"San'er, Mom knows that you feel bad for Xiangyang, but you also have to feel bad for yourself? Look at you, Xiangyang has only gone in for a few days, and you have lost a whole circle..."
"Mom, I'm really fine! I promise you that I will go to sleep when Xiangyang finishes this chemotherapy..."
…
Jing Xiangyang lay on the bed, vomiting constantly, retching when his stomach was empty.
He kept retching and felt extremely uncomfortable.
That feeling is really worse than death...
But even so, he never thought of giving up, this kind of thought, even for a second, didn't exist in his mind.
Because he knows that there are too many people who love him outside, and the people he loves, waiting for him.
After chemotherapy, there was an endless high fever.
For ten days in a row, I was in high fever, and I couldn't get rid of it.
Jing Xiangyang lay on the bed/was dizzy, and his head was full of projections. From the first time he saw the newborn Yun Jing, until now she has grown to be twenty-one... Too many scenes, no It paused like a movie in his mind, so clear, almost terrifyingly clear.
It's like... a memory before death.
He doesn't want to die, he hasn't lived enough yet!
Or maybe there are too few beautiful memories created between him and her... How could it be enough? !
"On the twelfth day, the high fever subsided."
This is the physical condition in the cabin that Yun Jing recorded for him.
"After the thirteenth day, start eating."
Yun Jing finally breathed a sigh of relief.
I am gratified that there is another thing called'nutrient solution' in the medical world that can support him.
After chemotherapy, it is the most important bone marrow transplant.
Finally reached this point...
While Yun Jing was pleased, her mood was extremely heavy.
In the heart, the ballasted chest, almost even the fluffy little pieces of paper can no longer bear.
Marrow transplantation is a mixed blessing.
If it succeeds, it can extend life, and if it's good, it can even heal from then on.
What if it is unsuccessful
What to do if there is rejection
How many leukemia patients die from rejection after allotransplantation
Yun Jing was so nervous that every nerve line collapsed tightly, and he was in a state of high concentration every day, so that when Jing Xiangyang got out of the cabin, Yun Jing was completely exhausted and groggy. He slept in the ward all day and night... When I opened my eyes in a daze, what struck my eyes was Jing Xiangyang's long-lost face.
He has lost weight...
There was still a layer of bloodshot eyes in the dark and deep eyes, and there was distress in the eyes. When Yun Jing woke up, his eyes softened a lot.
"Xiangyang!!"
As soon as Yun Jing opened his eyes, he burst into tears.
In the next moment, he flew into Jing Xiangyang's arms, "You are all right, aren't you? It's finally all right... Uuuuu..."
"Silly girl! Are you crying when you're done?"
Jing Xiangyang comforted her heartily, patted her back with his big hands, "Don't cry, be obedient."
"I just cried for joy!"
Yun Jing withdrew from his arms, "How is your operation? What did the doctor say?"
She asked him anxiously, and looked at him again from top to bottom, and found that although he was thinner, his complexion was much better than before he entered the cabin.
And his hair, new black hair has grown.
He is repaired like a ball head, and his handsomeness still reveals a lot of love.
"The doctor said that we have to look at the future situation to see if the rejection is serious. If it is not serious, there should be no more problems."
"Then you have to take good care of your health these few days! I'll go back and make good food for you later."
"No more!"
Jing Xiangyang hurriedly stopped her, "Look at you, how did you agree to me when I went in? It has only been more than 20 days, and you lost such a big circle when you came out..."
Jing Xiangyang sighed and patted her forehead, "You are really uncomfortable."
"Today I am obediently resting on the bed/nothing to do or go anywhere, you know?"
"But… "
"No but!"
Jing Xiangyang is very domineering.
"But I'm tired of sleeping, and my whole body is soft. I might get dyssomnia if I go to bed again."
Yun Jing acted like a baby with him.
"That allows you to come down and walk around."
…
It was as if God was deliberately trying to tease this happy family... Three days later, Jing Xiangyang showed a strong rejection reaction.
This reaction frightened everyone.
Jing Xiangyang's condition deteriorated rapidly, and his condition was so bad that almost everyone was crushed.
His stomach was filled with stagnant water, swelling like a ball, and his internal organs were also soaked in stagnant water. He had to take sleeping pills every day to sleep for a short period of one hour.
When he was pushed into the intensive care unit, Yun Jing was completely in a state of collapse.
She had never seen such a lifeless Jing Xiangyang!
Even in the cabin, he was full of vitality.
But now, lying on this hospital bed, motionless, his face is so pale that he can't find any blood.
When he was sent to the ICU, Yun Jing took his hand and whispered in his ear crying, "Jing Xiangyang, I still have a wish card!! You said, no matter what I ask, as long as you can do it. When it arrives, you will do your best to do it for me!! My wish now is to make you survive..."
"So, you must promise me to live well!! Don't leave me alone..."
"Yun Jing who does not have Jing Xiangyang will not survive!"
As if suddenly, Yun Jing felt his hand, tampering with her a little bit.
He heard it, he heard her call.
Yun Jing is sure.
Jing Xiangyang was sent to the ICU and isolated from them again.
"Doctor, isn't my son's operation very successful? Why does this happen??"
Jing Yixuan asked worriedly about his son's situation.
Xiaonan cried unconsciously on the sidelines.
Yun Jing just slumped on the glass window of the ICU, staring blankly at the pale face inside... Tears blurred her eyeballs, she quickly wiped it away and continued to look... As if she couldn't see enough generally!
"Doctor Jing, I'm really sorry, because he has done too much chemotherapy and there are too many antibodies in his body, which led to such a big rejection phenomenon. To be honest, I started doing transplantation in 1980, I have never seen such a serious rejection..."
The old doctor sighed, held Jing Yixuan's hand, and exhorted, "Anyway, you should be... psychologically prepared..."
As soon as the doctor's words fell, Xiaonan cried and fainted completely after a hysterical wailing.
But Yun Jing at the door, as if he couldn't hear the doctor's words, still stood on tiptoe, staring blankly at Jing Xiangyang inside... Husband, it doesn't matter...
Even if it is life and death, we must never be separated! !
Even if you die, I will stay with you...
Always be with you! !
On the third day when Jing Xiangyang entered the ICU, he received a critical illness notice from the hospital.
That day, it was like a nightmare, haunting each of them... Yun Jing had never seen her father-in-law shed tears, but that day, she saw him crying.
And she still just stood at the door of the intensive care unit...
Looking at him on the hospital bed, wearing a respirator, with almost no signs of life... A thin mist smudged under her eyes.
At that moment...
Yun Jing made a decision! !
A rather selfish decision...
Yes, Yun Xiaosan has always been selfish, and sometimes she is really selfish that makes people hate it.
Life is given by her parents, and she knows that she should never forget that she should be so humble.
But…
She couldn't bear him.
Yun Jing didn't even dare to imagine that if he suddenly disappeared from his life, he couldn't find his smell in the air, and he couldn't feel his breathing around him... Yun Jing felt that he would definitely die! !
Even if you don't die, you will be crazy!
That night, she stayed up all night.
Yun Jing left a letter to Xiang Qing.
She gave the letter to Xiaonan, who asked Xiaonan to pass it on to her when Xiang Qing returned.
"Why don't you wait for Xiang Qing to transfer it to her personally when he comes back?"
Xiaonan stood outside Jing Xiangyang's ward and asked Yun Jing.
Yun Jing's eyes kept gazing at Jing Xiangyang inside.
His eyes never moved more than half of his body.
After a long while, I moved my eyes and answered my mother-in-law’s question, "I’m afraid it’s too late..."
"It's too late?"
Xiaonan was surprised, "What are you going to do?"
"No, no."
Yun Jing shook his head and denied, "Mom, you must remember to help me forward this letter to Xiang Qing. This is very important and important to me..."
"Okay! I must."
Xiaonan nodded, but suspicious in her heart.
…
After signing the critical illness notice, another night passed, Jing Xiangyang finally survived the warship.
He is still taking sleeping pills.
The accumulation of water in the stomach gradually disappeared, but the situation is not optimistic, and the phenomenon of rejection has continued.
But fortunately, he cooperated with the doctor's treatment. Compared with the initial rejection, he has now eased a lot.
Jing Xiangyang's ability to survive, according to the doctor's words, is actually a miracle.
But no one knew that every time he opened his eyes when he was insomnia, he could see the pair of expectant water eyes on the glass window...stained with thick bloodshot eyes, just looking at him like that.
Whether it's waking up at 5 o'clock in the morning, or waking up at 5 o'clock in the afternoon, or waking up at 3 o'clock in the morning... In short, every time he wakes up, she is there.
She had been using those eager eyes, looking at him expectantly, waiting for him... Facing her who never gave up on himself like this, how could he let her go
How could he be willing to leave her alone in this world, so sad
Jing Xiangyang thought, no matter how strong he becomes, this girl will always be his weakness.
On the contrary, no matter how weak he becomes, this girl will always be the strongest support behind him! !
As if perceiving Jing Xiangyang's gaze, Yun Jing finally showed a long-lost smile at the glass window.
In the smile, there are tears of gratitude...
It is dazzlingly beautiful!
After two days of entanglement, Xiaonan finally unpacked Yun Jing's letter on her own terms.
As soon as she opened the envelope, she rejoiced that she was fortunate enough to have read this letter first.
I didn't know it, but I was really startled in a cold sweat.
Where is this letter? This is basically... a suicide note.
Looking at the long suicide note, it all explained to Xiang Qing, begging her to persuade her parents to forgive her behavior, and also ask her to do her filial piety and help her take care of her parents.
The task is very heavy, but the words obviously mean that apart from entrusting Xiang Qing, she can't find a more suitable candidate.
After reading the letter, Xiaonan broke out in a cold sweat.
She did not rush to say to Yew and Yunfeng, lest they worry.
But Xiaonan told her husband about this right away.