After hearing this, Yan Shuo sat down next to Shen Ze.
The bed was big, they were leaning side by side on the head of the bed, the solemn atmosphere was inexplicably funny, Yan Shuo thought it might be because this posture was too much like elementary school students sitting in a row, it was very funny.
Uncomfortably, he switched to the opposite side of Shen Ze, cleared his throat and said, "Actually, I have nothing important to say. Isn't it boring? We've lived together for so long, and we haven't had a good chat yet."
"Chat?" Shen was puzzled, "What do you want to talk about?"
"Hobbies? Relationships? Careers? Ideals in life? Anything goes." Yan Shuo laid the groundwork far enough, and he said, "I remember you were singing when you were in Joy, right? When we met for the first time, Li Linjia held a meeting and asked Let’s get acquainted with each other and perform what we are good at. You sang a song and sang out of tune. I was very nervous at the time, and I thought it was because you were too nervous. It’s understandable, and I was eager to make things right, for fear of embarrassing you... "
Yan Shuo's memory of this event is very deep, it was about three years ago, his impression of Shen Ze was finalized in one fell swoop: "But after you finished singing, we were all embarrassed by your singing, but you yourself are not at all. Shy, with his chin raised, he glanced at us in a flustered look, his eyes were like those of the commander in chief's military parade, let us applaud."
Shen Ze: "..."
"It's been 800 years, so don't mention it?" Shen Ze pulled Yan Shuo over unhappily, and pressed Yan Shuo into his arms like punishment.
Yan Shuo was so strangled that he couldn't breathe, he struggled and smiled: "I want to praise you first, I'm going to praise you soon."
"Well, you boast."
Shen Ze let go of his hand, and when Yan Shuo was about to leave, he retracted his strength again, allowing him to change into a comfortable position and lean against his arms.
Yan Shuo originally wanted to boast, but when he got so close, he suddenly smelled the damp moisture from Shen Ze's body, mixed with a familiar fragrance, "Have you used my shampoo?" He leaned forward a little , sticking to the tip of Shen Ze's hair and sniffing lightly.
"Really? Maybe I took it wrong." Shen Ze said.
Yan Shuo didn't believe it: "Why did you take it wrong? Mine is a black bottle, while yours is white."
Shen Ze paused: "Didn't I just use a little shampoo from you? What are you fussing about? Cheapskate."
"..."
I don't care about shampoo...
The words froze for a while, and he couldn't find the words to express his slightly subtle and ambiguous mood, so he could only follow Shen Ze and said, "What's wrong with being stingy? You haven't returned the one thousand three hundred and two last time to me."
Shen Ze glanced at him speechlessly: "Okay, pay it back to you now."
After all, Shen Ze put his arm around him, opened WeChat with the other hand, and transferred money online.
"Do you want interest? Are these enough?"
Yan Shuo didn't see how many transfers Shen Ze had made, but he heard WeChat buzzing a lot. He curiously picked up his phone and checked. There were ten transfers in total, each two hundred and five.
... You are the two hundred and five.
"Thank you, that's too much." Yan Shuo clicked to collect the money one by one, and was ready to fight back, "I'll refund it to you."
Shen Ze said, "No need, buy a few more bottles of shampoo for the cheapskate."
Yan Shuo: "..."
The topic is so skewed that the atmosphere is basically gone.
Yan Shuo finally found an opportunity to speak up, and he couldn't give up halfway.
He put down his cell phone, took Shen Ze's cell phone away, put them aside together, and said solemnly: "Where did we talk just now?"
"Talking to praise me." Shen didn't quite believe it, "What exactly do you want to say? Don't go around in circles, just say it."
"I didn't go around in circles." Yan Shuo said, "I just want to chat with you, have a good communication, and promote teammates."
Shen looked at him.
Yan Shuo said: "For a while at the beginning of this year, Li Linjia asked me to communicate with you every day to maintain a good relationship. Do you remember why? At that time, it was rumored that you were going to leave the group and fly solo. Li Linjia had difficulty communicating with you, so I Send me to find out about the military situation and your thoughts."
"I have no memory."
"Of course you don't have an impression, because I didn't look for you at all... Frankly speaking, our group has been together for almost three years, not counting the time we lived together, the things you said to me every week before can be counted on one hand , we don't know each other at all, and asking me to communicate with you is making things difficult for me."
"Oh." Shen Ze remained expressionless, "Am I that difficult to get along with?"
Yan Shuo remembered that he was going to praise others, so he changed his tone immediately: "I didn't say you were difficult to get along with." He smiled a little, showing a little bit of being courteous and malicious, while Shen stared at him, Yan Shuo sneered He said, "I mean you have a personality, a talented cool guy with an unusual personality, how well they complement each other."
"But..." Yan Shuo changed the subject, "We used to have little contact and never communicated. Compared with the current relationship, you don't think it's progressing a bit... I mean, I can't adapt, I feel unnatural and uneasy. "
After paving the way for eight million words, Yan Shuo did his best just to draw out this sentence.
Shen Ze still looked at him, seeming a little puzzled: "What's unnatural, why don't you feel at ease? You make it sound like I'm plotting against you..."
Yan Shuo was speechless for a while, and Shen said: "What can I do to you, and where will you lose? No, what are you afraid of?"
"..."
I don't know what I'm afraid of, but I'm just panicked...
Yan Shuo sat on the bed, unconsciously playing with the sheets with his fingers.
What is he afraid of, why does he have to get to the bottom of it repeatedly, because he has an intuition that the situation is out of control, and he always feels that something is wrong. It's like falling into a cloud of fog by mistake. If you don't blow the fog away, you will never see what is hidden in front of you.
"I can't feel your purpose." Yan Shuo couldn't hold back his words, and said completely frankly, "everyone does things, no matter how big or small, even the ordinary ones like eating and sleeping, there is a necessary purpose, right? It's for rest. In order to be full. But you and I are now... helping each other, I think your reason is untenable, do you really need to solve it? I feel that you are not the kind of... uh, not a person with a strong need."
Yan Shuo said it tactfully, but in fact he vaguely felt that this relationship didn't match Shen Ze's usual style. Shen Ze should be that kind of frigid, and the pleasure value that pure sensuality/desire can bring him is limited, and he pays more attention to Spiritual pursuit is right.
To put it bluntly, if Shen is a man who is usually very carnivorous and can sleep with anyone like Li Jin, he feels that this relationship is understandable.
But Shen is not.
And between two people, the most basic understanding comes from you knowing what he wants from you. If you can't figure it out, and the other party tries to "control" you, the feeling can't be worse.
"Brother Ze." Yan Shuo thought for a while and said, "Actually, you and I are quite happy together, right?"
"..."
Shen Ze didn't say a word, Yan Shuo whispered: "You like to be close to me very much..."
Shen Ze still didn't speak, only looked at him quietly.
Yan Shuo felt the sense of distance again. Shen Ze is very direct, not superficial at all, straightforward enough to make people feel low in EQ, not tactful, but not direct, deeper emotions are never leaking, and his thoughts are very deep.
Yan Shuo almost wanted to give up, one-sided communication was exhausting, and he finally understood what Li Linjia meant by "communication difficulties".
"never mind."
"Yes, I like it."
The two spoke at the same time, Yan Shuo was taken aback, then looked up at Shen Ze.
"I said, I like to be close to you." Shen suddenly stepped forward and pushed him down on the bed, "It probably started from the first time you acted like a baby to me..."
"I never acted like a baby to you."
"You have."
"..."
Yan Shuo couldn't explain it, but Shen said, "Do you understand that feeling? It's very curious."
Yan Shuo: "..."
You are only curious if you act like a baby, can you talk
Perhaps receiving his dissatisfaction, Shen changed his description: "It's very novel, I feel like I have eaten a piece of candy that I have never tasted before. Take a bite and confirm what it is... I know it shouldn't be, but you are always dangling in front of me, acting like a baby and crying at me, so annoying."
Yan Shuo: "..."
I'm not, I'm not, don't talk nonsense.
"Then I thought, eat whatever you want, why can't you eat?"
Shen bowed his head and kissed him, biting his lips.
Yan Shuo's scorching breath was like a raging heat wave, Yan Shuo was suddenly caught up, and he let out a low whimper, swallowing even the end of the sound.
Shen Ze caressed his face lightly, and kissed him deeply and slowly, so slow that it made people feel that every detail was magnified, and the lingering was extraordinarily erotic.
Yan Shuo panted rapidly, his chest rising and falling with the other's heartbeat. He subconsciously wanted to grab Shen Ze's skirt, but the moment he made the movement, he felt the ambiguity and submissiveness in it, and immediately changed his route, lowering his hand and grasping the bed sheet tightly.
Kissed for a long time. After it was over, Shen Ze kissed him a few more times, and said hoarsely, "You like it too, right?"
"..."
Yan Shuo bit his lower lip, biting off a piece of white from his red lips.
Shen said: "I thought you liked it too. It's good that we are like this. I didn't expect it to cause you such deep troubles. What do you want me to explain? Is there a purpose? There is no purpose, being with the person you like, satisfying yourself , is it the purpose?"
"… 'the person I like'?"
Yan Shuo caught the key word, and when he looked closely at each other, his eyes narrowed slightly, "Do you like me?"
Shen shook his head and nodded again: "If you were a girl, I think I would like it very much, but unfortunately..."
"..." Yan Shuo finally understood a little bit, "You mean, you like my type, but unfortunately I'm a man, so you should have pursued me, but now you can only change it to help each other and make it up? You What a straight, straight man."
Yan Shuo found out that he was a genius in Chinese, and he used "just enough" too precisely. When he saw Shen Ze frowned slightly, he obviously felt uncomfortable with the word, but he couldn't refute it.
"So now you..." Yan Shuo paused, "When you were with me, you liked and regretted it at the same time. You are looking forward to a girl like me appearing, right? When she appears, you don't need to take any more money." I'm done?—Are you using me as a backup? No, a substitute? No..."
I couldn't find a more precise word this time.
Shen Ze was stunned for a moment, he didn't expect him to say: "That's not what I meant."
"That's what you mean." Yan Shuo frowned, the air pressure in his body was very low.
Shen Ze didn't know whether he had nothing to say or what, so he stared at him silently, and then said for a long time: "No, I didn't think that much."
"Oh." Yan Shuo had mixed feelings.
No matter what Shen Ze regards him as, Shen is satisfied. But he was worried more than enjoying it, and he lost face in comparison, he was a bit aggrieved.
Shen Ze was very persistent, and said again: "I didn't mean that."
Yan Shuo didn't think there was any use in debating this issue, so he said in a muffled voice, "I don't want to play with you anymore, let's end it."