When I opened the door, I still habitually shouted "I'm back" into the room. Although there is no response as always, it doesn't matter, I'm used to it. First, Yi Tian is not always there, and second, even if he is, he never responds to me.
I pulled the suitcase into the house. This time I went to City A for a week on a business trip, and followed the manager to the factory every day. I have to drink with those bosses at night, go back to the hotel in the middle of the night, vomit upside down in the toilet, and don't know what time it is when I really fall asleep. I haven't had a good rest for a few days, and now I'm exhausted, and I just want to take a quick shower and throw myself on the bed for a good night's sleep.
When I bent down to change my shoes, I found two pairs of shoes on the ground. I was taken aback, walked into the living room, and immediately heard sweet gasps coming from the direction of the bedroom.
I stay where I am.
"Yi Tian... lightly... lightly... ah..." the voice became more and more high-pitched.
As I listened to the groaning sound, it felt as if hundreds of dense holes had been poked in my heart for a moment, and the pain made me tremble all over.
Suddenly, I remembered a piece of news that I had read. When the wife came home, she found her husband and Xiaosan fooling around on the bed. In a rage, she raised a knife and hacked the two of them to death. At this moment, I suddenly had some admiration for this wife. After all, she was able to convert pain into anger, and she also had the strength to die together. But I could only keep shaking like an epileptic, and slowly sit down on the sofa, so as not to fall to the ground in embarrassment.
In fact, human beings have the instinct to avoid pain, just like now, every cell in the body is trembling and clamoring to leave this place, but I clenched my fists, no matter how painful it is, I still sit here, masochistic.
Something in my heart is rapidly draining. I am glad that those inexplicable and firm loves that have never been shaken since they took root have disappeared from the bottom of my heart little by little. At the same time, he could only watch helplessly as his inner world collapsed, helpless.
When I was a child, I accidentally saw a picture on TV. The world in the eyes of boys was black and white, but when he saw a girl, he saw colors. Starting from the figure of the girl, the colors gradually spread, the blue of the sky, the red of the cherry blossoms, the world of the boy becomes colorful and bright little by little.
During that time, when I closed my eyes, this gorgeous picture was in my mind. I told myself: One day, I will also wait for such a person who can redeem my hopeless and dark life and bring me light and hope.
And now, my light and hope are in my room with someone in my bedroom with the sheets.
I exhaled, got up again and went to the door to get my luggage. It may be that the pain is so extreme that it becomes numb, or that the storage of pain in the human body is limited. This time, I was stimulated so much that I finally used up all of them at once, so I don't have to suffer from them anymore.
I pulled the box into the living room, and the two of them were probably done, and there was no sound in the room. Opening the box, I took out the things I bought for Yi Tian that occupied two-thirds of the space. The bits and pieces of what he likes to eat are piled up on the table. I found a big bag from the cabinet, put all those things in it, and prepared to throw it away later. Looking at this full bag, my teeth ached from the pain. What is the difference between this and throwing money.
There was a "crack" sound behind me, I turned my head and saw Yi Tian pushed the door and came out. The man's lower body was a pair of jeans, the top was bare, the hair on his forehead was a little wet with sweat, his high nose bridge and lower lip were coldly pursed. He didn't show any surprise when he saw my face, he just went straight past me and poured a glass of water and poured it down. I stared blankly at his Adam's apple rolling up and down, at that handsome side face that I had missed for a week, and thought to myself that I would throw away the cup together, otherwise the disinfection would not be able to clean it. Another delicate and beautiful boy came out of the bedroom. If I was the kind of person who couldn't find it with a magnifying glass on the street, he was the type who would become the focus of attention wherever he went.
I thought he would be surprised and ashamed when he saw me. After all, this is my home, and it was my lover who was pressing on him just now. Who knew that he didn't look at me at all, just smiled at Yi Tian and said "I'm leaving" and left. I shook my head and looked at his back, sighing secretly that this kid has a really high rank, compared to those little boys who used to have sex with Yi Tian and then taunted me and swaggered at me, it was more than one level higher. But these have nothing to do with me, let them toss.
I should put the clothes in the suitcase back in the bedroom, but I don't want to go in right now. It wasn't because I didn't dare to face it, I was worried that the smell inside would knock me down, so I had no choice but to get down to business first.
"Yi Tian, let's break up." My voice was so calm that it seemed to say "the weather is so nice today", even I was a little surprised at my calmness.
The man on the opposite side put down his cup and raised his eyebrows to look at me, and after a while he said, "Have we been together?"
I suddenly realized it, and thought that I was really stupid to say such a thing. In terms of where the two of us are together, I, Yu Yitian, are nothing more than a free tool to vent my desires, and I am also a tool to use all despicable means to cling on to him.
I walked into the study, opened the locked cabinet under the desk, took out a file bag inside, opened the bag to confirm the photos and negatives inside, got up and walked out. It's these things, I tied him and stayed with me for 3 years.
I walked up to him and handed the bag over, "The photos and negatives are inside."
He didn't reach out to pick it up, but a mocking smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, and asked me, "What the hell are you trying to do?"
I looked at his expression of distrust, and my heart was so empty. He probably thought that I set up another game for him to jump, so even if it was something he had been looking for for 3 years, he didn't dare to take it.
It's not his fault. 3 years ago, I drugged him and had sex with him, took pictures and threatened him to be with me. These photos are my only chips. If I lose them, not only will I lose him, but I may even lose my life. If I hand them to him so easily, it will be strange if he can accept them without any doubt.
In fact, with Yi Tian's background, even if those photos were leaked out, no one would dare to post them openly, but what does it matter? His character would never allow one more person to see those photos. So I succeeded anyway, and managed to keep him with me. Even after being beaten up and sent to the hospital, I was full of excitement and happiness.
I thought everything would be fine. As long as I work hard, I treat him well, treat him best, and treat him even better, he will definitely be moved, and he will accept me and fall in love with me.
How naive and stupid I was at that time, I didn't understand that in this world, there is no reward if you pay.
I shoved the bag into his hand, "You are free, and no one can threaten you anymore."
He frowned and looked at me as he opened the bag. His face immediately changed when he saw those horrible photos, as if he saw something extremely disgusting.
I am a little tired, so tired that I can hardly keep my eyes open. Finally, I went to the bedroom to find a bed. The air conditioner was carried into the living room and prepared to sleep on the sofa.
Yi Tian still stood still in the living room, probably because the happiness came too suddenly and he was caught off guard. I ignored him and leaned on the sofa, ready to fall asleep. Suddenly a strong force pulled me up, I opened my eyes, Yi Tian grabbed my collar and looked at me fiercely: "What the hell are you trying to do!"
I looked up at the ceiling, the lamps on the ceiling were worn out and old, the walls were wrinkled and yellowed, exuding the same decadent atmosphere as their owners. After a while I heard my own hollow voice, "Yi Tian, this is my home..."
Ever since I was a child, what I longed for the most was to have a home. When the orphanage was picked up and returned like a commodity, when the school was bullied and bullied, when lying in bed in the middle of the night with a fever, the only thought in my mind was: If only I had a home. .
Growing up and finally having a home. Although this house is rented, although it is small and dilapidated, although the only family member does not love me. But it doesn't matter, I'm already very satisfied.
I just didn't expect Yi Tian to hate me so far, and wanted to bring people here to humiliate me to the extreme.
Since we were together, he has hurt me and tempted me in various ways, taking pleasure in seeing my pain and finding my bottom line. Congratulations, he finally hit me at the deadliest place this time, making me so painful that I didn't even have the strength to hold on to him.
Yi Tian looked at me coldly, and suddenly got up, went to the bedroom, got his clothes, grabbed the file bag and left without looking back.
After a bang, the room returned to silence.
Before I drifted off to sleep, I thought it was finally over.
Three years of hard work was in vain after all.