Mr. Bai seems to be talking now... He doesn't need to call himself 'we' or 'our family', why is this
The questions in my head can't be answered.
But forget it, anyway, I'm here to accompany Director Bai to the temple fair today, so I'll just relax. I put my hands behind my back and slowly followed behind them, fishing for goldfish.
"I can't bear it."
Ming Feizhen tilted his head slowly, then stared straight at her handsome cheeks that were a little hot in the cold wind, his gentle and powerful voice easily penetrated the heart defense, like an indefensible pool of hot spring water, as if it would kill people. Surrounded by, to penetrate into the bottom of my heart.
"I see, it's a pity."
Listening to these two warm words, Bai Lian couldn't help but feel a throbbing in his heart.
She doesn't usually react like this because of such remarks, and she even scoffs with disdain. But now in this situation, she took off her guard, took off her armor, and when she spoke her heart words one after another, those two words that seemed to be caring but actually flirted with girls were really lethal. .
In fact, Bai Lian is really strange today, and the whole person is strange.
She usually eats less food. She drank all the soup that could make three days of rice, and then ate sesame seeds.
She usually speaks less than five sentences to people, so she can say as little as she can. But now, as if she was drunk, she took the initiative to chat about the past she didn't want to mention, and about her experience as a refugee. She never told anyone about this experience, not even with Concubine Huang, she would not talk about it. Not because of shame, but because of pain.
It was the most painful time in her life, and even recalling it once was enough to make her sleepless for days. But I don't know why, she will take the initiative to say it today.
She never talks to anyone. The things that Ming Feizhen talked about today have been in her heart for many years. There are her quirks, her weaknesses, her past, and her feelings. These big and small things, which may or may not be important, are just things that a daughter's family should have in mind. Or it doesn't matter, but it is essential in the human heart.
Bai Lian never felt that he should talk to anyone. Or she herself doesn't understand that venting is the only way to relieve pain. She is too lonely, so she doesn't understand that she needs to talk to people about her heart. Before she knew it, she had accumulated so much in her heart. She didn't know who to talk to, and maybe no one cared.
But she just told Ming Feizhen, one after another.
She didn't know why, but she just felt it was safe to say these words to him. He will never laugh at her for being stingy and say that she is making a big deal, but will listen to her quietly. Like a reliable big brother, he touched her head after she said she was tired, and lent his broad shoulders to let her rest for a while.
Thinking back on this imagination now, the thin-skinned girl felt her cheeks burn. Who asked him to touch his head! Who is going to sleep on his shoulders! He is the most, but he is just an uncle, what a big brother! ? Disgusting disgusting! ! bah bah bah!
But she didn't know how she could have such an imagination. This had never happened before.
Maybe that kiss.
Again today, they kissed again.
Bai Lian never felt that he was a woman, and naturally he didn't feel that he was a man. She just put herself in the position of eunuch, neither high nor low. This is a kind of defense mechanism. Back then, when she was brought back to the palace by the goddess from the ruins, she was just a pariah. The goddess's kindness could give her three meals and a full meal, and at the same time, she could return to the streets to live in one sentence. The identity of her father-in-law is the only safe haven, a safety shell, that she feels she can live in. As long as she hides in this containment, she can admit nothing, face nothing, and go on like this.
However, Ming Feizhen pulled her out of the containment shell again and again, and used a tough method to prevent her from returning to the shell.
For the past few days, she has been wearing women's clothes and has been called Mrs. Hu, so she was forced to be called Ming Fei Zhen Gong. She felt her defenses gradually weaken. When she stood in front of the mirror and dressed herself, how did she convince herself that the person in front of her was just a eunuch.
She was kissed by Ming Fei again today. The most emotion she showed was not disgust, but at a loss.
She didn't know why she was addicted to that kiss, it was a different feeling than hate. The agitation in her chest and the swollen emotions in her head were all drumming to tell her that the time had come.
So she gradually did not reject being called a girl, so she gradually began to smile, so she gradually felt that Ming was not real, and she was not so annoying.
Now, gradually she can no longer call herself 'We', and she begins to realize a lot of things that she didn't realize before.
Such as what she likes; such as what she cares about; such as she actually laughs; such as herself, in fact, is a girl.
The feeling wasn't so strong until she told him what was on her mind.
But when she said all her inner thoughts, and she appeared in front of him as if she was naked, naked, she couldn't help but couldn't stand his caring words.
Bai Lian's heart beat faster than ever before. But it was a kind of heartbeat that made her feel happy, like a litter of deer pounding around her heart.
Looking at Ming Feizhen again, she was about to let out a cold snort in disdain - why is he still so dumb!
She quickly ran away from him to calm her hyperactive heartbeat.
She hated his unhurried attitude.
Why was he so peaceful when he was so nervous? Why is he worried here, but he can still smile stupidly, as if the sky can be used as a quilt when the sky falls
Wouldn't it be as if... I had fallen in love with him
(End of Volume 6) Chapter 1 of Yuan Sheng's Private Visit to Jiangnan in Volume 7 is a bit different
I walked to the back of Director Bai, and a few bear children were teaching her to fish for goldfish. The side of her smiling face was more gentle than she had ever seen before.
Speaking of which, Bai Lian is only thirteen or fourteen years old this year. Judging from her age, if she has been a refugee, she should not be a refugee in the capital. There have never been refugees in the capital, and even if there is an influx of foreigners, it will not be as bad as she described. Concubine Huang was able to pick her up, so she was on her way back from visiting relatives in the palace? On the road from Luoyang to the capital... Could it be that Bai Lian's hometown was the city occupied by the Iron Guards when they rebelled? If so, then she may really have had a miserable childhood that is unimaginable for ordinary people.
I kept my eyes on Bai Lian who pretended to be calm and accompany the children to fish for goldfish. But she didn't seem to be completely unaware. The moment I watched her, her whole body seemed to tremble. Very nervous, if not out of fear. It's strange, what is Manager Bai doing so nervously? But the more I stared at her, the more uncomfortable she seemed. Can I still eat her
A bear child suddenly pointed at me and shouted: "This uncle is weird! Is he trying to play the big sister's idea!"
Bear boy looking for a draw!
Open your bear eyes and take a good look, even if I am an uncle, this one in front of you is not a big sister!
Bai Lian looked at me with hot cheeks, then lowered her head and said lightly: "You... what are you looking at me for?"
I'm not looking at you!
… well, I watched it for a while, but I didn't hit you!
"Let's see if you can catch goldfish." I glanced at their harvest seriously, with a trace of disdain on the corner of my mouth: "None of them? A few arrogant kids get out of the way and let the professionals come."
I took the small thin net under their amazed eyes, pressed it down into the water, my wrists trembled slightly, and the etheric force was flexed, and a goldfish flew up with a flick.
The bear children and Bai Lian immediately admired it.
Bai Lian said in surprise: "You are very powerful. I couldn't even try it just now."
"Uncle is amazing, he specializes in goldfish fishing!"
"Goldfish, Goldfish!"
The uncle of the goldfish stall also showed a look of awe: "Could it be that Your Excellency is the legendary Loli infinite good, the goldfish is a guy..."
Goldfish, you two uncles!
It's okay for these bear children to say that, do you have the right to talk about me as a goldfish stall! No matter how you look at it, this title is more suitable for you!
Bai Lian tilted his little head strangely: "Ming Feizhen, what is Goldfish?"
Don't follow along! ! With your thin skin, if you knew what you meant, you would be embarrassed to stay here!
In order to cherish life, I pulled Bai Lian away from the bear child. After a while, he went to another vendor's place. Both of us were full - Mr. Bai couldn't eat much, and I ate a hundred long steamed buns - so I stayed away from the food stalls and chose some vendors that were suitable for play.
Bai Lian seemed to be a bird that had just broken its shell, her big eyes were full of curiosity, and she couldn't help looking left and right, pulling me and asking endless questions. And playing each game once made me sigh at the emptying wallet in the dim light. Is this... the price of flirting
So I had to do my best to stop the runaway Chief White.