She came home, as usual, at about the same time as usual, she pushed open the iron gate as usual, and stepped into this eerily quiet, deathly silent, disturbingly shabby gray little courtyard.
In the dark and low earthen house, the mother was still lying on the kang, motionless, while the younger brother sat on a small wooden stool and crawled on the edge of the kang, with his head buried in his arms. He raised his head, his eyes were slightly swollen and red, his face was mournful, his voice was hoarse, and he said with sobs, sister, mom has been in a coma several times, mom...
She knew that this day would come sooner or later. The sins her mother suffered in this world should come to an end. Her pitiful and miserable life was coming to an end. Go, who said there is karma in this world? Who said that good will be rewarded with good and evil will be rewarded with evil? Why does a kind person like my mother suffer such torture, while those dog officials who broke the law and corrupted their lives, as well as those profiteers who have no conscience and exploit the weak, and all those villains who make money by any means, live at ease Free, wanton pleasure
She stared blankly at the thin body lying on the kang, that lifeless body like a skeleton, she stood dumbly, like a piece of wood without emotion and consciousness, she found that she suddenly lost the power of sadness.
She was silent for a long time, and then she murmured as if waking up from a dream, "Where is Dad, where is Dad?" the younger brother said, "Dad went to the town to hire a car, and wants to take Mom to the county hospital."
Tremblingly, she touched her mother's side. Her mother's head was buried in the pillow, lying on her side, breathless, her eyes closed, and her eyelids trembled slightly. She touched her mother's withered cheeks with her hands, but her mother remained motionless. .
She suddenly felt a colic feeling in her heart. This kind of intense pain, like a huge net, completely enveloped her completely. This big net seemed to swallow her alive and tear her whole.
That messy, low, dim, dilapidated, hell-like hut made her feel heavy, uneasy, confused, and irritated. She wanted to escape countless times, but she was helplessly recalled again and again, even if her The body leaves, and the soul also returns every night.
Mother is going, her sky has already collapsed, she is already overwhelmed, and she is so painful that she is unconscious.
"Mom always refuses to eat. She has been on a hunger strike for two days." The younger brother sighed and said sadly.
"Go to the hospital and..." She sighed sadly and didn't have the courage to continue.
"Father said, no matter what, you have to go, whether it is useful or not, you have to go." The younger brother whispered.
That's right, as long as the mother still has a chance of life, she must not give up in such a muddle-headed manner, even if it's a waste of money, she must keep this half of her life.
Later, the mother was sent to the hospital, and the mother was in a coma. The doctor who received the consultation - a tall, burly, indifferent and expressionless man, he opened the mother's eyelids, took a light with a flashlight, and told them to hurry up. Go through the hospitalization procedures, then prescribe medicine, hang the bottle, and give the mother oxygen.
Dad went back after finishing his mother's hospitalization procedures. He stood in front of her sadly and said goodbye to her. He completely entrusted his mother to her. With a meager fortune, he wants to go back and take care of what these living people still need.
The next day, the younger brother also went back. Here, they want to reduce all expenses and save every copper coin. One less person will naturally reduce the expenses. The proceeds from coal sales.
My mother hung the bottle for a week, during which time she woke up occasionally, and was in a coma most of the time. The sputum suction device, this was a lot of tossing, which aggravated the mother's pain again. Sometimes she really hoped that her mother would just lie down like this and leave without knowing it.
The doctor said that this is the manifestation of the late stage of the disease, and it is a complication caused by the disease. Phlegm turbidity and blood stasis are the root causes of the lingering and difficult-to-treat rheumatic disease, and the mother is already terminally ill and dying, and this symptom is particularly prominent.
She stayed with her mother in the hospital for a month, and her mother has always been like this, waking up less and less often. Later, even the indifferent doctor shook her head and let her go through the discharge procedures.
She will always remember that day, it was a rainy day, the sky was chaotic in the morning, there was no wind, the air seemed to be stagnant, hot and unbearable, making it difficult to breathe, depressing and suffocating, that morning After the doctor came to check the room, he looked at the mother who was barely hanging half-life through the oxygen tube, and shook his head helplessly, suggesting that she should be discharged from the hospital. This place where money is eaten is about to drain her soul.
That morning, she was about to go out and make a phone call to the village chief’s house to inform her father and younger brother to help her. Her father and younger brother came here occasionally when her mother was in the hospital. During the busy farming season, they are busy with farming.
Just as she walked to the door of the ward, Xia Ying came face to face. Her best friend, they have rarely seen each other since they each started working. It was the first time they met each other after they joined the work. The old friends were delighted and excited to meet each other. They chatted farewell along the way and accumulated a few years of words. Xia Ying said that she was assigned to the Youth League Committee of the county. It took a lot of money, and it took a lot of trouble. She smiled and said that her father once gave up on her to stay in the county. It was she who cried and cried and finally begged her father. Her father overcame all difficulties and gave money to build roads everywhere. , she was able to stay in the county through many joints, but she said that the money spent was worth it, because the county youth league committee is a good unit, and most of them are the children of officials. It is not easy to squeeze in, but she actually squeezed in She came in, so she was very proud and proud.
That day, she was carrying a box of milk and some fruits in her hand, and she almost bumped into her arms. She came to visit her mother. She said that she had just heard that her mother was hospitalized in the county hospital. She did not Said who she listened to, and she was not in the mood to inquire. She looked sad and sympathized with her appearance. She carefully asked her about her mother's condition. She shook her head in despair and told her that there was no hope. Just as she was about to make a phone call to her family and was about to be discharged from the hospital, Xia Ying was silent for a while, then murmured, "Actually, I think auntie's illness is tormenting if it drags on, so why not..."
She smiled miserably, and Xia Ying stood up and hugged her, patted her on the shoulder and said, "My condolences should be changed, and I will leave soon. She sincerely kept her and said that we should have dinner together at noon, Xia Ying." Said that she was going to attend a colleague's wedding at noon, and after she finished speaking, she suddenly remembered something and said, "Don't you know? It's Huang Juan, the daughter of the deputy county magistrate who was in your unit, who is getting married." Suddenly, she was really shocked when she heard the news. She didn't speak, her mouth was half-opened, and she anxiously listened to Xia Ying's next words. Our immediate boss is now the deputy secretary of the Communist Youth League," she asked, when was Huang Juan transferred back? Xia Ying said, "It hasn't been a week since I was transferred back, oh, don't you know?" She said, since I came home from leave, I have been almost isolated from the world. I didn't expect that she would only be away for a month. , how did this girl get promoted? Getting married again? The world is changing so fast. She suddenly had an ominous premonition, her heart was in her throat, and she asked anxiously, "Who is she marrying?"
Xia Ying thought for a while and said, "I heard that it was Jiang from the county organization department. Hey, I heard that he was also the secretary of your unit. I heard that the deputy director of the organization department is about to be promoted, huh? … .”
Xia Ying was still talking, but she didn't hear a word. She looked at her lips that were moving and closing, her head was buzzing, there was a roar, and the sky was spinning for a while, dizzy for a while, her eyes were dark, and her consciousness was blurred. She seemed to fall down, in Xia Ying's arms, after a while, she didn't know how long, maybe a few minutes, maybe an hour, she found that she was lying on the bed, she had woken up, and there was another scene in front of her. There is one more person, ah! It's Yin Yunfei, why is he here, is she crazy? Was she delusional and hallucinating? Why is he here
She stared straight at him, like a complete mental patient. He sat on a chair in front of her with a deep expression on his face. She suddenly remembered everything that happened before she fell into a coma. The pain in the lungs tore at that burdened and poor heart again, and she immediately felt the pain, she wanted to die immediately, die, her world collapsed completely, she fell limply, she wanted to cry, how much she wanted She cried a lot, but her eyes were dry without a single tear, and her heart was extremely heavy, as if it was pressing down on the whole world. She had difficulty breathing, and she was struggling to breathe. She was in a trance, confused, no, this is not true, all this is an illusion, it must be an illusion.
"You finally woke up, you scared me to death," Xia Ying said excitedly while crouching in front of her.
She opened her eyes slightly and struggled to sit up. Yin Yunfei held her down and said in a low voice, "Lie down a little longer!"
"What's the matter with you? Why did you pass out all of a sudden? Did you work too hard to take care of your aunt recently?" Xia Ying asked again.
She turned her head without making a sound, and closed her eyes tiredly. There was only pain in her heart. The severe pain felt like a sea of flesh, sweeping endlessly, and she was swallowed up, completely swallowed up.
Yin Yunfei stared at her motionlessly, with a cold and sad expression, his eyes were sharp, like a sharp sword seemed to pierce her.