The moment he walked to the door of Ning Junyan's bedroom, Chen Yuncheng was a little discouraged. He hesitated for a moment, raised his hand and knocked on the door lightly, thinking that if Ning Junyan was already asleep, he would not talk about it today.
As a result, he only knocked on the door twice when he heard Ning Junyan's voice coming from inside, saying to him, "Please come in."
Chen Yuncheng twisted the door handle, opened the door a crack, and saw that there was only a small lamp on in the room, Ning Junyan was sitting on the head of the bed with a thick book spread out on his knees.
"Does it bother you?" Chen Yuncheng asked.
Ning Junyan looked at him and said, "Don't bother, come in."
Chen Yuncheng walked in, stood beside the bed and said to Ning Junyan, "I have something to tell you."
Ning Junyan closed the book and put it aside, and said to him, "Sit down and talk."
Chen Yuncheng originally hoped that Ning Junyan would go to the living room with him to sit down and talk, but when he saw that Ning Junyan had no intention of getting up from the bed, he had to sit down beside the bed and softly called his name: "Junyan."
Ning Junyan said, "What do you want to say to me?"
Sitting on the side of the bed was inconvenient, Chen Yuncheng hesitated for a moment, turned to face Ning Junyan, and sat cross-legged on the bed.
His eyes involuntarily fell on the book beside Ning Junyan, and found that it was a book in English, and he could not understand almost a word of the nouns on it.
Ning Junyan followed his gaze, put one hand on the cover of the book, and asked him, "Can't sleep? Do you want me to read to you?"
Chen Yuncheng laughed, "I don't understand even if you read it, is it just hypnosis?"
Ning Junyan tapped his long fingers on the hard bookcase, thought for a while before saying, "Want to read comics?"
When Chen Yuncheng heard the word "comic", he remembered the book "The Book of Fascination". He resisted his shame and didn't raise his hand to cover his face. already."
Ning Junyan said "oh" and asked him, "Then what are you interested in?"
Chen Yuncheng rarely heard this question. He used to have so many friends, everyone would drink and chat together, but almost no one asked him what he was interested in.
Thinking about it carefully, he doesn't seem to be particularly interested in anything, especially after leaving school and going to work, he first set himself a goal of saving money, and then worked hard to make money. So far, his biggest goal is to return the money to Ning Junyan as soon as possible.
"I don't know either," Chen Yuncheng said. "I'm not particularly interested."
Ning Junyan nodded, "I'm not particularly interested."
Chen Yuncheng was a little surprised to hear that, "Aren't you interested in your work?"
Ning Junyan said: "Work is work, choose one thing, do it best, you don't necessarily need interest." He paused for a while, "But that's what I thought before I met you."
Chen Yuncheng was stunned for a moment, his heart began to beat gradually and fiercely, he wanted to stop Ning Junyan from continuing to speak, but at this time, he was speechless when he saw Ning Junyan.
Ning Junyan said, "After seeing you again, I realized that I wasn't really interested in anything."
Chen Yuncheng turned his eyes away, and he said again, "Jun Yan."
Ning Junyan said, "You called my name for the second time."
Chen Yuncheng took a deep breath, and finally said, "You said you won't let me leave if you don't agree, have you thought about what will happen to us in the end?"
Ning Junyan said, "How about what?"
Chen Yuncheng lowered his head and looked at his coiled knees leaning against the edge of Ning Junyan's thin quilt. He said, "I remember your parents came to take you away when you were a child. Actually, I really hoped that you would not leave. At that time, I felt You are my only relative." Chen Yuncheng had never said these words to anyone else.
He still remembers that after Ning Junyan was taken away, he sat alone on the bench of the police station. He wanted to cry, but he held back. When someone came to talk to him, he also tried to make himself look better, for fear that others would dislike him.
At this time, Ning Junyan sat up straight, he stretched out his hand and gently held Chen Yuncheng's hand, as if afraid of touching Chen Yuncheng's wound, Ning Junyan just held his fingers sticking out from the edge of the gauze.
Chen Yuncheng didn't break free, and at this moment they seemed to return to the moment when they parted in their teens.
"But," Chen Yuncheng continued after a long time, "I know you have to go back with your parents, I have no right to keep you, you have your own life."
Ning Junyan's voice was low: "Do you think I am not qualified to keep you now?"
Chen Yuncheng shook his head, "That's not what I meant, I just want to say that we are not children anymore, even if we are brothers, we can't always live together when we grow up, we will always have our own families."
Ning Junyan asked him, "Can you do it?"
Chen Yuncheng said: "I may not be able to, but I know you will definitely have it. You are so good, I don't know how many equally good girls want to marry you."
Ning Junyan nodded, he still held Chen Yuncheng's finger and said, "Do you think so?"
Chen Yuncheng looked at him, "I hope you are doing well."
Ning Junyan asked Chen Yuncheng, "Then how are you doing now?"
Chen Yuncheng has never had a good life, but he doesn't feel that he has a bad life. Life is destined to go on like this. It's pointless to complain about oneself. He told Ning Junyan and also told himself, "I think it's fine."
Ning Junyan said, "I hope you have a good life too." After speaking, he smiled without warning, raised Chen Yuncheng's hand and gently placed it on his chest, "But I can't control myself, even if you don't think so. Well, what if I don't want you to leave?"
Chen Yuncheng was stunned.
The smile on Ning Junyan's face disappeared, and he looked at Chen Yuncheng intently: "Chen Yuncheng, I have tried my best to restrain myself, I have been giving you time, do you understand?"
Chen Yuncheng trembled in his heart and wanted to pull his fingers out of Ning Junyan's hand.
"No," Ning Junyan squeezed his hand even tighter, "I don't want to hurt you, you will hurt. You ask me if I have thought about what will happen in the future, why haven't I thought about it? Since I see you again I kept thinking about you that day, and sometimes it gave me a headache. I had already thought about it for a long time, we will be you staying by my side in the future, and without my consent, we are not allowed to leave for half a step. "
"Ning Junyan—" Chen Yuncheng felt a little unstable when he heard his tone.
Ning Junyan raised the other hand beside him and pointed at his head, "You were injured here as a child, you must remember."
Chen Yuncheng watched his movements and recalled the injury on his head when he first saw him.
Ning Junyan said: "Maybe it's still not normal until now, I was so excited when I saw you, and I even regretted letting go of your hand at that time. If I don't let go, will we not be separated? So long?"
Chen Yuncheng was churning in his heart, and many emotions rushed up together.
Ning Junyan held his hand at this time, put it on his lips and kissed it lightly, and said, "So don't say you want to leave, you can't leave."
For a moment, Chen Yuncheng froze because of his words, but in the next moment, he was diluted by more and more complicated emotions, suffering from inner contradictions and at a loss.
They sat face to face on the bed and didn't speak for a long time.
Ning Junyan's expression was very calm, he also reached out and brushed the hair that fell from Chen Yuncheng's forehead, and then said to him, "Don't be afraid, I will give you time."
Chen Yuncheng looked at him.
Ning Junyan said, "I can't bear to hurt you."
Chen Yuncheng was silent for a while and asked, "Does my head still hurt now?"
Ning Junyan replied, "Occasionally."
Chen Yuncheng sighed softly, raised his hand and touched the top of Ning Junyan's head gently, calling him like a child, "Yanyan."
Ning Junyan lowered his gaze, his eyelashes trembled slightly, and replied, "En."