"Xiaoxue, I can honestly say that I have never felt that your behavior is so shameless and selfish. Even if it is selfish, everyone lives in this society and is no longer an indifferent child. What should we do for ourselves? I know clearly whether I live or live for others. I am also selfish. I think I am also shameless. I am obviously the husband of my best friend, but I have a hand in it. It doesn’t matter which of us comes first in this relationship, but I am a mistress. The fact of lovers cannot be changed.
I can't control my feelings, I can't live without him, at least for the time being, I can't give up on him. If I wasn't selfish, I wouldn't hold on to him and refuse to let go. Mu Qianxue, do you know how jealous I am of you? Although you are from a pitiful background and have a heavy burden, living in a family that is constantly fighting for power and gain. However, you have a good platform and a superior material life that you cannot deny. Your sister and your father love you very much.
As for me, I was born in a poor rural family. My father died young when I was still a child. My adoptive father drank too much and was basically a bottomless pit. He would always beat and scold me and make trouble at home when things didn't go well. It was my mother who pulled me up and brought me up. I don't blame my parents. They brought me into this world. They gave me life. They have tried their best to give me everything. I just want to live a good life and let go of the difficulties.
To be honest, I really, really appreciate you and thank God for letting me know you. When I was in college, you helped me a lot. After I started working, I received your invitation. Oh, it should be said that it was a support. I came to Mushi. After several years of hard work, I am where I am today. this location. Maybe you think we just take what each other needs. What I am today is the result of my own efforts. However, I can tell you responsibly that without the opportunity and platform you gave me, perhaps I would now be just an ordinary employee of a certain company, a middle- and lower-level manager at most, far from my current position and salary.
I thought that if I could make money on my own, my life would gradually get better. But my mother fell ill at this time, and that vampire adoptive father was a bottomless pit. No matter how much I earned, I could never fill the pit. Do you know how desperate I am? Every time I paid off gambling debts for him, three-quarters of my salary was wasted, and I was almost desperate to the extreme. I even thought about dying and letting Cui Jianguo fend for himself. But if I die, what will happen to my mother’s medical expenses? What about Shitou’s tuition and living expenses? I had no choice but to fight for my life. Even if I was shot on the Gold Coast, I would not complain at all, as long as I could earn more money.
My life is already gloomy enough. Qin Hao's appearance in my life brought me a glimmer of light and lit a bright lamp. It was he who saved me from a gunman, it was he who killed the vampire Cui Jianguo for me, he was the one who protected me and helped me, and it was he who made me understand, ah, it turns out that my life can also be glorious. "
Speaking of this, Song Yao paused for a moment, her eyes were red, but there was a smile from the heart on her face. Mu Qianxue could see beautiful love in her smile. Although this love was very special, it made her She felt bitter in her heart.
Mu Qianxue even suspected that she felt as if she was the third party in this relationship.
Taking a deep breath, her slightly excited emotions gradually calmed down. Song Yao's expression was firm and her tone left no room for doubt. She spoke again: "Mu Qianxue, facing you, I really feel inferior. I even feel that I am inferior to you in everything." , why can’t I get things no matter how hard you work? The same goes for love. It’s obvious that you’re the worst at it, it’s obvious that you don’t understand him at all, it’s obvious that your contribution is too little, but he prefers you more than Everyone! This is something we can’t be jealous of.
I can give up everything for him, but you can't, you can't. I'm not as good as you in other things, I admit it, but emotionally, I don't want to lose. I have never asked for anything in my life, even if I try hard to get no results, I admit it. But this is the only thing I can't do, I won't give in, I will absolutely, absolutely not admit defeat! Therefore, I will submit my resignation tomorrow. In the future, I hope we can still be friends. "
After saying this almost in one breath, Song Yao exhaled heavily. Although she felt a little uneasy, saying what was in her heart did make her feel much more relaxed and comfortable. She apologized when it was time to apologize, and she didn't give up when it was time to persevere. Maybe she and Mu Qianxue would no longer be friends after today, but she didn't regret it. At least, she wouldn't have to worry about carrying Mu Qianxue and Qin Hao every day and every night. Together, they had to face Mu Qianxue again during the day and suffered from the indebtedness and guilt in their hearts.
As for the estrangement, it definitely exists. I don’t know when it started. When the two of them were together, they rarely mentioned Qin Hao or even the topic of men. They may have known it in their hearts for a long time, but they just didn’t want to let the friendship that has shared joys and sorrows for many years deteriorate. It turned into nothing, so I was careful not to expose it.
However, some things cannot be covered up forever. Even if two people pretend to know nothing, they still have to face it when they are pushed against the wall.
This time, it was Mu Qianxue's turn to be silent. Even though she had known everything that happened around Song Yao's family, she never thought that Song Yao would have so many negative emotions in her heart. She was a little sad and blamed herself. After all, she still ignored her best friend's psychological feelings.
It's not surprising when you think about it. Ever since she graduated from college and joined the Mu Group, she has been focusing almost entirely on her work. Not to mention Song Yao, even her sister Mu Qianjun and her father Mu Ruidong, how often has she really paid attention and set her sights on it? Stay on them for more than a minute? If so, she wouldn't regret it after Mu Ruidong passed away.
However, what shocked her the most was Song Yao's jealousy. However, this is something that can be relieved.
Comparison, this is human nature and cannot be restrained. At the same time, it is not derogatory or evil. It is definitely not the same nature as some best friends and friends who work against each other and criticize behind their backs.
Women are women after all. Unlike men who are careless, women's hearts are too delicate and too sensitive. Even the best friend cannot avoid this.
Not deliberately trying to compare, but sometimes I subconsciously think of myself when I see something. I hope that my best friend can live a good life, and that she can be a little better than myself, but if it is too much better, then it will not work. It does not mean that she has to do something, but that she will naturally develop a sense of distance and inferiority, and the quality of life in a person's circle The gap is too big, naturally there is no way to get along.
As for what I often hear on the Internet or from others, "I and I are good best friends. We are good friends and sisters. Of course I hope she lives well. Otherwise, can I still be called a good best friend?"
Whoever said these things, either her best friend is not living as well as she is, so she can say it without any pressure, or she is too hypocritical and anti-human.
Be it jealousy, comparison, or low self-esteem, it is human nature and cannot be erased. No matter how good you are, you cannot have the best of friends. Otherwise, where would the words breakup and conflict come from? of
However, these emotions are two different things from being in conflict with one another.
Seeing that Mu Qianxue didn't speak for a long time, Song Yao felt that the atmosphere in the car was getting more and more solemn and depressing, making people a little breathless. Maybe Mu Qianxue was frightened after her true side was revealed.
Song Yao smiled bitterly, stretched out her hand to open the car door and got out of the car: "I have said everything I can say, and I don't know what to say for the rest of the time. What I said today is all from my sincerity. If you have For those who don't like and hate things, please don't be angry. Maybe this is the first time you know the real me. I'm going back to see my mother first, and hope to see you again in the future. Xiaoxue, take care... "
The last two words were as heavy as a thousand pounds. Song Yao felt that she was about to cry, but she held it back. She didn't want to appear too cowardly. She promised to face it with a smile, but her decision would not be the same. regret!
Mu Qianxue seemed to be still in a daze and did not say anything to persuade Song Yao to stay. Although she had expected this outcome, she still felt uncomfortable when she truly accepted this moment, which made her heart ached.
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