I said anxiously: "You are obviously..."
"I told you, I'm fine!" Lu Xiaoying said coldly, "You'd better keep an eye on the monk!"
"You..." I was worried about Lu Xiaoying's injury, but she didn't respond at all. I was immediately furious, "Do you think I can't see your arm shaking?"
Lu Xiaoying said calmly: "Won't your arms shake after exerting force? I told you it's okay, you don't need to worry about it!"
"You..." I turned around and shouted at Ye Jin angrily, "Carry the monk on your back and let's go!"
“Zhaozi…” Ye Jin wanted to say something, but I walked past him, picked up the monk, and went down the mountain without looking back.
It was not until I put the monk in the car that Dou Ma and the others came over. After Ye Jin, Dou Ma and I were the only ones left in the car, Dou Ma asked me in detail about what happened after I entered the ghost realm.
The more Dou Ma listened, the tighter her brows furrowed: "I'm afraid that piece of Heavenly Dao Jade is not as simple as you think."
"First, the time when Hell Gate suddenly mobilized its experts was probably after Duan Yunfei was killed. They must have other plans for the Ghost Realm."
"Secondly, Xue Ling'er said that she saw Zhan Qing's life from a third-party perspective, which means that Zhan Wuxiang at that time could definitely manipulate the Heavenly Dao Jade Disk. He should have deliberately given you the inheritance of his connections. I think Zhan Wuxiang might have ulterior motives."
"Third, I have come into contact with Qishi Shuilan several times. Her schemes are even more cunning than those of Lin Yaonu. Even Lin Yaonu's master suffered a great loss at her hands. She will not give you the Blood Demon Eye for no reason, and will not easily let you represent her. Qishi Shuilan is probably setting some trap for you, so you have to be careful."
"Fourth, I have also investigated Zhan Qing. What you saw was not Zhan Qing's entire life. The focus was on the period when he was learning martial arts. Zhan Wuxiang deliberately didn't let you see some of his plans. Qiqi Shuilan also said that you might follow in Zhan Qing's footsteps, which means that there is something else waiting for you. You have to be careful!"
I nodded and said, "I think so too, but some things are hard to figure out even with my ghost eye money before they happen. Let's just take it one step at a time!"
I leaned back on the seat, thought for a moment, and then said, "Old Ye, don't tell the monk too much about Nangong Ling's affairs. He has to solve some things on his own. Even if we are brothers, don't say anything."
Ye Jin thought for a long time before nodding and saying, "Okay! Sometimes I wonder if the monk is no longer suitable for the underworld now that he has something to worry about. Otherwise, when Guan Qingyan's business starts to grow, let the monk go to help?"
I took a deep breath and said, "Let the monk decide for himself!"
I was just about to lean back in the car seat and close my eyes to rest when I heard Ye Jin say, "People are really different. You have concerns too. Why don't I see you wanting to retire from the world?"
I couldn't help but laugh and said, "What do I have to worry about?"
"Isn't it Guan Qingyan?" Ye Jin asked back, "No matter what, Guan Qingyan is also your wife. Let's not worry about how she became your wife. As long as there is a marriage contract, you can't let her go. When she needs you, you will still fight for her, just like in Shenmu Temple."
"Let's not talk about whether you have feelings for her or not, and let's not talk about the oath you made to the old man. Just the word 'husband' should make it impossible for you to leave Guan Qingyan alone. Don't deny it. If you could be so cruel, you wouldn't have rushed into the pile of dead bodies at Shenmu Temple at all costs."
I didn't know how to answer Ye Jin for a moment. Perhaps, Ye Jin was right, I did have a little responsibility towards Guan Qingyan, even if this responsibility did not come from me.
Ye Jin continued, "Now, there is Xiao Baitang. You and her have lived three lifetimes in the Heavenly Dao Jade. Even a strong man would be tempted. If you can treat those decades in the Heavenly Dao Jade as a show, I will tear my head off and give it to you. Have you thought about how to deal with the relationship between you and Xiao Baitang?"
"No." I really hadn't thought of anything. Everything in my previous life happened too suddenly, and I was dragged into this life's encounter without any preparation. I didn't know how I should face this fateful encounter.
Seeing that I didn't say anything, Ye Jin continued, "And Xiaoying. I can see that Lu Xiaoying is interested in you, and you also have feelings for her..."
“Don’t talk nonsense!” I interrupted Ye Jin before he could finish. “Lu Xiaoying and I are just partners. You can even say we are buddies!”
"Get lost!" Ye Jin retorted, "Why the hell have I never seen a woman risking her life to save someone again and again? I won't believe you even if you say she has no interest in you."
I glared at him and said, "If you get stuck, I will risk my life to save you, no matter how many times you get stuck, I will save you every time, do you believe me?"
"I believe it! But that's different!" Ye Jin said with his eyes wide open, "Women's thoughts are different from men's. If a woman dies for another woman, you can say it's out of loyalty, and there's nothing wrong with that; but if she can die for a man, it's definitely not for loyalty. I'm leaving this out."
"What's the difference?" I glared back, "If Lu Xiaoying asks me to fight now, I won't hesitate either."
Ye Jin said, "Pah!" "You have shit in your head, I'm too lazy to tell you. Let Dou Ma tell you!"
Dou Ma said, "How should I put it... I agree with Ye Jin! Xiaoying definitely has feelings for you, but she won't steal other people's things. Even if they don't want something, as long as they have it in their hands, she won't touch it."
I turned around and asked, "What do you mean?"
"You belong to Guan Qingyan now." Dou Ma said, "Maybe you have to add a little sugar. Lu Xiaoying has a kind of mental cleanliness when it comes to love, and she doesn't allow her love to have any flaws. Before you have no worries, she won't make any clear expressions to you. Do you understand what I mean?"
"What nonsense!" This was the first time I didn't believe what Dou Ma said.
Ye Jin took over the conversation: "Okay! Let's not count Lu Xiaoying. How are you going to deal with Guan Qingyan and Xiao Baitang?"
While I was silent, Ye Jin said something very elegant: "I was worried that my love would damage my Buddhist practice, and I was afraid that I would leave the city when I went into the mountains. How can I achieve both in this world, without disappointing the Tathagata and you?"
"Fuck you!" I was so angry at Ye Jin.
Dou Ma sat in the back seat and whispered, "… Practice cessation when quiet and practice observation when moving. The lover is always in front of you. If you use this mind to learn the way, what is the difficulty in becoming a Buddha? Make all the hearts and end the bond. Although this life is short, the love is lingering. When we meet again in the next life, you will be a handsome young man… I want to lean against the green window to accompany you, but I regret that I have missed the way in this life. I want to take the bowl and go to the forest, but I have failed the beauty’s love… I once worried that being too affectionate would damage my Brahma practice, and I was afraid of leaving the city when I went into the mountains. How can I have both in this world, not failing the Tathagata and not failing you?"
I turned around and said, "Are you two okay? What happened today? Are you all planning to become monks? How about I get Monk Shi to chant some sutras for you?"
Dou Ma seemed not to hear what I said: "It is said that this poem was written by Tsangyang Gyatso, who was born a living Buddha and a famous poet, but he was also a romantic. He was taken away from the people by a lama when he was fifteen years old. Before that, he had been receiving customary education to get married. His status as a living Buddha prevented him from being with his lover, and his love was not tolerated by the secular world."
"Don't let down Tathagata, don't let you down! Tathagata is his destiny, he must obey; but he can't give up the one he loves, so he is in distress." Dou Ma said, "Guan Qingyan is your destiny, a destiny you can't hide from or let go of. Not only is there the bondage of the marriage contract, but it also carries a blood oath that you can't break."
"Unless you can be cruel enough to kill Guan Qingyan with one blow and put an end to it all. But can you do it? Even if you can do it, Xiao Baitang and Lu Xiaoying will leave you, and Lu Xiaoying may even kill you. Because you are no longer the Wu Zhao in their minds."
Dou Ma said: "Love! Sometimes it is both your fate and your calamity!"
I leaned back on the seat a little weakly, not knowing what to say.
Ye Jin hesitated for a long time before turning to look at Dou Ma: "Dou Ma, is the blood oath really irreversible?"
"Yes!" Dou Ma said, "The blood oath is like the peach blossom poison on the monk. Although it is fierce and overbearing, it is not unbreakable. Even the law of heaven will leave a glimmer of hope for people, let alone an oath under the law of heaven?"
"However, breaking the Heavenly Dao oath requires a huge price to pay, and more than 90% of the time it will fail. Once the oath fails, the retribution in the oath will happen immediately. Do you dare to bet?"
I shook my head and said, "I don't dare to gamble."
How can I bet on whether my grandfather will be damned to hell for eternity on whether I can break the oath of heaven? I can't do it.
Dou Ma was silent for a while before she said, "What's more, Zhao Zi is still carrying the thousand-year curse of the Half Life Path. The curse of the ghost vein is separation of life and death, right? Before changing your fate, who would you dare to accept?"
My heart couldn't help but suddenly sink: "Yes, there is also the curse of the Half Life Path."
Dou Ma said, "I think your father arranged this marriage for you with Guan Qingyan for a reason. Either Guan Qingyan is hiding some secret, or her fate is different from others. Have you never calculated Guan Qingyan?"
"No." I shook my head. "Guan Qingyan's fate is intertwined with mine. I can't calculate it."
It has been a rule since ancient times that fortune tellers do not tell their own fortunes. It is easy to make mistakes when you tell your own fortune, so I have never done it.
Dou Ma shook her head and sighed, "It's all injustice! Being affectionate will lead to being annoyed by being heartless! Zhaozi, there are some things we can't give you any more advice on. Just like you said, there are many things that outsiders can't help, and you have to consider it yourself."
What Dou Ma said is right, but I really don’t know where to go.
I have never wanted to find someone to help me like I do now, or even just to tell me something. (To be continued)