She finally returned home and pushed open the creaking rusted iron gate. The small yard was quiet and messy, with a lot of corn sticks piled up in the yard, and there were some stalls. The sunflower slices that were opened to dry were piled full, and there was almost no place to stay. She stepped over the sunflower slices and returned to the long-lost earthen house, where her mother lay quietly on the kang, She seems to have fallen asleep, the room is very messy, the dishes and chopsticks that have not been washed after the meal are piled up on the stove, and some firewood left over from cooking is piled up on the ground, everywhere is covered with dust, she gently Touched to the side of the mother, and looked at the mother. The mother was lying on her side with her face facing the wall, sleeping soundly, and there were tears in the corner of her eyes. She thought that the mother must have stayed up all night because of her younger brother's dropping out of school. She was too sleepy , That's why she sleeps so soundly, she knows her mother's personality best, she is very strong, she must not be able to accept her brother dropping out of school, she must have shed a lot of tears, and must have blamed herself for being sad for a long time. . шщш.㈦㈨ⅹS.сом is updated so fast.
She quietly sat beside her mother's head, wanting to work but afraid of waking her mother up. She looked at the bony body lying on the kang with regret. The mother was so thin that only skin and bones remained, with sunken eye sockets and sunken cheeks. If it wasn't covered by that layer of sallow and wrinkled skin, she would be like a skeleton. She turned her head away in pain, and she couldn't bear to see her mother in this state. In her childhood memory, her mother was very beautiful. Her figure and appearance resembled her mother. Her mother was once as delicate and charming as her. However, due to hardships and illnesses, her mother's beauty has long since disappeared. Exhausted.
She remembered that her mother was irritable, upright, very strict, and very loving when she was gentle. When she was a child, she was very attached to her mother. Whenever she went out and came back and saw her mother, she would feel uneasy and lost. Mother used to be her heaven.
She remembered that when she was young, her mother was always vigorous and orderly when she was working, the house was also cleaned up, and the things were arranged in an orderly manner. Live in **, cupping when the pain is unbearable. She often wakes up and sees her father still cupping her mother. If the cupping doesn’t work, she takes a painkiller. In fact, her mother’s condition was not serious at that time. It's just that she is carrying it firmly, carrying it, and finally she can't carry it anymore.
The sky was getting late, and twilight was coming. She heard the sound of farmers returning home from work on the distant road, the noise of four-wheeled carts, the bleating of sheep, and the crying of children. The noise, the yelling of mothers, the quiet small village suddenly boiled, became restless, and became lively.
Oh, it's time to finish dinner, and my brother and dad are coming back soon. The mother moved a bit, woke up suddenly, and suddenly saw her sitting beside her, she seemed startled, then the corners of her mouth twitched excitedly, trying to say something, but couldn't say it with difficulty, the two The muddy old tears flowed down from the deep-set eye sockets, and kept flowing down. She wanted to stretch out her hand to 'touch' her 'daughter', but unfortunately her hand didn't listen to her, and she 'twitched' in pain. Twitching, trying to struggle to sit up, but she couldn't sit up anymore, the body no longer listened to her consciousness, she gave up and lay helplessly.
Her mother's health declined rapidly. Looking at her mother like this, her heart ached like a thousand arrows piercing her heart. She tried her best to hold back the tears that were about to burst into her eyes, and went to help her mother to lie half-lying against the wall. .
She picked up her mother's hand and stroked it. These hands were curled up and could not be fully stretched many years ago. These hands were thin and rough, covered with calluses, bulging veins, and all the joints were deformed and swollen. The mother's hand was on her cheek, and her cheek was prickly like a setback. She couldn't hold back the tears any longer. In her hands, her mother was already crying, she said in tears, don't worry, mom! After she finished speaking, she could no longer speak, and buried her face in her mother's hands, sobbing.
Later, when her father and younger brother came back, she stopped crying. They pulled a cart full of corn sticks. My younger brother was unloading the car outside. My father hurriedly strode into the house. He was a little surprised to see her. , Seeing their faces full of tears, he looked sad, looked at them silently, without saying a word, went out to unload the car with his brother again.
She started to tidy up the house and started cooking. They were all working in silence. There was a dead silence in the room. None of them wanted to say a word, for fear that the pain buried in their hearts would be leaked out if they opened their mouths. They are all imprisoned in their own pain, smacking the taste of pain.
After dinner, she wanted to talk to her brother, but his brother was so tired that he fell on the kang and didn't want to talk at all. Dad squatted outside the door of the house and smoked. After smoking, he took out the cigarette from the cupboard.
Half a bottle of Erguotou to drink alone.
At night, she was lying on the kang, tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep. She remembered that she once had a wish. In that golden autumn, life was full of hope. She made a wish with great pride. She wanted to The mother enjoys happiness, but that flimsy and powerless wish has come to nothing. She made a wish, and she even made a vow for it. She will take care of her younger brother instead of her mother. She wants to fulfill her mother's wish. However, this wish has also come to nothing. , She beat her chest in pain and stomped her feet, blaming herself endlessly, was she overthinking her abilities and making a wish in vain? Or has the cruel life been playing tricks on her
How can she be strong enough to overwhelm this cruelty, she is puzzled, she can't find the answer, she feels that she is light and weak like a yellow leaf blowing in the wind, and the great pain weighs down like a mountain Come down, press down, it comes from all directions, it penetrates everywhere, she is overwhelmed, almost suffocated, almost swallowed, she feels the pain of twisting, she wants to surrender, she is powerless to resist, let the cowardly Tears flowed down my heart drop by drop.