Memoirs of a Female Prisoner

Chapter 59

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She leaned against the door panel, weeping silently, that dignified and majestic black face kept reappearing in her mind, she used to think of this face with such a humble heart of surrender and how flattered and grateful She used to regard him as a leader full of love and care for his subordinates, as a reliable elder, but in the end, all of this was just an illusion of her own self-righteousness, a beauty created by her simple fantasy, and now this illusion has disappeared. Disappeared in an instant, he took off his disguise, took off his mask, revealing a cruel and real side, he wanted to ask for something in return, he was testing her, hum! Obviously, he was testing her!

With tears in her eyes, she leaned her head back on the door panel, with the corners of her mouth slightly bent, and a few mournful and mocking sneers burst out from her chest. The laughter echoed in the empty cabin and hovered above her head. People will help her for no reason, they all have a purpose, a purpose.

What should she do? She kept asking herself in her heart, and kept thinking that the money owed must be paid back, but she remitted all her savings to Jiang Cheng not long ago, and now she is penniless, what should she do, what should she do? What to do, oh, they are all her creditors, she has so many creditors, she is overwhelmed and exhausted.

She has been struggling on the poverty line, and poverty has made her miserable, trembling, and shrinking. She is always in debt, always in debt, constantly in debt, constantly in debt, it is like a whirlpool, spinning back and forth , until it swirls her into it.

All she met in her life were creditors, and they all came to collect debts. First, her mother. As long as she can remember, her mother was a patient who acted resolutely and disregarded her own life. She boiled herself to death, dedicated her life, and took away the pain It also left eternal regrets for the relatives who loved her deeply; then Jiang Cheng, probably because she owed him a debt of love in the previous life, and he came to pay it back in this life, until he emptied her, and he left without mercy. He regards him as the most beautiful chapter of his life, but he regards her as a short story that has been flipped over, she regards him as the swan song of life, but he only regards her as an episode, oh, the so-called love is nothing more than that. That heartless man, he sold himself to power, will he be happy? Can rights give him happiness

However, she is also keen on power. She approached Joe for power. In fact, they are the same person, at least in this point. I will not sell myself for the sake of power, even if I just come to this world to be mediocre, mediocre, and walk around without a sound, I will never sell myself, no, never!

But what should we do now? She seemed to go around in a maze and returned to the original place. She had to pay him back. Before he left, it was best to return it to him together with his two clothes. She didn't want to see him and him again. That disgusting face, yes, from now on, she will avoid him, avoid him, now, she needs to avoid more and more people, maybe he will be embarrassed when he sees her? She remembered his visibly embarrassed and exasperated expression when she hurried out of his office.

At the same time, she also lost a chance to have a thick leg. She sighed and shook her head helplessly.

So Joe is gone, who will be Joe's successor? Before, she vaguely heard the "know-it-all" wives in the office whispering in private that Mayor Li should be the logical successor after Joe left, but recently, she and Joe got closer and ignored Li Mayor, Mayor Li seems to have a good opinion of her, and this man is said to have an affair with Jiang Mei, and he is also a womanizer, so I must not take the initiative to approach him. It seemed that she was getting further and further away from her goal, she sighed softly and struggled to sit up.

She sat by the door on the cold concrete floor of the dormitory for a long time, her buttocks were so cold that she couldn't feel it, she just felt the cold air rushing up her back, she stood up with her hands on the ground, her legs were numb, She walked stiffly to the mirror, she hadn't looked in the mirror for a long time, her face in the mirror was pale, and her face became much thinner, the blushes on her cheeks disappeared at some point, her eyes looked big, her eyelashes The long hair is naturally curly upwards, the eyes are full of tears, the crystals are shining, and the face is melancholy and sad. She carefully looks at this face, which still reveals a kind of sad and charming beauty, oh, this face What a sin, if this face is plain, maybe there will be less troubles.

There are many people who covet this face. She can feel it from the way they look at her. She never dresses herself up. She hasn't bought new clothes for a long time. Since Jiang Cheng left, she has no intention to dress herself up anymore. It's not that she is abnormal and doesn't like beauty. , there is no one who does not love beauty, but she has lost the person who appreciates beauty, who is the beauty for, and she has to defend herself.

"However, no matter how hard I try, this face will erase all my achievements. People will not see my hard work, but only care about this face. They will say that I rely on this face"

"Damn it," she cursed inwardly, "if I wanted to degenerate, I'd have the money to do it, but I didn't do anything. They've made me look like a bitch, the damn people."

She hated this face, and since Jiang Cheng left, she began to hate this face, "However, my body, hair and skin are inherited from my parents, so I can't abandon it." She cast a sharp glance at the shadow in the glasses, turned and left.

She sat on the bed with an empty heart, surrounded by loneliness and emptiness that could kill people, this room, this corridor was empty, only the clear sound of wind rushing in from the corridor windows, whistling.

She sat on the head of the bed boredly, with her elbows on the bedside table, her hands in her hair, and she murmured to herself, "Why am I living? What am I living for? Rights, money? Rights are important to me, but If I want to exchange for self-esteem, I can give it up without hesitation, money, I don’t need a lot of money, enough to spend, I am not a person who is keen on material comforts, I look down on those who wear famous brands to walk around the city, Those who flaunt their wealth, all I need is a simple and loving life, a lover."

"A lover, a husband, a husband is easy to find, but a husband who understands me and loves me, knows the cold and the hot, and a confidant, but it is difficult to find. Where can I find such a person? There are so many people, but there is such a person. ?”

She sneered sarcastically, "Everything is just an illusion, power, money, lovers are all illusions,... Life is emptiness, and emptiness is life. Jiang Xibao in Yishu's works said that she needs love. It’s okay to have a lot of money in love, but it’s okay to have health without money. Money brings her a sense of security, but it doesn’t bring her happiness. Need a place to rest, yes, but where? And is a man whose soul wanders a healthy man?"

"I look down on money, but I am so embarrassed because I don't have money. How ridiculous. I, who always worry about money, look down on money. How ridiculous, but ask yourself, money is indeed not what I pursue, but I need money. He desperately needs money now, where can he find money to pay him back?"

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