She went to work as usual, and worked as usual. In the eyes of others, she behaved calmly, as if nothing had happened.
The people here are watching her curiously, trying to find something from her expression, maybe she disappointed them, they were disappointed, they didn't get anything, she didn't show the pathetic, grief-stricken desire they expected But they always treated her with pity, sympathy, and regret, as she expected, and some people showed a bit of contempt and schadenfreude without any concealment. In the eyes of these people, her life was over. , she can never get married again. She was involved in scandals before, and now she is abandoned by her boyfriend. In this remote, closed, backward, and ignorant town, she has become an unclean woman, and single men stay away from her. All of this is indifferent to her, these injuries are insignificant compared to what he did to her, and no one in this world can hurt her more than he did to her.
Her heart was dry, like a dry well of a thousand years old, and she lived numbly and unconsciously.
Now, life for her is just living, living, simply, numb and hopeless living, she is deeply plunged into despair, unable to extricate herself, and nothing can dispel the sadness in her heart. She is accompanied only by loneliness, boundless and endless loneliness.
She works hard and hard every day, no matter what the leader assigns her to do, she will do her best to complete it without complaint, even if she works day and night, she is also happy, she is busy, she is actively busy, She uses busyness to forget the pain in her heart, and whenever night comes, she has to face a person's life, she is afraid of night coming, afraid of going back to that corridor, afraid to go back to that dormitory, where there is no longer It is a quiet harbor, no longer a safe corner where she can live, but she can't escape, she must go back to that hut, every lonely night is the moment of torture, the feeling of loneliness and sadness is like A blunt knife sawed the already bloody heart one by one.
Life went on brutally, and now that she was alive, she had to endure this punishment. She learned from those idlers in the office that he had been promoted to be the deputy head of the County Organization Department. At the beginning, they talked about him and carefully avoided her. Later, they ignored her and became accustomed to it. After all, it belonged to Her own disaster, others have no reason to worry about her emotions all the time, they openly talked about him and Huang Juan, they talked about it with envious expressions.
She was afraid of hearing his news, but she was very eager to hear his news. She wanted to get rid of him completely from the bottom of her heart, but it was so easy. Hate him, and miss him uncontrollably, she is afraid to see him, but she is always looking forward to seeing him, she has imagined countless times that if one day he comes here to go to the countryside, they will meet unexpectedly, and they will have to face each other , what will happen to her, will she collapse immediately, oh, then, does he still remember her
In this world, love is always hurt by ruthlessness. The story of an infatuated woman who is ruthless has been repeated since ancient times, but she never thought that such a thing would happen to her, and she was swept away without being prepared for how to deal with it. In the past, she was bruised all over her body, her heart was torn apart and scarred, but the road was still long, no matter how rough and bumpy, the road still had to be walked, and she had to stumble and walk in this world with difficulty.
She calculated every penny he spent on her in detail. While repaying her loan, she silently saved money and paid it back to him. Fortunately, she had no other expenses except food. At the end of the year, when she had saved enough money, she attached a list and remitted it to him. Of course, as she expected, he didn't reply. She thought he was also afraid of seeing her, so let all of this be buried forever with the repayment of the money. After all, he once helped her when she was in the most difficult time. Maybe, he was not wrong. And habitat, why not? He has the freedom to choose as he likes, but it is her who is wrong, she is too infatuated, this world is originally cold, but she expects warmth and warmth. Love is gone, the past is gone, forget it, forget it, what about love, what about hate, after a hundred years, will it be turned into dust
She has never been able to repay the money from Secretary Qiao. Once, she carefully mentioned it to Secretary Qiao. Secretary Qiao smiled and said, don't worry about it, and asked her again, do you still need it? Feel free to mention any difficulties, he tried his best to solve them, she shook her head and thanked her carefully, in her heart she was sincerely grateful to him, as always.
Secretary Qiao valued her very much. After Jiang Cheng left, the position of secretary was vacant. Although many people were eager to try, Secretary Qiao talked to her, hoping that she could take over Jiang Cheng's position and appoint her as the director of the office. She politely declined the position of secretary. Firstly, she couldn't bear to stay in the place where Jiang Cheng had been. Secondly, she never liked the position of secretary. She didn't want to write those insincere empty words, stereotypes, and big words. Secretary Qiao respected her choice, but still appointed her as the office secretary. director.
Her progress at work has brought her a small benefit, those people no longer ignore her, no longer openly despise her, a few people may be out of good intentions, and they are trying to introduce her to someone, but she refuses them all. Yes, she refused many times, and they gradually retreated. She is stepping into the ranks of older youths day by day, and seems to be anxious to some irrelevant people around her. She seldom goes to the streets of small towns, because some enthusiastic aunts will stop her and ask her endlessly, "Have you found a partner yet?", and smack their lips with great concern, worrying about her sympathetically, she is afraid These people should be avoided.
The younger brother used the money she had raised—the money that was spent while his mother was in the hospital, and his own agricultural income to start a coal selling business with his classmates. In the first year, he made a small profit. In the second year, his confidence doubled, he was full of ambition, and he was ready to do a big job. He stockpiled several tons of coal at the beginning of the year, and the coal price skyrocketed that winter. His younger brother made a fortune, and his younger sister was about to graduate from college. , she majored in civil engineering and was an intern in a construction company. The situation at home was gradually improving, but her father became more and more dull and depressed. He drank heavily every day and showed a kind of old and weak A sickly inattentive alcoholic, he doesn't care about anything, he works like a crazy kid, he seems to have abandoned his children and the family.