After a long time, Lu Jinnan mustered up the courage to say to Bai Xiaonian again: "Xiaonian, we will have another child, our baby... will come back to us!"
Bai Xiaonian's eyes were sour, and he didn't respond, holding the phone in his hand without saying a word.
Unable to hear Bai Xiaonian's answer, Lu Jinnan thought that Bai Xiaonian still had a hurdle in his heart, so he rolled his Adam's apple and said in a low voice: "You have a good rest, I'm right next door, call me if you need anything..."
Still did not get a response, Lu Jinnan said again: "Let's go shopping tomorrow, I will accompany you to choose your favorite clothes and daily necessities..."
Bai Xiaonian opened the window and stood by the window: "Lu Jinnan, don't you understand me? I want a divorce... What are you talking about as a couple?!"
Hearing these words, Lu Jinnan unscrewed the door and stood at the door looking at Bai Xiaonian. Feeling the cool breeze, he walked to the window...
Bai Xiaonian's complexion is not particularly good, he looks very weak and pale, the pajamas he bought according to Bai Xiaonian's previous size... she looks very roomy when she wears them!
Now that he was so close to Bai Xiaonian, Lu Jinnan realized that Bai Xiaonian had lost a lot of weight compared to before.
The cool wind came in from the window, curling up Bai Xiaonian's long hair, and it caught her deeper and deeper collarbone socket, with a slightly larger V-neckline, where you could see the traces of bones on her chest.
Lu Jinnan's eyes were sour, and the child's departure... must have tortured Bai Xiaonian for a long time!
He closed the window for Bai Xiaonian: "I understand what you mean, so I'm trying my best to let you see my sincerity, how much I love you, and want to be with you forever!"
From the beginning to the end, Bai Xiaonian didn't lose his temper. This is what scares Lu Jinnan the most!
Even if Bai Xiaonian gave him two slaps, he could bear it, but he was afraid that Bai Xiaonian would be so indifferent, as if he was already an irrelevant person.
Lu Jinnan was flustered because of Bai Xiaonian's expressionless delicate face. He reached out and hugged Bai Xiaonian in his arms: "Don't be afraid of Xiaonian, I didn't mean to trap you here, you are free... I just want to stay by your side That's all! You see... I've also made progress, I didn't force myself to sleep in the same room with you, I live next door and I'm willing to wait for you to start accepting me again!"
Lu Jinnan said this, just like a child who has done something wrong, carefully showing Bai Xiaonian his heart to change when he knows his mistakes, hoping to get a little understanding.
"Xiao Nian, I know there is something you are not satisfied with, if you say it, I will change it, okay?!" Lu Jinnan's voice was very low.
"But Lu Jinnan..." Bai Xiaonian said in a very low voice, "You don't know how I managed to recover from the pain. For me, as long as I see you, I will think of the past, and the scars that healed hard will be revealed again. Open it again!"
Lu Jinnan hugged Bai Xiaonian and remained silent.
"I still have work tomorrow, it's time to rest..." Bai Xiaonian said.
After attending Yuanyuan's full moon banquet, Bai Xiaonian has been flying both ways in the United States. Today, Bai Xiaonian has completely ended this kind of life for her father. She has handed over the work in the United States and officially returned to China.
"Okay!" Lu Jinnan was greedy for the softness in his arms, but he didn't want to disobey Bai Xiaonian. He hugged Bai Xiaonian to bed and pulled the quilt for her.
"Lu Jinnan, how many months have passed since the child died, and I'm not weak enough to need someone to walk with me..." Bai Xiaonian smiled coldly.
"You know what you say will hurt me, don't you?!" Lu Jinnan propped her hands beside Bai Xiaonian's pillow, smiling and sad.
Bai Xiaonian couldn't deny it.
"Will you feel better if you hurt me like this?!" Lu Jinnan asked.
"kind of!"
"Well!" Lu Jinnan nodded, "If you say that you want to separate from me, it hurts me even more, and you want to leave my side, these can hurt me, if there is still I will tell you, you can take it stab me..."
Bai Xiaonian looked at Lu Jinnan for a while, then chuckled lightly: "You are going to use this method to soften my heart."
"It would be better if you could forgive me..."
Lu Jinnan expressed his feelings directly.
Seeing that Bai Xiaonian closed his eyes, Lu Jinnan leaned over to kiss Bai Xiaonian's forehead, but Bai Xiaonian turned over and avoided it.
The kiss... finally landed on Bai Xiaonian's hair.
Lu Jinnan could sense that Bai Xiaonian... had finally changed.
She is no longer the flamboyant girl she was back then. Now she has become cold, calm, and... stronger than Lu Jinnan imagined, and she can even calmly narrate her past hurts to him.
That volcanic girl was once covered in ice and snow, but he knew... there was still a fire in Bai Xiaonian's heart.
Bai Xiaonian has suffered from insomnia for a long time after losing his child, and he couldn't fall asleep without sleeping pills.
Today Bai Xiaonian was suddenly brought here by Lu Jinnan, without any medicine at all, even if she closed her eyes and pretended to fall asleep, she was destined to have no sleep tonight.
Sensing that Lu Jinnan got up from the bed and walked out lightly, Bai Xiaonian didn't open his eyes until he heard the door closing.
That night was very long. Bai Xiaonian lay on the bed with sore bones. She got up and pressed the swollen temples to turn on the light. From the distance from the bedside to the coffee table to drink water, she heard Lu Jinnan's voice through the door: "Why haven't you yet?" sleep?!"
The voice is a bit hoarse.
Aunt Dong originally cleaned up the room next to Bai Xiaonian for Lu Jinnan, but Lu Jinnan asked Aunt Dong to clean up the room opposite!
He couldn't sleep, so he sat on the sofa with the door open, looked at the door that separated him from Bai Xiaonian, and smoked a whole pack of cigarettes.
Later, he saw that the light in Bai Xiaonian's room was on!
When he walked to the door, he heard Bai Xiaonian's footsteps again, so he came over to ask a question.
Bai Xiaonian clenched the water glass in his hand, lowered his eyes and took a few sips of cold boiled water: "I didn't bring sleeping pills."
Standing at the door, Lu Jinnan clenched his fists, and Bai Xiaonian's calm words made Lu Jinnan's heart ache.
Can't sleep without sleeping pills? !
It was the same with Fu Huai'an in the past. Back then...Fu Huai'an died in Iraq because of Jiang Ming'an and Lu Xiangsi.
So... Bai Xiaonian, is it because they lost their child? !
"I'll get it for you..." Lu Jinnan hoarsely said, "I'll be back in twenty minutes!"
Lu Jinnan wore home clothes and drove out.
Bai Xiaonian stood in front of the French windows, watching Lu Jinnan go out, watching Lu Jinnan's car lights turn on, and watching him drive away.
Hong Jinyun and Bai Xiaonian said before that Lu Jinnan is ruthless on the surface, but in fact he is the most soft-hearted man in the world.
It is true that Hong Jinyun was humiliated because of him being arrested! Being injected with drugs is also true... But Hong Jinyun couldn't quit by herself, but Lu Jinnan also blamed the fault on herself...
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(end of this chapter)