"Who?" After a brief silence, his eyes locked on her face with a coercive aura.
"You don't know him. I met him when I was a tutor." She replied calmly, her inner uneasiness and anxiety suppressed completely.
"He is better than me?" He really couldn't believe that their relationship was so easily interrupted by another person. He even suspected that she was lying, but he also found it ridiculous. Who could slander himself with such a lie
"Not as good as you." She didn't dare to meet his eyes: "But she is more suitable for me than you."
"Does he know you?"
"I'm figuring it out." Pinching the flesh on my thigh really hurts, but it can cover up the pain in my heart.
Zuo Yueyao asked with difficulty, and Su Xian answered with even more difficulty. The chat pattern between them was like an invisible war. Zuo Yueyao always seemed to want to find out something, while Su Xian was always on high alert.
When he asked, she answered; when he didn't ask, she didn't say a word.
"Do you really like him?"
He suddenly became unfamiliar and his tone was distant. During the long silence, Zuo Yueyao seemed to be thinking about something.
"Um."
"Not impulsive?"
"Um."
"You want to break up with me?"
"Um."
The atmosphere became weird. Su Xian clenched her fists tightly and dared not even breathe loudly. Suddenly, she saw Zuo Yueyao stood up and looked down at her.
Su Xian's scalp felt numb. He lowered his head and slowly closed his eyes, as if he was waiting for God's judgment.
Still without any action, not even a loud rebuke, Zuo Yueyao just said softly: "Girl, love is not a joke, if possible, let me meet him, so that I can hand you over with confidence."
"inconvenient."
Su Xian's heart ached and breathing became increasingly difficult. There seemed to be something blocking her throat, making every word she uttered extremely difficult.
"I'll give you some time to think about whether you want to take back what you said."
"Come on, I'll take you back to the dormitory."
Su Xian tried hard to stand up, but couldn't take another step. After finally taking a step, before her foot touched the ground, her body tilted to one side and fell into his arms.
This embrace that she once longed for was so precious to her at this moment.
Zuo Yueyao quickly let her go: "Let's go."
Su Xian was really uncomfortable with his distantness. She wanted to hold his hand, but she could only watch as his hand turned behind her back and then he made some distance for her to pass.
Many years ago, she was in front and he was behind. He was like a flower guardian, protecting her unruly way of walking.
Later, they walked together side by side, and he still played the role of the flower protector.
But now, he walked in front of her, completely ignoring how confused and helpless she was. Su Xian endured the chest tightness and dizziness and followed Zuo Yueyao.
All the way, she could only see his back.
This is probably what he deserves.
Zuo Yueyao, when have you ever suffered such humiliation? Others say that the good cabbage is eaten by a pig. Zuo Yueyao is the cabbage, and Su Xian is the pig that eats the cabbage.
The pig threw the cabbage away. Not to mention passers-by, even Lu Xiran scolded her, asking if she was crazy.
This was the first time Lu Xiran scolded her. After closing the dormitory door, Su Xian lay on the table and cried loudly. She had shed enough tears these days.
After crying, Su Xian asked Lu Xiran: "Am I going too far?"
Lu Xiran looked like he didn't want to pay attention to her: "Senior Brother Zuo is so good to you, how can you like someone else? Senior Brother Zuo is the most outstanding representative of Nanjing University, aren't you making a fool of him for everyone! Some people praise Senior Brother Zuo on the surface, but I don't know how jealous they are behind his back. Now, these people have finally found a topic to laugh at him. Xianxian, how can you do this? We all see how good Senior Brother Zuo is to you. People say that you are blessed in your previous life to meet someone who loves you so much like Senior Brother Zuo in this life. I always think that this statement is wrong. Our Xianxian is also a very good person, but now... Xianxian, to be honest, I am very disappointed in you."
She was also quite disappointed with herself. But she just wanted to break up with Zuo Yueyao. She didn't have time to think about anything else. Zhou Ling called her again, concerned about her future direction.
She didn't really care about her future. What Zhou Ling cared about was whether she had completely cut ties with her son.
Aunt Zhou is such a smart person. She doesn't want to play the role of a villain, but she also wants everything to develop according to her standards. Su Xian violated the standards she set, so Zhou Ling would not tolerate her son to continue messing around.
Su Xian has been feeling uneasy these days. Many times, she wanted to throw away Zhou Ling's kindness and be with Zuo Yueyao without hesitation, but she couldn't do it. Zhou Ling was right. Zuo Yueyao should find a girl who matches him in terms of family background and knowledge.
"I really don't know what you're thinking. Believe it or not, once you two break up, there will be a lot of people pursuing him, and it will be too late for you to regret it. If I were your senior, I would never want to care about you in this life."
Su Xian had just recovered after a lot of effort, but after hearing what Lu Xiran said, she started to cry for a long time, and finally she could hardly cry anymore. Su Xian wiped her tears and said, "It's better to ignore me. Who will die if I leave you?"
Yeah, that's good.
Three days later, when Zuo Yueyao came to see her, his hands were wrapped in gauze. Su Xian's eyes were burned by the white gauze.
Zuo Yueyao said nothing, but only asked her: "How have you considered it?"
"I haven't considered it." Su Xian acted nonchalant: "Breaking up is a normal thing. I don't want to make it so complicated."
His expression lacked the warmth and rosy embellishment of the past, and his face was a little pale. Zuo Yueyao pursed his lips and looked at the girl who had lived in his heart for countless days and nights. He put down his face and held on to the last glimmer of hope and asked her: "I'll ask you one last time."
"Don't ask! If I'm still involved with you, I'll feel sorry for the person I love." Su Xian took out the pen that he once treasured from his pocket: "This pen is the first gift you gave me. I don't want it anymore. I'll give it back to you!"
She held out her hand for a long time, but he didn't take it. Su Xian yelled angrily, "Is it so difficult to break up? You're so annoying!"
The pen turned into a parabola as she spoke and was thrown out like garbage.
Su Xian turned around and left, never looking back. She was so heartbroken that she couldn't breathe. She didn't dare to look at Zuo Yueyao's eyes that were filled with loss and despair, she didn't dare to look at his haggard face, and she didn't dare to listen to any word he said.
Because she had reached the limit of what she could bear.
She ran very far, so far that she could no longer see that person. She clutched her chest tightly, and almost couldn't breathe. Su Xian wanted to find a place where no one cared about her and have a good cry, but unfortunately, she was blocked by Ren Shang halfway.
Ren Shang pointed at Su Xian's face and cursed: "Are you blind? Not to mention searching all over Nanjing University, even if you search all over Nancheng, can you find someone better than Zuo Yueyao? We all saw clearly how he treated you over the years. Did someone poke your eyes blind, or did you get your head squeezed by a door? You must have read so much books over the years, right? Why do you want to cheat? You are so funny!"
If it were usual, Su Xian would have argued with him, but today, she said nothing and silently endured Ren Shang's criticism.
"He's going to be a doctor in the future, so what's important? Hmm? Hands! Do you know how important those hands are?" Ren Shang is worthy of being Zuo Yueyao's good brother. He empathizes with Zuo Yueyao and sticks up for him: "The day you broke up with him, he came back and didn't say anything. He just sat on that stool. Do you know how long he sat there?"
"One night! A whole night!" Ren Shang used his hands and mouth at the same time. Su Xian felt that the fist was about to fall on him.
"Those punches shouldn't have been thrown at the wall, they should have been thrown at you! You are such a femme fatale! Damn it!"
Lu Xiran appeared out of nowhere and hugged Ren Shang's arm: "Brother, you can't hit a girl even if you are angry. Can you calm down?"
Ren Shang really calmed down a little, but looking at Su Xian's eyes, he still wanted to kill someone.
Lu Xiran thought Ren Shang would hit Su Xian, so she stood between them. Su Xian was not angry with Ren Shang, but just felt very powerless.
She pulled Lu Xiran away and said, "Brother, go back and tell Zuo Yueyao for me that I thank him for his care and companionship over the years, but people's hearts are always fickle, and I am no exception. Once I change, I change. This is a fact that cannot be changed. I betrayed this relationship and I am sorry for him. You can beat me or scold me as you like, but you can't change anything. I hope we can part ways in peace and never see each other again."
Ren Shang kicked an innocent tree nearby and said, "Damn it, my conscience has been eaten by a dog." Then he pulled Lu Xiran over and said, "See? This is your good sister that you always think of. This is your role model! You should learn from her! Don't let me see you guys again! It's really unlucky!"
Ren Shang's word "you" made Lu Xiran feel so aggrieved that he couldn't help himself.
Even if Su Xian did something wrong, she couldn't just watch her senior brother being violent towards her. Su Xian was her roommate, but more importantly, her best friend. She couldn't really ignore her. But wasn't what Senior Brother Ren said too much? Why didn't even she want to see it again? Could it be that he hated the whole family
Ren Shang left, leaving behind Lu Xiran with a sad face and Su Xian who seemed to have lost her soul. Lu Xiran held Su Xian's hand and said, "Xianxian, I don't believe you will really fall in love with someone else. Is there any difficulty? Can you tell me?"
Su Xian looked back in the direction he came from: "In this world, is there anyone who can make my heart beat faster than him?"
Su Xian called Zhou Ling and asked her to provide a remittance account. Zhou Ling of course refused to give it to her. Su Xian said, "If you don't give it to me, I will tell Zuo Yueyao about your visit to me."
This method is very useful, Zhou Ling gave it to me.
She said to Su Xian: "If you are willing, I can help you find an internship unit. The treatment is very good in all aspects. If you are satisfied after the internship, you can become a formal employee."
Su Xian refused.
She knew that Zhou Ling felt guilty about her, but that didn't mean she could use that as an excuse to continue taking advantage of him. What's more, she didn't dare to take advantage of him anymore.