As soon as Fu Yichen raised his eyes, he saw Su Zhan who was open, but the moment Fu Yichen looked over, Su Zhan's eyes quickly moved away, and then he pursed his lips slightly and did not speak.
Fu Yichen hurriedly got up and leaned forward, "Are you awake?"
"Yeah." Su Zhan didn't look directly at Fu Yichen.
"Is there something wrong, do I need to call a doctor? Are you hungry?" It was already midnight, and they were brought in without having dinner. Su Zhan never woke up, and Fu Yichen didn't eat anything. .
It can be seen that Fu Yichen took good care of him, Su Zhan only thought it was because of guilt, including that he went back to save him regardless of the danger.
So Su Zhan finally opened his mouth to Fu Yichen, "Thank you, Fu Yichen."
Fu Yichen was startled, and then realized that Su Zhan didn't know that he had recovered his memory, and when he thought of what he said in the windshield forest, Fu Yichen really wanted to slap himself, this misunderstanding was simply dumbfounding.
"Thank you for everything, it's all due." Fu Yichen said while getting up and putting the food that Xiaotian brought over before into the microwave oven that the hospital nurse specially brought for them, and pouring water for Su Zhan.
But he didn't want to finish listening to Fu Yichen's words, Su Zhan's expression darkened again, he just pursed his lips and unconsciously looked at Fu Yichen until Fu Yichen sat back on the bed again.
"Come on, drink some water first." Fu Yichen lightly and unabashedly helped Su Zhan sit up and half leaned in his arms, and then thoughtfully put the cup to Su Zhan's mouth.
The waiter was very good, but Su Zhan became more and more hesitant, and his eyes fell on Fu Yichen's face unconsciously, as if he wanted to see something from his face, but there was nothing else but a concerned look, even taking care of him. His movements and expressions are very natural.
Aren't you very determined to cut ties with him? Could it be just because of guilt? Su Zhan suddenly felt a little sour in his heart. It had been a long time since he saw Fu Yichen who treated him so tenderly. If he could treat him like that just because of guilt, could he be shameless and let him continue to feel so guilty
"What are you looking at?" Fu Yichen saw that Su Zhan looked at him pitifully with bulging eyes. Those eyes were simply a silent condemnation of his previous behavior. At the moment, he felt distressed and blamed himself.
So Fu Yichen slightly lowered his head and kissed him lightly on the forehead, but this light kiss contained too many things. The joy of regaining what was lost, the guilt towards Su Zhan, the heartache...all in this light kiss.
"Drink some water first, let's talk slowly if we have something to do, huh?" Fu Yichen's comforting voice seemed to have some kind of magical power, and Su Zhan, who was stunned by his kiss, was inexplicably soothed by him. , and then watched him open his mouth without blinking.
"You..." After drinking the water, Su Zhan turned to look at Fu Yichen, but he opened his mouth but didn't know how to ask.
"What do you mean? Pity me or sympathize with me?" Or "Actually, you don't have to do this, you don't have to force yourself, it's not your fault, I'm fine." However, Su Zhan didn't say it after all, he felt selfishly, Even if it is because of this, it is also very good.
"What about me?" Fu Yichen half-sat on the hospital bed, letting Su Zhan lean on his arms. Su Zhan was in a daze because of his intimacy, as if he had returned to the world of novels. He was a tyrant and he was possessed by Mary Su. actor.
"Why... kiss me?" Su Zhan turned his head and looked at Fu Yichen in a daze, hesitating in his heart whether he would break some dream with his mouth, or they entered the novel world again and became different characters, but in the end Su Zhan Zhan still asked.
Fu Yichen was stunned again, because of the cautiousness in Su Zhan's eyes and the humbleness hidden behind his gaze. Fu Yichen suddenly felt sour in his heart, his love for Su Zhan should actually be arrogant, and shouldn't be so humble.
No one should be humble for liking the same sex, there is no humbleness in love.
So Fu Yichen looked back into Su Zhan's eyes without answering and asked, "You have nothing to say to me?" If you like it, then say it openly, this is not something shameful, let alone something outrageous What shouldn't happen, Su Zhan is better than anyone else, and he is more qualified to express his emotions.
Su Zhan was taken aback, he saw affirmation and tolerance in Fu Yichen's eyes, as well as some long-lost pampering. Su Zhan's heart trembled slightly, suddenly all the grievances that had been accumulated for such a long time came out without warning, including the words he had always wanted to say but dared not to say.
"Fu Yichen, I've actually fallen in love with you a long time ago." It's impossible to measure the early arrival by time, because that's the time they spent more than everyone else.
As soon as Su Zhan spoke, tears also flowed out, mixed with all his grievances and longings during this period of time.
And once the words are spoken, they can no longer be held back.
"Fu Yichen, you don't know, I can't live without you, Fu Yichen."
"You don't know, I really like you for a long time."
"You don't know how miserable I am during this time."
"I really miss you, Fu Yichen."
While Su Zhan was talking about what he had held back for too long and dared not say it, tears were streaming down his face. Fu Yichen was in a hurry to wipe his tears, but he couldn't wipe them clean, but Su Zhan vented all his heart All the words were said in one go. It's just that the more he talked about Fu Yichen, the more distressed he felt.
"I know you're straight, but can you try it with me?"
Su Zhan was completely begging, humbly abandoning all self-esteem, because he clearly remembered what Fu Yichen said in the woods. It's impossible for him to have a normal sexual orientation, and he still doesn't like Su Zhan taking him as the person in the portrait, although that is him, but Fu Yichen doesn't believe it.
So Su Zhan had no other choice, he didn't want to do that, as he himself said, he couldn't do without Fu Yichen at some point.
"Fu Yichen, can you try with me?"
"If you really can't accept it, I won't force you anymore, and I won't cause you any trouble, okay?"
"I... um~"
Fu Yichen didn't listen to him any more, and as soon as he lowered his head, he kissed him fiercely, putting all the joy and heartache that was lost and found back into his mouth.
Fu Yichen kissed crazily at first, until the stunned Su Zhan was a little out of breath, then Fu Yichen slowed down, and changed to pinching his thin lips lightly, until he was completely relieved, Fu Yichen's lips moved to On his wet cheeks, kiss the tears on his face little by little, and then kiss the corners of his eyes.
Eyelashes wet with tears trembled because of Fu Yichen's approach, but nothing could hide the doubt and joy in Su Zhan's wide eyes.
"Do you agree?" Su Zhan suppressed the ecstasy in his heart, and cautiously probed. Because Fu Yichen at this time is really too gentle, completely different from the person who always avoids him, he is too anxious and uncertain here.
Fu Yichen asked again without answering, "What did you say then?"
"Huh?" Su Zhan was a little confused.
Fu Yichen added, "During the sandstorm, we hid under the down jacket, what did you say? The wind and sand were too strong, I didn't hear clearly."
Su Zhan was startled, and then turned his head, "I won't say anymore." Fu Yichen didn't believe that he was the person in the portrait, so he misunderstood himself as someone else. Since he couldn't wake up Fu Yichen's memory, then he Don't mention the past anymore.
Fu Yichen didn't want to but insisted, "Say it again." He stretched out his hand and turned his face back to look at him.
Su Zhan was stunned, a little hesitant, but seeing that Fu Yichen's face was calm and there was nothing strange, he opened his mouth tentatively.
"I said, I don't blame you for forgetting me, because you didn't mean it, and I also forgot you more than once."
Fu Yichen's heart trembled, Su Zhan has recovered all his memories
But Su Zhan continued after seeing that Fu Yichen's face didn't look strange, "But Fu Yichen, I'm not as strong as you, and I'm not as smart as you, especially in front of you, I'm really cowardly and stupid. I don't know how to be like you. Let you who have forgotten me fall in love with me again. That's why I used the most stupid method, trying to become friends with you first, and then expecting you to fall in love with me like before. But now it seems that I am really too stupid and ridiculous , actually made you want to stay away from me."
Su Zhan was suddenly a little depressed when he said that, this was what he thought after Fu Yichen left in the windshield forest, he just didn't expect that Fu Yichen would come back to save him. Especially now, even though Fu Yichen kissed him and still hugged him like this, Fu Yichen didn't dare to be sure if he didn't say anything, so he was very careful, for fear of breaking this moment, or destroying a certain possibility because of a certain sentence he said wrong.
Probably never heard such a pleasant voice, Fu Yichen only felt that this moment was suddenly extremely happy.
How lucky to meet such a person who loves him so much, what's wrong with a man? What does this have to do with the love between them!
Fu Yichen lowered his head and kissed his forehead again, and then smiled lowly with the corners of his lips curled up, "No, you are not stupid or ridiculous, on the contrary, you are cute and cute, I like it very much."
After Fu Yichen finished speaking, he kissed again, this time Fu Yichen kissed a little more intensely, until both of them were panting, Fu Yichen reluctantly let go of Su Zhan's lips.
When Su Zhan's closed eyes opened little by little and became clear again, Fu Yichen stared at his eyes and paused every word, "Su Zhan, thank you for not giving up on me, I'm back."
Suddenly, Su Zhan's eyes widened in disbelief, digesting Fu Yichen's words in his mind little by little, until he completely swallowed it, and then stammered in disbelief, "You...you..."
"It's me." Fu Yichen felt his nose sore, and in the next second he stuffed him into his arms and hugged him tightly.
After a long while, Fu Yichen heard the sobbing sound of the person in his arms, his stiff body softened little by little, and with Su Zhan wrapping his arms around his neck little by little, Fu Yichen couldn't hold back two hot tears from rolling down after all.
He hugged the body in his arms tightly, wishing to rub it into his own body and connect with his flesh and blood.
"I'm sorry, I will never leave you behind." From now on, I will never let you go.