on the ground.
"... What's the matter? It's Ajin who bullied you?!"
Jing Xun shook his head desperately.
The excessive ups and downs of emotion made it difficult for him to speak, and he was afraid that the husband who had not gone far would be disturbed, Jing Xun could only reluctantly say: "No, no, it's not the husband who bullied me."
He was about to die from crying. He could only lean on the door panel and grab Grandpa Shen by the sleeve. Jing Xun was out of breath: "Grandpa, I... I am Mr. Distressed. I... I love him."
"..."
It took a long, long time before Jing Xun's tears ceased.
He and Grandpa Shen sat face to face in front of the chessboard, and did not play chess. Jing Xun apologized particularly embarrassed: "I'm sorry, grandpa, I worried you... I'm really sorry."
He dared not cry in front of Shen Yijin.
The husband behaved very plain, Jing Xun felt that he shouldn't be too emotional, and Chen Yijin would comfort him in turn.
He also wants to be the husband's support.
But it can't take it anymore.
—As long as I think of the suffering my husband has suffered over the years, I can’t help it.
So I can only drop two golden peas in front of Grandpa Shen... After all, Grandpa Shen will understand him, and the only thing that can be separated from her husband is now.
"Oh, you are a good boy, how could grandpa blame you." Mentioning this grandpa Shen also sighed.
He was indeed taken aback by Jing Xun who burst into tears just now, thinking that Jing Xun was wronged here.
He didn't expect that Jing Xun's so sad crying was because he felt sorry for Ajin...
"A Jin is distressed, and it's too late for Grandpa to be happy. Grandpa is getting older, and the most reassuring is A Jin. Don't worry about anything else, I'm afraid that he will always be alone. A Jin is a life-saving child..."
As Grandpa Shen was talking, his voice was as usual, but his eyes flickered a little more.
Of course, Jing Xun didn't want Grandpa Shen to be sad or worried. He wiped his face and said with a spirit: "Grandpa, don't worry, I will always be with your husband, and then my husband and I will always be with you. "
Shen Yijin's brief description just now focused on matters related to the demolition and construction of the main house.
The reason why the previous building was demolished and rebuilt was because his grandfather saw that he had been ill, and was afraid that he would be in love with the scene, so he asked someone to demolish the old house.
This matter has been kept in mind by the husband.
He also remembered the care and maintenance of Grandpa Shen in those years.
Although he is not good at expressing, he has always known the love and love of Grandpa Shen.
This is also the reason why Mingzhi is not here, but Shen Yijin chose to return to China two years ago to take over and take care of the Shen family.
Just because it was his grandfather's life's hard work.
And Jing Xun also followed Mr. Shen's remarks to thank Grandpa Shen. Originally, he only regarded Grandpa Shen as an elder, a person who was very important to him.
But at this moment, he thanked his grandfather sincerely, thanking him for not giving up on Mr.
"Ajin is a good boy, grandpa has always known it." Grandpa Shen whispered, his tone a bit vicissitudes of life.
Then, it seemed that he finally found someone who could confide in, and it was useless for Jing Xun to ask. He directly narrated the events of the year, much more detailed than Chen Yijin.
The focus is on the husband’s condition after the mother’s death.
"The person who jumped upstairs, out of the fear of death at that moment, the expression will become very distorted... Normally you can't imagine the scene, let alone Ajin's biological mother...!"
"At that time, Ajin burned for a full month. He was only five years old that year! Originally five years old, he still couldn't remember everything, but Ajin was smart since he was a child, a child prodigy, good memory, quick response, and comprehension ability. Much better than other children of the same age. Other children may not know what happened, but Ajin knows everything... He knows everything! Everyone has said Hui Yiyao, but the grandfather didn’t believe it before. But Ajin has come out. Even if I don’t want to believe such a thing, I have to believe it."
Listening to Grandpa Shen's sigh, Jing Xun wanted to go back to that time, and hugged Mr. Severely to comfort him.
But he couldn't return to Shen Yijin's past.
I can only live with my husband now.
Although Jing Xun still has a few questions about the situation at the time.
"But why did Mr.'s mother jump off the building?"
"No one knows about this... Maybe it was because of Ajin's unscrupulous father!"
Speaking of this grandpa Shen was also very upset.
The family that was originally good, why suddenly the family broke down and died.
The most annoying was his eldest son, Ah Jin’s father, and within a few months after that, he brought back a woman who said he wanted to marry her in the door, completely disregarding A Jin’s life and death...
"The animal told me that he wanted to find a stepmother for Ashin who could take care of him. I thought about it and thought it made sense and agreed. I didn't expect that woman! And his dad who was not righteous! Nothing. nice one!"
The woman that Grandpa Shen said should be her stepmother, Ms. Yang.
Although it was a continuation, she was married into the Shen family by Ming media, and Zha Gong was only pregnant afterwards, so she is the three generations of the Shen family who are rooted and decent.
Jingxun knew this setting from the beginning.
Now it seems that after the birth of the second youngest, Ms. Yang devoted all her energy to her own son, even because the second generation of the Shen family was greedy for pleasure. She was not able to use it when the two children had not fully grown up. He began to plan how to fight against Shen Yijin and seize the future fortune of the Shen family.
Since she hadn't fulfilled the promise that she would be kind to Shen Yijin when she entered the door, Grandpa Shen has always disliked her for so many years.
But after all, she was still Shen Bohan's mother, who had been in Shen's house for so many years, so the old man wouldn't drive her out even if he didn't like it anymore.
Jing Xun didn't want to criticize these things, so he inquired again: "Is the situation of the gentleman like this at the beginning?"
"It's not the same. At first, Ajin didn't know how to control his emotions. He made a lot of noise every rainy day. A few times I had to send him directly to the hospital, and a few times I had to tie him up..."
Grandpa Shen faintly recalled, he sighed at first, and then said that he got angry again: "There are still people who say cold words in this gap, and they want me to send Ajin to the mental hospital! Tell me, is this human?"
"Grandpa, don't be angry, it's all gone." Jing Xun was afraid that the old man would be angry, so he quickly comforted a few words and changed the subject: "What do the doctors of those gentlemen say?"
"Some people think that Ajin was scared, and some people think that Ajin is sad because of her mother's death... Hey, it's one thing to know the reason, but it's another to get out."
Grandpa Shen said: "At that time, Ajin was making a lot of noise. I thought he felt uncomfortable when he saw the house, so he demolished the house and rebuilt the garden, but it was useless. Later, he insisted on treatment, too. It didn't work. Then suddenly one day, Ajin suddenly fell silent. He stopped crying or making noise on rainy days, he would not cry or talk, and he would be afraid of anyone seeing him... that's what he looks like now."
Jing Xun: "..."
"But apart from this, Ah Jin looks like a normal person as a whole... It's almost normal than a normal person. Reading is better than before, and he has never been emotional. I know this is obviously abnormal, but no one can cure it. , It can only take so long. After a long time, I also want to understand, as long as A Jin can feel better, Grandpa doesn't ask him anything.
Just grow up a little bit, Ajin suddenly came to talk to me. He said he wanted to leave here and study abroad. Although I was reluctant, I couldn't dissuade him. At that time, Ajin's father hadn't had an accident, and the family of three had a good time all day. Grandpa was also afraid that Ajin would feel uncomfortable staying here, so he agreed. "
Jing Xun: "Yeah."
Grandpa Shen didn't speak according to the standard time and logic. It was completely like the old people's chattering when recalling the past, but Jing Xun still listened very seriously. Occasionally also echoed twice.
These past events, Grandpa Shen should rarely be mentioned to outsiders. In the past, he told his grandpa about the recent events of his husband. Now Grandpa Shen tells him about it. He wants to listen and is willing to listen carefully.
Grandpa Shen said again: "Later I also began to wonder if this was Ajin's life. It was a coincidence at that time. If Ajin hadn't seen the tragic situation of his mother when he died, even if it was only a second... maybe Ah Jin will not become like this..."
Jing Xun: "Grandpa said that the husband happened to see his mother... Thinking of this, it really violates the principles of physics..."
Grandpa Shen sighed: "Hey, you don't know. The lights were on in the room at the time. It stands to reason that people can't see clearly outside indoors, but there was a flash of lightning at that time..."
Jing Xun: "..."
The lightning illuminates everything outside, and it just illuminates the body of Mr.'s falling mother, so he sees more clearly...
Jing Xun suddenly remembered when he first met her husband, and when her husband fell ill for the second time... The lights were all turned off in the room.
Not only did he draw up the thick curtains, Chen Yijin did not turn on the lights when he was sick.
…
He felt strange at the time, how could he sit alone in the dark when he was in a bad mood... Isn't that more depressing
I want to come now...
Perhaps the thing that the husband dared not do more than the darkness where he couldn't see his fingers was actually turning on the lights.
I subconsciously fear that there will be bright light in the room when it rains, afraid of thunder, afraid of looking out the window.
Because when the three are combined, it is the beginning of Mr.’s nightmare...
Sitting there, Jing Xun was stiff, and remembered that there was actually a fourth element.
He remembered that Shen Yijin had said that the reason he would live in a nightclub before was because he didn't like living at home.
So what do you dislike
… It’s the furnishings that are reflected on the windows at that moment, and are only available in a warm and sweet home.
Shen Yijin’s residence, the study room will contain a lot of books, but other personal items are almost nothing, even cleaner than the model room...
In fact, it all comes down to it, because I don’t like the similar home feeling reflected on the glass.
…
Jing Xun suddenly felt a pain in his heart, the kind of tangible colic, a feeling he was no stranger to before.
It's just that this time it wasn't because of a bad heart disease.
It's acquired. Just because of Chen Yijin, I felt pain uncontrollably.
"Actually, A Jin is already much better." This time it was Grandpa Shen's turn to comfort Jing Xun in reverse, "I heard from Xiao Tang that there are already a lot of things in your home."
"... I don't know." Jing Xun stared blankly, and said blankly: "Grandpa, I don't know..."
He would throw away the books he hadn't finished reading in the bedroom, fearing that he would be thirsty when sleeping. Every night he would put a glass full of water on the bedside.
In addition, I usually buy small things I like and put them in the room. Unfinished work materials will be randomly spread on the coffee table or small bar. Sometimes clothes and other things are tired and I don’t bother to gather them together and throw them away. …
He thought it was adding vitality to the family.
But I never thought that these things might make Chen Yijin...
"But Ah Jin didn't say anything, did he?" Grandpa Shen put a smile on his face again, and he looked quite at ease, "He didn't feel sick. I think Ah Jin's recent spirits are pretty good. It's getting better and better, these are all the credit of Xiaoxun."
"..."
Grandpa Shen said mysteriously: "There was also thunder and rain this morning. Ajin, he..."
Jing Xun: "..."
Thinking of what he did to her husband this morning, and the bright spots on his neck... Jing Xun wanted to burrow into the ground.
Fortunately, Grandpa Shen asked: "Did Ajin draw the curtains this morning?"
"Uh." Jing Xun was stunned.
I really didn't think so.
Because during this period of time, my husband is getting better and he doesn't often close the curtains tightly, so Jing Xun didn't realize the abnormality before.
But after Grandpa Shen reminded him of this, he suddenly remembered—Mr. Shen obviously felt uncomfortable, but he didn't close the curtains.
Is it because the sky is already bright
Or is it because of other reasons...
As a result, Grandpa Shen said with a smile: "Although I don't rely on medical treatment in the later period, the child A Jin is not willing to admit defeat in his bones."
"?"
There is nothing wrong with what Grandpa said.
But what does this matter have to do with refusing to admit defeat... Jing Xun didn't understand it for a while.
Grandpa Shen said: "Grandpa guessed that he was forcing himself to look out the window."
Jing Xun:!
This time he understood.
"... Sir is trying to fight poison with poison?"
Because I return to the house, I can easily think of the past and get sick easily.
So when I was sick, I forced myself to overcome my demons...
"Well, he has done this before, although he has not succeeded." Grandpa Shen has already picked up a chess piece and intends to return to playing chess.
As he said, his eyelids lifted up again, "I couldn't hold on for half a minute before. How long did he hold on this time?"
Jing Xun: "...!!!"
It took at least two minutes from when he woke up and walked to the front of Shen Yijin.
Not to mention that he didn't know how long Chen Yizhin had stood in front of the window before that.
And also... Until the end, the curtain of that window was not closed...
Although the bed is still far away from the window, it also breaks Mr.'s previous laws!
Jing Xun was also shocked.
"Haha." Hearing that Shen Yijin had broken the record, Grandpa Shen laughed louder.
He is a character who has been seen in any big storms, and no matter how much he cares about his grandson, he can be calm and gentle.
"Ajin grew up when I watched, and I know his mind. He wants to get better soon and be a normal person."
When Grandpa Shen said, he left a son.
"He must feel that this is the only way to match Xiaoxun."