Rumor has it that if there is an afterlife, I don’t want to be an official anymore
It's over, I'm completely over, I've been playing since I was in my twenties, I'm playing with women, I'm playing with power, I'm squandering everything I have, I'm finally playing with fire, I'm playing myself to death, now I am a despicable corrupt official and a prisoner who is criticized by thousands of people and reviled by thousands of people.
In fact, I am not that bad. In the beginning, I was also an ordinary person with flesh and blood, passion and desire, both good and evil. I was a normal person. What made me walk on this path step by step? Saying this, I am not trying to excuse myself or defend corrupt officials. I just want to say that I am not born to be a heinous and bad person, and I also have a warm and kind side.
Because of my uncle's halo, my official career was smooth sailing, with green lights all the way, and in this small county, wherever I went, I was always admired by the stars. In fact, my innocent uncle didn't do much for me. It was those who wanted to cling to him and wanted to achieve their goals through me. Surrounded by flattering, flattering dogs, they made me look like an emperor, but I was a stupid donkey, and I mistakenly took their flattery Flattery is regarded as worshiping me, but what they worship is actually the rights in my hands, the benefits I bring to them, and their own needs. In the area under my jurisdiction, I almost have the supreme right. Except for killing people, I almost cover the sky with one hand. Those people who surround me, they give me money, I readily accept it, and take it all. Why not? ? Who doesn't like money, how many people in this world can resist the temptation of money
I have played with many women, they chased and loved me madly, all vying to be my woman, wanting to be my wife, in fact, I have no intention of getting married, I don’t want marriage to be the fetters of my indulgence, I I haven't played enough, they all let me spend money in the end.
There are only two women except, one woman is the love of my life, when I saw her for the first time, her angelic face fascinated me, kept me dreaming, at that time I just wanted to possess her, to conquer She is just for fun, but this woman is different, she dismisses me, even loathes me, which further arouses my desire to conquer her, based on my countless experiences with women, I know I can't beat this woman with money, and I want to use my rights to make things difficult for her, but besides accepting meekly, she also put on an awe-inspiring look, which makes me helpless and discouraged.
But one day, she took the initiative to find me, and it turned out that it was for money. It can be seen that few people in this world can escape the evil of money. Delusion to be my wife. At that time, I was in my early thirties, but I still didn't want to get married. After getting along with her, I found that I was worrying too much, she didn't want to be my wife at all, she was with me purely as a transaction, but I gradually fell into it, the more she disliked me, the more I wanted to conquer she. She is like the cat I loved so much when I was a child, she looks docile and loving, but when she is in my arms, she always wants to break free from me and resists me in her bones, but I am obsessed with the feeling of holding her in my arms .
After a few years, I suddenly wanted to get married. The children of people my age are all in junior high school. I am still a bare-bones commander. I am tired of playing and start to hate this kind of life. I want to have a child. Of course she is me. The most wanted marriage partner, I thought that she would readily agree to her after so many years with me, at least the name of the wife of the deputy county magistrate is still a bit tempting, but when I tentatively proposed it, she actually I flatly refused, and my self-esteem was greatly frustrated. I have always been superior, and I am used to being praised by others, but she treats me as a poor shoe. How can I accept this
I love and hate her, I torture her in every possible way, but my heart is very uncomfortable, I have never been in love, I don't know what it's like to love someone, those women who pursue me, except for letting me Satisfied with sexuality and vanity, I have never felt so sad in my heart, and I don’t know what to eat. Maybe this is the feeling of loving someone? It turns out that I am also an emotional person, and I am also an ordinary person of flesh and blood. I couldn't stop being with him, I wanted to let him go, but when I was entangled in it, another woman destroyed me, and she also destroyed her.
This other woman is the last woman I should touch in this life. She pushed me into the abyss of doom. I don't like her. When she first came to me, she said that she just wanted to use my relationship to transfer her a job. I was young and frivolous at that time, thinking that a married woman would not cause any danger to me. dizzy. In that remote and lonely town, there was a coquettish and sexy woman to play with me. I wished for it, but I never imagined that she would have a falling out with her husband, she would get divorced, and she would stalk her to get married. Give me, how can I marry such a woman? I disagree no matter what, I didn't expect that she would die, burn everything, and completely destroy me.
For those corrupt officials who were lucky enough not to be caught and are still corrupting and singing about clean government, I advise you to restrain yourself. If you get to where I am, it will be too late. I am extremely regretful now, life is better than death, but as a prosecutor The judge said that if I didn't cooperate well and didn't perform any meritorious service, I was so scared that I almost peed my pants when I was sentenced to a heavy sentence. After all, life is precious, and I still don't want to die, "It's better to live than to die".
If there is an afterlife, I would rather be a poor farmer than an official again!