Since she joined the work, she has been working with resentment, surly, and cynical mood. She claims to be noble and does not associate with the common people. She walks alone and her heart is rebellious. She doesn't care about people with power, she doesn't care about their evaluation of her, and these people also look down on her. In the eyes of those around her, she is a cowardly, honest, scheming, and will not come People who are incompetent, they often show contempt for her inadvertently.
She has to find a way to change, she has to have power, she has to impress these vulgar people, and she has to rely on power to realize her dreams and ambitions, yes, if she continues like this, her so-called dreams and ambitions will only be Could be the weeping sobs in the middle of the night.
But how can it be realized? Relying on serving tea and pouring water without complaint? By being well-behaved and obedient? By working quietly and steadily like an old scalper? Ah! joke! She clearly saw the fate of such people, and also heard how they judged them. They were ridiculed and ridiculed!
Competing with the two girls in the typing room to clean up the boss? To study what leaders like? ... ... ,no! no! Never! She couldn't do it, and she firmly rejected all these methods. Then just follow the popular jingle, "Don't run or send, stay where you are; only run and don't send, transfer at the same level; run and send, superiors reuse", yes, how wonderful this sentence is! How realistic and practical the summary is.
Once this idea was formed in her mind, it made her restless, and she walked up and down on the palm-sized floor in the dormitory anxiously, walking up and down, yes, she went to give gifts!
Oh, the Mid-Autumn Festival is coming. These festivals create excuses and opportunities for people who want to give gifts. Yes, during the Mid-Autumn Festival, I will give gifts to Secretary Qiao. No matter whether it works or not, she must try it. Transferred from the family planning post. This position belongs to dual leadership. It is not directly commanded by the big leader. It is not reused. No one likes to do it. Moreover, it is inspected all day long, and it is necessary to please the villagers to cooperate with them in telling lies and to deal with routine inspections. If the villagers do not cooperate, or they are careless If they slipped their tongues, they still have to be punished, like mice in a bellows--two heads get angry.
She suddenly remembered that one day she heard Zhou Mei whisper that those agricultural development projects required financial independence, special funds for special purposes, special accountants, cashiers, and the leaders were looking for candidates. Most of the people who are reused by leaders have passed through these positions. Perhaps, she can get such a position. She majored in accounting and should have an advantage over others.
Thinking of this, her heart pounded with excitement! Boom! Jumping wildly, she was excitedly planning how to give gifts, what should I buy as gifts? Oh, during the Mid-Autumn Festival, moon cakes should be given, but isn’t it too thin to just give moon cakes? Besides, there must be quite a few people giving moon cakes. She thought about buying some other gifts, but what else could she buy? Except for tobacco and alcohol, other things are really not suitable, and she has no experience in giving gifts, so I really can't think of it for a while, hey! Just buy a cigarette bar, after all, just to touch it.
But will the leader accept the gift? She usually avoids the leader, and when she sees the leader, she will take a detour. She is thousands of miles away from the leader. This sudden gift, so abrupt, will the leader accept it? And as soon as she thought of going to give gifts and beg for help, the humiliation and neglect she suffered at her cousin's house, the contemptuous and contemptuous eyes of her cousin, her vulgar older sister, and her cousin's lukewarm attitude, all immediately came to mind. In her mind, the feeling of being trampled on her soul and dignity, the deep inferiority complex of being inferior and unable to lift her head was merciless again, and it hurt her strongly, and she couldn't help trembling and timidly. Immediately, I felt that the self in my heart was resisting this idea, timidly cowering, shivering like a light on my back, it is really difficult to ask for help!
She hesitated, wondering whether she should go or not, she scratched her head with her hands, her scalp hurt from pinching her nails, but if she didn't take this step, it would be as simple as being despised by others all day long, and maybe begging for help in the future There will be more days, she must make herself stronger and not ask for help! Let others beg themselves! Yes, only by climbing to the height she expects, only by sitting in the position she expects, can she be qualified to talk about her dreams, and can she truly do something for the folks! But, she has no other way, it seems that there is only one step to take at the moment, since she decided to take this step, she will take it sooner or later, she straightened her back, raised her head and looked firmly, regardless of whether it is up the knife mountain Still in flames, she endured it! She must touch it!
Oh, and one more question, she doesn't know where Secretary Qiao's home is? She remembered that the women in the office had said in the chat that Secretary Qiao's house seemed to be an independent three-story building, a three-story building facing the street on the side of a newly built wide asphalt road in the county seat, but the newly built one in the county seat There are many oil roads, she doesn't know where they are located, she never pays attention to these, as if they said it, hey! Now that I think about it, I really regret it.
Who should I ask? Oh, those women must never ask, they will guess her intentions, and they will immediately spread the word. The driver Xiao Wang must know! But the driver Xiao Wang can't guarantee that he won't say anything, alas! How else can I find out the address of Secretary Qiao's house? She anxiously circled on the ground, twisted her hands, and tapped her head with her knuckles. Suddenly, she remembered that Jiang Cheng should have been to Secretary Qiao's house. Although Jiang Cheng had never told her about it, Jiang Cheng Cheng often goes out with Secretary Qiao, he must have been there, at least he knows where it is, asking Jiang Cheng is much more reliable than asking other people, even if he guesses it, he will not tell others, maybe he will praise himself in his heart Well - finally got the hang of it! But she was still going to ask Jiang Cheng obliquely, she didn't want to tell him this.
She doesn't know where Jiang Cheng has gone. These days are the busiest time for family planning work. She has been busy since early in the morning to make the year-end report of family planning. She didn't see Jiang Cheng. I didn't see Jiang Cheng during the meal, maybe he went to the countryside, let's talk about it when he comes back, she pressed her heart that was still beating wildly, and comforted herself, oh! No hurry, no hurry, wait until he comes back.
She let out a long sigh, and sat on the bed tiredly, feeling restless and beating wildly, restless and confused.