Marry First, Love Next – Falling in Love With You

Chapter 45: because I love you

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"Let's go." Yu Jingxuan took the first step.

But Miao Xingyao couldn't move her legs. She wanted to follow him, but found that she couldn't see Yu Jingxuan's figure clearly.

When I think about someone else standing next to Yu Jingxuan from now on, when I think about him holding that person's hand, when I think about Yu Jingxuan kissing that person, when I think about... Miao Xingyao's tears are like a dam that has burst. Can't stop.

"What's wrong with you?" Yu Jingxuan saw that Miao Xingyao was slow to follow, so he started to walk back and found that Miao Xingyao was crying.

"It's okay, let's go." Miao Xingyao wiped away her tears desperately, ignoring her red skin, and forced a smile.

"You're not okay at all." Yu Jingxuan grabbed Miao Xingyao's arm.

"I'm fine." Miao Xingyao said again.

"Follow me." Yu Jingxuan pulled Miao Xingyao away from here.

Yu Jingxuan found a restaurant with private rooms and asked Miao Xingyao to sit down first.

"I'm really fine." Miao Xingyao said to Yu Jingxuan.

"It's okay, so why are you crying?" Yu Jingxuan asked.

"Just... I want to cry." Miao Xingyao couldn't find an excuse.

Yu Jingxuan said helplessly: "Do you think I will believe it?"

"Yes." Miao Xingyao looked at Yu Jingxuan.

Yu Jingxuan sighed and said, "You actually don't want a divorce at all, right?"

After a long time, Miao Xingyao nodded and said, "Yes."

"Then why do you still insist on getting a divorce?" Yu Jingxuan was confused.

Miao Xingyao said: "Because of the incompatibility of personalities."

"Do you think I'm a fool? Would I believe this reason?" Yu Jingxuan was a little angry. Miao Xingyao was always like this, unwilling to say anything.

"Senior, you should be with Senior Sister Ning." Miao Xingyao lowered her head and clenched her fists, "She is the person you should be with, she loves you, she is for you..."

"Have you met Ruoxin?" Yu Jingxuan frowned and interrupted Miao Xingyao's nonsense.

"Yes." Miao Xingyao admitted and calmed down her emotions. She had lost a little control just now.

"What did she say?" Yu Jingxuan asked.

Miao Xingyao looked at Yu Jingxuan and said expressionlessly: "It doesn't matter what Senior Sister Ning says."

"It's not important. Why do you want a divorce?" Yu Jingxuan asked.

"You need her." Miao Xingyao said calmly.

Yu Jingxuan said: "What I need is you."

"Senior, I want to ask you a few questions." Miao Xingyao smiled.

"You ask."

Miao Xingyao asked: "Don't you regret it?"

"Regret? Regret for what?" Yu Jingxuan asked doubtfully.

"I regret getting married in a hurry." Miao Xingyao held back tears.

"No regrets." Yu Jingxuan said firmly, without any hesitation on this point.

Miao Xingyao smiled and continued: "I regret not understanding Senior Sister Ning's intentions. I regret not waiting for her. I regret that the marriage partner... was not her."

"I..." Yu Jingxuan hesitated and his eyes began to dodge.

"Senior, you two should be together." Miao Xingyao already knew Yu Jingxuan's answer, and finally couldn't hold on anymore, her eyes became moist again.

"She and I are not suitable." Yu Jingxuan said coldly.

"But if you are in love, you should be with the person you love, not the right person." Miao Xingyao paused and continued, "Besides, we are not suitable. You like light food, I like spicy food, you I like to watch literary films, and I like to watch cartoons. You like her, and I like... you." Miao Xingyao didn't want to say it at first, but she couldn't help but said it anyway. She had never confessed her love to Yu Jingxuan, just once That's fine, she wanted Yu Jingxuan to know.

"Why do you want a divorce if you like her?" Yu Jingxuan was confused. Miao Xingyao was already crying, but her eyes showed determination that she had never seen before.

"I think I don't just like you anymore." Miao Xingyao wiped away her tears and said, "I may have fallen in love with you."

Yu Jingxuan said: "I don't understand. In this case..."

"Senior, you really don't understand. It's selfish to like someone and want to occupy everything about him, but loving someone is different. As long as he is happy, it is enough. I can't occupy you and hinder your happiness. This is my The only thing I can do for you." Miao Xingyao finally couldn't control it and burst into tears.

Yu Jingxuan hugged Miao Xingyao distressedly and said, "But you are not me, how do you know what kind of happiness I want?"

"Senior, Senior Ning, she, she really loves you and is suitable for you...cough cough cough" Miao Xingyao cried until she was about to die and coughed violently.

Yu Jingxuan helped Miao Xingyao calm down and said, "But she is not you."

"But I'm not her either." Miao Xingyao smiled bitterly, "I can never replace her. The senior is the senior, and I am me. You can't think that finding someone can take her place. Now that she's back, This position is hers."

"But I don't want this." Yu Jingxuan said firmly.

"Senior, we have been talking for so long, but you have never denied that you still love her." Miao Xingyao looked at Yu Jingxuan, tears streaming to the corners of her mouth, very salty and bitter.

"I..." Yu Jingxuan didn't know the answer. He only knew that he didn't want to divorce Miao Xingyao.

"That night, you were very drunk. You hugged me and kept saying, 'I'm sorry, I'm married.'" Miao Xingyao smiled. She knew she was ugly now, and she didn't want their separation. She was like this But at least leave a smiling face, "After that day, you started avoiding me. I don't want to deceive myself. That's because there is someone else in your heart. You don't want to let her down and hurt me. You don't know what to do." What kind of choice, so I decided to let you go first."

"I don't agree. This is just your guess and your wish. I will not divorce." Yu Jingxuan said. It turns out that he had no memory of what happened that night. No wonder Miao Xingyao was like this. If Miao Xingyao had guessed it early on, then his avoidance during that period must have broken her heart. But she didn't ask anything. Was it because she trusted herself? Or she didn't have confidence in herself, so she pretended to be fine.

"If we can't get divorced today, let's talk about it next time." Miao Xingyao stood up and walked outside. She didn't want to stay in the same space as Yu Jingxuan anymore.

"Xingyao." Yu Jingxuan wanted to hold Miao Xingyao, but he still put down his hand.

After all, he is timid. Miao Xingyao said self-deprecatingly: "There is no way I can be as brave as my senior sister. Maybe I am not qualified to stand on the gladiatorial stage from the beginning."

She didn't dare to love, and she didn't dare to say that she was in love. She only dared to envy those who bravely pursued love. She could only stand in the corner and look at the figures in front of them, but she didn't dare to pursue them.

(End of chapter)