"I'm sorry!" Lu Jinnan apologized, "I'm sorry... Xiaonian!"
Bai Xiaonian pretended not to hear anything, as if telling a story, he whispered softly: "It was Mortensen who couldn't contact me, so he came home and sent me to the hospital, and then sent me back!"
Lu Jinnan didn't say a word.
"On New Year's Eve, February 4th, your circle of friends posted a photo of my show being broadcast on the big screen. You said Happy Chinese New Year. On the reflection of the restaurant's floor-to-ceiling windows, I saw the shadow of Hong Jinyun..."
"On February 14th, after you called Mortensen who sent me flowers and chocolates, you didn't contact me for half a month! Not a single message..."
"March 11th, let's talk about it..." At this point, Bai Xiaonian closed his eyes, his voice was choked, and his tears couldn't be controlled, "You just came to my place, and Hong Jinyun's mother called you and said that Hong Jinyun was addicted to drugs. Seizure is hurting yourself, you panic to leave! I fell in the kitchen...calling you to come back, you told me not to!"
Bai Xiaonian has been describing these things in a calm tone, but he choked up so much that he couldn't continue talking.
Lu Jinnan grabbed Bai Xiaonian's fingers that were colder than ice, and explained with a hoarse voice: "I'm sorry, but Xiaonian...we are husband and wife, and I owe Hong Jinyun in my heart, so I..."
"I'm not finished yet..." Bai Xiaonian opened his red eyes, turned his head to look at Lu Jinnan, the street light on the windshield was shredded by raindrops, and turned into bright and dim colors and fell in Bai Xiaonian's eyes.
She calmly withdrew her hand from Lu Jinnan's, and hooked her pale lips: "So on March 11th, I lost my child..."
Every day, Bai Xiaonian remembers it very clearly, especially March 11th, it seems to be engraved on her heart.
Lu Jinnan was stunned like a lightning strike.
The scene that had been blurred in Lu Jinnan's mind that day suddenly became clear.
After February 14th, Lu Jinnan calmed down and called Bai Xiaonian. From the beginning, Bai Xiaonian refused to answer, but later he went to Bai Xiaonian to block people.
Later, when he found out that Bai Xiaonian had moved to the apartment, it took him a while to find her.
Lu Jinnan's stalking apology, Bai Xiaonian showed no signs of softening.
Until March 10th, Bai Xiaonian actually answered his call, hesitated for a while on the phone before saying: "You come to my apartment tomorrow, let's talk..."
Later, early the next morning, Lu Jinnan went to Bai Xiaonian's apartment with flowers. When he entered the door, he saw that Bai Xiaonian was not in a good condition, and asked Lu Jinnan to sit on her to boil water.
But as soon as Bai Xiaonian entered the kitchen, Lu Jinnan received a call from Hong Jinyun's mother, saying that Hong Jinyun had a drug addiction...
Bai Xiaonian came out of the kitchen with an even more unsightly expression, but he didn't stop him, he just nodded: "Go, let's talk about it later!"
Bai Xiaonian said "talk" reluctantly, and Lu Jinnan understood it as not very happy.
He solemnly apologized to Bai Xiaonian and left Bai Xiaonian's house.
As soon as he left the gate of the community, he received a call from Bai Xiaonian. She said, "Lu Jinnan, I fell in the kitchen and couldn't stand up in pain. Hurry up... come back quickly! I..."
"Xiao Nian, Hong Jinyun's drug addiction is not a trivial matter, stop it! I'll be back soon, and I won't stay with her, okay?!"
That time, Lu Jinnan blocked Bai Xiaonian's words as soon as Bai Xiaonian opened his mouth, but this time he didn't hang up the phone.
Bai Xiaonian on the other end of the phone was silent for almost a minute, the silence was eerily eerie.
The phone was hung up after Lu Jinnan softly called "Xiao Nian", and he was already on the phone when he called again.
But Lu Jinnan really didn't know... Bai Xiaonian was pregnant!
Thinking about it now, the reason why Bai Xiaonian softened and was willing to talk to Lu Jinnan was probably because... she was pregnant!
Bai Xiaonian smiled at Lu Jinnan, the smile didn't reach his eyes, it was very cold...
After Lu Jinnan left, Bai Xiaonian went to the kitchen to boil water, but he was absent-minded. He dropped the kettle when filling it up and put it on the base. He slipped and fell while trying to clean it with a mop, and hit the open drawer hard with his back!
She looked ahead: "I was sitting on the ground and couldn't get up. I felt a little life was lost from my abdomen. I even wanted to be cruel... just let it go like that! But I still called after I hung up your phone. It may be God's will that the emergency call was delayed for too long and still not kept."
"Let's talk again, what you just said... we are husband and wife, and you owe Hong Jinyun in your heart, so you put Hong Jinyun first in everything, right?!" Although Bai Xiaonian was asking a question, he didn't answer Lu Jinnan. "Then why should I be with you?! The men around me... care more about others than me, don't you think?!"
Just as Lu Jinnan was about to answer, Bai Xiaonian said again: "What's more, when the child is gone...we will follow the child!"
In fact, Bai Xiaonian was able to go to Fu's house today not to give Lu Jinnan a chance, but to give himself a chance.
Give yourself a chance to... let go.
From the time she got into Lu Jinnan's car, every word she said, now Lu Jinnan is thinking about it in connection, is simply to refuse to be with him.
She originally wanted to pose a problem to Lu Jinnan, and let Lu Jinnan leave by himself, which was better than Bai Xiaonian revealing his scars...and even hurt herself.
In the past, Bai Xiaonian really wanted Lu Jinnan to stay away from Hong Jinyun, and wanted Lu Jinnan to forget about Hong Jinyun.
Now, Bai Xiaonian just wants to never see Lu Jinnan again.
She curled her lips and smiled viciously: "Knowing about the child, you may feel guilty towards me, you are with Hong Jinyun... Is it possible that I can call you, and then I can flirt with you?" go?!"
"Xiaonian!" Lu Jinnan gripped Bai Xiaonian's cold hands tightly, his throat hurt so badly that he couldn't speak a word.
"I lied to you, Lu Jinnan..." Bai Xiaonian couldn't twitch his hand, so he simply let Lu Jinnan hold it like that, "I don't have children, I just want to make you sad, and I just want you to think about switching places between me and Hong Jinyun!"
The pain from being gripped by Lu Jinnan was not as painful as the pain of losing the child that day, nor as painful as Bai Xiaonian's heartache at this time...
Probably Lu Jinnan was the first man Bai Xiaonian fell in love with who didn't even want his life!
In the United States, Bai Xiaonian went to save Lu Jinnan with a mortal determination!
Now, she can't see Lu Jinnan being so sad...
What kind of person is Lu Jinnan? ! Everyone in Haicheng knows... cold-blooded and ruthless!
He would be so choked up that he couldn't say a word, Bai Xiaonian didn't feel any revenge, only distressed.
(end of this chapter)