Memoirs of a Female Prisoner

Chapter 6

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She lay in bed tossing and turning, unable to sleep. It was already late at night, the room was very cold, the fire was about to go out, and a little residual flame showed a faint light from the gap in the furnace cover. She got up and poked the stove and added some charcoal. After a while, the fire blazed up, and the hut suddenly felt much warmer. The elder sister was still snoring soundly and soundly asleep, and her movement had no effect on the elder sister in the slightest. The gust of wind outside came whistling one after another, making the window panes rattling, and she was no longer sleepy at all. The raging fire illuminated the room flickeringly, and she stared at the flickering lights reflected by the fire on the roof, thinking wildly and wildly.

I don't know what job will be assigned to her? What can she do here? Can you be in charge? How can I become one? Without a backstage, I am like a rootless duckweed... Like Liu Xu? No, no, never, she instinctively rejected such thoughts in her heart. She was very proud in her bones, and she would never allow herself to let go of her dignity to become vulgar. farmer

Maybe it's too early to think about these questions for a person like her whose heels are not steady, but these are indeed the thoughts that flashed across her mind lying on her bed at the moment. She faintly felt that the path of politics was not suitable for her, and she was not at all suitable for being an official, but so what? Does she have a choice? Does the realistic situation allow her to choose? She recalled with infinite sadness the tortured mood and humiliation she suffered while waiting for the assignment. Although this is a tasteless job, it is hard-won;

Recalling that I once wanted to leave the countryside so desperately, and yearned for city life fanatically, but I made a big circle and still stood still.

In fact, many of the choices in life are due to helplessness, and there are too few things that she can control as she wants. She thought about it, and she slowly felt relieved.

The next day, the wind stopped, the snow stopped, and the outside was a vast expanse of whiteness. I can't say enough about the magnificent scenery of the northern country, how much dirt is covered by the white snow, and breathing the very fresh air, people's hearts are much refreshed. Standing in the yard and looking up into the distance, she couldn't help feeling that the town of S at this moment was the most beautiful and lovely.

It was bitterly cold, and she wore only a denim jacket over a thick sweater, which she had worn through several winters. The winter here is too cold, especially when it snows. The eldest sister came out wearing a bloated red down jacket, holding a broom and an iron dustpan and said with a smile, why do you wear so little? You are still young, and your body is strong enough She could bear the severe cold, but in fact, she was too cold to stand it, so she hurried to the service room of the guest house to find a big and hard broom to help the elder sister sweep the snow. The eldest sister looked at her while sweeping the snow, as if she was carefully admiring the fur of an animal. She was very uncomfortable being looked at by such eyes, so she turned her head and looked at the eldest sister. The eldest sister smiled and said bluntly, now you Such young girls are all dressed up beautifully, why do you wear such gray clothes, if a good talent like you, if you modify it a little, I don't know how many people will be fascinated. If you put on a red dress and stand in the snow, it would be a good painting. She just smiled and didn't answer. How could this elder sister understand her? She doesn't like red the most. She thinks that color Too ostentatious and tacky, she doesn't have extra money to buy favorite clothes, and she doesn't pay much attention to clothes.

Because of the heavy snowfall, the highway was closed to traffic, and the leaders never came back. The courtyard was quiet, except for a few masters in the cafeteria who were busy, and she was the only one doing activities. The eldest sister was busy buying new year's goods, so she came here occasionally. Apart from eating, she curled up in the room to read and sleep. This kind of days lasted for several days, and she was really bored and panicked.

That day when she was having breakfast in the cafeteria, she heard that the highway was open to traffic, so she went to the accounting office to find out when the leader would come back.

The row of offices in the middle were all locked, only the director of the financial office, Qian, was crackling and making calculations in the office. In this quiet courtyard, the crackling sound was particularly loud. She knocked on the door and went in. Director Qian stopped what he was doing, looked up at her, and said with a smile, "Is this place lonely?"

"It's quite lonely." She replied unabashedly.

"It's the end of the year, and those whose families are in other places go back early, and there are not many people living here," Director Qian said, stood up, stretched his waist, and yawned.

"When will the leader come back?" she asked.

"This is uncertain, it may take a few days."

"Are you waiting to report to the leader?"

"Yes, wait for the leader to arrange work for me."

"Haha," Director Qian said with a smile: "The division of labor has to be studied by the party committee, and it's still early."

She asked what kind of work could be assigned to her. Director Qian frowned and said, "It's hard to say. Now there is a carrot and a hole, and every post is overcrowded. There are more people than posts, but don't worry, since you are assigned Come here, there will always be an errand for you to do."

"Is the leader going to hold a party committee when he comes back?" She asked again, but she regretted it just after she finished speaking. She blamed herself for asking such stupid questions. How could director Qian know when to hold a party committee.

But Director Qian said: "Let's talk about it in the past year. The leaders have been very busy recently, and the deputy department leaders who live in the county have also gone back. It is estimated that there will be no meeting to study this matter a year ago."

She said that living alone in the big yard every day was frightening, and it was scary.

Director Qian chuckled and said, "We are praising you for being brave." After a pause, he said, "If you are afraid, go back first. I will tell the leaders when they come back."

She was very grateful and wanted to say a few words of thanks, but she didn't know what to say, she was a bit artificial to be polite, thinking that since director Qian said so, she must be able to do it.

She asked when she would go to work in the first year, and Director Qian said frankly: "It is said that I go to work on the eighth day of the lunar new year, but it's okay to come early, and the cafeteria is not open. Generally, those whose families are in different places come to work after the fifteenth day." ".

After chatting for a while, it was time for lunch. The master came over and shouted "Dinner is ready!" She stood up and said goodbye to go to the cafeteria to eat. She entered the cafeteria, and after a while, Director Qian also came.

As soon as Director Qian entered the door, Lao Ding, with his big face full of smiles, said courteously: "Qian Suo eats", while moving over the chair he was sitting on just now, he hurriedly went to get it. For bowls and chopsticks, he personally filled a bowl of rice and brought it in front of Director Qian. Director Qian didn't thank him, and he didn't give in.

The old man's behavior today is beyond her expectations, the old man is like a pug today, trying his best to please, he is completely different from the arrogant and arrogant face she saw before . She silently marveled at the old man's face-changing technique, looking at that big face deliberately piled up with a smile, she didn't feel half full.

Director Qian finished a bowl of rice, and the old man wanted to serve it again. Qian Suo waved his hand and said, no more, and the old man went to get a napkin. While smoking, he asked the old man: "How are you getting ready?".

The old man hurriedly said, "The oil cake has not been fried yet, and the bean noodles can be packed, and some packaging bags are still missing."

Qian said: "Just buy some packaging bags on our street."

The old man said: "The packaging bags we sell on the street are those small plastic bags. It doesn't look good when you take them out and give them away."

"Oh...," Qian Suo nodded in agreement after pondering for a while and said, "Yes, yes, I should buy some high-end packaging bags. I will call the leaders and ask them to come back when they come back. Buy it."

"Do you think there is anything else you need to buy? Are there enough boxes?" Qian Suo asked again,

"There are enough boxes, and there is nothing more to buy." The old man thought for a while and said.

Xue Bing didn't know what they were talking about, and she was confused when she heard it. She glanced at the stacks of exquisite packing boxes piled up in the corner of the south wall of the kitchen, and seemed to understand a little bit in her heart. She was busy rolling bean noodles, steaming rice cakes, and made a lot, but she didn't know who they said they were going to give away, and she was not interested in finding out, even if she asked, no one would tell her, and would Be treated as a fool by others.