This assumption made Zhuo Xiangming's breathing stop for a moment, and it wasn't until Tong Yan frowned that he realized that he had used too much force to grab Tong Yan's arm.
"I'm sorry." He let go of his hand, and instead hugged Tong Yan's waist loosely.
Tong Yan asked: "I'm sorry for what?"
Zhuo Xiangming said: "Everything."
Saying this is equivalent to saying nothing, Tong Yan asked: "Do you love me?"
Zhuo Xiangming immediately said: "Love! I love you."
Tong Yan asked again: "Then do you believe that I love you?"
Zhuo Xiangming said: "I believe it."
Tong Yan said wearily: "Then what's the problem between us?"
Zhuo Xiangming looked as if he had nothing to say, his lips moved, but he didn't say anything in the end.
Tong Yan's tone and expression made him feel unprecedented self-blame. He wanted to give Tong Yan fresh and warm love, but the effective period of love was too short. He wanted Tong Yan to be happy and free, but he did It's always too hard to get up.
"Can you tell me what you think?" Tong Yan changed the question, "What did you think when you were talking to the teacher?"
Zhuo Xiangming frowned, silent and silent.
The two looked at each other for a long time, and the expression on Tong Yan's face gradually changed to a coldness he had never seen before, which was a level higher than indifference.
Then Zhuo Xiangming's cell phone rang, the silence was interrupted, Tong Yan pushed his hand away, wanted to turn around and get off the bed, and said, "Forget it."
Zhuo Xiangming was only stunned for a moment, but luckily he reacted quickly this time, got out of bed first, knelt down beside the bed in a embarrassed kneeling position, and hugged Tong Yan's legs who were about to leave after putting on slippers.
Tong Yan was anxious, struggled hard, and pushed his shoulders with his hands, but there was a huge difference in strength between the two, Zhuo Xiangming sincerely refused to let him go, and it was difficult for him to even move.
Tong Yan shouted angrily, "Let me go!"
Zhuo Xiangming said in a low voice, "I can't let it go."
"What do you want?" Tong Yan's legs were tightly hugged by him, and he could only push his shoulders, "Zhuo Xiangming, let go!"
Zhuo Xiangming didn't speak for a long time, and just as Tong Yan appeared a little tired, he freed his hand to hold Tong Yan's hand: "Baby, I know I was wrong."
"You don't know!" Tong Yan was so angry that he started to cry, "Don't call me that, let me go, I want to go home!"
Zhuo Xiangming pressed his hand hard to his face, still in that low and stubborn tone: "This is your home, where are you going?"
Tong Yan was about to be pissed off by his scoundrel, he didn't know how there were so many frustrations of struggling and the grievance of being completely suppressed by his strength, Tong Yan started to shed tears after sucking his nose, couldn't stop, a string of grievances Flowed out, wet the whole face.
Seeing this, Zhuo Xiangming immediately got up in a panic and hugged him. Tong Yan's legs were free, and kicked on his thigh and lower abdomen while struggling. Zhuo Xiangming seemed to be unable to feel it, and was stronger than Tong Yan Her body is like a cage tailor-made for Tong Yan, holding her in her arms, no matter how Tong Yan struggles, she just bows her head and kisses Tong Yan's tears, coaxing him: "Baby don't cry, don't cry."
The two pushed and shoved for a while without any suspense, and Tong Yan suddenly cried and said, "Are you still human? Why is it so hard?"
Tong Yan's pheromones floated all over the room. Sitting in his arms, he twisted his waist and moved his butt. He loved Tong Yan so much that he even loved questioning and crying. His face changed again and again, and finally he said dryly, "I'm sorry."
"Don't be so hard!" Tong Yan was still crying.
The child was wronged to death, but Zhuo Xiangming couldn't think of a way. The more he looked at Tong Yan, the harder he became, and he couldn't get over it when he was in his arms.
Tong Yan really couldn't exhaust him, so he slowly stopped moving, ignoring the thing on his buttocks, curled up limply in Zhuo Xiangming's arms, and just sobbed and cried.
Zhuo Xiangming wiped his tears with the palm of his hand for a while, and found that his eyes were getting more and more red, so he leaned over and pulled off the bathrobe beside the bed, and wiped it gently with a piece of hem, and then said unbearably: "You You can scold me and beat me, please, don't cry, Tongtong."
Tong Yan himself felt ashamed, but his sadness had just opened a floodgate, and crying could not be stopped just by saying it.
With a cry of a child in his arms, Zhuo Xiangming looked like he had been gouged out a few pieces of flesh, or the way of gouging out the most painful places all the time, let him do anything at this time, let alone just frank.
"I've thought about this before, about you taking the university entrance exam, but I only found out when I went to talk last week that I had already filled out the application intention, and it was confirmed by both the first and second year of high school." Zhuo Xiangming cried with his chin next to Tong Yan He touched his sweaty forehead, and hugged him tightly, "The teacher told me about your grades, it's very good, and other procedures have gone through, and the recommendation letter is not a problem... She has great confidence in you."
Tong Yan hiccupped: "I'll ask you what you think."
Zhuo Xiangming didn't dare to be silent anymore, Tong Yan could feel his tension, and he said as if he was going all out: "I don't want to."
"You are mine, so you should eat at the same table with me and sleep in the same bed at night. I don't want to!" Zhuo Xiangming said in a painful voice, "You are mine."
Tong Yan cried and said: "Your reluctance is that you didn't ask me to sign directly, and you came back all day in a daze, don't you think you are noble? Why are you so annoying... woo... You are despicable, deliberately Make yourself pitiful and look generous...how can you be so mean?"
Tong Yan's tears came too quickly, and he was too emotional when he pushed and pushed Zhuo Xiangming just now, so his voice is a little hoarse now.
Zhuo Xiangming's heart felt as if someone was sharpening it with sandpaper, and the pain was severe, "Be obedient, okay? Don't cry, I'll tell you everything from now on, okay? I really know I was wrong, Tongtong ,do not Cry."
But Tong Yan seemed to want him to be hurt just this time, he was so sad that he was about to hold back his breath, his originally fair face was flushed, tears were hanging on his pointed chin, dripping down one by one.
Zhuo Xiangming also suffered the pain willingly. There are some root causes that need to be treated with real pain, but he is the last thing to do in this way, the pain is the same with Tong Yan.
"It's fine, just ask me. I didn't choose that school myself. I didn't even think about what school I would go to. Tong Yang said it was good, so I filled it in... you can just ask. ?” Tong Yan was exhausted, his chin rested on Zhuo Xiangming’s shoulder, tears fell down again, he gasped and said, “Why didn’t you ask me? Do you know how sad I was when I saw that letter of intent?”
It was originally a small matter, even if Tong Yan really wanted to go to that foreign school, the transportation was so convenient, even if Zhuo Xiangming was too busy to spare time, he could still come back on weekends, there was no such thing as a day or two I can't see the above situation for a month.
What makes Tong Yan sad is that Zhuo Xiangming never seems to have the habit of expressing his needs, he is always silent and giving, making Tong Yan think that he can stop this giving at any time, and then leave.
For a moment, Tong Yan thought of the possibility: Maybe Zhuo Xiangming didn't love him that much. Zhuo Xiangming can give up a lot of emotional things, but Tong Yan is not in a special area.
This might be enough to make Tong Yan collapse.
"I'm afraid I'll tie you up." Zhuo Xiangming said with difficulty, "Do you know how young you really are? Life hasn't even started yet, and the world has never seen it before. I'm afraid I'll tie you up."
After a while, Tong Yan whispered: "Well... you are older than me, your life has begun, and you have seen the world. If you were asked to choose those experiences and me, how would you choose?"
Hearing these words, Zhuo Xiangming's head, which was already sober enough, seemed to have received another punch.
He rubbed Tong Yan into his arms hard, and couldn't get any closer, because he only wanted to use love to make Tong Yan happy, not hurt Tong Yan.
"No need to choose, I only want you." He heard himself say.
He only wants Tong Yan, he doesn't want to pretend to be noble anymore, he is not a noble person at all. In love, he is not only despicable, but also a complete pervert. He only wanted Tong Yan, and Tong Yan could only be his.
Tong Yan was sitting on Zhuo Xiangming's lap facing each other with his legs apart. He slowly stopped crying, his eyes and face were hot. He knew how embarrassed he looked, so he didn't want Zhuo Xiangming to see him. He continued to hug him like that, his chin poked on Zhuo Xiangming's shoulder, and his sweat and tears wet side face pressed against his ear and temple hair.
Zhuo Xiangming's words became more and more unseemly, Tong Yan wanted him to be honest, but the honesty of an adult seemed not something he could easily digest.
"Where's your cell phone?" Tong Yan interrupted sullenly, "Didn't it ring just now?"
It seemed that the children's banquet was about to leave, Zhuo Xiangming couldn't care less about his mobile phone, the two entangled for a while, but they didn't hear the ringing again.
He hugged Tong Yan with one arm, and groped under the quilt with the other hand. When he found it, he unlocked it and saw that it was Tong Liqin's phone call. It should have been connected by accident when he was grabbing Tong Yan. It showed: The call lasted two minutes Forty-five seconds.
He didn't know how much he had listened to, but Tong Yan cried and said that he was too hard to be human, and he must have listened.
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Xiao O's diary in the blooming season: The first sentence when I wake up every day, Miss Zhuo, don't be autistic.