Miao Xingyao had no idea how she got home.
In a daze, Miao Xingyao just lay on the bed.
Yu Jingxuan still hadn't come back. For the first time, Miao Xingyao felt that this home was so big and empty.
Miao Xingyao recalled the maple leaf pendant. It turned out that Yu Jingxuan's company was named after Ning Ruoxin, and Ning Ruoxin also used orange bags.
"Fengcheng?" Miao Xingyao murmured. She didn't think much about the name, but now that she knew it, she felt moved.
A person hides his illness in order not to worry the other person and endures the pain by himself. Although the other person is puzzled, he still waits silently. He names his company after the other person's favorite thing. How romantic this is. Without her, If two people in love meet each other many years later, they will come together again.
What Miao Xingyao had been worried about did not happen. She said that Ning Ruoxin was selfish, but in fact she was the most selfish person. She was unwilling to think about the possibility of Ning Ruoxin and Yu Jingxuan, so she didn't ask anything. She wanted to keep pretending to be stupid for the rest of her life, and she didn't want to leave Yu Jingxuan.
But she had to admit that the love between Yu Jingxuan and Ning Ruoxin was touching.
Miao Xingyao had malicious speculation that Ning Ruoxin was secretly having an affair with Yu Jingxuan behind his back. Maybe Yu Jingxuan spent Valentine's Day with Ning Ruoxin. There was no basis for this, so Miao Xingyao felt like this. At least she is the "original wife" now. Although she is not as good as Ning Ruoxin, at least Ning Ruoxin loses to her in this aspect.
But she was wrong. Ning Ruoxin was not a despicable person at all, causing trouble behind her back. On the contrary, although she had her own purpose, she came to Miao Xingyao openly and directly to explain her thoughts. Although she was somewhat suspected of cheating, But it was much nobler than Miao Xingyao imagined.
Moreover, Miao Xingyao really couldn't hate Ning Ruoxin's courageous pursuit of love, even if this relationship was predicated on her voluntarily leaving.
Miao Xingyao sat up, hugged her knees, and said to herself: "Senior, where are you now? He must be very guilty of senior, that's why he kept saying sorry that night. Is he still in love? Where's the senior? Because he couldn't file for divorce out of his responsibility to me, he was in pain. So... what about him? "
Miao Xingyao really didn't have confidence. She couldn't confirm Yu Jingxuan's feelings for her and whether he would like her. She had thought about it, but she couldn't tell the possibility. Although he had done a lot for her, those things had It was partly due to his responsible attitude towards his wife. It turned out that the only thing Miao Xingyao could rely on was the two red books, which only contained the identity of his wife.
Miao Xingyao spent several days in a daze. From the moment she heard the name Ning Ruoxin, she always thought that she was afraid that Ning Ruoxin would steal Yu Jingxuan away. Now I know that she simply cannot believe in her relationship with Yu Jingxuan, even if the relationship is protected by law.
"But this is not fair to me." Miao Xingyao muttered, "The senior and the senior are not wrong, so am I wrong? It's not me who insists on marrying the senior, but the senior who wants to marry me. , and now that we are talking about divorce, I am inexplicably wearing the name of a divorced woman."
Although Miao Xingyao knew that what she really cared about was not the name at all. She did not dare to touch love in the first place. In fact, she had no confidence in whether she could meet someone who truly loved her. She is enjoying her current life. , although she didn’t spend much time with Yu Jingxuan.
Miao Xingyao suddenly lowered his head and murmured: "Actually, the most unfair thing is the two of them. Two people who love each other are interfered with by me, an outsider. They are both magnanimous people, so I will benefit from it. If I If I don’t want to divorce, my senior will definitely not force me.”
Miao Xingyao only had to imagine Ning Ruoxin suffering from illness alone in a foreign country and missing Yu Jingxuan. Perhaps it was this belief that supported her through the most painful period. Miao Xingyao felt heartbroken. Ning Ruoxin had done nothing wrong, but she was sick and had to leave alone. After finally recovering, she came back to see that the man she loved with all her heart was married to another woman, and It was a loveless marriage. Just thinking about it, Miao Xingyao felt that Ning Ruoxin was great, and she couldn't compare with Ning Ruoxin at all.
"Why does senior sister have to be so great and noble!" Miao Xingyao said angrily, tears flashing in her beautiful eyes, "In this case, wouldn't I become the most embarrassing person? Wouldn't I become a clown? Yet?"
"That's not right. The senior who left without saying a word, this is the reality she should accept." Because Ning Ruoxin didn't say anything, she couldn't make a decision to bear it with Yu Jingxuan. Maybe she couldn't accept that she was weak when she was sick. She was seen by Yu Jingxuan, or maybe she was afraid that Yu Jingxuan would abandon her because of this, or maybe Ning Ruoxin was afraid that her death would make Yu Jingxuan heartbroken... These are just Miao Xingyao's guesses, she is neither Ning Ruoxin nor Ning Ruoxin. After experiencing this situation, she couldn't possibly know Ning Ruoxin's state of mind at that time. Of course, it didn't matter what state of mind she was in. She did what she did in the end, so she should be prepared to accept that Yu Jingxuan would fall in love with another person. possibility.
Miao Xingyao looked up. She suddenly remembered the scene where she met Yu Jingxuan at Su Hanyu's cafe. On the day when Yu Jingxuan had coffee poured on her, she was more surprised when Yu Jingxuan proposed marriage to her. She couldn't imagine what she was dreaming about. Someone would choose her, so she was overwhelmed with joy and agreed.
Thinking about it now, Miao Xingyao said self-deprecatingly: "At that time, the senior said that he could marry anyone. It didn't matter who he was except the senior."
After the party that day, Yu Jingxuan had been avoiding him. No matter how many excuses Miao Xingyao made for Yu Jingxuan, it was useless.
"Senior must be very distressed now..." Miao Xingyao drawled out the last word.
"I love him." When Miao Xingyao said this, she wiped her tears desperately. This was the first time she said it. She didn't expect that it would be so heartbreaking to admit it for the first time. She once thought she would never fall in love again. Anyone, as Su Hanyu said, it's time for her to admit that her admiration for Yu Jingxuan is not that simple at all. This is such a pure love. For so many years, she has only liked Yu Jingxuan. She remembers Yu Jingxuan's face, Remembering his preferences and even his monthly test scores, she might be jealous of Ning Ruoxin, but she always wanted to pretend that she was noble.
Miao Xingyao didn't say anything anymore, she already knew the answer. Loving someone means letting go, fulfilling, and hoping that they will live better than anyone else and be happier than anyone else.
Be gentle with the abuse (it will pass soon, the author promises)
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