Isn't it time to cut my palm with a knife, use bloodletting to get my own sobriety, and replace the drug addiction with pain, so that I don't want to smoke as soon as I lose control...
However, after these long four years, his drug addiction seems to have taken root in his body, and there is no shadow of retreat! !
How many more years will he have to endure? He didn't even know this time.
He didn't even know whether he would continue to torture himself with pain in the future, or simply... just let him get the drug addiction, let it go, and broke the jar...
Is he qualified to talk about love and happiness
When she is tortured, let her heart be tortured with her
Let her watch her rolling in drug addiction? Let her watch her bleed herself again and again...
Even he is disgusted with the appearance of his madness out of control, let alone her
Is there any woman who is stupid enough to give her life to a drug addict? Unless, that's an idiot! !
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Xiaonan was lying on the bed and couldn't sleep peacefully.
Seeing the time flow past zero, but she was not sleepy at all, and all she was thinking about was Jing Yixuan's business.
What happened to him
If his body is not sick, what happened to the scene he saw today
After all, Xiaonan lifted the quilt and got up, turned on the computer, and started searching the Baidu engine.
The result was to make her even more annoying.
What heart disease, diabetes, a series of messy diseases are here!
With a "slap", she irritably covered her hand and squatted on a chair, holding her legs and resting her head on her knees. For a while, she really didn't know what to do.
Fingers, anxiously, tapped the desktop again and again, showing all the anxiety in her heart at this moment.
Finally, just walking back and forth in my bedroom, walking back and forth...
"Too annoying!!"
Xiaonan didn't hold it back, grabbing her hair, casually wrapped a thin coat on the hanger, and went out.
She shouldn't have gone there, right
It's so late, not to mention that I will be engaged to Louis soon!
Until she got in the taxi, Xiaonan was still sitting in a psychological struggle.
She kept telling herself that she was just going to take a look, and if she was sure he was okay, she would come back.
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Xiaonan rang the doorbell, and it was Mother Chen who came to open the door for her.
"Miss, why are you here at this time?"
When Chen Ma saw Xiao Nan, she was obviously surprised.
"Mum Chen, did I wake you up?"
Xiaonan was a little embarrassed.
"No, as soon as I was about to fall asleep, I heard the doorbell ring."
Mother Chen turned around and went to the restaurant, preparing to pour water for Xiaonan.
Xiaonan hurriedly stopped, "Mother Chen, don't work, I won't drink tea. What about him? How is he?"
"Sleep."
Madam Chen raised her head and glanced upstairs, "Miss, go and see him!"
Xiaonan hesitated and nodded, "Okay."
She went upstairs.
The steps are very light.
I was afraid that he would be noisy when he fell asleep.
The bedroom door was unlocked, Xiaonan gently unscrewed the door, and entered his room.
He really fell asleep.
The room was dark with lights, Xiaonan could only rely on the cool moonlight to see the fuzzy outline under his quilt.
His sleeping face, as in his memory...
Composure, indifferent, unlike the cold look he was when he was awake.
Xiaonan was a little silly, but didn't appreciate him too much, bent over, carefully took his injured hand out of the quilt, took a look, and curled his eyebrows.
The injury on the hand has not been bandaged, but the blood is allowed to clot.
Xiaonan frowned her beautiful eyebrows and muttered in a low voice, "Aren't you a doctor? How can you ignore your injuries?"
She sighed and put his hand down.
Touching the darkness, he began to search the room aimlessly.
She is looking for a medicine cabinet.
On the bed, Jing Yixuan slowly opened his eyes.
In the dark night, the dark eyes locked on that busy Jiao Ying, and drifted away with her every move.
The sight is deep.
Eyes, burning.
In fact, he didn't fall asleep at all.
One night, the whole mind was confused by her Yin Xiaonan, and her words about getting married were all in her ears, which made him unable to sleep peacefully at all.
Hearing the noise downstairs, he just pretended to sleep along the way.
Ordinarily, in this situation, he should stop this nosy Yin Xiaonan, but...
Isn't he!
why
He was just greedy for the feeling of having her!
How could he be willing to break such a rare warmth.
Just as he stared at Xiaonan's back in a trance, Ji Er, the woman opposite turned around and looked at him.
Jing Yixuan hurriedly closed his eyes in embarrassment, and didn't know if Nan had spotted him. In short, he continued to pretend to sleep.
But the fact is, Xiaonan did not find him.
In the darkness, so far away, Xiaonan couldn't tell whether he was awake or asleep at all. All she saw was the bedside table next to his bed.
Xiaonan walked towards the bedside table step by step.
Sure enough, the medicine cabinet is in the drawer of the bedside table!
She pulled out the medicine box and sat down gently on the edge of the bed. Then she glanced at Jing Yixuan who was sleeping in a deep sleep, and then she held up his injured hand and began to apply medicine for him.
In fact, Xiaonan was quite afraid that the medicine would soak the wound and it would make him wake up from the pain in his dream, but fortunately, he didn't wake him up.
This made Xiaonan somewhat relieved.
The small hand, holding his gentle big hand, can clearly feel the thin layer of cocoon in the palm of his hand. Xiaonan knows that it is the cocoon that grew out of the scalpel.
Xiaonan missed him a little for his handsome appearance in a white coat and holding a scalpel...
Xiaonan feels that that is the real him!
The soft little hand wandered unconsciously in the palm of his hand, feeling the solid cocoon, but she was inexplicably relieved and moved...
Suddenly, Xiaonan only felt the big hand tight on her palm...
Her restless little hand was tightly wrapped in a gentle palm.
She was surprised...
Lifting his eyes to look at Jing Yixuan on the bed, he hung his heart, and then fell...
He did not wake up.
Eyes, still lightly closed, seemed to just subconsciously hold such a hand.
Maybe I really hurt him.
Xiaonan feared that he would wake up, her heart beating abruptly, trying to get her small hand back from his big hand, but she found that he was holding herself so powerfully that she couldn't get away at all. Come.
And, the point is, she didn't dare to use too much force at all.
A little bit of sweat was oozing out of his forehead, and even the heart of his hands was already sweating, but he still couldn't escape from his hands.
I can only let him hold it like this.
Feeling the temperature in the palm of his hand, Xiaonan was really reluctant to pull it out of his hand...
She is actually greedy for this warmth!
How long have they held hands so peacefully...
This feeling made Xiaonan a little dazed, and it also made Jing Yixuan, who closed his eyes, also dazed...
The soft palm of his hand made him reluctant to let her escape.
If you can, I hope that time can stand still at this moment...
If the whole world is only left, the two of them, how great.
He is always greedy for her taste, her breath, her gentleness, everything about her...
For her, I was so reluctant to let go! !
Knowing that she was getting married, he realized that the hand that held her was getting heavier and heavier!
He is reluctant, can't let go, can't let go...
No matter how strong his Jing Yixuan becomes, her Yin Xiaonan is destined to always be the softest and most fragile piece in his heart.
Xiaonan was held by him and sat there for nearly ten minutes.
Even if he is obsessed with his taste, Xiaonan knows that there is no way to stay in such a stalemate. She can't really sit here for one night and wait for him to wake up, right
"Jing Yixuan..."
Xiaonan called him tentatively.
No one answered.
Someone continues to pretend to sleep.
Because he knew that as long as he woke up, there would be no reason to keep her.
Even if you leave it for an extra minute!
"Yi Xuan?"
Still no one answered.
The body did not move.
Xiaonan's small eyebrows curled together, and her little hand tentatively stretched out, leaning against his sniff, and her face also subconsciously moved closer.
Could it be him...
I can't blame her for thinking too much, after all, Xiaonan was a little panicked when there was such a disturbance in the evening.
However, as soon as he moved his face and felt his obvious aura, when he was about to straighten up, Ji Er felt that his waist was tight, and a powerful arm grabbed her, and the quilt lifted her whole The man was tied into a strong chest and ballasted in the quilt with him.
"So tired, stop making noise, let me rest..."
The sleepy voice, lazy, vague, and awkward feeling, just like the chattering in a dream.
Xiaonan couldn't figure out whether he was awake or asleep.
Think about it later, he will be in a dream!
Because if he was awake, would he still hold himself in his arms? Maybe he threw her out as a poisonous snake!
Hearing that he was tired, Xiaonan couldn't help feeling a little distressed.
Xu is really sick, right
Thinking of seeing him in the evening, Xiaonan really didn't dare to disturb him anymore.
Just let him fall asleep like this! After he fell asleep, let's find a way to escape!
Xiaonan thought so, but didn't know that the man under her had never fallen asleep from beginning to end.
And Xiaonan just waited so quietly, waiting...
His strong heartbeat sounded rhythmically in Xiaonan’s ears. Xiaonan was in a daze, feeling that they were back in the summer of their first love...
At that time, they could still be together carefree and unscrupulous...
It's not like it is now!
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Being groggy, Xiaonan just crooked into Jing Yixuan's arms and fell asleep.
Jing Yixuan did not sleep.
Yinyu's moonlight came in through the glass window screen and sprinkled on her white and translucent cheeks. He opened his eyes and stared at her quietly.
The deep gaze burned her, as if to look at her enough...
But helpless, I can't see enough!
If it wasn't for his drug addiction, he would not let her sleep like this tonight, let alone push her away from him again and again...
Drug-addiction...
This damn drug-addiction! !
He doesn't even know how long this drug-addiction will pester him, or it will pester him for a lifetime... or it will kill him one day!
Everything is unknown to him!
In such a dark future, how can he let her see the light