Qin Ze's habit of keeping a diary was cultivated by the old man. When he was a child in school, the teacher yelled: "Keep a diary every day, and forget it if you don't keep it for a day."
Then take writing a diary as homework, and ask every primary school student to go home and write a diary.
As for the benefits of keeping a diary, Qin Ze didn't know or understand why to keep a diary. Later, the old man said: "The master said: I examine myself three times a day! This is what the diary is for."
At that time Qin Ze was still young, blinking his innocent eyes: "I don't understand."
The old man took Wen Qingbing away, and said earnestly: "Recording the daily events in the diary is not just to record events, but to write down one's own feelings, summaries, self-examination, and attach emotions to the pen. "
Qin Ze said weakly: "Papa, I still don't understand."
The old man sighed: "You have to be half as smart as a baby, I woke up laughing from my dreams."
Qin Ze has never seen the old man's diary, but since he taught himself this way as a son, by the same token, the old man should also have the habit of writing a diary.
That's right, I just came to peek at the old man's diary.
I want to find out what happened back then, but I can't ask about this kind of thing, and I can't show my cards directly, so peeking at the old man's diary is the best choice.
The old man is a man of culture, and he has a kind of literary disease in his bones. He likes to keep all kinds of books, and he will definitely keep such things as diaries.
Of course, if Qin Ze's expectations are correct, the old man probably doesn't know. However, I can spy on one or two through clues.
Qin Ze rummaged through the bookshelves and safes in the study, but he couldn't find the diary, hiss~ the old man is very good at hiding things. Is there some secret compartment in the study that I don't know about
Qin Ze lifted up the hand-embroidered landscape paintings by Qin Ma hanging on the wall. The walls are very solid and there are no hidden compartments.
At this time, it is a test of strong memory.
It’s always been played like this on TV. When the villain’s children find out their father’s secret, they search hard for “evidence” in the study, but find nothing. When they are anxious, they will have a magical flash of inspiration, thinking of certain things in their childhood, Then suddenly realized, found his father's secret.
nothing.
The plot on TV is really unreliable, and human memory is also unreliable. The two things he was most afraid of when he was a child: the fear of being dominated by his father's magic weapon; the shame of closing the study and facing the wall to think about his past.
In my memory, apart from this wall, I don't seem to have much impression of anything else.
At this time, Qin Ze picked up the blue book in the upper right corner of the desk and opened it: The weather on Friday, December 15, 2017 was sunny...
"..." Qin Ze's liver was in pain.
I tried my best to find it for a long time, but it turned out that you were lying quietly on the table
Where is your dignity as a diary
The old man has such a big heart that the diary just sits on the desk
Looking at the date, this diary was written yesterday, obviously without any reference value, but Qin Ze couldn't help but read it.
Peeking at dad's diary is exciting, no less exciting than my own sister's.
"...The stock market has fluctuated a bit recently. There are a lot of leveraged funds exiting the market and many entering the market. This is a ticking time bomb. Today Xiaolan asked me how the stock market is doing. I said it was very good. In fact, the past few days I lost tens of thousands of dollars. But I can’t say that my son makes money every day, but I lose so much as a father. It’s embarrassing to talk about it. I’ll ask him for shares another day... "
This "ask him for shares another day" is very flamboyant.
The old man's diary was unexpectedly interesting, revealing his coquettish heart. Qin Ze resisted the desire to keep looking through it. It was important to get down to business. If the old man came in from outside and ran into him, even if his sister begged for mercy , I feel that I can't escape the beating.
This diary belongs to him this year and last year. I don’t know if the notebook from more than 20 years ago still exists.
Fortunately, there really is.
The blue leather diary is placed on a bookcase, which is the kind of bookcase similar to the hardcover edition of the four famous classics.
There are several diaries in it, of different thicknesses, with black, purple, and white covers... Some are new, some are old.
Qin Ze took out a yellowed diary from the bottom. Although the old man kept it carefully, the years had left obvious marks on it. The leather surface was faded and yellowed, and it could be torn into pieces with a little force.
I opened the diary and looked, no, the time on the first page read: 1999, let alone Qin Baobao, Qin Ze was two or three years old at that time.
Change another copy, open it, and read on the first page: 1992, February 3rd...
"Holding an oil-paper umbrella, alone, wandering in the long, long, and lonely rainy alley, I hope to meet, a girl who is like a lilac, full of sorrow... Today I met a girl, she There is no sorrow, her voice is soft, her eyes are soft, and she exudes a fresh breath like lilac. I like her. Next time we meet, I will give this poem to her. I will wait At the gate of the factory."
February 20th...
"I asked her out to play for the first time. I rode a bicycle and took her to lie in the sunshine of early spring. I was a little cold and my nose was running out. The radio on the roadside sang songs, thank you for this person who can fall in love freely New era, thank you ***."
Qin Ze made up the picture in his head. The young old man was wearing clothes from the 90s, with a pair of liberation shoes on his feet, and riding a black bicycle. In the back seat was Mother Qin with double ponytails and a floral padded jacket... .. They shuttled in the cheerful atmosphere of reform and opening up, singing in their ears: the east is red and the sun rises...
At that time, the old man must have felt that he was the chic and rich second generation who drove a BMW to pick up girls, right
...
April 18
"I ran into her younger brother at the factory gate, the listless little red guy dared to yell at me, I slapped him, Xiaolan and I had a big fight, and brought her brother into the factory, I was very sad. "
April 30th.
"Her family knew that I was in a relationship with her. The future father-in-law heard that he didn't like me very much. I knew he looked down on me. He was the leader of the factory, and my father was just a poor teacher. Of course, her brother told me this. Yes, I was very angry, so I slapped him again, the little red guy is so handsome, he is hated."
Qin Ze: "..."
No wonder the relationship between uncle and dad is not good.
May 28
"Today is a memorable day. Xiaolan and I are husband and wife, and I feel... very happy. This lilac-like girl is the girl I like all my life. I suddenly think of two poems, which should be remembered: The silver vase is broken and the water is sprayed out, and the cavalry protrudes with swords and guns; the flower path has never been swept by the guests, but now the door is opened for the king."
Seeing this, Qin Ze suddenly felt a chill run down his spine and his hairs stood on end.
If this is caught by the old man, the consequences will be disastrous.
In addition, I have to praise, the old man is really a cultural person, I can't understand these poems. After studying classical Chinese for so many years, I just remembered one sentence: the love of chrysanthemums is rarely heard of by Empress Tao.
I have memorized poems for so many years, but I don't remember much, just a paragraph: The spring tide brings rain and comes late, and the wild crossing is unmanned.
Read on:
June 1st
"... I brought a present to see my father-in-law today, but I was kicked out by him. I felt so embarrassing and had a big fight. I said angrily: Thirty years in Hedong, thirty years in Hexi, don't bully young people to be poor." Walk away."
June 16th.
"I haven't seen her for a long time, I miss her so much, she should miss me too. I entrusted a friend to send her a letter, and we will meet at night, and we will talk to each other. Afterwards, Xiaolan told me that she is pregnant..."
September 20
"Xiao Lan gradually became pregnant, and the paper couldn't hold fire. After I discussed with my father, he took me to Xu's family to propose marriage. My father and Xu's family had a quarrel and almost fought, but the marriage was settled smoothly. I am very happy, father I'm also happy, our father and son got drunk that night, and my father said that he hoped that Xiaolan would add a fat grandson to the Qin family."
So that's how my sister came here? what about me? How did I get here
Qin Ze was stunned.
1993, May.
"My daughter was born, but when I went to study in the capital, I couldn't see the birth of my daughter. I was ashamed of Xiaolan's mother and daughter. My father called me to report that the mother and daughter were safe. But my father sighed. I knew the reason. He Want grandchildren."
Seeing this, Qin Ze's heart thumped a few times. He skipped this book and found it in other books. He and his sister are more than two years old, nearly three years old. If there is a record in the diary, it should be at least It's a diary from two years later... I found it.
1994, November.
"Xiaolan is pregnant. I told my father the news. My father was very relieved. He held my hand and said: You are the eldest son of the family and the only son of my father. My father has been unable to figure it out and make sense all these years. The Qin family always needs someone to lead, so that Dad can leave safely in the future. Dad is willing to give birth to this one, regardless of gender. I patted his hand and said, don't worry. "
June.
"I discussed it with Xiaolan and planned to let her go to the countryside to raise a baby and have a baby. Her stomach is already pregnant and she can't stay in the Shanghai stock market. Xiaolan asked me if I want a baby too. I looked at her and said no. Talk, but I know in my heart, think!"
Qin Ze was very melancholy and wanted to smoke. I was still an embryo, and the country couldn't tolerate me anymore.
September.
"It's still more than a month before she gives birth, and I feel very nervous. Due to work reasons, I only have two days a week to stay with her in Zhejiang Province. Fortunately, Xu Guang is with her the rest of the time."
October.
"The child was born. It was a boy. Xu Guang called me and told me. The excitement in my heart was unspeakable. At that time, my father was seriously ill and stayed in the hospital to take care of him. When the child was born, he couldn't accompany Xiaolan. ashamed."
Now, Qin Ze couldn't understand. You don't need to ask Yuan Fang about this matter, everyone knows that something is wrong. But looking at the diary of the old man, I can't tell who the kid on the phone is at all.
Sure enough, the silliest one was Dad.
He doesn't know anything at all.
November.
"Bring A Ze back to Shanghai, naturalized, fined 30,000 yuan, heartbroken and hard to breathe, in the future, I will punish him and teach him to become a talent, so that I can live up to the pain at this moment."
Qin Ze: "..."
Is this why you beat me up for so many years
I'm so tired, I'm really not a kiss.
Suddenly, the door lock clicked, and someone turned the handle outside, opened the door and entered.