Speaking of those things in the past, Yun Jing went back to their college days in a daze.
Thinking of Lu Liye, thinking of himself at that time, thinking of Jing Xiangyang two years ago, Yun Jing couldn't help but bend the corner of his mouth slightly, and finally concluded, "Lu Liye and I have always been friends! It's that simple."
Yun Jing didn't know how she got here, and she had the patience to explain such a long sentence to her.
"What about you? You don't like him either?"
"I do not like him!"
Yun Jing answered truthfully.
Looking at myself in the mirror, his eyes darkened a little, and he murmured, "I have someone I like..."
"Your brother?"
Qin Lili knew why.
Yun Jing tilted her head to glance at her, did not say a word, and then loosened the bun that had been on her head.
Qin Lili hurriedly lowered his voice and approached her, "Do you still like your brother? Don't you want to get married?"
"Don't mention him."
Yun Jing didn't want to talk about him, but when he talked about it, it would just block her heart.
Qin Lili glanced at Yun Jing with a guilty conscience, and then asked, "Can I ask, you and your brother... why are you breaking up?"
Yun Jing took a breath, feeling a little stuffy in her chest, "I was divided before I went to the United States two years ago."
"why?"
Qin Lili eagerly asked again.
Yun Jing looked at her suspiciously, "Why are you gossiping about me and my brother all of a sudden?"
"You answer me first, why did you break up?"
"He doesn't love me!"
Qin Lili bit his lower lip, hesitated for a moment, and asked Yun Jing, "Then, is your brother's illness all right?"
"sick??"
Yun Jing looked at her inexplicably, "What's wrong? When did my brother get sick?"
"what?"
Qin Lili was embarrassed, and a little uncomfortable flashed across his cheek.
Holding his handbag in his hand, he was nervous and tightened.
"Qin Lili, what are you talking about?"
Yun Jing asked her unclearly.
Qin Lili lowered his head, guilty of mind, so he didn't dare to see Yun Jing.
She didn't expect that two years had passed, and Yun Jing still didn't know about her brother's illness.
The more Qin Lili was like this, the more Yun Jing believed that she was hiding something from herself.
"Qin Lili!!!"
Yun Jing called her a warning and couldn't help raising a few decibels.
"Okay! Don't shout..."
Qin Lili took a breath, trying to stabilize his heartbeat.
She raised her head and looked at Yun Jing, who was irritatingly red on the other side. She hesitated for dozens of seconds before she mustered up her courage and said, "Actually... Actually two years ago..."
"What is it exactly?"
Yun Jing was even more anxious when she saw her swallowing appearance.
Qin Lili kept inhaling and exhaling nervously. Finally, he closed his eyes altogether, and said the following words in one breath, "Actually, you received the letter from your brother two years ago. I dropped it..."
"You... what are you talking about?"
Qin Lili grabbed the handbag's hand and tightened his strength even more.
A cold paleness appeared between the fingers.
She didn't know what evil she had hit. When she received an invitation from her fiance, when she saw that the bridegroom was not her brother Yun Jing, she suddenly thought of the letter she dropped two years ago. … I don’t know what happened back then, so I really took that letter for her. Once I received it... I received it for two years!
In the end, she unexpectedly brought the letter over.
In fact, Qin Lili wanted to come later, whether it was Yun Jing or his brother, it was kind to her.
I was in the most uncomfortable period of the year, if it weren't for the help and support of the two of them all the way, I might not have lived so easily.
And Yun Jing, although she didn't care about anything on the surface, she looked like a cold-blooded person, but she stood up for her when she needed help the most.
Inquire about the best doctor in the hospital for her, and accompany her to the cold department... Maybe it is because of these kindnesses in the past that she made her wickedly save this letter for them to this day.
She didn't deliberately want to save it for her, but just put it in the drawer at will. Unexpectedly, it would be two years to put it like this!
"actually… "
"Two years ago, your brother wrote you a very long, very long letter, and I gave it...change it..."
Qin Lili's voice was still shaking.
Yun Jing was startled...
The water eyes tightened, staring at Qin Lili in shock, and he couldn't get over his shock for several seconds.
Looking back, her eyes were red.
Because she thought of Jing Xiangyang's expression when she saw the brief letter she gave him that night... she thought of him telling her that the letter contained his definite love for her for so many years.
"What about the letter?"
Yun Jing's voice trembled violently.
"What about the letter! What about my letter?!"
Yun Jing was so excited that she suddenly raised her volume.
Holding Qin Lili's shoulders with both hands, she kept shaking her body, "You return my letter to me!! Where is my letter? Qin Lili!!!"
Before Yun Jing could see the letter, her eyes were wet with excitement and her nose was sore.
Qin Lili was a little dizzy when she was shaken, and he fumbled out the letter from his bag, "I brought..."
As soon as he took it out, Yun Jing snatched it over.
She spread out the letter paper in a panic, shaking her fingers very badly.
The letter paper, after two years of baptism, has begun to turn yellow.
The handwriting on the paper is still clearly visible.
It is his handwriting, so vigorous and powerful.
And Yun Jing only saw the first sentence at the beginning, tears already wet her cheeks... "Dear San'er, see you!
When you received this letter, you must be surprised, why this year, there are still people who use such an old-fashioned way to send their sentiments.
…
…
I hope you will seriously consider it after reading the letter, and don't make a decision for yourself and me in a hurry.
I am sick.
Suffering from leukemia.
Don’t shed tears in a hurry, don’t cry, tell you this fact is not to see your tears, be obedient, behave... You probably know that I had leukemia when I was a child, and thanks to the efforts of my parents, I was lucky to get it. Healed, but to this day, my condition has relapsed.
I am afraid that you are sad, afraid that you are worried about me, I don't want to see you shed tears for me, and I don't want you to worry about it because of me.
I don’t want you to know, and I’m afraid I won’t be able to accompany you to grow old, so I try to push you away and keep you away from me... In fact, the so-called wedding with You Qian in my mouth is a lie to you, I just want To keep you away from me!
Am I naive? But this trick seems to be very effective.
You are jealous, and you shed tears for my sadness...
I'm so damn, in my lifetime, I didn't try to make you happy, but I did everything possible to make you cry!
I am no different from an idiot!
Baby, remember that night three years ago
I yelled at you angrily, scared you to cry.
Later, I cruelly blasted you out the door.
In my impression, that was the first time I was angry with you.
Moreover, there was still such a big fire!
I know I must scare you that day.
In fact, that night, it was not you who hadn't experienced the world that I was annoyed at all, but myself!
As a elder brother ten years older than you, he was rascal and gangsterly dealing with you lying in his arms... At that time, you were only fifteen years old!
You are still just a child!
But I already have the hope to occupy you!
I think I must scare you!
I am annoyed by such disgusting myself, so when you were still ignorantly drilling into my arms, I yelled at you angrily and blasted you away.
In fact, that matter has always been like a thin needle, stuck in my heart, unable to pull it out.
I always wonder if Jing Xiangyang at that time had already moved his mind to the little Yun Xiaosan, that's why he wanted to possess her and take her as his own... Is it also because of this transgression that happened? , It led to the 25-year-old Jing Xiangyang began to resist Yun Xiaosan’s pure and active love, fearing that he would do something shameless as he did three years ago, fearing that he would fall in love with his innocent and innocent child... Yes of! In Jing Xiangyang's heart, Yun Xiaosan has always been a child, innocent, pure, and little willful.
There is no limit to being in love.
But even so, no matter how much resistance, no matter how much psychological resistance, Jing Xiangyang fell in love with Yun Xiaosan in the end.
Moreover, the love is so real! !
Three...
I want you to stay, stay with me, don't go anywhere.
Don’t go to America, don’t go to distant cities...
Just like before, chasing after me like a little follower, staying half a step away.
I mischievously broke the heating in my room, it was too noisy and too cold, and I had to sleep with me.
Suddenly, I miss you so much that you hung on my neck, crooked in my arms and coquettishly.
I don’t know if my body will hold you strong in the future and let you hang in my arms, but I know that as long as I am alive and have a breath, I will have the strength to hold you into my arms. Come in.
San'er, you may think that I am selfish to keep you as a patient. Obviously there is no guarantee that we will grow old together, but I still want to hope for future happiness... Yes! I admit that I can't promise you that we will grow old together, but I can assure you that I will try my best in my life to make myself able to grow old together with you.
Baby, I apologize to you for the harm I have caused you these days, I'm sorry! After I go back, I will plead guilty and leave it to your disposal.
I have already thought about how to deal with it for you. For example, you can be angry and ignore me for three days!
However, it can't be longer than three days, or you will torture me crazy.
For another example, you can punish me to cook for you every day, and then you sullen your face and tell me that the meal is much worse than that made by Mrs. Li, and I need to improve next time.
San'er, in fact, when I wrote this letter, I thought about it for a long time. Finally, I thought, no matter what the outcome, you have the right to choose, and we don’t have the right to decide on your own future for you. .
So, I chose to tell you all the truth.
But promise me, don’t be sad, don’t be sad, and don’t shed tears.
Because, writing this letter, I feel good and happy!
I want you to stay.
Death is not terrible, but I am afraid... When I am alive, when I breathe... But I can't feel your presence! !
This period of pushing you away is the most difficult period of time since I have lived Jing Xiangyang for 28 years.
I miss you…