Two hours ago, Xue Xi suddenly found himself standing in the corridor on the fifth floor of the inpatient department, where people were coming and going, mixed with the smell of disinfectant, food, and sweat. The scene of family members complaining and exhausted is so familiar, it seems to be in slow motion.
The last second he was in an air crash. The sharp cry, the terrified screams of the crowd, all the noise shrank sharply, piercing through his eardrums.
In the next second, his pupils narrowed sharply, and he lowered his head, only to find that there was no longer darkness in front of him.
He was carrying an old thermos bucket in his hand.
As soon as I turned around, in the ward behind me, my grandmother was lying on her side with a haggard appearance.
The autumn of the year when he was sixteen was extremely difficult for Xue Xi.
In that midsummer, the scorching sun was scorching, he worked outside from morning to night, went out to carry mineral water for the restaurant at four o'clock in the morning, and his salary was settled daily, which was not bad. During the day, he accepted two tutoring jobs and took out his competition award, Tutoring is easy to find, and the school teacher introduced him to him, which is also very reliable, but there is an extra class in the morning and an afternoon, and the salary is not much. In the evening, he will go to the Internet cafe to repair the computer and watch the shop, which can solve dinner.
The town where grandpa lived was not big, and no one knew that he was the son of the secretary who committed suicide in Haicheng, and treated him like an ordinary high school student.
After two months of continuous rotation, although I was so tired that I fell asleep every day when I got home, but fortunately, in addition to buying medicine for my grandmother, I was able to pay off the tuition fees.
At the end of the summer vacation, the sixteen-year-old was finally much more relaxed.
Three years ago, he lost his voice overnight and couldn't find out the reason. Later, he simply didn't investigate, and he could communicate with pen and paper, and he could save a lot of medical expenses.
But fortunately, in the past three years, even without treatment, his damaged vocal cords are still gradually recovering, but it may be that he has not spoken for too long, and his speech is still jerky, so he tries to use typing to express most of the time.
He thought he saw some hope for life.
For this reason, he also asked his grandfather not to take on some piecework such as mending shoes when he was too old, and his eyes were broken.
Unexpectedly, a few days later, grandpa developed a high fever without warning.
He was unconscious when he was sent to the hospital, and passed away shortly thereafter.
Birth, old age, sickness and death are normal, not to mention that this is not the first time for young people to handle funerals by themselves.
He stood up silently, went to the hospital to settle the medical bills, contacted the funeral home, and bought a cemetery.
In this way, the tuition earned during the summer vacation was emptied.
The cold wave of autumn came overnight, and the leaves of the town fell, showing the appearance of withering.
Beside him is only an elderly and frail grandmother who is sometimes awake and sometimes confused, with drowsy eyes.
Then, the Zhou family heard about this and contacted him.
He still remembers when he was a child, parting at the airport and being taken away by two families, he tightly held the hand of the five-year-old girl like holding the most wanted glass beads, which made her little hands red and the circles of her eyes red , looking at him disgustedly.
But no matter how much the two adults persuaded him, he would not let go.
At that time, his father had not yet become a notorious corrupt official in the news, and before everyone shouted and beat him, he was still a refined middle-aged man.
You and him will meet again someday.
Unexpectedly, when "Someday" really came, he stood tensely at the door of her villa, wearing an old school uniform, and his shoes were badly worn out, but he was stretched after finishing the funeral of his grandfather, even though he knew he was going to see him. She also has no way to change a pair.
He knew that he was in a mess and embarrassment, so he could only bend down to wipe off the mud spots on the soles of his shoes before stepping into the gate, so that he could be more decent when standing in front of her.
But she looked down at him condescendingly, but still frowned.
At that moment, his throat was dry, the young man had nothing but a bit of poor self-esteem, he stood there and looked at him, his heart was overwhelmed, but his face remained calm. All senses are magnified and pinched together. He had nowhere to hide, he could only straighten his back and look at her expressionlessly.
She is still on top. But he seemed to have lost the qualification to hold that beautiful glass bead.
Xue Xi didn't expect that he would be reborn back to this autumn day after suffering an air crash.
Grandma's violent cough reminded him, he walked quickly into the ward with the insulated bucket, put the insulated bucket aside, took out a tissue to wipe off the phlegm from the corners of the grandmother's mouth when she coughed, and then threw the used tissue into the ward. garbage can.
He opened the thermos, and the aroma of hot food and dishes soon permeated the entire ward.
Grandma seems to be in good spirits today, and she is still sober. Seeing him coming, she coughed and said, "Xiao Xi is here, what are you eating today? Shrimp again... Xue Xi, listen to grandma, the doctor said I am in good health, there is no need to eat it." Hospitalization! The hospitalization costs a lot, you take me back, and I can also do some knitting sweater work, so that you can pay for your tuition... Grandma is only in her sixties, and she is not old yet!"
She is already in her eighties, and she is still sober in the first half of the sentence, but her memory has become confused again in the second half.
Xue Xi shook his head, taking advantage of her nagging, skillfully set up the small table on the hospital bed, took out the two dishes from the thermos bucket and put them on it, pulled out the cooked shrimp, and pulled out the shrimp thread , remove the head and tail, hold it with chopsticks and hand it to her mouth.
The boy's hands were clean and slender. He had held countless trophies three years ago, but in the past three years, there were some small and imperceptible scars.
He remembered that his grandmother passed away on New Year's Eve a year and a half later. The Zhou family had already arranged for her to live in a good ward, hired a good nurse, and used the best medicine. What kind of illness is it? It's just that when you get older, the fallen leaves return to their roots.
Once again, Xue Xi knew that he might not be able to change his grandmother's death, he could only make her feel better while she was still alive.
Although the old man said no, but she still happily swallowed the peeled and clean shrimps that her grandson put in her mouth.
Seeing this, Xue Xi smiled a little.
"Is your grandfather's old friend coming to pick you up later?" Grandma suddenly asked after eating and drinking.
Her memory is chaotic, and sometimes she will suddenly remember the current event, and she is no different from a normal person at this time. But most of the time, he can't even remember who Xue Xi is.
Xue Xi looked at the crackling rain outside, it was the autumn day when he saw her again.
He paused with the hand holding the spoon and nodded.
Grandma seemed to be remembering something, her eyes were dark and she said: "With the support, you can finally reduce the pressure on your body. Grandma takes medicine all the year round, which drags you down so much, and grandma can't bear it. If grandma is like your grandfather, she will die sooner." That’s fine, so you don’t have to…”
Xue Xi frowned, held grandma's shoulders, supported her to lie down, and interrupted her.
The old man looked at the clean, slender, handsome and silent boy sitting by the bed.
Others' children at this age are carefree and flamboyant, but her children are preoccupied at this age and have to take on the responsibility of supporting the family prematurely.
The incident three years ago changed Xue Xi's fate overnight. Originally, he came from a superior background and had a brighter future than anyone else.
She sighed in her heart, and said to Xue Xi: "Although Grandpa Zhou is your grandfather's friend, it is the friendship of our old people after all... Good boy, you went to Zhou's house and received funding from Zhou's house. Remember to be grateful, do some housework within your ability, except for tuition, if you can’t spend the Zhou family’s money, don’t spend it, even if you spend it, you have to write it down and pay it back when you grow up.”
Xue Xi pursed his thin lips slightly and nodded.
"Grandma knows you are a good boy, so you don't need to tell you these words, you understand." She held Xue Xi's hand, and said in a soft voice: "Grandma can't help you, you can only rely on yourself." Already... Now that you have the Zhou family's help, do your best and remember this kindness, but don't think about anything else, today is different from the past, and you can't afford it."
Grandma has seen the photos on his cell phone.
When she was still awake, grandma would sigh again and again, and when she was not sober, grandma would say, so this is the girl from your grandpa Zhou's family, she is so handsome.
In his last life, he was only a sixteen-year-old boy at this time. No matter how calm, precocious, and able to take on things, his inner core suppressed countless sharpness and sharpness.
And those unexpressed self-esteem did not disappear during the three years of family ruin, but was gradually squeezed into a ball by him, trampled under his feet, and turned into restraint and silence.
He was silent for a long time when he heard his grandmother's words, and said a little depressed: "I know."
Now, it seemed that fate was crushing on him again. The words that grandma said to him were exactly the same as those in the previous life.
He looked at his grandmother's old and tired face, and looked at Qiu Yu outside the window. He remained silent for a moment, smiled wryly, and said in a hoarse voice, "I see."
Everything can be redone, everything can be re-chosen.
However, two hours later, the boy's thin figure still stood at the door of the hospital.
He packed his things, looked up at the rain screen, and waited quietly for the housekeeper who came from Zhou's house.
Does anyone like a delicate but hurtful piranha? Knowing that there will be no good end, but still not turning back
Knowing that if he leaves here today, he and she will have different fates. But he still made the same mistakes and stood under the eaves.
To repeat the same mistakes is to repeat the same mistakes.
He had to at least prevent her from having that car accident.
The housekeeper of the Zhou family hurried over at the same time. He was out to buy supplies today, and received a call from Zhou Du on the way, taking Xue Xi back to the villa from the hospital. So I came in a hurry, and I didn't even prepare an umbrella.
Xue Xi, a young man from the previous life, got into the car after getting caught in the rain, with his thin lips tightly pursed, trying not to let his embarrassment show, and not to let the rain on his body wet some of the leather cushions. Hearing the butler's question, he didn't answer much.
Xue Xi in this life was much calmer. Before getting out of the car, he wiped his wet spot with the rag at his feet. It's just that the voice is hoarse, and I didn't talk much with the housekeeper, only exchanged phone numbers.
Before he stepped into the gate of Zhou's villa, he already knew what would happen next.
She would stand on the stairs and look at him coldly, with disgust in her eyes, as if she was upset that the rain on his body had stained the carpet.
Then she went upstairs, because she had dessert and was not in the habit of eating dinner.
It happened that once a week when Aunt He and the housekeeper came home, everyone went back in the evening. No one arranged for his room, and he was left in the corner with his luggage for a long time.
In the evening, the housekeeper called in a hurry, saying that the room had not been arranged yet, and asked him to go to the room where the gardener usually lives to rest for the night.
He was prepared in his heart. Before stepping into the gate, the muddy water on the shoes was wiped off, which was cleaner than in the previous life. Then he crumpled up the wet school uniform and stuffed it into his schoolbag, throwing it at the door of the villa, so that the rain would not be brought in.
Thinking in his mind that he would live in the gardener's bungalow later, he didn't ask the housekeeper about the room.
When he stepped into the gate of the villa, he just wanted to meet Zhou Yi, who was only fifteen years old.
…
The four eyes met, and everything reappeared.
Everything around him seemed to have faded, and Xue Xi could only focus on her.
She stood there condescendingly, at the age of fifteen, she was exquisite and beautiful, like a thorny rose under the scorching sun, who disdained everything around her. It's no different from the previous life.
…
Xue Xi's Adam's apple twitched, trying his best to suppress all the surging emotions in his eyes.
There is ample time.
Xue Xi thought to himself, in this life, he could still look at her back for a long time.
After seeing her, he settled down in his heart. After staring at her for a long time, he planned to turn around and put his luggage in the gardener's room.
But who would have heard her say to him: "Brother, welcome home."
Xue Xi was stunned for a moment, suspecting that he had heard it wrong, but he looked at her face, and saw that the expression on her face seemed to be much calmer than the tit-for-tat in the previous life, and there was even a little imperceptible joy in her eyes.
…
But soon after looking over by herself, she tugged at the knitted skirt uncomfortably, and then returned to her usual expression.
…
Xue Xi smiled wryly in his heart, perhaps he had misread it.
It's normal that this life is slightly different from the previous life, the time when I got on the car, and what I did after I got on the car have all changed.
Because he didn't talk to himself, the Zhou's driver drove a lot faster, so he arrived at the Zhou's villa about ten minutes earlier.
Perhaps something happened during this process that affected Zhou Yizhi's mood, maybe.
…
Although he was still a teenager in the previous life, he never said it out loud, but he expressed his love too clearly, which might become her burden, so she did not hesitate to escape from herself by going abroad. Before going abroad, she cried a lot and completely broke with her family.
The Zhou family was originally her home, so there was no reason for her to go abroad because he was an outsider.
Although Xue Xi's heart was agitated in this life, he also knew that he should not repeat the mistakes of the past.
He was determined to take a step back a little and not make things difficult for her in this life.
If she is still very repulsive to him, he will go to live in school.
Even though the chances of seeing her were rare, as long as she was safe and sound, it didn't matter to him.
Thinking of this, Xue Xi raised his eyes and nodded to Zhou Yizhi.
Zhou Yizhi was overjoyed, sure enough, his brother still treats him as before, as long as he softens a little, the relationship between the two can be eased. When you meet for the first time, you must leave a good impression.
She looked at Xue Xi happily, waiting for her brother to say something—
She remembered that although his vocal cords hadn't fully recovered at this time, he was already able to speak hoarsely.
But in the next second, the boy saw her, as if he had completed some task, he turned and walked out the door.
Zhou Yizhi: ...
This time, he only stood at the entrance of the villa for a moment, he didn't even step into the porch, and he didn't dirty the precious carpet.
He picked up the schoolbag outside the door, as if planning to walk directly towards the gardener's house.
The tall and thin figure turned his back to her, the hem of his clothes was slightly rolled up by the wind, and he disappeared at the door in an instant.
Zhou Yizhi who was standing on the stairs opened his mouth and froze for a moment.
… what happened? ? ? Brother doesn't like himself
Don't you look good today? Or where did it get ugly? However, today's clothes and hairstyle are exactly the same as those in the previous life.
…
Zhou Yizhi was doused with cold water, hurried downstairs, and shouted to the housekeeper, "Uncle He!"
The butler hastily put down the ingredients in his hand, and ran over: "Miss, what's wrong?"
Zhou Yizhi said aggressively, "Call Xue Xi over for dinner—"
She knew that he had been hungry all day, and he came here from the hospital again, so his stomach must be very uncomfortable.
She suddenly remembered that she couldn't show her teeth and claws anymore, who would like someone who is fierce all day long.
"Wait." Zhou Yizhi suddenly changed Zhang Rou's expression, clasped his hands together and whispered to the housekeeper: "Just say you let him come, don't say I asked him to come here."
In any case, don't lose face.
I'm used to seeing the young lady's arrogance and contemptuousness, but suddenly seeing her reddened ears, going round and round to order people to eat, the housekeeper was a little flustered for a moment: ...