"But you don't like it?"
Cheng Zheng spoke half-jokingly and half-seriously, stroking his forehead, as if he was smiling, and his tone was a bit confiding.
"Xiang Wan, you don't even know how much your rejection hit me... My self-esteem, self-confidence, self-judgment, and inner fortress all collapsed at that moment... I even had a strong feeling for a while. Competitive, I must get you, even if I snatch you away from Bai Muchuan, I will not hesitate. At that time, I thought that without you, my whole life would be full of regrets and gloomy. This... probably is jealousy and A double reaction of self-esteem? It’s like being possessed.”
Uh!
Have you analyzed yourself like this
Xiang Wan was laughed at by him, "That's really... I'm a little sorry. In fact, the me at that time is not the same as the me now."
"Indeed." Cheng Zheng nodded, "If the you at that time were the you now, why would I hesitate?"
"Haha!" Xiang Wan felt very relaxed when he said it so frankly, "At that time, I could think more freely now. Rather than rejecting you, it's more like a disguised protection of myself... because I don't have confidence either. , I don’t think that I will have a happy future with you like that. After all, I am also a selfish person, and I reject you just to find a better way out of life.”
Cheng Zheng didn't seem to have thought of it, and was slightly taken aback, "Didn't you despise me?"
what! Xiang Wan's smile widened, he kept rubbing his face, and smiled embarrassedly, "What right do I have to look down on you? Not to mention your family background, but also your personal situation, you are also one of the best marriageable men. My aunt It won't hurt me, the blind date she chose for me is definitely not a very clumsy man, and it must be in line with her concept that life should have room for improvement... "
She blinked and laughed again, "So, to be serious, it was me at that time, and I was not good enough for you at that time. And, more importantly, it's not that I really want to reject you. It's that I found out that you It’s not because you like me that you’re with me, you’re only willing to consider me because you think I’m suitable for marriage, cough! This is just a subconscious self-protection, well, self-esteem can’t stand it, and it can also be explained as the sour disease of literati.”
"..."
Cheng Zheng didn't speak for a long time.
Such a long-standing knot cannot be untied at once.
"Are you trying to comfort me?" he asked.
"Am I that kind of person? I don't exist, I'm not that kind!" Xiang Wan said with a serious face, "It's all at this time, and there's no need for it. Right? After all, we don't know—how many days can we live?" I don’t know if there will be tomorrow, alas!”
Speaking of tomorrow, the topic suddenly became heavy.
This was obviously not what Cheng Zheng wanted.
He took a deep breath, stroked his neck, and loosened his neckline by the way.
"Hearing you say that, I feel much more comfortable."
"Huh?" Xiang Wan smiled.
"The self-esteem that was trampled by a woman for the first time was lifted up by you again." Cheng Zheng curled his lips and looked into her eyes, "Teacher Xiang has a good knowledge of psychology and knows how to comfort people. Thank you!"
He still thought that Xiang Wan said that on purpose to comfort him, or to thank him for coming to the rescue.
And Xiang Wan...
Half-truths.
"Thank you." Xiang Wan smiled half-smile, with curved eyebrows, "However, I am very happy to have the opportunity to share these words with you today. I believe you can say it, and you have already come out, no Don't hate me anymore, right?"
come out yet
Cheng Zheng narrowed his eyes slightly and smiled wryly.
"Yes, I came out and understood some things that I didn't understand before."
"That's good." Xiang Wan smiled sincerely.
"However, there is one thing." Cheng Zheng paused for a moment, and looked at Xiang Wan, "Why don't you have the kind of... the so-called self-protection you said to Bai Muchuan?"
"Yes." Xiang Wan smiled, "When I knew him, he was actually like this."
"Oh?" Cheng Zheng looked at her unexpectedly, "Then...why?"
Why didn't it work out with him, but it worked out with Bai Muchuan
He didn't ask thoroughly, but Xiang Wan understood.
"Because Bai Muchuan and you... You two have quite different personalities."
At that time, Bai Muchuan was different from Cheng Zhengzheng, at least in her heart, Bai Muchuan acted much better and more openly... He was almost like the white moonlight existence in her heart, it was his appearance that broke the curse on her body , opened her heart knot, made her brave, and became Xiang Wan today.
Cheng Zheng: "What's the difference?"
He was very interested, but Xiang Wan couldn't tell the truth.
"Maybe he... has thicker skin than you?"
She raised her eyebrows and looked at Cheng Zheng with a half-smile.
This sentence made Cheng Zheng couldn't help but also laughed, "That's right, he was like that when he was a child, he must do what he wants to do, and when he wants something, he is super thick-skinned... I still remember that he I want a figure of mine, and it would be best to call my brother a hundred times without stopping. Heh, you said this person... "
Cheng Zheng smiled, the expression on his face suddenly froze.
Brother is the best...
I'm afraid I'll never hear it again.
He couldn't go back with Xiang Wan, and neither could he and Bai Muchuan.
Seeing the subtle change in his expression, Xiang Wan sighed a little, "Well, actually, I've always been puzzled about your relationship with him, and there are many... parts that I don't understand. He once said that he trusted someone, but was later dismissed. Betrayal refers to you... this brother, right?"
Cheng Zheng defaulted.
Xiang Wan asked softly, "Then why did you make such a fuss later?"
Cheng Zheng glanced at her, "Did he tell you?"
Xiang Wan shook his head.
Cheng Zheng slowly closed his eyes, slowly turning the other finger with one hand, hesitation in thinking appeared between his frowning brows.
After a long time, as if struggling from memory, he sighed slowly, "After his mother passed away, he was brought back by my father... Xiang Wan, as you can imagine, his sudden appearance has an impact on me and my family." What a shock..."
Cheng Weiji brought back the son he had with another woman, and asked his original wife to accept him and raise him as a son.
It has to be said that this is a tall order.
For his wife, it must be difficult to accept.
Even if the child is innocent, her inner resistance and resentment are inevitable.
And Cheng Zheng...
At that time, Cheng Zheng, who was only two years older than Bai Muchuan, was easily ignored by his parents about his mood at that time... Because he was a minor child, no one would consider his thoughts, let alone respect his opinions.
"On the first day he came home, my dad asked me to let him live in the room, because he was young... It was winter, and I went to sleep in the guest room. I always felt that the warmth in that guest room was not good. Musty smell... I was cold, my mother came to give me a quilt, hugged me and cried... "
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