A calm and gentle sentence, but it seems to have the ability to destroy the dead, and easily tore Ji Yuyan's heart and lungs. She looked at the lyrics and burst into tears.
She always thought that Jingxiu was someone she didn't deserve to have.
Seeing Jingxiu standing higher and higher, she felt uneasy, feeling that Jingxiu was about to become her unreachable existence, but she forgot that when Jingxiu wanted to introduce her to her parents at the beginning, she joked to herself, "I'm good. I don't know, will your parents want to break my legs and marry their precious daughter home without anything?" Zeng said gently, you don't need anything.
I love you, that is your greatest strength.
Since when did she forget that Jingxiu loved her like this, the one who had nothing. Jingxiu never used those external names to measure her. From the beginning to the end, she was using these to measure herself, and even to measure Jingxiu's love for her. She had been in a state of shame for so long that she had forgotten that her Jingxiu was not an invulnerable queen in the eyes of outsiders, but a little girl who would cry in her arms.
Ji Youyan bit her lip, clasped the back of her hand, and tried hard to restrain her sobbing little by little.
She sniffed, opened the phone screen again, clicked into the dialogue window between her and Jingxiu, and watched the cursor flicker.
Her guilt and self-blame made her feel that she was no longer worthy to say the word "love" to Jingxiu, but she still trembled with her fingertips, typing word by word, telling Jingxiu her heart: "It's too light to say sorry. But apart from it, I don't know how to express my guilt, distress, and regret."
"Sorry, I was wrong."
She was afraid that Jingxiu would think that she was shameless and ignorant, and even despised herself. But she was still cheeky and summoned up the courage to ask Jingxiu.
"Can you give me another chance, give me a little more time, so that you can get to know me again?"
Whether it deserves it or not, should it be, this answer should be told to her by Jingxiu, not the fans, not the media, and not herself. This is a new life, and she didn't really realize it until this moment.
Ordinary like her, Jingxiu once regarded it as a treasure. What qualification does she have to belittle herself and feel sorry for herself.
She didn't know whether Jingxiu was asleep or not, but she told herself that as long as Jingxiu didn't reject her, even if Jingxiu didn't reply to her, she still had to find the courage to turn back.
Happier than she thought, Jingxiu replied to her.
It's a vague "sleep."
Ji Youyan pressed the phone to her heart and burst into laughter. Instead of the categorical "I don't want to" when she "started again", she was content.
She stretched out her five fingers, the tenderness that Jingxiu had just wiped for her appeared in front of her eyes, and her heart became warmer.
"Good night, good dream." Her subordinate replied Jingxiu softly, her eyes like water.
If Jingxiu waited silently, and she couldn't understand anymore, then she really didn't deserve to be human again.
She turned off the light, lay down, tossed and turned, half-slept and half-awake, all night in her dreams was Jingxiu. This time, in her dream, she was standing on the top of the snow-capped mountain, and when the land collapsed, Jingxiu hugged her and fell with her with a smile.
In the early morning of the second day, Ji Youyan woke up early and went to the fourth floor lounge to practice guitar again. When returning to the room, Jingxiu had already woken up and sat at the dining table with Yao Xiao for breakfast.
Seeing Ji Youyan come in, Jingxiu looked at her with the same expression as usual. The two of them tacitly understood that they had no intention of mentioning what happened last night.
Lin Yue followed the dining car into the door and was surprised when she saw Ji Youyan: "Sister Ji, didn't you sleep last night? Why do your eyes seem a little swollen?"
Ji Youyan glanced at Jingxiu, and embarrassedly perfunctory Lin Yue said, "Maybe, it was a little cold last night."
"You turned off the electric heater and opened the window, how could it not be cold." Lin Yue reluctantly went up, she looked at Ji Youyan, and worried: "You have to ask Sister Kai to put on thicker makeup today, otherwise today This episode is broadcast, sister Ji, you are afraid that you will be on the hot search."
Ji Youyan really wanted to take a big steamed bun to cover Lin Yue's mouth.
Yao Xiao was pulled up in the middle of the night to save the snowman, and without much thought, he guessed what might have happened between the two. She said, "Mr. Ji, you just came in from outside, did you go to the morning exercise today?"
Ji Youyan breathed a sigh of relief and cooperated: "No, I went to the fourth floor to practice guitar for a while."
Jingxiu's hand holding the knife and fork paused imperceptibly.
Yao Xiao said in surprise: "Sister Ji, are you still practicing guitar and taking morning lessons? I thought you had given up completely."
Ji Youyan snorted: "No, I just picked it up recently, and I gave birth to a lot of hands. Sure enough, they are all skilled in diligence and play."
"It's okay, if the basic skills are solid, you will soon be back to normal." Yao Xiao comforted.
"If you have the chance, do you still want to sing?" Jingxiu asked suddenly.
Ji Youyan looked at Jingxiu in surprise, and Jingxiu looked at her quietly with a light expression. She couldn't figure out the meaning of Jingxiu's words for a while, so she dimmed her eyes and confided the sound of her heart: "I think."
How would you not want to. She couldn't forget how she learned to play the piano under her father's rule, how lonely she left home, and Jingxiu's tender attention every time she heard her play and sing. Music has given her countless pains, but it still makes her yearn for the happiness it brings her.
Even if she can no longer live off it, she still loves it.
Seemingly just asking casually, when Jingxiu heard the answer, she held her long eyelashes together, noncommittal, moved the knife and fork again, and cut off a small piece of sandwich.
Ji Yuyan didn't care either. She lowered her head and carefully divided the sandwich on her plate into small pieces that were easy to fork without leaking the sandwich, and pushed it to Jingxiu: "I'll help you."
Jingxiu's eyes twitched. After being silent for two seconds, she responded, "No need, thank you." After speaking, seeing Lin Yue's sympathetic little eyes with Ji Youyan, she put down her knife and fork, and said to Ji Youyan, "I'm almost full."
Ji Youyan regretted it, and worried that his diligence might not make Jingxiu eat well.
Yao Xiao soothed the atmosphere and said, "Mr. Ji, would you mind giving me two pieces? I look a little greedy."
"Sister Xiaoxiao, you told me last night that you wanted to lose weight." Lin Yue cooperated with the gag, shedding tears in her heart for Ji Youyan.
She finally knew why Sister Ji ordered the same sandwich as Teacher Jing for the first time in the morning. The atmosphere is too ambiguous, too strange, is there really a situation between these two? !
After Jingxiu got up and left, Ji Youyan asked Yao Xiao worriedly, "Is Mr. Jing really eating well?"
Yao Xiao raised his glasses and hesitated: "Maybe?" Sister Jing obviously didn't want to accept Teacher Ji's offer, and she didn't want to embarrass her.
She touched the things in her pocket, guessing that the two of them should be making progress. Afraid that Ji Youyan would misunderstand Jingxiu's thoughts, she changed the subject and said, "Mr. Ji, I'll give you something."
"Um?"
Yao Xiao took out an ointment and handed it to Ji Youyan: "Mr. Jing told me to bring it to you." She looked at Ji Youyan's red right hand, and explained, "It may be useful for preventing frostbite."
Ji Youyan smiled for a moment. She clenched the cold ointment tightly, as if she could touch Jingxiu's warm heart.
"Xiaoxiao, I ask you, does Teacher Jing have a schedule the day after tomorrow?" Ji You said anxiously.
Yao Xiao raised his eyebrows, and immediately guessed Ji Youyan's thoughts. The day after tomorrow is Jingxiu's lunar birthday.
Jingxiu's father is French, her mother is Chinese, and her mother has always given her a lunar birthday. But externally, Jingxiu has always had a birthday on the solar calendar. Therefore, after being with Ji Youyan, this day is a day for Ji Youyan and Jingxiu alone.
"After recording this afternoon, Mr. Jing, as the new ambassador of DX, will attend its press conference and will be back at noon the day after tomorrow." Yao Xiao gave Ji Youyan the green light.
Ji Youyan's eyes lit up, and he thanked Yao Xiao with a smirk.
Sure enough, as soon as the afternoon recording was over, Jingxiu left Lingzhou in a light car. After Jingxiu left, the restaurant belonged to Ji Youyan alone.
She searched for recipes on the Internet, and asked Lin Yue to go to the catering department to ask for ingredients the next day. She made three cakes a day, which were horribly charred from the beginning, and finally soft and delicious.
Lin Yue witnessed the whole process of her production, and couldn't help but question: "Sister Ji, didn't you always say that you are good at cooking?"
Ji Youyan touched the cream and said indifferently, "I am very good at cooking, but only for Chinese food."
Jingxiu used to love Chinese food very much. After she cooked for Jingxiu for the first time, she saw Jingxiu's cute and pleasant appearance, so she made up her mind to study Chinese food.
Lin Yue was dubious, Ji Youyan smeared a handful of cream on her face with feign anger, and Lin Yue suddenly screamed.
In the midst of laughter, Ji Youyan's eyes gradually became distant, and he missed and lost: "Teacher Jing is very good at Western food."
Lin Yue wiped her face with her hands, and stopped talking. Yesterday, the question that suspected Ji Youyan and Jingxiu had a situation came to his lips, but he did not dare to ask it rashly.
Ji Yuyan didn't notice it. She ordered, "Go and borrow a tripod from the camera for me."
"Sister Ji, what are you going to shoot?"
Ji Youyan smiled and said, "Tomorrow you will know, go ahead."
Lin Yue blinked ambiguously, and went away without saying anything. She thought that Ji Youyan just wanted to record a birthday wish for Jingxiu or something.
Unexpectedly, the next day, she knew what Ji Youyan recorded on the hot search.
At the zero o'clock of Jingxiu's birthday, Ji Youyan posted a Weibo!