My Feelings Can Wait

Chapter 46

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Ruan Ningwei was caught off guard and was stuffed with a mouthful of dog food, and her expression changed again and again. Originally, because Jingxiu had been poking at her sore spot, her heart felt like a huge boulder was pressing on her, and she panicked. But seeing Jingxiu's gentle expression when he mentioned Ji Youyan, she finally burst into laughter.

"Mr. Ji will be very happy if she hears it." She sighed in a low voice.

It is impossible for her and Lu Zishan to be together. Their fans' CPs can be together. I wonder if it is a dream come true.

Jingxiu seemed to have thought of something, smiled a little, and told Ruan Ningwei solemnly, "Don't tip off."

Ruan Ningwei was seen through her mind, her eyes dodged.

"It's not allowed to be included in the fanfiction." Jingxiu's ears turned a little red.

It was rare for Ruan Ningwei to see Jingxiu who was always so arrogant, so she couldn't help laughing softly.

Jingxiu's expression softened when she saw that she was a little more open. She snorted lightly, with a fair look: "I told you my little secret, shouldn't you tell me too?"

Ruan Ningwei was stunned, a little shaken, and a little hesitant.

"If you don't trust me, you can also talk to Tao. Give her a chance, and give yourself a chance, okay?" Jingxiu followed suit.

After she finished speaking, she was about to get up and ask Tao Xingruo to come in. Ruan Ningwei quickly grabbed the corner of her clothes and stopped her, "Mr. Jing, I believe you."

Jingxiu turned to look at her.

Ruan Ningwei looked confused and said softly, "If Mr. Tao doesn't like me, then I don't need to tell her; if Mr. Tao likes me, then I don't know how to tell her."

"She knows your past very well. She watched you and Lu Zishan go from falling in love to breaking up." Jingxiu sat down again.

"She doesn't care about your past, she only cares that you don't treat yourself well now and don't take life seriously."

"If your mother knew, she must hope that you can let yourself go and have a good life."

Like the last straw that broke the camel's back, Ruan Ningwei's eyes were wet again.

During the breakup period, she lost weight like a walking corpse. Despite the good cover, the mother found out. She said it was too tiring from work, and her mother persuaded her not to work too hard more than once, and even blamed herself for being useless for making her burden so heavy. After eating, she felt nauseous reflexively, and she burst into tears while hugging the toilet. When she came out, her mother's eyes were always red.

When she dyed her mother's hair, she felt sorry for her mother's premature aging, but her mother said that she was very content in her life. She said that she can watch herself grow up safely and live happily without resentment.

But can she still be happy? Can she really believe in fickle feelings again

Thinking of her mother's expectations, of Tao Xingruo's secret love over the years, and of her dedication during this time, Ruan Ningwei's throat hurt a little.

After a long time, she spoke.

"Mr. Jing, I can't get into the play when I face people."

Jingxiu's eyes suddenly lit up. As if afraid of scaring her, she tried her best to soften her voice and responded to Ruan Ningwei: "Well, I know."

"Mr. Jing, do you still remember the first play I played? I played it with Lu Zishan. In the play, I played a couple with her, and after the play, we became lovers because of the play. "

This is what Jingxiu knew, and Jingxiu nodded.

"She is cheerful, optimistic, gentle and considerate. I fell into it with all my heart. I hope that she and I can go on like this for a long time."

"But..." Ruan Ningwei was a little embarrassed: "After I surrendered my body and mind, she changed."

Jingxiu suddenly understood why Ruan Ningwei didn't know how to tell Tao Xingruo. She raised her hand and patted the back of Ruan Ningwei's hand to appease her.

Ruan Ningwei smiled bitterly, "She became more and more indifferent to me, more and more alienated. I endured it, thinking it was just a break-in period in love. But I still didn't wait for her to change her mind, she pushed me away."

"She said that the relationship between me and her was fake. She didn't really like me, and I didn't really like her either. Both she and I were just in the play, and we couldn't tell the difference between the play and reality, so we didn't really like her. would make such a wrong decision.”

"So, she came out, and I was the only one left in the play. She even used money to humiliate me and let me let her go and not pester me." She said calmly. Looking back, it was really annoying when I begged her not to break up.

She suddenly found that it was not so difficult to say it. Those pains seem like things from a previous life.

"For a long time, I doubted myself, I wondered if I really didn't love her as she said. I wondered if I just didn't play for a long time, and later, I Do you even doubt that I'm still me? Will I still be just playing the part in that show."

"Since then, I have never dared to act in front of people again. I am afraid that I will enter the drama again, that I will not be able to distinguish between drama and reality again, that I will fall in love with the people in the drama again, and that I will be self-indulgent again."

"I'm even more afraid of getting into more and more roles and turning into a monster that looks different." Ruan Ningwei said numbly with her snow-white neck down.

Jingxiu's heart sank. She wanted to scold Lu Zishan, but when she remembered Lu Zishan's frail figure and grief-stricken appearance, she had mixed feelings for a while.

"Ning Wei." Jingxiu called her seriously, "People will change with experience. Even if you change yourself a little because you played a certain role, that's normal."

"The life I experienced while acting is just an experience, it belongs to you - Ruan Ningwei's own experience, and it has nothing to do with the role."

Ruan Ningwei opened her eyes wide, digesting her words.

"Besides, you have never been out of play. Lu Zishan's role in the play is delicate and sensitive, while the one you love, Lu Zishan, is cheerful and optimistic. Your love is real and has nothing to do with the play."

Jingxiu pursed her lips and revealed, "It's true that Lu Zishan loves you."

She was rarely guilty of a thief, glanced at the door, and confirmed that Tao Xingruo had not heard her help Ruan Ningwei's ex to confess to Ruan Ningwei.

Ruan Ningwei's mind was buzzing for a while, not knowing what Jingxiu's words meant.

Jingxiu stood up and asked Ruan Ningwei, "Isn't it unbelievable?"

Ruan Ningwei was speechless.

"She's not doing very well either. If you want to know the answer, go to her and tell her about these knots. No matter what, it won't be worse than it is now, will it?"

She could guess that the knot was related to Lu Zishan, but she didn't know the exact point. But now that the heart knot has been found, it is time to prescribe the right medicine. Even if Ruan Ningwei didn't dare to go to Lu Zishan, they could go to Lu Zishan and let the other party take the initiative to solve it.

Ruan Ningwei grasped the point amid the chaos. She asked Jingxiu, "Do you know her?" Why, dare to say so firmly.

There was an unnatural flash in Jingxiu's eyes. She answered Ruan Ningwei calmly: "Because of you, I investigated her."

"..." Ruan Ningwei didn't know whether to be moved or embarrassed.

Jingxiu asked Ruan Ningwei, "Are you willing to let Tao know about these things?" She said everything she needed to say, and she should leave the rest to Tao Xingruo to perform.

Ruan Ningwei's clothes were twisted into twists, and she was in a mess. After a long while, she took a deep breath and made an inaudible "um".

Jingxiu felt relieved, and was sincerely happy for Tao Xingruo.

She succeeded and withdrew: "Then I'll call her in. Let's discuss whether or not to continue this game."

Ruan Ningwei nodded lightly.

Ji Yuyan in the studio. She was still putting on makeup when she heard Lin Yue whisper to her that she saw everyone in the work group talking about Lu Min's actions on Ruan Ningwei.

Ji Yuyan was furious. On the one hand, she consciously agreed to Tao Xingruo to help take care of Ruan Ningwei. Now that this kind of thing happened, she was not at the scene and was entrusted by Tao Xingruo; Such a censure, thinking of her suicide in her previous life, she was afraid that she could not bear it.

Sure enough, soon after she heard that Ruan Ningwei was going to retire, even from the entertainment industry.

But everyone was ready, just waiting for her to enter the studio to shoot, Ji Youyan couldn't get out. She forced herself to calm down, hoping to finish the work here soon.

In the interval of taking makeup photos and resting, Ji Youyan sent Ruan Ningwei a WeChat message, and the stone sinks into the sea. She estimated the end time, and instructed Lin Yue to change the ticket, regardless of the tiredness, she had to go back and forth between the two places on the same day.

As soon as the filming was over, Ji Yuyan rushed to the airport before he even had time to remove the heavy makeup on his face.

On the way, she called Chen Desheng. Chen Desheng said that he doesn't know what Ruan Ningwei's situation is now, and it is Teacher Jing who is enlightening Ruan Ningwei.

Hearing that Jingxiu was enlightening, Ji Youyan couldn't help but feel relieved. Even though Jingxiu had spoken harshly to Ruan Ningwei, she still believed that Jingxiu could appease Ruan Ningwei well.

After all, she knew that her Jingxiu was such a gentle person in her bones.

She tentatively sent Jingxiu a WeChat and asked her, "Is Ning Wei okay?"

Jingxiu quickly replied to her: "It's alright."

After a few seconds, Ji Youyan saw the dialog box showing that Jingxiu was typing. Jingxiu asked her, "Are you coming back?"

Ji Youyan had a slight smile in his eyes, and replied, "Well, on the way."

Jingxiu didn't respond. Ji Youyan was eager to see through, but the dialog box stopped moving at all. The screen went black, Ji Youyan rubbed his forehead, and scolded himself for being too long.

She looked out the window, and her vision dimmed as she watched the car drive into the tunnel.

"Sister Ji." Lin Yue called her.

"Huh?" Ji Youyan responded lazily.

"The notification light on your phone is flashing, is there any news?" Lin Yue asked enthusiastically. Of course, she saw that Ji Youyan was chatting with Jingxiu on WeChat just now, guessing that maybe Teacher Jing replied.

Ji Youyan's heart skipped a beat, he immediately turned his head, and turned on the screen in high spirits.

"It's all right here."

"It's snowing in Lingzhou." Jingxiu said.

Before Ji Youyan could understand what Jingxiu meant, the corners of his lips were already raised.

"Huh?" After thinking for a moment, she asked knowingly.

She guessed that Jingxiu might have asked her to wear thicker clothes? Like... Yesterday she made her wear a thicker nightgown.

This time, she patiently prepared to wait until Jingxiu returned to her, but Jingxiu returned unexpectedly in seconds.

"Not safe," she said succinctly.

Ji Youyan was stunned for a while, and the next moment he raised his eyebrows and smiled brightly.

Obviously in such a cold tone, Ji Youyan felt that these three words set off a turbulent heat flow, which followed her eyeballs and warmed down her limbs.

Not just hot, but… sweet.

I want to go back to see her.

Ji Youyan bowed her head and kissed Jingxiu's head, and changed her original intention to go back without morals.

The author has something to say: Lin Yue has no eyes to see: I would rather believe that the Yellow River has no water, and I do not believe that excellence has no legs!

Jingxiu looked at her.

Lin Yue panicked and changed her words: Two legs! Oh no, four legs.

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Ji Youyan looked at the scissor hands she unconsciously crossed: …