After Jingxiu left, Ji Youyan froze in place for a while. She reflected, she was the one who made a blunder.
Whether from a work perspective, she and Jingxiu are both mentors, each with their own guiding style, or from a personal perspective, she and Jingxiu care about Ruan Ningwei, and each has their own perspective.
She has no right to demand or even blame Jingxiu.
Because Ruan Ningwei's cowardice and sensitivity made her see who she used to be, she instinctively understood and understood Ruan Ningwei. But what Jingxiu said is not wrong, blindly indulging in his own emotions will not only make himself miserable, but also make the people around him miserable.
Just like in her relationship with Jingxiu back then, if she could be more honest with Jingxiu, maybe they wouldn’t end up so bleakly; Wouldn't she end up on a dead end
Jingxiu said that she was accusing her of being impersonal, and asked herself, for a moment, she had such a thought. Jingxiu has always been so confident and brave, and she has the moonlight and wind, so everything dark and humble seems to have been isolated from her.
However, even if others can misunderstand her like this, Ji Youyan is not qualified to accuse her like this.
At the end of the competition that year, neither she nor Jingxiu entered the debut position. Jingxiu had no intention of forming a group, so according to the original plan, she signed a contract with the prestigious Guangyu. At that time, Jingxiu suggested to her that if she wanted, she could sign into Guangyu with her.
However, out of self-esteem, Ji Youyan rejected Jingxiu's proposal and accepted the olive branch extended by Dingfeng.
In order to take care of Ji Youyan's self-esteem, Jingxiu hardly interferes with her career planning and development. But many years later, when she broke up with Jingxiu, Wang Junchan warned her that today is different from the past, and when she repeatedly coerced and lured her to accept the unspoken rules of high-level managers and investors, she realized that all these years, Jingxiu had been quietly watching over her back. own. Without Jingxiu's protection, she would not have been able to get to this point cleanly under the hands of a greedy villain like Wang Junchan.
But Jingxiu never mentioned it. It's like she doesn't understand why she gave up singing but still supports her acting, and she doesn't like her hype but has been patiently enduring. Jingxiu once put herself in her shoes and understood her pride, understood her cowardice, and tolerated her gently.
She clearly knew that Jingxiu was a proud person, but not an egoistic person.
But she read her that way for a moment just now. Ji Youyan clenched her five fingers tightly, her nails sank deep into her palms, and regret overwhelmed her heart.
Lin Yue called to urge her: "Sister Ji, Teacher Su is here. Are you and Teacher Jing over yet?"
Ji Youyan bit her lip, and answered Lin Yue in a low voice, "I see, I'll go over immediately."
In the evening, Chi Dongqing arrived at the airport. Because Chi Dongqing needed to play with Ruan Ningwei at night, for convenience, Chi Dongqing did not stay in the five-star hotel where Gu Lingfeng stayed last time, but stayed in the presidential suite that was always empty on the same floor as Ji Youyan and the others.
The dinner was held at an old Lingzhou restaurant, which was only a five-minute drive away.
The rehearsal work was over, Ji Youyan was thinking about the improvement of Ruan Ningwei's script in the lounge, Lin Yue helped Ji Youyan get a cup of hot water to moisten her throat, and asked Ji Youyan: "Sister Ji, I will let Brother Li drive the car to the door and wait for you?" The work group notified that it was almost time to leave for dinner.
Ji Youyan paused and said hesitantly, "No need."
"Huh?" Lin Yue rolled her eyes, and immediately said, "Oh. I see, Sister Ji, do you want to rub against Teacher Jing's car again?"
Ji Youyan put on the pen cap, stood up and tapped Lin Yue's forehead lightly with the pen, and said with a smirk, "You talk too much." After speaking, she looked gloomy again, turned her mind and sighed, "Let Brother Li still be Get ready in the parking lot."
Axiu may not be able to let her in the car today.
She asked Lin Yue to pack up the documents, then went to the parking lot to wait, she carried her bag and went downstairs to the entrance of the hall, waiting for Jingxiu.
When she got to the door, she found that the sky was so bright that there was actually a little snow.
The first snow in Lingzhou. The howling north wind in the morning did not seem to blow in vain. Ji Youyan couldn't help but spread out her five fingers upwards, watching the snowflakes fall on her palm piece by piece, the coldness was the touch in memory.
If her mother was by her side, she should have been scolded for not being afraid of frost, and she should have suffered from frostbite. When I was young, I was in poor health, and my father disciplined me strictly. When it snows in winter, the mother is afraid that she will get sick, and the father thinks that the girl should be quiet, so she has never been allowed to build a snowman and play snowball fights downstairs like other children. Every time it snows, she can only open the window secretly, look at the children playing in the compound, and reach out to pick up a little snowflake. But every time, he would be caught by his mother.
Yanzhou, is it snowing? I haven't seen the winter in Yanzhou for many years. Ji Youyan was slightly taken aback.
The sound of the elevator opening came from behind, Ji Youyan took the snowflake in his hand and turned to look back.
As she expected, Jingxiu and Yao Xiao came down.
Ji Youyan breathed a sigh of heat into his hand, watched Jingxiu approaching step by step, and smiled softly: "Mr. Jing, are you going to eat?"
Jingxiu responded to her indifferently, "Yeah."
"Today, is it convenient to take Teacher Jing's car together?" Ji Youyan asked expectantly.
Jingxiu looked at the snow, her expression was as cold as the temperature outside, and asked her, "Did Lin Yue go to the emergency room again today?" She turned her head and stared at Ji Youyan lightly.
Ji Youyan felt guilty by her, and she couldn't speak nonsense. She cleared her throat almost imperceptibly, and replied, "No." After a while, she said anxiously, "I just thought that it was snowing, and the road was slippery, so it's not safe to drive. If it's convenient for you, Mr. Jing. , we can be together."
Jingxiu's car arrived. Jingxiu watched the driver help her open the car door, and indifferently spit out a sentence: "There is a saying in investment studies."
"Huh?" Ji Youyan was puzzled.
"Eggs don't fit in one basket."
"..." Ji Yuyan was choked.
Yao Xiao quickly reacted, "Bah, bah, bah," and said, "Mr. Jing, what are you talking about?"
Jingxiu frowned, held the car door and said to Ji You, "I'm not good at Chinese and I said the wrong thing. If Teacher Ji feels unsafe, you can consider walking over, it's very close." After speaking, she closed the car door . Yao Xiao glanced at Ji Youyan sympathetically and got into the car.
This time, the car really sped away without hesitation.
Ji Youyan was stunned in place, looking at the exhaust of the car, feeling sad and soft-hearted. Who dares to say that Jingxiu's Chinese is not good
The snow turned into water in the palm of his hand, freezing to the bone. Ji Youyan gave a wry smile, dried her hands and called Lin Yue, asking her to let the driver drive the car over.
In the car, Jingxiu was distracted by the street scene, and his profile was clearly condensed. Yao Xiao sat in the passenger seat, looked at Jingxiu in the mirror several times, and finally couldn't help but ask carefully, "Mr. Jing, what's wrong with you and Teacher Ji?"
Jingxiu came back to her senses, and gently replied to Yao Xiao: "It's nothing." She looked at Yao Xiao's concerned expression, paused, and asked Yao Xiao, "Xiao Xiao, in your eyes, what kind of person am I?"
Yao Xiao was stunned for a while, then replied subconsciously, "He's a good person."
Jingxiu's brows stretched slightly, and he laughed, "Did I get a good person card from you?" She smiled, her eyes gradually dimmed, leaning on the back of the chair, Xiao Suo said, "I was just thinking, I In her eyes, what kind of person is she?"
It is self-evident who this "she" refers to. Yao Xiao wisely remained silent and did not express his opinion.
Jingxiu didn't really ask Yao Xiao, nor did he expect Yao Xiao to give her an answer. She thought of Ji Youyan's emotions and eyes when she defended Ruan Ningwei in the afternoon, and tiredness welled up in her heart.
In Ji Youyan's eyes, what kind of person is she? Is he a person who cannot be trusted, who is high above, and who does not know the sufferings of the world, so he is not human? So, like Ruan Ningwei, she closed her heart tightly and didn't believe that she could find understanding and comfort from herself as a lover, did she
It's ridiculous. After dating for nearly six years, Ji Youyan didn't even tell her which university she graduated from and who her parents were.
Jingxiu sometimes felt that she could truly touch Ji Youyan's heart, and sometimes she felt that Ji Youyan was far away from her. Since the reunion, her emotions and reason have always been tearing her apart. Every time she begins to soften her heart, new questions will always pop up, reminding her that those unsolved knots and unrebuilt trusts still lie between her and Ji Youyan.
How many times will they be lucky enough to start over after ending like this
Jingxiu closed his eyes and rubbed his brows.
After calming down for a moment, she remembered a serious matter, took out her mobile phone, and called Tao Xingruo.
At the end of the conversation, the car just drove past the door of the restaurant. The restaurant is hidden in the quaint and elegant garden, and vehicles are not allowed to enter, so diners can only get off at the door and enter the garden on foot.
Ji Youyan didn't know which way to go, so he came first. When Jingxiu arrived, she was already standing under the signboard of the restaurant, under the garden arch.
Jingxiu opened the car door, and the howling night wind and Xuexu rushed towards him. Yao Xiao followed and got out of the car, and was about to ask the waiter who was guiding him if he had any extra umbrellas to provide.
Suddenly, the warm breath approached, shadows fell, and a dark umbrella blocked the snow and wind over Jingxiu.
Jingxiu was stunned for a while, but before he could say anything, Yao Xiao was saved and said, "Mr. Ji, you haven't entered yet? It's snowing a bit hard. I would like to ask if there are umbrellas here." , Lin Yue also held up an umbrella and covered Yao Xiao inside.
Ji Youyan stood beside Jingxiu holding the umbrella handle, and said softly, "I'm waiting for you."
Cars whizzed past sporadically on the trail, and a dazzling light suddenly flashed in the distance, reflecting the thin snow on the ground, shining brightly.
Ji Youyan instinctively narrowed her eyes, and reflexively stretched out her hand to cover Jingxiu's eyes, and replied to Yao Xiao, "I see that the snow is on the trend, so I was worried that you might not bring an umbrella, so Yueyue took more."
Between the light and the dark, Jingxiu opened his eyes and stared blankly at Ji Youyan's slender right hand blocking his face. For a moment, she felt that the surroundings seemed to be quiet, and the sound of her heartbeat and the sound of the car running over snowflakes suddenly became clear and terrifying.
The car passed by Jingxiu's slowness, Ji Youyan naturally put down the hand that was blocking Jingxiu's eyes. As if afraid of being rejected, she smiled at Jingxiu, and explained a little nervously: "Let's go? It seems like there is a long way to go in, and Xueluo will feel uncomfortable when she melts."
Jingxiu looked at her exposed outside the umbrella, the shoulders of the snowflakes fell, and went all the way down her arms, and she looked down at the soft catfish that had just blocked the high beam for her, her throat choked.
"Yeah." Jingxiu heard that he still promised her aloud.
She heard the sound of snowflakes falling.
Together with her, the voice of reason shook once again.
The author has something to say: Teacher Jing sits on the wheel of history and runs over mercilessly.
Sister Ji sat up tenaciously: I'm so desperate that I can save it! !