Qin Hao slowly exhaled a puff of smoke, and the strong smell of espresso coffee and nuts wafted out, and then the aroma of truffles gradually heated up, and the earthy smell lingered in the aftertaste, mixed with the fragrance of flowers, which was worthy of its high price. .
However, he smokes now not just to savor the aroma and taste of this top-quality cigar, but because he is worried and irritable about the future from the bottom of his heart!
Su Yanran said at this time: "Don't worry too much. I will find a way to help you when you get out. This kind of disease is not without precedent in the world. Even if it cannot be completely cured, it should be controllable."
Originally, Qin Hao did not intend to let Su Yanran get involved. Others did not know about his problem, but he knew in his heart that the old demon was not something that Su Yanran could solve with psychology. He had a fundamental relationship with the so-called schizophrenia disorder. There are some differences that cannot be explained by modern science and technology. What Su Yanran did was just a waste of effort.
However, after experiencing his instant slap in the face and releasing the old demon to kill the zombie king, he did not feel the pleasure of revenge. Instead, he was filled with loss and emptiness deep in his heart.
The admiration of many monks and the attention of the two great masters are not worthy of pride and bragging in Qin Hao's eyes, because this is not his power, but the old demon's, who killed the zombie king and saved so many lives. , to avenge Huo Yuhao, this is all done by the old demon.
What is he? An incompetent person who gave himself a slap in the face, jumped over the wall and was forced to have no way out, and finally had to compromise. He knew that every time he let the old demon come out and became more familiar with his body, the future crisis would become bigger and bigger.
When will the old demon fully recover
He has no idea.
What should I do after the old demon fully recovers
There was nothing he could do.
This feeling is terrible!
At this time, it might be easier to have Su Yanran, the youngest psychology professor in the history of Tianhai University, to enlighten him.
As the saying goes, the authorities are confused but the bystanders are clear. Qin Hao was caught in the whirlpool, troubled by problems, and had become confused and hesitant. This can be regarded as a psychological problem, and the role of the psychologist is reflected here.
Qin Hao did not respond. Instead, he introduced his childhood to Su Yanran as if he had not answered the question; "I actually don't have a particularly deep memory of my childhood. When I was a few years old, I didn't remember much when I left the orphanage. There was another car accident, and I lost my memory and forgot everything. Later, I took my master with me to the mountains, and I might have thought that I had someone to rely on, but that was not the case.
I remember the first day I went up the mountain. I was hungry all day long and finally fell asleep. However, I was lost in the jungle in the middle of the night without saying a word or saying hello. The poisonous snake , tigers, hungry wolves, these beasts are everywhere. I was scared and panicked. I thought that the master would definitely save me at the critical moment. He would not bear to see his only apprentice die in the mouth of a wild beast.
But later, when one of my arms was almost torn off by a blind bear, I realized that I might really die. I was desperate and scared at that time. It was the first time in my life that I experienced that almost suffocating feeling. From that time on, I understood the truth that it is not easy to survive. Perhaps, life that seems easy to others seems to me to require all the effort to survive.
I thought that now that I have brothers and family, I am not alone. But I was so confused in my heart that I wanted to find someone to talk to, but I didn’t know who I could talk to. In other words, I was used to the feeling of being needed, which made it difficult for me to change my position. "
Qin Hao is proud. He will never show his cowardly side to others, even the closest people around him. He would always rather fight all the difficulties and problems by himself than let those around him People bear only a tiny bit.
Perhaps this is also a morbid idea in psychology, or perhaps it is the work of so-called male chauvinism. Because of this, maybe he suppressed everything in his heart, and only had the idea to express his feelings in front of Su Yanran, a psychiatrist, rather than his lover, Su Yanran.
Su Yanran could imagine that deep in the mountains and wild forests, a child who was only six or seven or eight years old, who should have gone to school happily and grown up under the care of his parents and family, was covered in blood and wounds, desperately trying to survive. Escape, just to avoid being swallowed by poisonous snakes and beasts, and to survive.
Even though he lost the memory of his childhood, Qin Hao still instinctively had that sense of crisis. Others were born to want to be ahead of others at the starting line, but he was far behind ordinary people.
Therefore, the sense of crisis always accompanies him, and he lives with nothing and no one to rely on. Even when he grows up and has abilities that far exceed others, he is still walking on the edge of death, and the sense of crisis has never been far away from him. .
Because of this, Qin Hao is hesitant and confused, chooses to retire, and wants to live an ordinary life. Because he once had nothing, he now cherishes the present, and lives like a salted fish, doing nothing every day. No ambition at all.
In the previous twenty years, he had lived too hard and tried his best just to survive. Now he wants to live a comfortable life, where he can put aside worries and worries, live relaxedly, enjoy the rest of his life, and appreciate the emotions he has. .
"I thought I could live the way I wanted, but I didn't know until now that my existence was probably just an accident. My life is living for others, and I might lose what I have now. Everything, including myself..." The smoke filled the air in front of Qin Hao, covering his face like a veil, hazy, as if his heart at the moment was covered by the fog, and he could not see what was ahead. road.
Su Yanran could understand Qin Hao's mood. Her and Qin Hao's lives should have been swapped. No matter how painful her life was when she was young, there would never be a time when she really couldn't live. She wanted to commit suicide because she was too weak. Just fragile.
On the contrary, except for her mentally unstable mother, her life is very prosperous. Whether it is the Ye family or the Qin family, the resources given to her are no less than any of the children of the family, and even more because of the inner debt. Some.
As one of the parties involved, how could she not understand the feeling of having her life robbed by others
"So, you are going to be so decadent and confused? In my mind, you are that high-spirited, rebellious, and upright man! The man who can make me rest assured that I will put everything in my hands, including my life! Maybe you The things you encounter are indeed difficult to accept for a while, but you should think about the solution instead of being decadent and confused, right?" Su Yanran was very angry. The person she liked was not the person he was now, and no woman would like him. Useless man!
Qin Hao shook his head and sighed: "If I had my way, why would I be as depressed as I am now? I don't have a simple mental illness like split personality. You can't help. I'm just telling you this because I want to say Just talking, you happen to need a psychiatrist."
"Then you can live like this with peace of mind? You know very well that this will not help you at all. Apart from joining the crowd of women every day, you just chat and play games, or read the newspaper and sleep in the sun. This kind of living situation is really Is it meaningful? Is it interesting? Or can the situation you encounter get better if you continue like this?"
Su Yanran, like Mu Qianxue, are both representatives of strong women and the most outstanding beings in their respective fields. Su Yanran has long been disgusted with Qin Hao's salty life attitude, but the two of them had not been in contact before. Su Yanran Yanran just kept an attitude of observing secretly in the dark, but in her heart, she naturally regarded Qin Hao as her man after confirming his identity. Otherwise, how could she have handed herself over to Qin Hao on the train
Even if it happens for a reason, it is forced and helpless.
She stood up and looked down at Qin Hao: "I may really not be able to help you with the problem you encounter, but I know that it won't work if you continue like this! Instead of sitting back and waiting to die, you might as well fight and grab, then You are the real you in my mind! If others want to take away your life, you go and take it from them. If others want to take away everything from you, you take it from them! Otherwise, what are you doing here in this dojo ruins? ?!” (To be continued)