Chai Manman expressed doubts, Tong Yan had no choice but to use his character to lobby: "Have I ever lied?"
Chai Manman said: "Not currently."
"Then don't you believe it? Sometimes he can't even read the instruction manual." Tong Yan tried to prove Zhuo Xiangming's "not so smart", "Only the roof of the phantom city is left for him, so he can't tell how to pretend it .”
The relationship between the two developed rapidly, and there was a relationship of sitting at the same table, but more because they were both Lego enthusiasts, Chai Manman said: "Really?"
Tong Yan said: "Is there any benefit for me to talk nonsense? And I like him so much, there is no reason to talk nonsense."
"..." Chai Manman wasn't sure if she ate dog food again, but she gave up discussing this issue with Tong Yan anyway.
In fact, Zhuo Xiangming's lack of research on Lego is not a deduction at all. Chai Manman worships him because of his business achievements, which have nothing to do with Lego.
Maybe there is one more thing, after all, most of the limited edition Lego at her table recently were bought by this boss.
Chai Manman suddenly came back to his senses: "Have you bought the phantom city yet?!"
Tong Yan nodded: "I bought it two weeks ago."
The class bell rang, and before the teacher entered the classroom, Chai Manman demanded, "Go home tonight and take a picture for me."
Before leaving in the morning, I said I would see you in the afternoon, but I didn't see you in the afternoon.
Zhuo Xiangming had an impromptu meeting, which was very urgent and important, and he couldn't leave. After Tong Yan participated in extracurricular activities, Zhuo Xiangming's secretary received Tong Yan at the volunteer center after school.
She sent Tong Yan directly to Zhuo Xiangming's office, and Zhuo Xiangming went to a meeting, so Tong Yan was alone.
After a while, Tong Yan received a message, and before he opened it, the secretary knocked on the door again, "Mr. Zhuo asked me to ask you, do you want to eat now? He may finish in an hour. There are many restaurants nearby, basically You can order food, there is a menu here."
Tong Yan said: "No, I'll wait for him, thank you."
"Then call me if you need it." The secretary said politely, "I'm right outside."
"Okay." Tong Yan said again, "Thank you."
After the secretary left, Tong Yan only looked around the office for a while before entering Zhuo Xiangming's lounge.
The bed was tidier than last time. There was still an ashtray and an opened box of cigarettes beside the bed. The ashtray was clean. Tong Yan picked up the cigarette box and looked at it. It was more than half empty. The production date was five days ago. , it seems that it is often drawn and new, and it was not placed here a long time ago.
He has never seen Zhuo Xiangming smoking, and he rarely smells smoke on Zhuo Xiangming. He may sometimes smell a little bit when he is close to him, but the frequency is very small, and the smell is very light, so he automatically understands that it is I got someone else's taste in the company.
Tong Yan held the pack of cigarettes and studied for a while, then put it back in its original place.
He lay down on Zhuo Xiangming's bed, the dark sheets were stained with the smell of cedar, Tong Yan pressed his face against it, it was a little cold, but he felt at ease.
The sky was getting dark, and the room was very quiet. Because of the high floor, there was not even a sound of traffic, as if the air had stagnated, and everything had stopped in place. Tong Yan felt a sense of tranquility and loneliness.
He hasn't felt this way for a while. Recently, he has been accompanied by someone from morning to night, so he has almost no time to be alone. He doesn't think about anything, and he seems to think about a lot of things.
He reviewed his love affair with Zhuo Xiangming, and recalled his life before marriage. It seemed like the experiences of two completely different people, two parallel railway tracks separated by a long distance. Somehow, their experiences became one Humans, the rails also overlap after intersecting, and never separate again.
After suffering from pheromone stress disorder, Tong Yan thought for a long time that he would never get well again.
He hadn't told anyone about it, but it was what he thought.
It may also be that he took this idea too seriously, and thought from the bottom of his heart that it was irreversible, and it was useless to get anyone's comfort, so he didn't say it.
Before the estrus period, the world of pheromones was very hazy to him, as if covered with a veil, as if he knew something, but he didn't have a personal experience.
But after that bad estrus period, all the vague misfortunes became clear.
Whether it's alpha or omega pheromone, for him, it suddenly became a sharp attack weapon that could easily pass through the defense.
It's scary, it's chaotic, there's no one to trust, he can't protect himself, and there's no one to protect him.
He is the lame sheep in the phantom city. The ewe was injured and died very early because she wanted to protect the lamb that was born lame. Any mutant animal in the city is stronger than him. He has no companions. , and no friends, a mouse can easily overthrow him.
That kind of life won't be scary anymore. Tong Yan stays in the big villa of the Tong family, and most of the time he is alone. The fear fades away after a long time, and he never dares to say that it is unnecessary. It's useless to say how many tangled mental journeys.
It's just that he didn't know at the time, he was unhappy, and he didn't know that he was unhappy.
Dad and elder brother are very busy, they have very little time to talk, Tong Yan really wanted to talk peacefully, so he never said that he was unhappy that he didn't even understand.
I don’t know how to get married, and the trance days ended one night, in a strange apartment, the house was at most one-fifth the size of Tong’s villa, and the deliberately restrained cedar-flavored pheromone didn’t make him feel Painful, a strange alpha gave him a hug that didn't touch his body very much, and said to him: "Let's take our time."
Zhuo Xiangming's meeting was delayed again and again, and when it was over, it was completely dark, and Tong Yan had been lying sideways on the bed in Zhuo Xiangming's lounge. When he opened the door and came in, he should have thought that Tong Yan had fallen asleep, so he didn't turn on the light. , whispered: "Tongtong?"
Tong Yan didn't answer, so he didn't yell again, walked to the bed with light steps, and squatted down to see Tong Yan's eyes open.
"Are you hungry?" He put his hand on the side of Tong Yan's face, and gently rubbed the corner of Tong Yan's eyes with his thumb.
Tong Yan hummed, and Zhuo Xiangming moved closer, brushing away the hair on his forehead that blocked his eyes: "Did you just fall asleep?"
Tong Yan said: "I didn't sleep, I was waiting for you."
"So good." Zhuo Xiangming said very gently, "Get up and eat, huh?"
Tong Yan closed her eyes and said, "You give me a hug."
"Okay." Zhuo Xiangming kissed him on the eyes, got up and held him up with one hand, and the two of them lay on the pillow next to each other. As soon as Zhuo Xiangming hugged him in his arms, Tong Yan used Hands and feet wrapped tightly around him.
At this moment, Tong Yan felt that it was too late for him to meet Zhuo Xiangming, and then he felt wronged because of it.
Some of his emotional giving and needs have not been able to find the outlet and source in the past eighteen years, because he has not met Zhuo Xiangming.
It took him eighteen years to grow up, and he worked hard to learn mature principles, but he still didn't seem to understand the correct way of love. He refrains from letting his love become a burden to others. The lame lamb lives in fear in the phantom city, and Tong Yan gropes around in the adult world.
He is always adjusting the intensity of his giving and taking of love. After failing to give feedback again and again, he began to doubt his interpretation of love until he met Zhuo Xiangming on this rough road. He accepted his love, acted very happy, and also gave love, making Tong Yan happy.
It took Tong Yan eighteen years to grow up, and he worked very hard to learn the principles of maturity. It was not until the year he met Zhuo Xiangming that he realized that there are thousands of interpretations of love, and strong love is the least suitable. The one with original sin.
But why did Zhuo Xiangming come so late
"You are so bad." Tong Yan said against his chest.
The room was dark and quiet, and even the sound of cloth rubbing was amplified clearly. Zhuo Xiangming rubbed Tong Yan's back with his hand, and hummed in concession, Tong Yan said again: "Why did you lie to me, didn't you say for an hour?"
Zhuo Xiangming showed him the phone screen: six twelve, less than an hour.
Tong Yan stretched out his hand to turn off the screen, raised his head, and looked at Zhuo Xiangming. He looked into those very gentle eyes. For some reason, the feeling of grievance came up again.
Zhuo Xiangming seemed to have also received Tong Yan's depressed mood, he continued to hold Tong Yan tightly, each other could feel each other's warm breath, Tong Yan's mood gradually relaxed, and after a while, he completely Not unhappy, but also feeling a little embarrassed.
"Let's go eat." Tong Yan moved twice, ready to get up from Zhuo Xiangming's arms.
But Zhuo Xiangming didn't let him go, instead he pressed him under him.
"What's wrong?"
Tong Yan said: "You are so kind."
Zhuo Xiangming smiled: "Is it good or bad?"
"Very good." Tong Yan tugged at the button on his neckline that was not fastened gently, and rubbed it with his fingertips, "You are very good, very good."
"Huh?" Zhuo Xiangming leaned in front of him, "Is that so good?"
Tong Yan saw the box of cigarettes beside the bed from the corner of his eye, and asked casually, "Do you smoke?"
Zhuo Xiangming looked back and said, "Take a little."
Tong Yan knew why he didn't smoke in front of her, and felt even sweeter in her heart. He deliberately said: "What does the smoke taste like? I want to try it too."
But Zhuo Xiangming didn't turn pale like ordinary guardians, he just said: "If you still want to try after you are fully recovered, you can."
However, he added another sentence, which seemed less free and easy: "You can only try, no smoking."
Tong Yan stared at him for a while, felt that he was handsome, and felt that he was not only handsome, but also perfect, good everywhere, so she couldn't help lowering his head, and kissed him on the mouth: "I was thinking, why Didn't I meet you sooner? It would be great if we knew each other before."
Tong Yan wanted to continue saying that if he had known each other a long time ago, he wouldn't have been alone for so many years. But the words were too hypocritical, and he couldn't say them out.
This was the second time that Tong Yan felt that what Zhuo Xiangming said was wrong.
Zhuo Xiangming once said that loneliness cannot be avoided by finding a partner, but Tong Yan thinks it can.
A little loneliness can make people calm and have time to see themselves clearly, but too much loneliness is very bad. It swallows love and all positive emotions. Its mouth is wide open and immersed in loneliness. It is a very bad thing.
Since he had Zhuo Xiangming, the loneliness that he didn't notice before has gone away from him.
Zhuo Xiangming watched the children's feast for a while, and Tong Yan thought he was going to say something, but he didn't expect him to touch Tong Yan ambiguously at last, and said: "It's worse than puppy love, to you at sixteen years old Can I do it?"
The atmosphere was completely ruined, and Tong Yan felt that he was very bad again, so he pushed him away and said, "Eat, eat."