Ji Youyan and Jingxiu arrived in Lingzhou in the early morning and returned to the hotel. Ji Youyan was drowsy and fell asleep on the bed. But within a few hours, before dawn, she struggled to wake up.
Ji Yuyan had another nightmare.
She dreamed of a lot of people, her parents, her former manager, Wang Junchan, Jingxiu's mother, and many people who couldn't see their faces with aid signs... Seeing herself standing on a high snow-capped mountain, in an instant, the snow-capped mountain turned into an abyss, and she fell into the endless darkness in fear.
The north wind was blowing loudly outside the window, and through the drawn curtains, one could vaguely see the darkness between the heavens and the earth.
It was the depression she was familiar with. Ji Youyan couldn't tell whether it was in the past life or this life for a while.
She wiped the cold sweat from her forehead, touched the phone beside her pillow, checked the time, and felt a little more at ease. She propped herself up, opened the calendar on her phone, and checked the time again.
The calendar has reminders of important days she made earlier.
Ji Yuyan opened the drawer, and there was a well-packaged box in the drawer. That's right, she's still alive in rebirth.
A gentle smile appeared on the corners of her lips, she breathed a sigh of relief, and got out of bed to wash.
After washing up, Ji Youyan changed his clothes and went out, stepping on the silence of the whole floor, ready to go to the practice room on the fourth floor and practice the guitar in his lounge for a while.
To her surprise, she opened the door of her lounge, and when she was about to walk in, she vaguely heard voices in the last few exercise rooms in the corridor.
Ji Youyan applauded in her heart, guessing that there may be diligent students who got up early for morning classes.
She turned around and followed the source of the sound. Sure enough, she was at the door of the exercise room in the penultimate room. Through the window on the door, she saw two girls who were practicing breathing. One of them is relatively familiar, the student she brought - A-level Gu Zinan, and the other was brought by Liang Zhen, C-class Zhong Jiajia.
Ji Youyan watched for a few seconds, and was about to knock on the door to enter, encouraging and complimenting them, when the situation inside suddenly changed.
Zhong Jiajia leaned into Gu Zinan's ear and didn't know what to say. Gu Zinan suddenly smiled and pressed his forehead against Zhong Jiajia's forehead, and then raised Zhong Jiajia's chin...
The two kissed passionately.
Ji Youyan's raised hand froze, swallowing in astonishment.
It was clearly not her who did the bad things, but she squatted down in a panic. She squatted and tiptoed. She didn't even dare to sit in the elevator, and walked up the stairs back to her room.
As she walked, she recalled the scene she had just seen. It was a little funny when she calmed down. What was she running? She was smashed. It shouldn't be her who was embarrassed. These two children are also daring.
But Ji Youyan complained, and gradually some nostalgia and envy arose.
For these daring things, she and Jingxiu, at their age, were not without impulsiveness when participating in the competition.
Are you getting old, or are you getting old
Guitar can't be practiced. Ji Youyan returned to the living room, connected the headphones, and sat on the sofa to repeat the single, familiar with the melody. Inadvertently, her attention was drawn away by the cactus on the coffee table.
I don't know when, the cactus changed to a flower pot, and the pot was covered with a breathable glass cover. Is this the pot that pierced her hand last time
Ji Youyan was wondering when the phone vibrated, and it was Wei Yizhen who sent her a text message: "Call me back when you wake up."
She paused the song, called Wei Yizhen back, and said softly, "Sister Wei, it's so early."
Wei Yizhen complained in a sleepy tone: "It's early, I haven't slept well this week."
"I read it early in the morning, and I was really guessed by you. Jiang Chun really didn't press on you and Jingxiu's news yesterday. It seems that Jingxiu is willing to help you. Now we just need to continue friendly interaction. , Let the marketing account warm up from time to time, and occasionally when it becomes popular, the heat can be grasped just right."
"Fans believe that you are friendship, passers-by suspect that you are love, we will not respond, just leave room for them to imagine and discuss."
"Yeah." Ji Youyan held the potted cactus plant on his knees, and agreed while sizing.
"When you win Gu Lingfeng's movie, the promotion starts, and you suspect that you are really smart passers-by, and part of it will turn into thinking that your scandals during this period are all preheating for the promotion of the movie. After the movie is over, you and Jingxiu will reduce their interaction, and the scandal between you can completely turn into a publicity scandal, and it will be self-defeating." Wei Yizhen has already thought of a whole set of publicity plans.
Ji Youyan's thoughts were not the same as hers, so he just perfunctory Wei Yizhen said: "Let's talk about it later."
"Sister Wei, then you can help me keep an eye on the news from Gu Lingfeng now. When he releases the news of the casting, Sister Wei, you can find a way to help me lobby for an audition opportunity."
Wei Yizhen said calmly, "I see." After a while, she asked tentatively, "Actually, Yuyan. Since Jingxiu is willing to help you, if she is willing to recommend you in front of Gu Lingfeng, this matter is not Are you more confident?"
It's this one that's right. Ji Youyan put her palm on the glass cover of the cactus, the glass cover was flat, and the thorns of the cactus could no longer pierce her hand.
With this dedication, she can't think of anyone other than Jingxiu.
Ji Youyan's eyes softened, and he returned to Wei Yizhen and said, "Whether Jingxiu is willing or not, and whether we should or not are two different things. Originally, it was already very embarrassing for us to deliberately tie her up to hype her up. How can you rely on her not to care about it, and you have to move forward with every inch?"
If she didn't want to take advantage of the scandal with Jingxiu and have a little more open and friendly interaction with Jingxiu, she wouldn't be able to make such a cheeky use of Jingxiu. Letting her take the initiative to ask Jingxiu to recommend her for help, then she is really brazen, and she responded to the "vampire" that Jingxiu fans scolded her in the midnight dream.
Thinking of the dream in the morning, Ji Yuyan's mood was a little depressed. But she hugged the cactus tightly in her arms and comforted herself. It's all over, and those are not important anymore.
What we are going to do today is the rehearsal work before the third phase of the recording. It went well all morning, but at noon, something unexpected happened.
Zhang Wei also retired.
She became Sun Ting's scapegoat and publicly issued an apology to Jingxiu, admitting that she did irrational things because Jingxiu's dedication and strictness made her unreasonable. She felt deeply guilty for the loss of reputation caused by Jingxiu, and felt that she had no face to face Jingxiu and the audience again, so she voluntarily quit the competition, and since then, quit the entertainment industry.
This was what Jingxiu had expected. Sun Ting was not stupid, he knew that he would always explain to her publicly. However, Zhang Wei also withdrew from the competition, and there was a troublesome place.
After the first episode of the show was broadcast, Ruan Ningwei's acting skills really aroused heated discussion among the audience, but more audiences were not as harsh as Jingxiu, and thought that she could not hide her flaws. Therefore, after the first round of voting closed, Ruan Ningwei has been successfully promoted to A-level.
In the spirit of not dragging down innocent players like Lu Min and eliminating harm for the people, Ruan Ningwei chose Zhang Wei as her partner. Now Zhang Wei has also retired, and Ruan Ningwei has lost her co-star.
Time is running out, and it is too late to recall the eliminated players to make up a place; no one wants to let other players give up their hard-edited and rehearsed repertoires and rehearse with Ruan Ningwei. What's more, Ruan Ningwei's scum acting skills in the second phase are really scary.
The director team discussed for a noon, and contacted the flight instructor Chi Dongqing, and finally decided to let Ruan Ningwei play a one-man show. Chen Desheng held a small meeting of mentors and asked Jingxiu and Ji Youyan for their opinions.
Chen Desheng said: "There is no other way now. I discussed it with the screenwriter and planner, and decided to let Ruan Ningwei continue to perform her and Zhang Weiye's plays alone, but it may require the assistance of Mr. Jing or Mr. Ji."
In a situation where everyone has a rivalry, it is rather unfair to let a contestant perform a one-man show that is not a one-man show.
After all, it's too easy to get the audience out of the way.
So to make up for it, Chen Desheng suggested: "Let the flight instructor Mr. Chi Dongqing, who arrived in the evening, be the voice actor and act in friendship with his voice. Do you think it's okay?"
In this way, to a certain extent, it made up for the unfairness of letting Ruan Ningwei perform alone, and innovated the form of the show, adding a new highlight to the show.
For other actors, this must be an opportunity where opportunities and challenges coexist. The good thing is that the attention is because Chi Dongqing is naturally higher than other players. The bad thing is that if the performance is not good, it will be magnified and blamed by more people.
But this is definitely an extremely favorable form for Ruan Ningwei, who has no way to play against people at all.
Jingxiu knew about Ruan Ningwei's situation, she frowned, and was considering whether to communicate with Chen Desheng in this way, whether it would cause unfairness to other players.
Ji Youyan said one step ahead of her: "I think this is the best solution for now."
No one is favoritism, but the opportunity fell on Ruan Ningwei, and Ruan Ningwei just happened to grasp it. Ji Yuyan felt that this could not be regarded as unfair.
Chen Desheng asked Jingxiu, "Mr. Jing, what do you think?"
Jingxiu turned to look at Ji Youyan and saw the vague expectation in her eyes.
Jingxiu pursed his lips and compromised, "I have no opinion."
Both of them said it was ok, Liang Zhen and Su Lihang naturally had nothing to disagree with, and both agreed.
So Chen Desheng asked Ji Youyan if it was convenient for Chi Dongqing, who was not there, to rehearse with Ruan Ningwei in the afternoon
Ji Yuyan naturally took over.
Ruan Ningwei's play this time is to play a young girl suffering from uremia, and Zhang Wei was originally playing her mother.
Because of the spike in creatinine, the girl had to be readmitted to the hospital and had to undergo dialysis three times a week. Years of seeking medical treatment have already brought down the family that should have been happy and ordinary.
At noon, my mother came back from lunch and checked the list of expenses yesterday that the nurse had just sent. The girl rubbed her fingers together, bit her lip, and looked at her mother nervously.
This is what a mother does every day. Every day, my mother would carefully settle the cost of the day, for fear of being miscalculated by one cent or one cent.
The atmosphere in the ward was depressing.
Finally, the mother lowered her voice and said worriedly, "Why was it more than 300 yuan more than the day before yesterday?"
The girl squeezed out a little smile and explained, "Maybe it was because you drank two more bottles of water yesterday than the day before yesterday?"
The mother handed the meal to the girl and said in a bad tone, "Let's eat, I'll ask later."
The girl took the meal and tried to pick out the vegetables in the meal. The mother scolded her impatiently: "What are you picking? Whoever eats the vegetables only eats the leaves."
"But it's so bitter." The girl smiled and replied cautiously. She obediently picked up all the vegetables.
"You are too picky eaters. I used to spoil you too much, otherwise you wouldn't be like this now." The mother began to accuse her again.
From being full of hope at the beginning to being almost desperate now, my mother's mentality is also on the verge of collapse. When I was with the bed recently, my face was always calm, and the girl had been silently enduring her low air pressure.
"What does this have to do with picky eating?" The girl tried to soothe her mother's sudden anger.
"It doesn't matter why, it's just that you don't eat or don't eat, that's why your physical fitness is so poor, and your condition develops to what it is now. I tell you not to be picky eaters, let you go to bed early, and let you..." I don't know How did she hit her mother's point, and the emotions she had been accumulating all of a sudden burst out.
The girl clenched her fists, trying to suppress. But in the end, under the angry rant from her mother, the emotions she had been suppressing finally couldn't bear it anymore.
She clenched her chopsticks tightly, shook her voice, and choked: "Enough, don't say it. Don't you just dislike me for dragging you down?"
This sentence kept lingering in her heart every time she watched her mother frowning and taking inventory of the expenses list.
Finally asked.
She looked at her mother stubbornly, trying to be a little more imposing, but her tears fell uncontrollably.
The mother looked at her in disbelief, the masseter muscles in both cheeks bulged, and the circles of her eyes suddenly turned red. After a few seconds, she turned her face away, didn't look at the girl, and said in a hoarse voice, "I won't say anything, you can eat."
Ruan Ningwei caught a glimpse of the tears falling from her mother's cheeks and opened her mouth to say sorry. But she also had grievances and unwillingness to bear it in her heart.
In the end, she just lowered her head and swallowed salty tears as she gulps down the rice.
No one spoke any more.
After lunch, the girl felt so bad that she lay down to sleep in the afternoon. In a daze, she woke up again in pain. She wanted to ask her mother to pour her a glass of water, opened her eyes, and saw her mother hiding on the balcony on the phone.
In just a few words, she could hear that her mother was calling to borrow money again. She listened to her mother's low-pitched tone, looked at the humble and embarrassed expression on her mother's face, and watched the north wind blow her mother's hair, revealing the frosty white of her temples.
She heard her mother begging each other time and time again: "I know I know, I really have no choice, can you help me..." She saw the blue veins on the back of her thin hand holding on to the railing gradually burst out.
Tears welled up in his eyes.
Her mother is a strong and decent person.
Ruan Ningwei bit her lip, her chin moved violently, and did not dare to cry. But the sound of sniffing was too loud, so she opened her mouth again, breathing in and out, causing the quilt to shake as she cried.
She finally couldn't lie down, she lifted the quilt, got out of bed and trotted behind her mother, stretched out her arms to hug her, and choked up, "I'm dying, we're dying, Mom, I'm dying."
She should have said it long ago, she clearly knew this terrible life, and if it continued, it would only be lingering on.
The mother was hugged by her in a daze, her throat moved, she turned around, and looked at her tearful daughter, tears welling up in her eyes.
She hugged her daughter back and whispered in her ear one after another: "Government, if we want to cure, we must cure, even if we smash pots and sell iron. We will wear beautiful clothes in the future, and we will take our parents to go on a tour. What about the world..."
In the practice room of the three, after Ruan Ningwei's performance, Jingxiu's throat became sore, and Ji Youyan's lines for the role of her mother were already full of tears.
After two minutes of silence, everyone came out. The two people with wet tears looked at each other, and then looked at Jingxiu, who was expressionless, a little embarrassed.
Ji Youyan wiped his tears with a tissue, and commented in a rustling voice: "This state is very good, except for the plot of the opponent's play, if the performance is performed with voice, the script may need to be enhanced. Others, I have nothing to comment on. Yes. Teacher Jing, how about you?"
She said this, firstly because Ruan Ningwei's performance is really remarkable, and secondly, as a person who has entered the show, it is difficult for her to make an objective and comprehensive comment.
Jingxiu stood up, took a pack of tissues from her handbag, walked over to Ruan Ningwei and handed it to Ruan Ningwei.
Ruan Ningwei smiled and said, "Thank you, Teacher Jing."
Jingxiu said in a calm tone, "Ning Wei, I don't have anything to comment on this scene. You really did a remarkable job, and you handled the emotions and details very well."
"You're acting in a one-man show, I'm afraid that among the students, few people dare to say that they can act better than you."
Ji Youyan's heart was hanging, and she always felt that there was something in Jingxiu's words.
Sure enough, Jingxiu paced back to his seat. She tapped the table twice with a pen and pointed at the key points: "But I still say that, this time it was your luck, and you have the opportunity to act without facing people. What about next time? This stage, or the job in the future, how many times will there be such opportunities? If your problem is not solved, it will be useless if you can perform as movingly as you can."
Ruan Ningwei's eyes were still red, and when she heard Jingxiu's words, the smile on her lips disappeared in an instant.
Ji Youyan noticed Ruan Ningwei's fragility, and hurriedly said, "It's okay, let's give Ning Wei some time. Next time, Ning Wei will definitely improve next time, okay?"
"You can have the next chance, but others may not have it." Jingxiu frowned, and said to the camera on the side: "Mr. Wang, can you not shoot this part for now?"
The cameramen glanced at each other a few times, not daring to disobey Jingxiu's intentions, they all retreated out of respect.
Jingxiu turned his head and said hard to Ruan Ningwei: "Ning Wei, I know you are different from others. Even if your acting skills are not good, as long as Tao Xingruo is willing to support you, you will definitely have a scene to shoot. However, those What about those actors who lost their reputation in making bad movies with you?"
"You can't play doubles, you can play singles, and Teacher Ji will give you advice, so maybe you can break through to the next promotion. What about those players who play with you? Can they only be your victims?"
"Can Lu Min have your luck and advance to the next round?" Jingxiu asked Ruan Ningwei's eyes.
She knew that Ruan Ningwei was kind and that implicated others would make her feel guilty, so she deliberately provoked her and poked her pain.
Sure enough, Ruan Ningwei's delicate face lost all color, her eyelashes fluttered quickly, trying to hide her vulnerability.
She didn't have the courage to look at Jingxiu again, she bent down, bowed deeply, and apologized, "I'm sorry..." Like a piece of bamboo that was abruptly broken.
Jingxiu choked his throat.
Ji Youyan's heart thumped, and she intuited that Jingxiu's words were too heavy.
She quickly stood up to help Ruan Ningwei and comforted her: "Ning Wei, don't say sorry, let alone tell us. Teacher Jing will say this, not to blame you for anything. She is just cherishing talents, I hope you can face your own. The crux, there will be better development in the future.”
"But the game is cruel, and life is cruel. Each of us has limited ability, just do our best. There is nothing that is not implicated, and there is no guilt or guilt."
Ruan Ningwei didn't know if she was listening or not. She raised her head, showing a smile that was more sad than crying, and replied, "I know, I will take Teacher Jing's words into consideration."
She sniffed and evaded, "Then I'll go out first."
After finishing speaking, without waiting for Ji Youyan and Jingxiu to answer, they hurried out the door.
Ji Youyan stood there and looked at Ruan Ningwei's staggering back, with a worried look in her eyes.
Jingxiu frowned, and the fingertips holding the pen were white.
In the last life, Ruan Ningwei died by suicide. Although Ji Youyan did not see that Ruan Ningwei would do such a thing so far, she knew very well that Ruan Ningwei was a kind and delicate person. People with too delicate minds are often sensitive and fragile. She worried that Ruan Ningwei heard some words in her heart and would not be able to bear the pressure.
The air was silent for a few seconds, Ji Youyan licked his lips, and persuaded Jingxiu tactfully, "Axiu, Ning Wei's problem, otherwise we can forget it. It won't be solved in a while."
Jingxiu sank his eyes, looked directly at her and said, "If you think this way, it won't happen for a while, it will never be resolved."
"But the reason why the heart knot is a heart knot is that you know where the crux is, but you can't face it directly." Ji Youyan was a little helpless when he saw Jingxiu's stubborn appearance.
"So, since she can't solve it by herself, she needs to be pushed by external force." Jingxiu said in a low voice.
Ji Youyan didn't know if she was sympathizing with Ruan Ningwei, or she felt empathy, "But, Axiu, not everyone can bravely face their inner fragility. Some things, some words, are hard to say." Maybe he didn't dare to say it. The pain of memories, maybe the darkness that I spurn, there is always something that I can't wait to let it see the light forever.
She was a little dazed for a while, and pleadingly said, "Axiu, think about it from another position, isn't it too hard to force Ning Wei like this?"
Jingxiu's expression suddenly turned cold.
A look of sadness flashed in her eyes almost imperceptibly, and she asked Ji Youyan, "So, are you blaming me now?"
"You think I'm impersonal and understanding of others. Right?"
Ji Youyan was stunned for a moment, then recovered and denied in a hoarse voice, "I didn't mean that."
Her eyes clearly meant that. Jingxiu's eyes darkened, and he questioned, "Isn't that cowardly trapped in her own world, letting those who care about her follow her in pain, but always pretending to be invisible, isn't she too egoistic and doesn't know how to understand others? "
Ji Yuyan was speechless. She suddenly didn't know whether Jingxiu was questioning Ruan Ningwei or Ji Youyan from the past.
Jingxiu snorted lightly and laughed at herself: "Maybe you are right, I am too selfish, too demanding." She stood up, not in the mood to say more, and turned to leave.
Ji Youyan subconsciously reached out and grabbed Jingxiu's wrist, keeping her: "Axiu..."
But Jingxiu turned around and said in a very light and distant tone, "Let go."
Ji Yuyan's heart trembled.
The camera outside seemed to have heard the quarrel inside and knocked on the door, as if they were about to come in.
Ji Youyan was relieved, and Jingxiu's hand was pulled away from her palm little by little. In the end, only a piece of cold air remained.
and her empty heart.