Facing the innocent childish face, Su Xian smiled gently: "Sister also wants to see the beautiful cherry blossoms, but Sister has never been to North City. How about this, when the illness is cured and Sister graduates, I will take her to North City to see the cherry blossoms, okay?"
The smile slowly disappeared, replaced by a disappointed face: "I know my illness will not be cured, and I may die someday. The director always said that I have a minor illness and will recover soon, but I know that I am seriously ill and it cannot be cured."
Pointing to the pit of his stomach, he said, "You adults always think that we kids don't know anything, but in fact, we know everything."
Yes, they probably know everything, more than we think.
The little finger seemed to be poking Su Xian's heart. She felt very uncomfortable and wanted to cry.
There are many unfair things in this world, many realities that are difficult to face, and many people who want to help but are unable to do so. However, all this helplessness is often laid bare in front of you, forcing you to look at it and face it.
Su Xian felt unprecedented sadness at such weakness and powerlessness.
Perhaps she could bravely overcome every obstacle in life, but she could not face the sadness that had nothing to do with her. Because of this, Su Xian's heart was clenched and she looked up and said to Zuo Yueyao, "You must be a good doctor in the future."
Zuo Yueyao freed up one hand and pinched Su Xian's not very fleshy cheek: "Being too sentimental is not a good thing. She is stronger than you."
Su Xian sniffed and said, "What's good about being strong? That's just pretending. Girls are so weak and fragile that they are more lovable."
"Oh?" Zuo Yueyao teased: "Then let sister show us what it looks like to be gentle and weak, okay?"
Clap your hands and cheer.
Su Xian then imitated He Xinwan and said a few words of a lady from a noble family, and pointed her chubby finger at her: "Sister, you are so fake, it's not like you at all, your brother is laughing at you."
Su Xian then remembered that there seemed to be some unsettled accounts between her and Zuo Yueyao, so she turned away and said, "I don't know him."
"Don't you know me?" After thinking about it, Zuo Yueyao slowly put her on the ground. His movements were so gentle that it made people jealous. Su Xian ran after him, but was caught by Zuo Yueyao.
"Are you sure you don't know me?"
Su Xian said stubbornly: "I'm not familiar with him anyway."
"Okay." Zuo Yueyao let go of his hand. "Since you came to Nanda, I have tried my best to make up for leaving without saying goodbye. I have tried my best to make you feel warm in this strange city, and I have tried my best to make everything go smoothly for you. I didn't expect that all I did would be a word of unfamiliarity."
Su Xian seemed to hear his sigh, and felt that his words were somewhat sad: "Should I say that I did something wrong, or that I was wrong?"
Seeing him leaving, Su Xian stamped her feet anxiously: "Then you shouldn't have wrongly accused me, saying that I had that kind of relationship with Instructor Wen! That day I wanted to make things clear in front of you, but you left without even looking back! You're so annoying, don't you know that!"
Zuo Yueyao stopped and turned around: "Are you saying that you wanted to answer the phone in front of me that day to prove to me that you don't like him?"
Su Xian thought about it and it seemed to be the case. He nodded and said, "That's about right. But you didn't give me a chance."
Suddenly he ran back and hugged Zuo Yueyao's calf: "Brother, come and play with us."
Zuo Yueyao looked down at the little guy, his smile growing: "Call your sister to come with us."
"But my sister said she doesn't know you."
Su Xian pretended to look up at the sky, and listened to Zuo Yueyao's teasing voice: "She should know it by now. If you don't believe me, go and try it."
So she ran over and grabbed the corner of Su Xian's clothes: "Sister, do you want to play with brother?"
This question was really childish, and she couldn't correct a child's language, so she held up the child's hand and said, "Let's go."
He stretched out his other hand and held Zuo Yueyao's hand. The three of them were walking and suddenly stopped. Su Xian and Zuo Yueyao looked in the direction at the same time.
Seeing her grinning with a sincere smile, she said sweetly, "I think you are like my mom and dad."
Everyone knows that one has never seen his or her own parents, so when Su Xian heard this, she felt very sad. But after she felt better, she felt that this statement was quite ambiguous, so she waited for Zuo Yueyao to correct the ambiguity of this statement.
Zuo Yueyao corrected it and said, "If we are happy, we can be your father and mother."
He clapped his hands, jumped and ran, shouting, "I have a mom and a dad."
Su Xian was very contemptuous: "You lied to such a young child, aren't you ashamed?"
"Lie?" Zuo Yueyao chuckled: "I never lie."
Su Xian was dissatisfied: "How old are you and you want to be someone's father?"
Zuo Yueyao's expression turned serious: "As long as she is happy, I don't mind having another daughter at this age."
Su Xian suddenly realized that Zuo Yueyao was really not joking.
They played with the children in the welfare home until it was almost dark before reluctantly saying goodbye. Perhaps they had an innate affinity with Zuo Yueyao. When they left, they held Zuo Yueyao's hand and refused to let go. The director was somewhat helpless: "This child has never been so close to anyone except me."
Zuo Yueyao squatted down and held the little chubby hand, as gently as a father: "Mom and Dad will come to see you often."
He raised his little head and looked at Su Xian expectantly: "Mom, don't quarrel with Dad next time you come. Dad is a good man."
The corners of Su Xian's mouth twitched, and he nodded very seriously: "No quarrel."
After they came out of the welfare home, Chen Biyu got between Zuo Yueyao and Su Xian and said, "When did you become someone's parents, you two?"
"Is there a dinner party tonight?" Zuo Yueyao avoided the question.
Chen Biyu was also an easy person to deal with. "Yes, didn't the president say that if the event goes well today, he would reward everyone in the evening."
"Today's activities went very smoothly, not to mention smoothly. President, dear president!" Chen Biyu shouted in a hoarse voice, "Where are we going to eat later? I'm starving. Apart from that damn military training, this is the second time I've stood for such a long time."
Speaking of military training, Su Xian thought of Wen He again.
Since that day, she opened her heart to Wen He once, and after that, she completely lost contact with Wen He.
But Su Xian never deleted Wen He’s number, and she felt a little apologetic towards Wen He.
This apology came from her selfishness.
I remember the last chat we had.
Su Xian: Instructor Wen, I have never thought about falling in love in college.
Wen He: I can wait for you to graduate.
Su Xian: No need, I believe Instructor Wen will be able to find the right person for you, and that person will definitely not be me.
Wen He: Do you have someone you like
Su Xian: No.
Wen He: If you have someone you like, I will withdraw; if not, I am willing to wait.
Su Xian: Yes.
Just like that, Wen He seemed to have disappeared from then on.
Su Xian didn’t know whether this could be considered a relationship for Wen He, but to her, it was just a small episode. After the episode ended, she imitated Wen He and asked herself if she had someone she liked.
Su Xian repeatedly screened all the opposite sex he knew, and finally came to a very insightful conclusion: they are all brothers.
This made Su Xian breathe a sigh of relief. Looking at the various emotional entanglements he had witnessed, Su Xian believed that being alone still had many advantages.
The president really knows how to pick a place, a park near the river, where you can have a self-service barbecue. Although the autumn wind is chilly, it is really nice to be with the right people, sit in the open air, enjoy the scenery and the water, and eat and drink.
It was the first time for Su Xian to get close to the river. It had been a long time since Zuo Yueyao promised to take her for a walk by the river. She glanced at Zuo Yueyao, who was talking to the president. The gray coat he wore was very similar to Su Xian's, but it looked very handsome on Zuo Yueyao, but a little sloppy on Su Xian.
So Su Xian pulled her clothes left and right and up and down to show that she was not very sloppy. She had never done barbecue before and could only help out on the side.
Since coming out of Heyunling, Su Xian has experienced countless firsts.
When they sat down around the table, Chen Biyu dragged her plastic stool and squeezed in between Zuo Yueyao and Su Xian, and shamelessly asked Zuo Yueyao: "My male god, I want to sit with you, okay?"
Zuo Yueyao just smiled faintly: "No problem."
This made Chen Biyu wink at Su Xian and whispered, "See, I told you that the male god was interested in me, but it seems that I was playing hard to get before."
Su Xian moved his stool to the side, away from Chen Biyu, who was too noisy.
"Today we will use tea instead of wine to celebrate two things." The president's smile was extremely bright all day long: "This time, we celebrate that our club activities are smoother than ever and completed successfully."
"Secondly, welcome our male god to join us and thank our male god for his outstanding performance today."
Su Xian snorted in his heart, what outstanding performance, just show it to others with your looks.
After more than thirty sips of tea, the atmosphere became lively and full of laughter. Chen Biyu tried hard to please Zuo Yueyao, but Zuo Yueyao was unmoved. He occasionally said a few words to the president, but occasionally he would pass a skewer to Su Xian through Chen Biyu.
Su Xian bit the skewer and felt as if she was banished to the cold palace and ignored.
Is this the legendary hot and cold
She thought that they had reached a truce after leaving the orphanage, but when she got here, Zuo Yueyao didn't say a word to her.
As the atmosphere became more intense, Chen Biyu began to act aggressively regardless of the occasion: "My male god, just tell me the truth. Did you come to our club for me?"
Su Xian wanted to put his ear close to it.
"No." Zuo Yueyao's voice was faint and gentle, but very serious.
Chen Biyu was unwilling to give up: "Tsk, you still don't admit it."
Amid the laughter of the crowd, Zuo Yueyao's gaze fell on Su Xian. The corner of his mouth curled up into a smile, warm, as if it could dissolve the coolness of autumn.