When Qin Hao came down from the rooftop, Yunshan was getting a quilt for Lin Xinyi in the room. He didn't mean to disturb them, but knocked on Duanmurui's door and pushed in after receiving the latter's response.
Duanmurui has already gone to bed. She seems to have just changed clothes and is doing her hair. She is wearing a cute pink pajamas. Her two bare, white and tender little feet are exposed to the air, and her ten round toes are , overall slender, moving every move, as if greeting Qin Hao.
Normally, Qin Hao would have had bad thoughts, but today he was really in no mood. What's more, he felt more sympathy, love and pity for Duanmurui, like a brother protecting his sister.
Speaking of which, this is also related to Qin Hao's childhood experience. He was an orphan and had no relatives. The memory of the orphanage has long been lost, and he still can't remember it. His memory is of following the old bald donkey in the ruined temple on the mountain.
Although he has a group of good brothers who can rely on his life, and now he has a lover, he still feels lonely. This is a lack of family affection. Love and family affection are indispensable for people to live in the world.
Even though he calls Yunshan Sister Shan, in his heart he prefers to regard Yunshan as his own woman. He can also feel that Yunshan is attached to him and attaches great importance to him. This is a kind of mixture of love and family affection. Emotion is not pure family affection.
The feelings between people are subtle and strange. For example, falling in love over time and falling in love at first sight are obviously opposites. From this point of view, we can see how changeable human emotions are, and there is no rule or reason at all.
Qin Hao is an orphan. He doesn't even have the most basic family affection. It can be said that he has never felt any relatives. In his interpersonal relationships, the column of relatives has always been blank.
In fact, his heart is fragile, and he has no sense of security, because he has no reasonable emotional basis to protect himself and give himself a sense of security. His sense of security is entirely based on the strength of his own strength.
However, how long can a person be strong, no matter how powerful he is? Can you really stay strong forever? As long as a human being has feelings, there will always be times when he is vulnerable. Just like now, he didn't even have anyone to talk to, so he could only hold all the negative emotions in his heart and hurt himself over and over again.
Therefore, what is vacant is vacant, and unless something is found to fill it, it will remain vacant.
In fact, it's not that Qin Hao has never thought about his parents, it's just that for a person who doesn't even know what his parents look like or where they are, even if he has a desire for parental affection, before this desire, there is still There is a layer of separation, saying that hate is a bit too serious, and hurt resistance is more appropriate.
After all, Qin Hao has long learned not to hate someone easily, because once he reaches that point, he will have a deep hatred and an undying hatred.
Speaking of brothers and sisters, maybe in that missing memory, he will long for the protection of his brothers and sisters. But after he had the memory to follow the old bald donkey up the mountain to learn skills, in addition to being abused by the old bald donkey, he basically abused others. After this, he actually liked and wanted to protect others more than being protected. He was a bit obsessive. look like.
This can be seen from how he treats the people around him, such as his protection of the Mu sisters, his protection of Song Yao, his protection of Hua Ximeng and his daughter, and his protection of Shu Ya. protection of.
He would always look down on the weak side of the women around him. Even if the woman actually had nothing to do with him, he would have the urge to protect and help her.
Ridiculous, isn't it? It's ironic that a man with blood on his hands who is regarded as a butcher is actually a kind and good man with a warm heart.
Because of this, if he wanted a relative to fill the vacancy, Qin Hao would prefer a younger brother and sister who could be protected by him and grow up under his wings. Based on the principle of opposites attracting, what he actually wanted was a younger sister.
The appearance of Duanmurui is exactly in line with this point. Qin Hao, this pure and weak girl who I feel pity for, has had the idea of protecting her since the first time he saw her, and he did so.
Later, when Duanmurui called him brother, he suddenly felt a sense of surprise, ah, it turns out that I have a sister. It's like when you pick up a piece of paper on the street, only to find that it is a piece of paper worth tens of millions. The jackpot lottery feeling.
At first, he was a little worried, worried that this was just a dream, worried that this was not a long-term solution, and since it was a lottery ticket worth tens of millions of dollars, would it be possible to get it back one day
Later, when he learned what happened to Duanmurui, Qin Hao was angry and happy at the same time. What makes him angry is that Duanmurui's experience is so pitiful that it makes him feel distressed. The good news is that Duanmu Rui was abandoned by his family, and he was the same. They both lacked family ties, which could be filled by each other, and no one could take his place.
Otherwise, if he is a godbrother, if there is any biological brother, cousin, etc., he will not be jealous. This is human nature.
However, he forgot one thing: can this kind of brother-sister relationship really exist between men and women? Qin Hao only knew that he could do it, but he never thought about Duanmurui's position. A stranger became his brother and protected him from harm from the beginning. For Duanmurui, it was like being in the desert. I saw an oasis, a bright flame lit up in the bleak life.
This feeling is getting more and more magnified. Duanmurui is still a woman. Without the restriction of real blood relationship, she is increasingly unable to control her feelings for Qin Hao.
However, she also has low self-esteem. She has nothing. Although she is not as introverted and timid as Shuya, she is still a burden in life because she has physical defects. Therefore, even if she understands her feelings for Qin Hao, she doesn't dare to really express it. She is afraid of being rejected, and at the same time she feels that she is not worthy. It's not that she doesn't know that Yunshan and Song Yao are all the same as Qin Hao. It's that kind of relationship.
"Brother, is it you?" Just when Qin Hao was a little stunned, Duanmu Rui had already identified the person from the footsteps, with a look of surprise on his face.
"Well, it's me." Seeing Duanmurui's smile, Qin Hao suddenly felt very beautiful and healing. The pain and troubles in his heart dissipated a little. He couldn't help but stayed for a moment, then smiled and walked to Duanmurui's bed. While sitting down, he raised her little feet and put them on his thighs, letting her lean comfortably on the bed: "Xiao Rui, I have a way to fix your eyes."
The smile on Duanmurui's face suddenly stopped, and there seemed to be a little sparkle in the empty and gloomy pupils. His lips trembled slightly. He straightened up, climbed to Qin Hao's shoulders with his little hands, hugged his neck, raised his little face, and raised his head. Touching Qin Hao's chin, his voice was stammering and trembling: "Really, really, is it okay?"
"Of course, am I going to lie to my most beloved sister?" Qin Hao put his arms around Duanmurui, gently caressed and patted her back with one hand to comfort him, and caressed her neck lovingly with the other hand. head.
She was doted on like a younger sister, but in his opinion, Duanmurui was much more pitiable than his sister-in-law Mu Qianjun. Mu Qianjun at least has a sister who he cares about and protects him from the wind and rain. However, Duanmurui did not have such an existence. His parents and family were all there, but there was no such thing as family affection. To his family, Duanmurui was not a human being at all, but a tool, and a tool that was inherently damaged.
How could they give protection to a broken tool
PS: There should be three updates tonight. Please give me some flowers or something. Please, okay? . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . (To be continued)