Ji Youyan's thoughtfulness made Jingxiu feel anxious, she straightened her waist, looked at Ji Youyan and said softly, "I don't want to say, then do you want to ask?"
Ji Youyan's eyes flickered, he rubbed his forehead against Jingxiu's forehead, and said honestly, "I want to."
Jingxiu kissed the tip of her nose and smiled faintly, with a hint of understanding.
Ji Youyan was afraid of her misunderstanding, and said sincerely: "Axiu, it's a lie to say that you don't care at all, but what I care about is that I once missed you. And I want to know, just because I want everything about you. Know."
Jingxiu let out an "um", bit his lip, and said concisely, "Song Wenyan and I are married, and he has a man he likes."
Ji Youyan opened her lips slightly, and even forgot to blink, it was an obvious mistake. Many chaotic thoughts flashed through her mind, first shock, then joy, and finally nervousness and sadness.
"Why?" She regained her voice.
Marriage is not a child's play. Accepting a physical marriage means locking yourself in a closet and giving up the real happy married life you may have. This was not the life she wanted her to live after she gave up Jingxiu.
Jingxiu lowered his eyelashes and replied inaudibly, "Because it's not like you, what's the difference with anyone else?"
Like a heavy hammer, it slammed into Ji Youyan's heart, causing Ji Youyan's throat to ache instantly. "Axiu..."
Jingxiu noticed something, put his arms around her neck, stroked the back of her neck, and used his eyes to reassure her, "It's not your fault, it's my own fault. I've only been irresponsible for my own persistence once in my life, But this time, I will regret it for the rest of my life."
"My grandfather and Song Wenyan's grandfather had a very good personal relationship. I met him a few times when we were very young. Later, he came to Europe with his parents to open up the market. I had been classmates with him for a few years, and slowly we became A good friend. He has always liked men, because his parents have a bad relationship, his father can't control him, and his mother turns a blind eye, so this matter has not been put on the table. Until almost September this year In October, his grandfather's health had problems, and the family struggled for production. The matter was brought up to his grandfather. His grandfather was a conservative man. He could accept Song Wenyan and play on the scene, but he couldn't accept that he really wanted not to marry for life. Stay with the man for the rest of your life. He gave Song Wenyan an ultimatum, either to get married and inherit the family business, or to leave the house and hand over the family business to his father's illegitimate son."
"His mother couldn't accept that her husband was taken away, and the things that belonged to her son had to be taken away. She cried and made trouble. Song Wenyan had no choice but to come to the studio to visit me. It was the first time she came to me to negotiate with him. Formal marriage is both help and cooperation. Because I was one of the suitable candidates for a business marriage that his grandfather identified for him. At the time, I thought it was ridiculous to treat marriage as such a deceiving lie and rejected him. "
At that time, she persuaded Song Wenyan that you can't have both. Song Wenyan asked her desolately, "Why everyone can have both, and people like us shouldn't have both."
Jingxiu opened his mouth, remembering the anguish that they had never been able to openly and honestly when they were dating Ji Youyan, and couldn't answer high-sounding words.
"In the next year or so, Song Wenyan chose love and never wanted to get married. His grandfather's health was getting worse, and he had no patience to wait any longer. He gave up on him, and brought his father's illegitimate son into the company to start cultivation. , and fought with him on the same stage. Song Wenyan's mother couldn't sit still, and she was forced to die, and was admitted to the hospital. When I visited his mother on behalf of my family, I ran into the breakup conversation between him and his boyfriend in the aisle. "
"They looked embarrassed, just like us at that time."
Ji Youyan had mixed feelings in her heart, and asked her slowly, "You can't bear it, so you decided to help him, right?"
Jingxiu shook his head, nodded again, and said with distant eyes, "That was not the moment when I made up my mind. After I went in to visit his mother, I sat with him in the corridor for a long time. He kept his boyfriend on his lap. Came to give his mother the thermal insulation bucket thrown out by his mother. When I got up to leave, he suddenly asked me, 'Can you really help me?'. Before I could answer, I saw him turn sideways. Look at me, there are drops of water dripping from the edge of the thermal bucket I'm holding. That's the first time I see him cry."
"I was silent and didn't know how to answer, he turned to me and asked me, 'Will Ji come back?'."
This sentence is not only stuck in Jingxiu's heart, but also in Ji Youyan's heart at this moment. Ji Youyan lowered her head and kissed Jingxiu's arm around her neck, her chest tight and uncomfortable.
Jingxiu stared at Ji Youyan, her expression soft with a hint of sadness, "I understood what he meant. I didn't answer that he would, and I didn't answer that he wouldn't, so I got up and left. After I went back, I was in the music room. I was in a daze beside the piano, and seemed to think a lot, but also seemed to think nothing. It was getting dark, I opened the memo on my mobile phone, and it was the 1365th day."
"I admit, you won't be coming back."
Ji Yuyan's tears suddenly fell on Jingxiu's arm with the kiss. As soon as she imagined how desolate Jingxiu was in the dark, she was in pain. "I kept you waiting."
Jingxiu reached out and stroked Ji Youyan's hair softly, denying, "You didn't let me wait, I couldn't get out by myself."
"I texted and asked Song Wenyan, 'Will he come back?', Song Wenyan was stunned for two seconds and replied, 'He will wait for me to go back.'" 'He' refers to Song Wenyan's boyfriend. "I think, you won't come back. Sooner or later, you will enter the palace of marriage with another person, so what is the difference between who I marry and what's the point of clinging to this false name? It's better to be a pitiful pair. people."
"Yanyan, am I being stupid?" Jingxiu laughed at himself, with a hint of water in his eyes. She thought that Yanyan didn't care about her for a long time, but she didn't expect that this decision would become a reminder to take Ji Yuyan's life. The pain is unbearable, and there is no regret.
Everyone advised her to be an accident, to let her go when they thought she was going crazy. But she still blamed herself, unable to forgive herself for indirectly killing Ji Youyan, and even angered Song Wenyan.
Since her rebirth, she has never been able to make friends with Song Wenyan like before. As soon as she saw him, she would think of her own pain in the last life. She was more afraid of repeating the same mistakes than anyone else.
Ji Youyan sniffed, her eyes were still red, she calmed down and said, "You are stupid."
Jingxiu frowned in dissatisfaction.
Ji Youyan reached out and wiped the moisture under her eyelashes lightly, scratched the bridge of her nose, and said with pity: "There are thousands of people in this world who are better than me, but you are so stupid that you hang on my crooked tree. on the neck tree."
When Jingxiu heard her use the term "crooked neck tree" to herself, it was a little novel and a little funny. She gave a breathy laugh and pretended to be helpless: "It may be that your tree is too lush, blocking all my sight."
Ji Youyan followed her with slightly curved lips, "Then I will continue to keep it." She touched Jingxiu's eyes with her fingertips, and looked at Jingxiu's eyes with an unknowingly seductive expression. Jingxiu's throat moved involuntarily, and his eyelashes trembled slightly.
"Here..." Ji Youyan's fingertips, like feathers, ran down Jingxiu's cheeks, itchy, swept across Jingxiu's slender neck, and tapped on Jingxiu's heart, "here...let me keep blocking it, and then Don't see anyone else."
Jingxiu restrained the throbbing in his heart and said to Qiao, "It depends on your performance."
Ji Youyan's eyes flashed with a smile, and he dropped a kiss on Jingxiu's heart. Then, as if he couldn't help himself, and like adoration, he kissed Jingxiu's whole body gently and gently until it reached Jingxiu's ankle.
All the senses in Jingxiu's body seemed to be stirred up by her, and she gasped for breath. Seeing that Ji Youyan was still going down, she shrank her calf to avoid it, and said in a low voice, "Enough."
Ji Youyan quickly grabbed her slender ankle and gently rubbed her fingertips, causing Jingxiu to shudder for a while: "Not enough."
She lowered her head and wanted to kiss Jingxiu's fair instep in a reverent gesture, but Jingxiu reached out and clasped her chin, and reiterated softly but firmly: "Enough is enough."
Ji Youyan understood her insistence, her eyes were misty, and she kissed her from the palm of her hand.
She held the back of Jingxiu's head and pressed Jingxiu to lie down while kissing her. Jingxiu thought she was going to do something, but Ji Youyan just put her arms around her waist, causing her to turn over and lie down on her own. body.
Jingxiu was afraid of hurting her, so he stood up and looked at her puzzled. Ji Youyan was also looking at her, his eyes were as tender as water and bright as stars.
"Axiu, in this world, without Jingxiu, there would be no Ji Youyan."
Jingxiu's heart trembled, and she wanted to ask her what she meant, but she heard Ji Youyan coaxing her and begging her, softly saying, "So, Jingxiu wants to live a hundred years."
Jingxiu was stunned, his heart softened again and again, he let go of the strength in his hands, and buried his face in Ji Youyan's neck. "Yes." She promised her.
Ji Youyan felt a lot more at ease, hugging her whole world contentedly.
"Axiu, I will make you worth it." She promised in her heart.
I was so tired last night, and when I woke up, my mood swings were too high, Jingxiu was overstretched, lying on Ji Youyan's body and chatting with her word by word, and fell asleep unconsciously.
The house was quiet, the rain outside the window stopped slowly and completely, the sun poked its head out from behind the cloudy clouds, and the warm light passed through the glass and sprinkled on the two people who were embracing each other.
Jingxiu frowned slightly in his sleep.
Ji Youyan was afraid of waking Jingxiu, so he couldn't get up to open the curtain, so he grabbed the pillow beside him with his free hand, and stretched out his arm to block the light that fell on Jingxiu's cheeks.
With a heavy heart, she closed her eyes and slowly sketched the face of Master Daokong in her mind.