Mu Qianxue could clearly see the heartache and loneliness in Qin Hao's eyes, and felt the hands holding her body trembling slightly. She couldn't help but feel tight in her heart, and her body softened, no longer struggling, and her little hands took the initiative to hold Qin Hao's hand. Hao's big hands.
"Actually, I, I am a very conservative person." Mu Qianxue suddenly blushed, bit her lip lightly, and said coldly.
Qin Hao was stunned for a moment and subconsciously blurted out: "What do you mean?"
"Me, my mother told me since I was a child that women should be committed to the end. So, I actually hate myself for signing that kind of contract with a stranger." Mu Qianxue hesitated and explained. road.
Qin Hao said nothing and looked at Mu Qianxue quietly, waiting for the next step.
"Am I stupid and funny?" Mu Qianxue lay on her side with her back to Qin Hao, not wanting him to see her eyes, and said quietly: "In this day and age, many people don't even care about their first night, but I care about someone Fake husband, shield. Obviously nothing has happened between us, but I just can’t think about it. I can’t ignore it all. Even though there are many things about you that don’t suit my wishes, I still want to continue like this."
"Do you regret it?" Qin Hao was silent for a moment and asked nervously. He was afraid that what he heard next would ruin everything.
To his surprise, Mu Qianxue shook her head and said softly: "I did regret it at first. I thought I was crazy. You are shameless, lustful, and philandering. Your appearance is just barely passable. You are a bit effeminate and your talents are very mediocre. I have no ambition. I actually signed an agreement with you and got married, which is simply a disgrace to myself."
Qin Hao's face suddenly turned dark, and he thought to himself that sometimes speaking too directly can really hurt people.
"But, ever since you stood up for me and Xiaojun that day at my old house, I decided to stay with you. At that time, maybe I just felt grateful to you, but more likely, I was taking advantage of you, thinking that you could help me. But later I learned that it was you who saved me in Pearl Department Store and killed so many people for Xiaojun. I felt that you were actually very good. That was the first time I felt protected, and I felt at ease, just like Just like when I was a child lying in my mother's arms.
When I was a child, I felt that men were unreliable. Even my own father abandoned me and Xiaojun. Is there any man worth relying on? It’s better to rely on myself. But after having you, I found that it is actually good to have a man to rely on. In fact, I sometimes wonder about what we will do in the future, whether we can live like this forever, and whether I can get used to losing you. Unfortunately, I found that I have become accustomed to your life in this family, so I thought about accepting you and making you our family, for me, for Xiaojun, and for you.
I know that I don't look like a woman in many ways. I don't have Dai Qianni's charm, distant enthusiasm, nor gentleness. I don't know how to be cute and coquettish. I don't even understand what love and marriage are about. I can only be regarded as a qualified company manager and a workaholic, but I am not a good wife candidate. Even so, I still want to stay with you. Even if you don't like me, I can't let you leave and end this. everything.
I actually thought about leaving and ignoring you, but as soon as you took the initiative, I couldn't help but be troubled by you and think about you. No matter what happens, I am always the loser. "
"That's because you love me. Also, I like you. I'm not the kind of person who compromises if I don't like you. I'm also very conservative." Qin Hao was extremely excited. He now fully understood Mu Qianxue's intentions. He said with a trembling voice, he wanted Mu Qianxue to feel at ease.
"Actually, I'm going to apologize to you today and tell you something." After understanding Mu Qianxue's intentions, Qin Hao had no worries and decided to confess to Mu Qianxue.
"I once had a first love. She helped me a lot and saved me many times. She was like a gentle big sister. When I was the loneliest, saddest, and hated myself the most, she helped me hold on. In the past. On the day I returned to China, I confessed my love to her and wanted to take her back with me. However, I was rejected and, moreover, I was betrayed. I returned to the time when I was alone at the beginning. After returning to China, I was taken by my master After staying in the mountains for two years, I thought everything was over and I had healed the past.
However, on the day Qiu Lin came, she also came. I met with her and she told me that she wanted me to go back and that she regretted it. I thought I could care less about the past and throw away that memory, but when I saw her, I couldn't control my emotions. I was very angry. I scolded her and told her to get out. In fact, I was very scared. I was afraid that everything that was calm and orderly would be disrupted again. I was afraid that I would go back to the time when I was alone again. Therefore, I drank a lot, and you all know what happened after that. "
"That woman must be excellent, right?" Mu Qianxue held the sheets tightly with both hands and asked softly.
Qin Hao nodded: "Well, she is very good. In our circle, she is called Luo Shen."
"As graceful as a startled giant, as graceful as a swimming dragon. The autumn chrysanthemums are shining brightly, and the spring pines are luxuriant. They seem to be like the moon covered by light clouds, and fluttering like the snow in the flowing wind. Looking at it from a distance, it is as bright as the sun rising in the morning glow; And when I look at it, I see it is as bright as a hibiscus coming out of Lubo. To be called a goddess, she must be very beautiful."
Mu Qianxue couldn't help but feel a little sad in her heart. She didn't expect that this man was not only confused with Dai Qianni, Song Yao and others, but he was also thinking about such a beautiful woman, and she was also his first love. It is said that first love is the most difficult thing for a man to let go.
"Well, she is very beautiful." Qin Hao answered truthfully. Mu Qianxue's face suddenly turned cold, and she wanted to break free from Qin Hao's arms and kick this guy out of bed, but Qin Hao suddenly changed the subject: "But But I don’t regret it, because now you are accepting me, accompanying me, lying in my arms, and the place I want to stay is also the place where you exist.”
Hearing what Qin Hao said, Mu Qianxue's heart felt as sweet as honey for no reason, and her body softened, but she refused to give up: "Humph, who knows whether you are true or not? You are the most annoying person when it comes to words. You can’t believe it! You’ve hidden so many things from me before.”
Seeing that Mu Qianxue refused to believe him, Qin Hao felt scared. He pressed closer and closer to Mu Qianxue from behind, buried his head in Mu Qianxue's fragrant neck, leaned close to his ear, and took a greedy breath: " If I tell a lie now, I will die in front of you immediately! You know, people like me will not swear by their lives easily. "
Listening to Qin Hao's vowed words, Mu Qianxue felt very warm in her heart, her eyes were slightly red, and she couldn't help but feel a little moist.
Since her mother passed away, she has never cried in front of others. Even after her grandfather passed away and she lost her last support, she just hid and cried secretly. She never cried in front of outsiders. She was even scolded by Meng Qiulan and Xu Fanghua for being a wolf-hearted person. , Even if you are not filial, you will not cry.
However, she showed her weak side in front of Qin Hao twice in a row. Once she was angry and cried, but this time she was moved.
She held Qin Hao's hand tightly, opened her red lips slightly, and said coquettishly: "I'm warning you, if you stay with me for a day, you can't die if I don't allow you to die! If you die, who will protect me and my little one?" Jun? Who gives me a shoulder to rely on? You bullied me so many times, and if you die, who will I settle the account with? "
PS: Chuxin’s last month’s new flower book list, please give me flowers, I’ll beg for you on my knees. . . . . . ,. . . (To be continued)