Yan Shuo has not had a serious vacation for a long time, of course it is impossible to spend all his time on QQ, he intends to enjoy it, and Shen probably does the same, saying that sentence is just a joke.
That night, the reception ended, they didn't stay in the program group, and went back to MEN's own dormitory overnight.
The car that picked them up was sent by Li Linjia, who also came with Li Linjia herself. She sat in the co-pilot and said something like "The task has been successfully completed, thanks for your hard work", then changed the subject and said to Shen Ze: "We What is the theme of the new album, any ideas?"
"No." Shen said truthfully.
Li Linjia nodded: "Okay, you think about it slowly, you can relax a little during the holidays and find inspiration."
Shen Ze didn't respond, and seemed to hesitate to speak.
A question mark popped up in Yan Shuo's heart with a "ding", what's the reaction? Does Shen want to tell Li Linjia about writing a song for him? Still have something else to say
Boring in the car, Yan Shuo's thoughts diverged for a while, and he suddenly remembered what Shen Ze said before, thinking of a solo album.
This idea is not difficult to understand. Every creator wants to have their own works, but they are a group, so it’s okay to release individual singles, but the album is a bit too much, and the influence of all aspects is not so good.
Besides, there will be rumors that Shen Ze wants to go solo from time to time. Li Linjia may be really worried that he wants to go solo, and the idea of a solo album is a good proof-if there is the first one, there will be a second one. Will you focus your work on the team? Do you feel that the team takes up too much of his time and affects his personal development
And once a precedent is set for Shen Ze, what will other members think
The reason is the same as filming, who doesn't want to have more roles in their scenes.
In fact, if you ask yourself, Yan Shuo has a good relationship with Shen Ze now, and he will consider for him from Shen Ze's perspective. If it was three or four months ago, as a pure colleague, Yan Shuo would be a little bit concerned about him releasing a solo album. I have some opinions.
It's very simple - he came up with it, and I also came up with it. The company can't be too partial.
But if everyone is solo, and everyone plays their own games, the team will be disbanded. MEN is at its peak, and this kind of "split" behavior cannot be practiced.
From this point of view, if Shen wants to go solo, Yan Shuo can understand him, because as long as he is in MEN, the company will not allow him to do so.
So, if Shen Ze really flies solo—
"..."
Yan Shuo stopped his thoughts of running around, and turned his head to look at Shen Ze.
Do you like plastic sky balls? This question was on his lips, but due to the presence of Li Linjia, he didn't ask it out.
And it's too inexplicable to say such a sentence suddenly, Shen may think that he is crazy.
Yan Shuo was suddenly a little melancholy, he asked himself this question, the answer was unexpected, he actually thought he liked it.
What happened recently, why did he suddenly change his mind? Mingming used to think that the four teammates could only serve as backup dancers for him at best.
Now that I think about the possibility of breaking up in the future, I can't bear it...
Is this what colleagues love
Yan Shuo was both sad and embarrassed, thinking wildly all the way, and when he arrived at his destination, Li Linjia didn't come in, so he told them a few words and left.
Yan Shuo and Shen Ze went upstairs hand in hand - it was Shen Ze who took the initiative to lead him. In the darkness, as soon as the hand was held, Yan Shuo's heart that had been dangling for a long time was suddenly pressed down. In a trance, a voice said: No matter what, Shen will not leave me anyway, he will be with me.
As soon as this idea came up, Yan Shuo was a little embarrassed, and said to himself, what am I thinking about.
But Shen really didn't know what he was thinking, so he said unhappily, "Why, can't you hold hands? What's your expression?"
"..."
Yan Shuo was hard to argue with, and when he got stuck, he would say: "Yes."
They walked through the gate and stood at the elevator door.
Yan Shuo glanced around, seeing no one around, suddenly stretched out his hand to hug Shen Ze. He hugged him lightly, and let go quickly. Before Shen Ze could react, the elevator arrived, and Yan Shuo got into the elevator with a whoosh.
Shen Ze: "..."
I just don't know how the night went.
It was already three o'clock in the morning, and Yan Shuo was still rolling around on the bed, unable to fall asleep.
He just looked at the calendar and remembered that in a few days—January 23, Shen Ze's birthday will be celebrated.
The previous Christmas and New Year's Day were celebrated with everyone in the program group. In fact, according to the arrangement of previous years, their birthdays usually have public celebrations. It is difficult to enjoy the day by themselves without seeing anyone in private.
This time, it seemed that Shen had planned it that way.
Yan Shuo thought for a while and opened QQ.
123123: "What gift would you like? /cake/cake"
After sending the message on a whim, he realized that it was already early morning, and Shen Ze in the next room must have gone to bed early.
Unexpectedly, there was a reply——
Fan: "You didn't sleep."
123123: "You didn't sleep either."
Fan: "Well, I'm used to sleeping together, and it's a little uncomfortable to be separated suddenly."
Fan: "You too?"
"..."
Yes, suddenly I slept alone in a bed, and I always felt that the side was empty and something was missing.
But Yan Shuo didn't say so directly, and asked repeatedly: "What gift do you want? If you like something, just tell me, and I will give it to you."
Annoyance: "Is it okay to like anything?"
123123: "Hmm."
Fan: "I like you."
123123: "..."
123123: "Old stalker."
Fan: "I'm serious."
Before Yan Shuo could reply, Shen Ze said again: "What is our relationship now? We are already together, right? You should give me a title, Yan Yan."
123123: "What title do you want?"
Fan: "What do you say?"
123123: "/cold sweat"
Fan: "Yan Shuo."
Annoyed: "/angry"
123123: "/cute"
Fan: "Open the door."
123123: "?"
Fan: "Open the door."
123123: "..."
Yan Shuo put down his phone, got out of bed and opened the door.
As soon as he pressed the doorknob, Shen Ze stepped in and pushed him against the door with his backhand.
With a soft bang, the door closed, Yan Shuo's back was pressed against the door panel, Shen held his shoulders, not giving him time to react, Shen supported the back of his head with one hand, and kissed hard.
Yan Shuo was forced to open his mouth, and let out a gasp in a hurry, but was swallowed and crushed by Shen Ze, the tone of his voice changed, vague and lingering, matching his movement of grabbing Shen Ze's lapel, it was completely lustful. The effect of rejecting and welcoming.
"Hey..." Yan Shuo struggled to speak out from between his fiercely entangled lips and teeth, "You are using too much force... Ugh!"
It's actually not that hard.
But whether it's hugging or kissing, Shen Ze's actions today are not considerate at all, even a little rough, Yan Shuo's back hurts from being pushed.
"Do you want to go back on your word?" Shen Ze said suddenly.
Yan Shuo didn't understand: "Repent what?"
"I asked that day, would you give it to me, and you said yes." Shen Ze wrapped his arms around his waist, and pulled him into his arms, "You have accepted me, Yan Shuo, now you can't go back on your word."
"...I didn't go back on my word." Yan Shuo lowered his head, "I'm just a little... uh, I'm embarrassed to speak."
Fortunately, the lights were not turned on.
Yan Shuo boasted of his wit.
But the distance is so close, even the rapid heartbeat of the other party can be heard clearly, and it doesn't matter whether the light is turned on or not.
Equally unimportant, was the sanity he had left behind.
After Shen Ze confessed to him last time, he considered a lot, such as how to speak to the company, how to confess to his parents, same-sex/partners cannot get married in China, what should we do
It's not that I don't think about it now, but the restlessness in my heart is getting bigger and harder to control, just like the children who fell in love with each other in high school, knowing that it might affect their studies, and they still can't help but be scolded by teachers and parents heartbeat.
He likes me.
I like him too.
I like him very much, can I forget about that first
Let's secretly have fun for a while.
Yan Shuo put his arms around Shen Ze, resting his chin on the other's shoulder, "I haven't regretted it." He pondered for a while, buzzing like a mosquito, "I like you too."
Shen Ze was almost deaf: "What did you say?"
Yan Shuo hummed again: "I like you too."
Shen Ze: "..."
"Okay, don't say it a third time." Yan Shuo finally switched back to the Chinese mode, pushed Shen Ze and said, "It's too late, it's time to go to bed, you go back, see you tomorrow."
It's all here, do you want to go back to sleep
Shen Ze hugged Yan Shuo and went to bed in the dark, the two rolled around on the bed, hugging tightly. Shen Ze snatched the only pillow on the bed, put Yan Shuo on his arm, and hugged him tightly: "You sleep here."
Yan Shuo: "..."
It's strange to be able to sleep.
Yan Shuo closed his eyes, his heart fluttered: "Hello."
Shen responded vaguely.
Yan Shuo whispered, "Did you hear what I said twice just now?"
"Understood." Shen Ze said.
Yan Shuo was a little dissatisfied: "Then why didn't you give me a response..."
"What reaction do you want?" Shen Ze said in a low voice, "I'm afraid I'll scare you."
Yan Shuo: "What's so scary..."
"Try it?" Shen Ze grabbed his hand and pressed it down, "Are you afraid?"
Yan Shuo: "..."
Damn, I'm not without it, what am I afraid of.
Yan Shuo drilled down, leaned his head on Shen Ze's chest, and then reached out to help him get it out.
After doing this for a long time, they were entangled and refused to sleep. It was almost dawn before they couldn't help sleepiness and closed their eyes.
It was noon of the next day when he woke up, Yan Shuo was used to being in the program group, and suddenly returned to his dormitory, when he opened his eyes, he had a feeling of not knowing where he was.
Yan Shuo rubbed his eyes and got out of bed barefoot. Shen immediately held him down, handed over the slippers, then lowered his head and kissed his forehead, and went back to his room to wash and change clothes.
Just as Shen Ze opened the door, Yan Shuo chased after him: "Your hand—"
He wanted to say that you forgot your phone, but as soon as the door opened, Yan Shuo and Shen stood inside, and Li Jin, Qi Haoyu, and Fu Xinyan were all there in the living room outside, and the three looked at them with different expressions.
Yan Shuo: "..."
Qi Haoyu spoke first: "Brother, are you back? What time did you come back yesterday?"
"It's around twelve o'clock."
"Oh." Qi Haoyu shifted his gaze to Shen Ze, "Brother Ze? Why did you come out of Brother Yan's room?"
Shen Ze: "..."
Yan Shuo: "..."
Yesterday he came back too late, Yan Shuo didn't pay attention to whether there were shoes at the door, and forgot that there was someone at home.
Later, he and Shen Ze messed around a bit, but he didn't even remember it.
Well now, got caught.
But Qi Haoyu didn't understand, and Fu Xinyan didn't understand immediately either. Seeing the expressions of the two of them, he was a little puzzled, but he was much smarter than Qi Haoyu, and he suddenly realized within a few seconds, turned his eyes away, and continued to do his own thing.
Only Li Jin didn't fluctuate in expression throughout the whole process, he smiled meaningfully at Yan Shuo, and his smile was full of kindness and love like an old father.
Yan Shuo: "..."