Her heart brightened, and she took a few steps to catch up with the two people in front. The sound of her hasty footsteps obviously startled them both, and they both looked back at the same time.
That day Jiang Cheng was wearing a light pink shirt and a gray linen storehouse. The dim light of the street shop turned his fair face into a bronze color, and the lines of his face became more defined. He stared at his big shining eyes, surprised Opening his mouth slightly, he suddenly looked surprised to see her following them, and then bent his lips, showing a faint smile. Under the dim light, he looked as handsome as the male star on a postcard.
His sunny smiling face immediately opened up her gloomy and gloomy heart. The anger she had accumulated to question him suddenly seemed like a deflated ball, getting discouraged bit by bit.
"Why are you here? Isn't the cafeteria busy today?" He asked gently.
Xiao Zhang laughed and said, "Are you worried about Jiang Cheng? I followed him all the way here." Heh! Ah! Ah!
She smiled politely at Xiao Zhang, but did not answer.
"Where have you been?" she asked weakly.
"Xiao Zhang and I went to the street and ate a bowl of noodles and drank a bottle of beer. What's the matter? What can I do for you?" His casual answer made her heartbroken as she hoped for his comfort but was disappointed.
"Why don't you eat in our cafeteria?"
"Eating leftovers in the cafeteria every day, eating other people's saliva all the time, I'm going to die of worry." Jiang Cheng said with a frown.
"Where did you go this afternoon?" She couldn't wait to know his whereabouts to comfort herself.
"I said I was worried about you, hehe, we are going to watch a show in the greenhouse." Xiao Zhang said with a smile.
"Don't talk nonsense!" Jiang Cheng pushed Xiao Zhang angrily.
"Xiao Zhang and I went to the countryside to buy edamame in the afternoon. Secretary Qiao said that the county leader would come to our place for an exchange. He heard that the deputy county magistrate Huang liked to eat edamame very much, so he asked us to buy some edamame that we had chosen. He specifically asked us to do the selection by ourselves, we spent the whole afternoon picking edamame in the fellow’s field, and it wasn’t long before we came back.”
Xiao Zhang laughed again and said, "Why are you guilty, there are so many explanations."
Jiang Cheng chuckled and said, "What's the matter today, who made you unhappy again."
She smiled and didn't answer, the stone hanging in her heart fell to the ground, she got the satisfactory answer she expected, he did have something, and Yin Yunfei didn't tell him, he was still her most trustworthy and closest lover , she was very happy, and the burning pain in her stomach seemed to have eased a little, she really wanted to cry on his shoulder immediately to vent her resentment.
They returned to the compound soon, and Xiao Zhang said to her with a smile: "Don't embarrass Jiang Cheng when you go back, I was joking with you just now, we really went to the countryside, I absolutely guarantee that Jiang Cheng didn't watch Striptease."
She blushed and smiled against her will: "What does it matter to me where he goes?"
Xiao Zhang patted Jiang Cheng on the shoulder and exaggeratedly said to her: "This is a rare good guy, you have to hurry up. Ha! Ha!" After speaking, he waved his hand at them and said: "I don't want to be a light bulb. Well, my five-baidi electric light is too much to bear, isn't it? Ha! Ha! Ha!"
Jiang Cheng patted Xiao Zhang and said with a smile: "Stop talking nonsense, come back and sit with us for a while."
"You still say I'm a poor talker, and you're okay. I keep saying 'we, ours'. How dare I follow you. I'll find a few people to play poker. Bye bye." Xiao Zhang walked like oil on his feet up.
The two watched Xiao Zhang leave, and returned to her dormitory. Jiang Cheng looked at her and said, "What's the matter, you look so bad today, what's wrong with being listless?"
She said lazily, "I'm drunk today, isn't it embarrassing?"
"What's so embarrassing about it, it's rare to get drunk once in your life." He said with a smile.
"During lunch, Xiao Cao in the typing room told me that you were drinking in the restaurant over there. When I passed by the restaurant, I saw you sitting next to Yin Yunfei. Did he say something that made you angry... … There is nothing to be angry about, you have really become a veritable sister Lin."
His reproachful tone, his indifferent tone, was like pouring a basin of cold water on her head, making her feel chilly from head to toe, chilling her heart, she was full of hope that she would be comforted by him, and she crawled on his shoulder with the hope of crying , and immediately disappeared, disappointment, loss, sadness filled her heart, now he is so distant and strange to her, he is a familiar stranger, she swallowed hard, and let everything that wanted to happen The idea of telling him was suppressed, and he said with a strong tone of anger: "So you know, so you know everything."
He stared at her in surprise, as if he didn't understand the sudden change in her attitude, and said with a slight frown, "What's the matter, why are you rushing at me again all of a sudden, well, if you want to vent your anger today, you can vent your anger on me."
He lowered his head and sighed and said: "Actually, you care too much about some things. Sometimes you always magnify the pain to torture yourself. If you don't care about everything, you won't hurt yourself. People like Yin Yunfei, you don't care at all. You can have a haha with him, just perfunctory, why should you care so much?"
Yeah? Can a person like Yin Yunfei handle it with a haha? However, she never told Jiang Cheng how Yin Yunfei deliberately harassed her. She was ashamed to speak of his hands and feet on her, and her introverted personality made her ashamed to speak even to her closest lover. She suddenly felt that she had wrongly blamed Jiang Cheng, he didn't know the reason at all, he was just like himself, a soldier who obeyed orders absolutely, trembling in the complex interpersonal relationship, walking on thin ice, Even if he stays by her side, what can he do
She didn't say a word, meditating silently, Jiang Cheng said again: "We have to learn the rules of this industry when we step into this industry. If we don't want to be a mediocre clerk in this life , you must learn to adapt to the environment and deal with it smoothly." He spoke earnestly like an elder.
Yes, this is the philosophy of many people who have stepped into this industry. It's a pity that she is careful in everything and pays attention to every step, but she still doesn't get the point. But he, indeed, has done it. He is very suitable for this environment, and he is like a fish in water. , he has never had any mood swings, his emotions are indifferent, tepid, cheerful, and he speaks carefully and cautiously, but will he be able to get rid of the mediocre life
She knew that no matter how hard she tried in this life, unless she was subverted, she would never have a bright future, and Yang Zhenhai was her tomorrow. However, she was unwilling to be reconciled to such an ending, but there was nothing she could do.
She fell into contemplation, her thoughts drifted in the boundless reverie, she forgot today's troubles, and felt depressed in worrying about the future.
"Go to bed early, I'll go back to the dormitory to write a paper for Secretary Qiao." Jiang Cheng stood up and got up to leave. She suddenly came to her senses like a sleepwalker.
"What paper does Secretary Qiao write?" She asked in a daze.
"Secretary Qiao enrolled in the administrative management major of TV University. He wants to get an undergraduate diploma. He asked me to do homework and write papers for him. There are too many things to do during the day, so I can't calm down and write. I have to finish writing quickly... ... Go to bed early, and stop torturing yourself with random thoughts." He came over and kissed her gently on the cheek, then turned and left.
She lay on the bed after washing, her thoughts were still stuck in the conversation they had just had, her stomach was still cramped and uncomfortable, she didn't eat dinner, and she didn't have any appetite at all, she just felt painful and had no sleepiness, Huang Juan was with her recently Next to Secretary Qiao, she accompanied her superiors to extend the banquet. She came back late because she did not go to work in the canteen today. Everyone knew that she was drunk and no one came to call her, so she took a rest early.
She thought back to what Jiang Cheng said, maybe there was some truth in it, she began to wonder if she was really too stubborn, too serious, so she lived so tired, so tired, yes, this messy world No matter how sad she sighs, no matter how she shouts, it will not help, the earth will not stop turning, the sun will rise as usual, the world will never change at all, the only thing that can be changed is yourself, so why not change yourself and integrate into it
She seemed to be enlightened, but she seemed to be standing in front of the cave where Ali Baba discovered that there were countless gold and silver treasures, and suddenly forgot the incantation of sesame to open the door.
The feeling of cramping in her stomach reminded her of the disgusting thing she encountered today. Jiang Cheng said that it was because she cared too much, but no matter whether she chose to care or not, this thing happened after all. How could what happened disappear because of whether she cared about it or not? It left traces, and they were indelible traces. For example, the feeling of colic in her stomach now, and the place on her body touched by Yin Yunfei, she thought of it. The feeling of throwing up, and the gossip she has been worrying about.
Facts have proved that her worries were not unfounded. After that incident, the rumors about her and Yin Yunfei's scandal spread wildly and vigorously. She became a scandal figure in the town and even the whole county. She had nothing to do about it. Yin Yunfei successfully married her There is a relationship involved, and it is a relationship that cannot be explained clearly, the reason is unclear, the cutting is constant, and the reason is still chaotic.
Later, these rumors even reached Jiang Cheng's ears, but he just casually mentioned that he trusted her, which gave her the courage to face the rumors bravely, she was not defeated, she was tenacious The rumors will always pass, and behind the rumors are distorted, perverted, and ugly souls. These people who spread rumors are not blind, not without the ability to distinguish true from false, and not all hate her , but they deceived themselves into believing what they wanted to believe in their hearts, so at that time she was standing on a high moral high ground, and walked over with deep compassion and contempt for those who spread rumors and slander.
This is an era of self-deception, an era of collective self-deception and deception.